Yu Qiu Shang fell heavily to the ground.
What fell to the ground together was that heart that refused to admit defeat. That heart once held the obsession that as long as it worked hard, it could be as good as everyone else.
Now it's broken.
Yu Qiu Shang slowly opened his eyes, and all he saw was the patterned ceiling. He was lying on the ground at the moment, with the empty sleeve of his right hand pressed under his body.
One round...I didn't even last one round.
The opponent is still such a kid.
Yu Qiu Shang couldn't believe it. What happened just now? He didn't dare to face what just happened.
I've embarrassed myself, I've embarrassed the Yuqiu family, I've embarrassed the Yuqiu family in front of so many people.
I'm a waste. Useless.
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The ridicule, sarcasm, and abuse in the dojo were so chaotic and noisy, but he could hear them all clearly.
"Wow! I couldn't hold on for even one round! This cripple is really capable!"
"Tch! After waiting for so long, and even finding the youngest child as my opponent, why can't I be eliminated in one round? If I had known this, it would be better to find a master to fight, and losing would not be so embarrassing!"
"Huh? Did someone go up there just now? I just rubbed my eyes. Why did it end?"
"I really don't know what His Highness Hongye is thinking, that he would choose such a cripple to be the young master! He and his brother are simply born the same!"
"That's right, Second Young Master Yuqiu has performed so well. How about you look at him again? He was born with a disability and is not suitable to be a warrior at all!"
"If I were Yuqiu Hongye, I would definitely appoint the second young master as the next family governor! Only a fool would appoint him!"
"I heard that he used to practice in the dojo all day every day. Why is he still so weak?"
"Being born without one hand, what's the use of trying harder? Waste is waste. From now on, he will have no face to see others."
Too embarrassed to see anyone.
Every word full of malice was like a sharp arrow, shooting holes in Yu Qiu Shang's heart. Humiliation, shame, self-blame, anger, unwillingness, and all kinds of emotions were rushing through Yu Qiu Shang's heart.
His mind was in chaos, and he stood up dully like a zombie, walking straight towards the exit of the dojo with dull eyes, not daring to look at the crowd or his father again, or to hear another word.
Seeing his brother's strange behavior, Yu Qiuyou hurriedly stood up from his seat, ran towards him, and grabbed his arm. However, Yu Qiu Shang, who had always been gentle since childhood, became angry with his brother for the first time. He
He shook off his brother's hand and walked out into the heavy snow without looking back.
Seeing this, Naoe Seigenmaru who was sitting there also hurriedly left his seat and ran out. However, Yu Qiuping and Imagawa Kaede in the stands had already walked down the stairs to a place after seeing Yu Qiu Shang's defeat.
Building, hurried towards the door.
"Brother Shang'er, wait a minute!" Naoe Seigenmaru, who was the first to arrive, grabbed Yu Qiu Shang's sleeve, "It's too cold outside, brother will freeze if he only wears a single coat!"
Yu Qiu Shang was about to get angry back when he saw the frightened and worried expression on Naoe Seigenmaru's face and the small cotton-padded jacket he was holding in his hand. The anger in his heart was gradually suppressed, and he took a few deep breaths.
Maru took the cotton-padded jacket in his hand and put it on.
At this moment, Yu Qiuping, Imagawa Feng and Yu Qiuyou also rushed over.
"Brother, brother! What's wrong with you!" Yu Qiuyou was hurt by Yu Qiu Shang just now. He was a little scared for a moment, and comforted him at a loss: "Victory and defeat are common things in military affairs. Brother, you don't have to..."
"Shut up!" Yu Qiu Shang saw Yu Qiu You coming, and the suppressed anger in his heart suddenly rose up, and he shouted sharply.
"Shang'er, you can't talk to your brother like that!" Imagawa Feng frowned when he saw Yu Qiu Shang scolding Yu Qiu You so rudely, and was about to scold him. However, Yu Qiu Shang, who had always been obedient, was no longer as obedient as before.
Like a child, he cursed loudly at his younger brother in the open snow like a barrage: "It's all your fault! It's all yours! If it weren't for you, how could I have been scolded so miserably? Everyone, mom and dad,
The elders at home and other people outside all compare me with you! They all think that I am useless and a waste, and they all think that you are better!"
"But why! Why on earth!" Yu Qiu Shang cursed loudly and unwillingly: "Ever since you were a child, you have always been so playful, and you just go to play after practicing for a while! I know that you have good talent, and others can learn a lot from it.
You only need to study for one hour! Okay, okay, I admit it! Then I will study for three hours. I will put in many times your efforts, and I think I will definitely not be worse than you! But what’s the result? I can’t even do yours.
You don’t even like the tail? Why? Why?”
Yu Qiuyou had never seen or even imagined that his brother would be so angry and have such deep resentment against him. He was so frightened that he could not speak for a while.
"Why? Haha..." Yu Qiu Shang asked why many times in a row, but he laughed angrily, grabbed his empty right sleeve with his left hand, and said loudly: "Because I was born without a right hand! Because I was born with
What a waste! Why am I the one missing one hand and not you! Why is that!"
"Mom, why on earth did you want to turn me into a waste? Why on earth?" Yu Qiu Shang then turned to Imagawa Feng and continued to roar in confusion, tears also flowing down Yu Qiu Shang's cheeks. "Why was I born without
Right hand? And why do you want to appoint a disabled person like me as the young master? How can I compare to my younger brother? If I am not the young master or the heir, I don’t need to be compared with my younger brother!"
Imagawa Feng couldn't say a word under Yu Qiu Shang's questioning. Tears burst out of his eyes, and he covered his face and cried. Yu Qiu Shang cried and shook his head, pulled off the red leaf pendant from his neck, and threw it heavily to
In the snowdrift.
"It's useless, it's useless. My life has been a failure from the beginning. No matter how much effort I put in, I can't write, read, practice swordsmanship, or sumo wrestling like normal people. No matter how much effort I put in, I can't become a
A qualified warrior has disappointed his parents."
Yu Qiu Shang shouted, her voice was hoarse from shouting, she couldn't speak anymore, she just kept crying.
"It's over, everything is over." He raised his head, looked at the flying snow and the endless night sky, and sighed helplessly. At such a young age, his voice was as cold as ice, and he said tremblingly: "My life... is over.
...It has been doomed from the moment I was born. I was born without a right hand, born to be worse than others, and born to be inferior to others. This is unfair. Why?"
The family of four just stood in the snow, watching the snowflakes flying under the moonlight and finally returning to the earth, silent. In the quiet night sky, you could vaguely hear the shouts of good cheers and Yu Qiu Shang from the dojo not far away.
and Imagawa Kaede’s sobs.
After a long time, Yu Qiuping bent down, picked up the pendant that Yu Qiu Shang had thrown into the snow, and broke the silence.
"Shang'er, let me walk with you. Feng'er, you take You'er back."
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Yu Qiuping and Yu Qiu Shang walked side by side on the street, heading towards a high mountain outside the city. Yu Qiuping did not hold Yu Qiu Shang's hand as usual, but put his arm around his shoulders like an adult.
The night gradually deepened, and Yu Qiu Shang followed Yu Qiuping silently. He didn't know where his father was taking him, and he didn't know why Yu Qiuping was silent. But just walking slowly with his father like this, he felt
My restless heart is slowly returning to calm, and the anger in my heart is gradually subsided.
I don’t know how long I’ve been walking, but the woods on the mountains are getting denser and denser. There are two rows of footprints, one large and one small, on the mountain road covered with thick snow.
Just as Yu Qiu Shang was slowly moving forward with one foot deep and one foot shallow, Yu Qiuping suddenly spoke, breaking the silence.
"It feels very unfair, doesn't it, Shang'er?" he asked in a low voice.
Yu Qiu Shang was stunned when he heard this and said nothing. He just nodded silently. Although Yu Qiu Ping, who was walking beside him, did not look back, he seemed to have understood his answer.
"Do you feel that your life is particularly unfair? You were born with one hand less than others, and no matter how hard you try, you are still not as good as others? Your life will never be as good as others." Yu Qiuping spoke softly again.
This time, Yu Qiu Shang also answered softly, "Yes."
"Do you feel that if you can have a right hand, maybe your life will be completely different? You don't have to work so hard and you can have a life that is not inferior to others."
"That's right." Yu Qiu Shang nodded vigorously, "That's why I feel so unfair. Why is my life destined to be less good than others' from the very beginning!"
"Shang'er, you are wrong." Yu Qiu Shang heard his father's gentle voice, "There is no good or bad in life, and there is no comparison. There never has been."
"What did father mean by this?" Yu Qiu Shang was stunned when he heard the words, and asked in confusion: "But I don't have a right hand, and I can't compare with others no matter how hard I try. Isn't my life just inferior to others?"
"No. Because your life is yours and your unique journey. Everyone's life is different and only happens once, so there is no way to compare."
His father turned his back to him, facing the starry sky and heavy snow, and spoke softly.
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"When you are learning to write, the teacher will tell you which character is written well and which character is not well written, and will let you compare. When you are practicing martial arts, the teacher will tell you which posture is good and which posture is bad.
I’ll let you compare.”
Yu Qiuping turned around and chuckled: "The reason why we need to compare is because you have another chance. So we need to use comparison to distinguish the good from the bad, so that you can make better choices next time."
Yu Qiu Shang nodded in understanding but did not respond.
"But life is different." Yu Qiuping turned back and looked at the endless and distant starry sky. "Everyone's life is only once, and it is composed of countless life events. Between each event, perhaps, we can distinguish
Good or bad, but taken together as a whole, it is a unique life. Life cannot be repeated, so it is impossible to compare. Even if you know through comparison that having a right hand is better than not having one, you have no chance to repeat a life.
Opportunity."
"But they do have a better life than me. They don't work as hard as me, but they are better than me!" Yu Qiu Shang seemed to disagree with his father's theory and retorted in a low voice.
Chapter completed!