Yu Qiuping sat in front of the table in the cabin, pouring strong wine into his mouth all the time, which made him choke. The stove in the room was burned red by him, and it was so hot that he only wore autumn clothes. He was cold.
The wind carried snowflakes and blew in through the open window, causing severe pain in his head and a burning sensation in his throat. The sudden cold and hot made his body dizzy.
But if the body hurts, the pain in the heart can be alleviated, right?
He had just been drinking in the tavern for a long time. He had never drunk so much wine in his whole life. He didn't know that he could drink so much and still not get drunk. He bought five more bottles of spirits and carried them staggeringly.
He walked back to this cabin, this cabin that left countless beautiful memories. At this moment, he wanted to get completely drunk. When he was drunk, he wouldn't have to think about this sad reality, and at least he could have fun in his fantasy for a while.
Back to the time when the two were intimate; back to the time when she promised herself a home in the snow; back to the time when he kissed her for the first time; back to the time when she helped herself sew that shawl with every stitch;
Go back to the time when the two hugged each other behind the rockery; go back to the time when he confessed to her in front of the mountain of red leaves and promised to protect her for the rest of his life; go back to the time when she cried when he sang the poem to her; go back to her
After all the hardships, they rushed to Sanhe, just to wait for him to come back safely; to go back to the time when they were talking and laughing in the maple forest; to go back to the maple tree when they first met, and to go back to when they reached out their hands to touch each other at the same time.
The moment I touched that maple leaf.
Let time stop.
After spending more than a year stumbling in this world, he returned to the starting point. The girl who occupied his whole heart was about to get married. As a married woman, he might not be able to see him again in this life. Until this moment,
Only then did he understand how important the girl was in his heart. She had quietly occupied his whole heart. When she left, his heart was empty and nothing was left. Together with his soul, he supported him as he walked on.
The motivation was taken away together.
This is a beautiful yet cruel world. It was once so beautiful that he felt that the happiest things in the world had happened to him. God had given him such a beautiful girl, and the girl gave him a home.
When he is mentally displaced and exhausted, there is still a place he can go back to.
The world was so cruel, depriving her from him. All the beautiful memories turned into a tide of pain at this moment, hitting the dam in his heart. He couldn't even bear to think of her most beautiful smile.
She's gone and there's no place I can go back to.
He kept pouring wine into his mouth one after another, causing bouts of violent coughing. His consciousness was already a little blurry. There were three drained wine bottles on the table. Let me get drunk. It's best not to wake up again.
Come.
Suddenly, the door was pushed open violently.
Imagawa Kaede rushed in with tears in her eyes. As soon as she entered the door, she was choked by the strong smell of alcohol. She hurriedly closed the door behind her and saw the boy's face was red, smelling of alcohol, and he kept pouring wine one after another.
The decadent look.
He doesn't like drinking. He said so.
"Idiot! What are you doing!" Imagawa Kaede stepped forward angrily, tears in her eyes falling with the fierce movements. She snatched the wine bottle from Yu Qiuping's hand, threw it out the window, and threw the wine on the table.
He threw it out of the window and closed the window hard with a "bang" sound.
"What are you doing?" There was a hint of crying in the girl's voice.
Yu Qiuping turned his head in confusion, looking at the sadness in the girl's eyes, and suddenly his heart ached. He took a deep breath, tried to keep his tone steady, and said with force: "I'm fine." He hoped to let her.
Peace of mind.
When Imagawa Feng heard Yu Qiuping's reply, he was stunned for a moment, then laughed angrily and overturned the desk in front of Yu Qiuping. "You are fine, you are fine, you will never be fine!" Imagawa Feng just opened his mouth,
Crying escaped from her mouth, and the originally furious rebuke suddenly seemed to turn into a woman's plaintive cry, "Until now, you are still trying to be brave! You have to bear the pain alone! Why don't you tell me!
"
"You don't understand anything at all!" the girl yelled at the end, then her whole body seemed to lose all strength, and she fell weakly to the ground. She tried hard to suppress her voice and began to sob in a low voice.
Yu Qiuping's heart ached, and he hurriedly stepped forward to help the girl up. Imagawa Feng pushed Yu Qiuping away in anger, and said: "General, please pay attention to your behavior!"
Yu Qiuping was already drunk. He was pushed by Imagawa Feng and fell down. His head hit the leg of the overturned table. After a while, blood oozed slightly from his ears.
"Sorry, I'm rude." Yu Qiuping sighed, tears welling up in his eyes.
This sound seemed to poke the softest corner of the girl's heart, and her crying suddenly increased.
Why did I say such harsh words just now? Imagawa Kaede felt very regretful. I even hurt him, and he was already so sad. Why did I still have to lose my temper?
For a moment, the room became quiet, with only the sound of the girl sobbing and the boy gasping.
After a long time, Imagawa Feng suddenly raised his head and looked at Yu Qiuping with tearful eyes.
She suddenly smiled and called softly: "Ping."
This long-lost call suddenly made the young man's heart burst, and tears burst out. "Feng'er..." he called softly, a name he had only dared to say in his dreams for more than half a year.
"Do you still remember..." Imagawa Kaede stood up slowly, raised his head, looked at the ceiling, and whispered softly as if in a dream, recalling the past: "Is that the Japanese poem you sang to me?"
"The heart is like the red leaves staining the pavilion, and the autumn colors of Changpan are in harmony with the king's heart." Yu Qiuping also struggled to stand up unsteadily and said softly.
"Yeah." Imagawa Kaede nodded.
"Do you know...why I cried at that time?" Imagawa Feng said in a coquettish voice, and Yu Qiuping listened quietly. Although he didn't know why the girl who was so angry just now suddenly mentioned this matter, he was still willing to do so.
Listen to her voice for a while longer. It's like when they first met under the maple tree, the two of them shared the story of maple leaves.
"The heart is like a red leaf dyeing the divine pavilion."
"This is the Japanese hymn that Jiaji sang when he was under the maple tree and was moved by the scene." Imagawa Kaede thought of his mother, and there was a trace of sadness mixed with happiness on his face. "Jiayan happened to be passing by at that time, and he said this to me.
The second line is exactly that."
"The autumn colors of Changpan are in your heart." Yu Qiuping was stunned for a while and then continued.
"That's right..." Imagawa Kaede nodded, "So when Taira-kun actually sang the exact same waka, I suddenly felt... you might be the person I was destined for." Imagawa Kaede held back tears and said to
Yu Qiuping smiled.
"Then you... know the meaning of this waka?" Imagawa Feng looked at Yu Qiuping, who shook his head.
As she spoke, Imagawa Kaede's tears flowed down her face again, crystal clear.
"My heart is like a bloody red leaf, dyed red with the sacred pavilion where the soul takes refuge."
"I have been with autumn for a long time, just to fit in with its heart even for a moment."
"In order to be able to stay with Autumn for a while longer, Maple Leaf turned her blood into nutrients, dyed herself red, and tried to hold on. But!" Imagawa Kaede's voice suddenly increased, and her cry became more intense, "Maple Leaf can also cry, and it can also hurt.
."
"But she conceals everything in the beautiful red, and what she shows to others is always the beautiful red, not the pain. She doesn't want others, she doesn't want Qiu to worry about herself. She wants Qiu to feel like she is
You will never need comfort, and you will always be so red. Even when you are drifting, swaying helplessly in the wind, you still use red to pretend to be strong and beautiful."
"Hongye wants to bear all the pain alone, leaving only the most beautiful red color in autumn."
"Jiaji..." Imagawa Kaede's voice was slightly trembling, "Jiaji told me before he died that falling in love with someone is like being willing to turn into a red leaf for him. In front of him, he will only laugh and not cry.
, all the joys, sorrows and joys arise from him. I bear all the pain in love for him, and all that is left to him is beauty and happiness."
"Jiayan can only visit Jiaci a few times a year. How much does Jiaci miss him? But every time Jiayan comes," Imagawa Kaede hides his face and sobs, "Jiaci! Jiaci never complains or plays.
Instead of having a bad temper, he greeted Jia Yan with a smile. How much pain must be behind that smile?"
"Looking at Jia Ci, I felt that she was so pitiful. I vowed never to be like her. When I thought of her, I couldn't help crying. How painful it must be to be a red leaf like that! Whether it's me or
My sweetheart, I don’t want to make him suffer so much!” Imagawa Kaede sobbed, “Love should be about two people sharing each other’s pain! Opening up to each other, rather than being another person’s red leaf! You can only laugh,
Won’t cry!”
"I don't want Ping to bear so much pain alone; I don't want Ping to hide and show off on his own; I don't want you to separate from me just for the sake of my reputation and feelings, and not even have anyone to talk to when you're sad and painful; I don't want you to be separated from me just for the sake of my reputation and feelings.
Let Ping work hard to carry out those dangerous tasks, just so that he can be promoted to a high position and be able to marry me before I get married; I don't want Ping to let go of his own initiative, just so that I can marry a good family and be happy and peaceful!" Kaede Imagawa!
He shouted in a low voice, "I don't want this kind of love! I am willing to share your pain, I am willing to wait for you without getting married, and I am willing to bear the gossip for love. You break up and leave, thus isolating me from your pain,
I will be more painful and uncomfortable! Why don’t you understand! Why don’t you understand why I was so angry for so long after you proposed breaking up!”
"I want to be with you all my life and share everything with you!"
Yu Qiuping listened blankly to the girl's cries.
Suddenly, a figure rushed up and hugged Yu Qiuping. I felt her cold tears on my cheeks, and heard her crying and whispering in my ears: "I don't want Ping to turn into a red leaf!"
The young couple hugged each other for a long time and couldn't stop crying.
"I'm sorry..." Yu Qiuping said softly, "I have always been too self-righteous. I thought that my sacrifice could bring you happiness, so I didn't consider your feelings... I didn't consider what kind of love you want...
My self-righteous love is actually hurting you..."
In the Family Governor's Hall, I made a choice I regretted at that time.
I made the wrong choice.
To be continued...