"It's hard for me to fall in love with someone else except you."

When Li Xin said this, heavy rain was still drizzling, and thick dark clouds covered the moon outside, making it dark.

The curtains had been pulled up, and the room was dark, with no wind and rain, no lights, only Li Xin's rapid breathing.

Her two big eyes were like two bright black gems, and a dazzling light radiated from the darkness - the light in her eyes was too bright, so bright that I didn't dare to look at her eyes.

In just eleven words, Li Xin said it very seriously, as if he had never said a word so seriously.

After saying that, she stood in front of me and looked at me with her eyes curled up, waiting for my answer.

I sighed softly.

It was finally here.

From childhood to adulthood, Li Xin has been a person who cannot hide secrets.

When she was a child, she caught a cicada, and the first person she shared was me.

She has money in her pocket, and the first person she shares is me.

She wanted to play games with me, and the first person she told me was still me.

When she grew up, she finally understood that girls should have their own little secrets.

So, she hid a little secret in her heart.

She has kept this little secret for many years.

I don’t know when Li Xin started to like me, maybe in elementary school, junior high school, or - it was high school.

But I know that this little secret has been hidden in her heart for a long time.

She was like a frightened kitten and didn't dare tell me this secret.

She was afraid that once this secret was told, it would scare me, and then the relationship between brother and sister would become a burden.

We will be embarrassed, and to avoid embarrassment, we will reduce the number of times we meet.

Then, we are like two intersecting parallel lines, gradually moving away.

Finally, we will become strangers.

So, she chose to accompany her.

Even though I had done something that I was sorry for her, she still chose to forgive and accompany me as my sister.

She witnessed the ups and downs of my journey. I had a partner. She said congratulations on the surface, but her heart was bitter.

She waited for me to break up and stayed together again and again. When the women around me came one by one, one by one, one by one, she was still waiting for me on the spot.

Now, she finally told the little secret in her heart unscrupulously.

After saying that, Li Xin's breathing became even more rapid, just like a carp that had gone ashore, constantly breathing due to lack of oxygen.

Her body began to shake. The window was clearly closed, but she still felt very cold.

Is this a confession?

That's right.

Even though I knew I would refuse, I still had to say it out.

At least - it will be better to say it.

But after saying it, Li Xin felt guilty again.

Why say it out?

We are brothers and sisters, we are relatives.

How can there be love between relatives?

That kind of love is not blessed - in ancient times, it was to be soaked in a pig's cage.

Why?

Do you still want to say it?

Isn't this causing trouble for my brother?

Li Xin's heart was very confused and ugly.

She looked at me in dismay, as if I had made a mistake when I was a child and wanted to teach her a lesson. She stood in front of me obediently and defended herself: "I know I am selfish when I do this - we are brothers and sisters, how can I like you? But I just can't help it. I've been holding it in for too long, so I must say it out, and if I don't say it out, I will feel uncomfortable."

"I had already said this in the New Year, but you refused. I was very angry at that time and was still blaming you - why did you reject me? Am I not worthy of you? But I understand, it's because I'm not good, it's because I'm unreasonable, I'm sorry - I'm really sorry -" Li Xin kept bowing to me and apologizing, while apologizing, her tears fell like beads with broken threads, and her voice was also crying: "Lost love will make people grow up, but I have never fallen in love with it at all. It's all my unrequited love, but I still feel so sad. When you rejected me the first time, I ran away. I knew I couldn't continue like this. You have become a problem in my heart. I want to solve this problem - so I ran away, I want to forget you, but it's useless. It's really troublesome to you-"

"It's not like this..." I wanted to make a statement.

"Brother, you know me, and I understand you too." Li Xin interrupted me without hesitation: "You don't want me to be embarrassed, so you reject me. What you refuse is always very tactful, that is to avoid embarrassment between us - at least we can still be brothers and sisters, and there is no barrier in our hearts."

"I have never been in love, I don't know how to chase you." Li Xin's eyes were a little red, and she felt tears in her eyes, so she quickly wiped it with the back of her hand.

However, no matter how hard she wiped her tears, she still shed tears. She looked at me and smiled reluctantly: "I'm sorry, I like to cry since I was a child. I like to cry when I encounter anything. I like to cry when I am happy, and I like to cry when I am sad."

"Li Xin--" Seeing Li Xin like this, my heart was as if it were a knife.

The emotional backlog is like a volcano. As long as it overflows, it will explode. Now, all the emotions buried in Li Xinshen’s heart have exploded.

It's like a flood of beasts. I want to hide, but I can't hide, nor can I hide.

"Listen to me to finish my words."

Li Xin said in a trembling voice: "Although many people praise me for being smart, only I know that I am actually very stupid and can't do anything well. For example, when running in physical education class, I am always the last place. No matter when, I run very slowly."

"And you run very fast. No matter how hard I run, I can't catch up with you. There is only one shadow in my eyes. The more I run, the further you will be from me."

"You rejected me with a sibling relationship, but we have no blood relationship at all. I am just an orphan picked up by your father, a child that no one wants. You rejected me with age, and I said it's okay, I can grow up, I'm going to college soon. Am I not an adult yet? By then, no one will care about our age."

"But I have no time. I don't know which one will come tomorrow or accident. I will soon be unable to catch up with you. So when I can still see your shadow, I want to say what I think in my heart. If you promise me, don't talk, kiss me warmly, and give me a hug. If you don't agree-"

Li Xin's voice was choked, and she couldn't continue crying.

After his emotions stabilized a little, he continued: "Then leave me and never meet me. I don't want to be brothers and sisters with you. I want to be strangers with you, strangers who will never meet in my life!"

My face was extremely embarrassed.

I don't know if I should reject her.

She was simply like a child who had just learned to learn to walk, stumbled into my heart.

She ran very slowly, and I ran very fast.

She wanted to get close to herself again and again, but fell to the ground again and again.

He was covered in scars, but he still refused to give up.

Stubbornness makes people touched, and stubborn makes people feel distressed.

But can we really be together?

"Li Xin, I'm sorry-" I was silent for a long time, and my voice was hoarse.

As soon as these three words came out, Li Xin's eyes were dull and he looked at me empty.

After a while, she smiled and wiped the tears in her eyes with her hands, but no matter how she wiped them, she couldn't finish them, and instead she became more and more.

"I know it will be the result." Li Xin smiled and said to me: "I have grown up, so I understand you. I have caused you a lot of trouble. You rescued me. No one from the Song and Shen families will let you go, and even my father will not let you go. You have always been protecting me. Now, I want to protect you, but I am useless and I can't protect you."

"I hate you very much in the past, but after I leave you, I don't hate you anymore. I tell you, I want to leave you, I can't hide behind you forever. I often say to myself again and again - Li Xin, you must be strong, I have always been alone during the period when you are not here."

"Eat alone, sleep alone, study alone, stay alone. Later, I gradually realized that if I leave you, I am not me, I should be protected by you, and I will be protected for the rest of my life. I have thought about how the days of leaving your protection will be like. When the Su family's puppets, they will marry me to a man they don't like, and then exchange for benefits. If I dare to resist, they will torture me and even kill me."

"It's not that I have thought about suicide. I've cut my wrists and hunger strikes, but every time I want to die, I think of you. I think, if my brother knew that I was dead, how sad it would be? Then I came back to life." Li Xin looked at me crying and said, "I'm not living alone, I'm living for you. If you don't belong to me in the future, what's the point of my life?"

"I am not such a shameless woman. I know the answers to some questions once. I will not disturb you. If you have your love, I will bless you."

"Thank you-" My nose felt sore and I bowed to Li Xin and thanked me.

"This is the final retention and the last attempt. Li Hao, put aside your identity as my brother, you answer me a question seriously-" Li Xin took a step forward, looked at me seriously, and asked, "Have you ever liked me?"

“…”

"If possible, I'm thinking, it's good for us to live together - we don't have to get married, I don't need a marriage certificate, I don't want anything, I just want you around and let me not eat alone, sleep alone, read books alone, go shopping alone, but two people."

"Li Xin--" I shouted her name hoarsely.

I really want to hug her and promise to agree that we will live together in the future and live a dull life of three meals and four meals a day.

I dare not.

I had fine beads of sweat on my forehead, and my legs were filled with lead, trembling violently.

This is the hardest question I have ever encountered in my life—nothing.

Li Xin also looked at me nervously.

Gradually, she smiled.

"You dare to be enemies with the entire Song family and rescue me from the wedding. You must like me, right?"

“…”

I'm still silent.

Time passes minute by minute.

Sometimes, silence is the best answer.

Suddenly, Li Xin hugged me tightly, stood on tiptoe, and kissed my chapped lips with gentle lips.

for a long time.

Li Xin pushed me away panting, looked at me with tears and said, "Brother, I know your answer. Thank you for your company over the years. This time it's true - goodbye."

After saying that, Li Xin quickly opened the door and ran out.

The heavy rain was still there, but Li Xin ran away.

I was still standing stupidly, watching the heavy rain pouring.

Every hug, try to hold it tighter, because no one knows whether this will be the last hug.
Chapter completed!