Chapter 73 Past and Future(1/2)
The sky with stars shining like a dream.
The pain in my body has calmed down a lot, and finally allowed me to recover my consciousness.
It may also be because of a threat around you.
I don't know when it started, the bright red knight stood beside me lying down.
"I didn't expect you to do this level, Shirou Emiya--!"
Archer's calm voice did not fluctuate at all. After suffering many unpleasant battles, the knight's will became more and more firm, and his eyes were staring at me.
The light was too dazzling, and I couldn't help but subconsciously lift my right hand and blocked my forehead.
"archer, why are you here, Iriya?"
The red knight raised his head, and starry lights lit up in the blue sky, and its light shone with the eyes of the knight on the battlefield.
"She's safe-"
The silver-white starlight changed, like the unpredictable fate of the two people on the battlefield.
"You should be the one who is dangerous, right?"
Archer's voice was surprisingly stable, unwavering determination, and hard and coldness as hard as iron were all destroyed in this calm language, explaining the dilemma I was facing.
"Lost Saber, even if you kill Heckles' last life alone, your body is close to the end. Now, anyone can take your life."
"So you're going to kill me, right archer—"
I couldn't help but smile bitterly and glanced at the knight looking into the distance.
“—”
Archer laughed silently, his eyes falling on my scarred body.
"We are really self-aware of each other. Even if we have been on the same front, we have never ignored the essence of incompatibility between you and me."
Born incompatible -
Probably so.
Why exactly?
The power he possesses is more like a dull and ordinary man, who has mastered the power to save others through his daily practice. In that state, this is exactly what I long for and the most suitable force for myself.
When everyone had no choice, he was determined to block Hercules, who had the Twelve Trials alone.
When Tosaka and I broke into Liudong Temple, he alone broke the caster's magic array.
No matter how hard I try, my weak self cannot help others.
And he can always stand in front of everyone with the most reliable posture.
The pure and gorgeous sword dance does not contain any fear, nor does it struggle as embarrassingly as me. Archer's sword completely fascinated my consciousness.
I want to have his power and protect everyone like him.
"Emiya Shirou, you can't save anyone."
But his back, who stood in front, told me this.
Just a partner, this hypocritical belief will only cause tragedy.
A huge red shadow enveloped me.
With my ideal posture, he denied all my struggles.
Therefore, each other cannot tolerate each other.
And I also understood the reason from a certain idea.
"Will my beliefs eventually make you tragedy? It's a ridiculous ending."
"It seems that you have also known a lot of things. I am a little curious. Are you the young Shirou Emiya or another archer ten years ago?"
Facing me, who was no longer able to resist, Archer restrained all his previous hostility and asked curiously.
"A archer ten years ago?"
Memories are rotating awkwardly, and incomplete images appear in my mind.
"Ten years ago, another I appeared in the previous Holy Grail War as a berserker. After being defeated, I was attracted by your soul and lurked in your body, so you can make progress so quickly in this war. Why did that archer respond to the summons of the Holy Grail?"
The black sun emerges in memory.
Why did I come back so hard?
The small figure holding the holy sword high ignited a golden light in the darkness.
I want-
Like fate, the silver-white armor shone brightly in front of my eyes, and the girl's holy green pupils looked down at me, saying words that had been repeated in my heart many times.
"Servantsaber followed the call, are you my master?"
It is a beautiful figure that cannot be forgotten even if you struggle in hell.
Yes, how many hell have I experienced? I repeated the killing over and over again, lost in the lonely battlefield, and never found the direction to go home.
I want to start over, I want to go back to the past.
The Holy Grail heard my desire, and I went back to the past and relived the moment I met Saber.
At the same time, I also experienced a more sinister Holy Grail War again. I tried to swing my sword to protect everyone, but let Saber die to protect me.
What wishes do I have when I appear here like a walking corpse?
"My wish is probably over, archer."
"You have exhausted your hard work and walked to this point with scars. Do you just want to say this? I repeated my life once, but I gave up on myself!"
Archer's voice became cold.
"You know what you will lose, you know what fate you will face, and as long as you are still alive, you still have the opportunity to change it."
The smell of blood floated out of Archer. It was the smell of blood after experiencing countless battlefields and killing many evil people in the name of justice. It was the bloody storm I will survive in the future.
Strangely, I felt that I no longer felt disgusted by it, but instead had a vague desire to impose it on the person who hurt Saber.
I want to take revenge.
"Is there an endless killing-"
I couldn't help laughing.
"It is a sad reality that people cannot be seen being hurt. They want to protect everyone, but they have to use their swords to kill those who hurt others.
"But what to do? I have lost even the person I want to protect. How could I put down my weapons and spend this life in an ordinary way?"
"Saving everyone is a dream that can never be realized, but at least we must save the person who is most important to me. Now that I cannot even realize this dream, why do I still hate killing, rather than letting those who hurt others pay the price-?!!"
"Revenge? Kill for protecting people, killing for losing the ones you want to protect. I didn't expect Shirou Emiya to become so ugly, but instead made me determined!"
Archer illuminated the white short blade and said coldly.
"Instead of falling into the Asura path for hatred, let me end your life here."
I struggled to sit down against the blade of the archer.
"Is my death sentence just so sentenced? But can you tell me before you die, what is your wish and my future?"
The bright red knight archer, also known as the Hei Ling Ueda from the future, answered.
"My friend, I did realize that wish, but you should also remember that future."
His cold tone was permeated with hatred and ridicule.
"That hero is not a person who protects humanity, he is just a mere cleaner."
“Responding to the expectations of the world and eliminating all disasters that endanger the world is essentially just a constant killing.”
"Kill, kill, kill all. In order to implement my ideals, I killed many people, and killed so much that even the lives of innocent people are no longer important. I saved thousands of times the lives of the people I killed."
"I don't know how many times something like that has been repeated. I will fight countless times as long as someone needs it. As long as I know where there is a dispute, I will bet on my life to fight. Time and again, until I don't know how many times."
"If you want to save anything, something that cannot be saved will appear. No matter how many battles I end, new battles will appear. As long as there is that kind of thing, the righteous partner will only exist forever."
"—This is my wish, a battlefield that never ends."
"The future of Shiro Emiya should not be this ending."
The knight confessed to his past self in this way.
"So you're going to kill me and change this future."
"Even if you repeat the fate of Shiro Emiya and still put yourself in a repeated battle, you and I have not changed Shiro Emiya's future, so we only have the last method."
"That's to let me die before I become a hero."
How should I ridicule this ridiculous future and a sad fate?
"I originally thought that way, but after so many battles, my beliefs are no longer as simple as before."
Archer also showed a sarcastic smile on his face, and his expressions were so similar.
To be continued...