"Remember one thing that will be your lifelong challenge to yourself, and see if you can defeat yourself." Yu Qiuhei walked to the door, Yoshimoto Imakawa suddenly said.
Yu Qiuping turned around and listened. That sentence was imprinted into the mind of the boy and accompanied him throughout his entire life.
“Make a choice without regrets.”
Yu Qiuping was stunned for a moment, blinked suddenly, and his eyes slowly focused in front of him again. The drizzle was still falling. What happened just now? Why did he suddenly think of what he said to him before the home supervisor hall.
Do you make a choice without regrets? This sentence subconsciously emerged in your mind.
Yu Qiuping tightened the pendant on his chest and carefully protected the greeting card in his arms to prevent it from being wet by the rain.
"Do I regret it?" Yu Qiuping raised his head blankly and looked at the dim sky.
Not long ago, I had a couple who loved me and had a wonderful love. Now, because of this choice, nothing is gone.
But, do you really have to selfishly pay for the future of Imagawa Kaede for your love? Let her exhaust her youth and wait for Yu Qiuping, who may not be able to wait for? She will have to bear countless rumors and family pressure. Let’s not talk about whether Imagawa Yoshimoto would agree to his daughter’s recklessness. Even if he really agrees, what should Imagawa Kaede do if he fails to climb to a high position?
The young master is right, that is too selfish.
Isn’t it just that you should bear the pain for her?
Yu Qiuping sighed and tried to stand up straight. I am a man, so I should bear all this for her. Let her be more relaxed and she can gain a happy future no matter who she married in the end.
And I will work hard until one day I can get a status worthy of her. Although, she might have been married at that time, this will be a better result for her, right?
Feng'er, I will use my life to protect your happiness, no matter whether the people around you are me or not, letting go means loving you.
I don't regret my choice.
Yu Qiuping looked at Tianshou Pavilion for the last time. The windows were closed in the direction of Imakawa Kaede's boudoir, and she did not look at herself again. He sighed and left the garden. He held the gift that he could not give out and the "Happy Birthday" that he could not say.
He didn't know that in his own room, the window was slightly opened. A girl couldn't stop crying as she watched him drift away.
Back in the territory, Yu Qiuping was like a different person. He was no longer the boy who talked and laughed on weekdays, but became a serious workaholic who was devoted to his work.
Whether it is the formulation and improvement of military law or daily training, he did it himself. As for the training of cavalry, although Yu Qiuhei invited a coach from Asahitaehyung to help with training, he still required the cavalry to conduct standing posture training, three-sided turning methods and other trainings, as well as infantry. He even required the cavalry to line up in a horizontal and vertical square formation, and to march neatly like infantry. Once the square formation is not neat enough, the rider will have to do push-ups.
After training, all the cavalry went to settle the score with Mimaezaki Nakahide, because it was the latter who made fun of Yu Qiuping when he was thinking about how to train cavalry: "Adults can only practice infantry, so there is no way to use cavalry!" As a result, Yu Qiuping's bad intentions were touched. Without saying much, the latter used the method of training infantry to train cavalry.
In life, Yu Qiuping's only part that is somewhat similar to Yu Qiuping in the past is that he restored the tradition of folding red leaves, and every night he would orchestrate red leaves by the oil lamp. The folded red leaves were given to more than fifty new recruits who were training. The excess was burned on the flames of the oil lamp after folding them.
"What's wrong with this sir?" Fukushima Ansei and his group had asked Naoe Tadaehei privately. Although everyone had guessed some clues, it was not easy to confirm.
"Don't ask, sir, are annoyed." Naoe Tadaehiro shook his head, "We can't help much."
"You kid, aren't you willing to wear red leaves?" Mimaezaki Nakahide saw Honta Nosuke who was following Naoe Tadae and teased him, "Are you moved when you see our Takababaki so powerful?"
"I'm the samurai family's samurai family." Honta Kumnosuke said seriously.
"Is that so? Then I'm very proud when I see you holding up the adult's horse seal!" Mimaezaki Nakahide's tone became sarcastic again, "I lifted it straight and didn't shake it!"
"That is my duty, to be loyal to the temporary master!" Honta Guonosuke turned red and he growled in a low voice.
"Zhaoxiu, don't sarcastic others all day long." Fukushima Ansei patted the adults on the shoulder, "Go back to train quickly and don't cause trouble for the adults."
On April 12, Semine Shishi sent a messenger to Yuqiu-hei's territory and asked him to go back to Jun Mansion to help him handle the matters in the spring accounting.
On the way back to Jun Mansion, Yu Qiuping felt mixed feelings. She was a little expectant and happy, hoping to have the opportunity to see Imagawa again. But she was full of sadness and worry, for fear that Imagawa would ignore her coldly.
When he stepped into the Imakawa family's mansion again, waves of sadness slapped his heart like a wave. The beautiful garden was completely colored at this moment. Many places where the two of them had beautiful memories - the rockery, the open space for snowball fights, and the fitting room. Yu Qiuhei didn't even dare to approach it at this moment. He walked straight to the Tianshou Pavilion and walked along the stairs to the fourth floor, Semeshi Shishi's office.
When he reached the corner of the third floor, Yu Qiuping suddenly trembled in his heart. He stopped like a devil and raised his head. A moment later, the girl who was obsessed with her was also alone and was going downstairs. The two still met at the corner of the third floor. It seemed like they had met dozens of days ago.
Yu Qiuping was stunned for a moment, his eyes were somewhat expectant, but he looked at Imakawa Kaede. The latter lowered his eyelids and walked by him silently, as if the two had never met each other. This time, it was really as if the two had never met each other.
The boy's sudden choking sound made Imagawa Kaede feel a sharp pain. In particular, she also heard that the boy was trying to suppress the choking sound and prevent her from hearing it. She almost couldn't help but want to look back at him.
Yu Qiupi listened to the sound of Imakawa's footsteps slowly moving away, raised his head and looked at the ceiling, trying not to let tears flow out.
The sweetness and warmth, playfulness and cuteness of the past are gone forever. Only the cold faces are left. If I had known this, it would have been better to let time stay forever in the autumn of last year. When the maple leaves filled the mountains, the day when the two met - at least that day, they could still see the girl's smile.
Yu Qiuping went upstairs step by step, but did not notice that the girl's footsteps had already come to an abrupt end.
At the corner of the stairs on the second floor, Imakawa Kaede leaned against the wall, silently listening to the boy's heavy footsteps, which was completely different from the light and joyful footsteps of the past. How much she missed the boy, who smiled very brightly. But he didn't understand anything, and he still didn't understand her thoughts and the meaning of the song.
After Yuqiehei and Semine Shin-se completed a series of accounts, Yuqiehei was about to say goodbye and return to the territory.
"I often need your help these days." Semine Shin-sama said, "It's better to live in Tianshou, so as to avoid running around."
Yu Qiuping hesitated for a moment and agreed. "I'm going out for dinner and I'll come back later."
Yu Qiuping had just left the room a few steps, and through the corridor, he saw Imakawa Kaede who was wandering on the third floor. Yu Qiuping quietly leaned against the railing and stared at her from afar, but the latter did not show herself. Yu Qiuping enjoyed such time and could wait for the girl without embarrassment and sadness. Seeing that the girl's face was full of worries, Yu Qiuping suddenly felt some unreasonable comfort in her heart. Perhaps, she cared about herself.
Suddenly, Imakawa Kaede suddenly felt a little throbbing in her heart. She looked up blankly and saw Yu Qiuping lying on the fence staring at her. The two of them met and looked at each other for a moment, then hurriedly looked away. Both of them felt ache in their hearts, and they couldn't help but look back and look away again.
Just as Yu Qiuping was about to leave in embarrassment, he suddenly heard a burst of urgent footsteps from the third floor. He hurriedly looked down and saw that it was Okabe Masatozuka and the several servants behind him.
A few steps away, Okabe Masatobu bowed and bowed loudly and said, "I've seen Your Highness the Princess!"
"You are polite, Lord Okabe." Imakawa Kaede was stunned for a moment, his eyes were circulating, and he quickly looked at Yu Qiuping.
"A few days ago, I wonder if your highness is satisfied with the birthday gift I gave to His Highness the Princess?" Okabe Masato stood up and asked. Although he used questions, he was full of show-offs.
Yu Qiuping was stunned for a moment, feeling sour and disgusted, and her face was buried in the shadows. The gift he had prepared for so long, but could not be given, was not as good as Masato Okabe.
Imakawa Kaede saw Yu Qiuping's loneliness in Yu Guangzhong, and felt uncomfortable, but she still had to hold up a smile and thanked him: "The hairpin is very beautiful, thank you Lord Okabe." After that, she was about to turn around and leave.
"Why don't you see the princess wearing it?" Okabe Masatogao entangled him and continued to ask, "The maple leaf on your highness's head is no better than the hairpin on the top."
Upon hearing this, Yu Qiuping looked at Imakawa Kaede. She did have a hairpin on her head, and at the end of the hairpin, wearing a red paper leaf folded by Yu Qiuping. "When did she insert it on the hairpin... I haven't seen her pass through like this before."
Imagawa Kaede felt ache and quietly glanced at Yu Qiuping upstairs. However, due to etiquette, she could only say: "My lord's hairpin is indeed very beautiful." She couldn't help feeling uncomfortable after she had already said that. This sentence should hurt Yu Qiuping's heart.
Yes, how could this paper red leaf be like the precious hairpin given by Masato Okabe? Yu Qiuping was sad and sighed.
Yu Qiuping, what are you thinking! Yu Qiuping shouted at himself in his heart. He had already decided to let go, so why do you still think about these things?
In fact, as the second son of the Okabe family, Okabe Masatoki is also of the right age, so he is the most suitable marriage partner for Imakawa Kaede. The family governor hall must have considered this way.
Yu Qiuping's expression became dark again, and he turned around and was about to leave.
When Imagawa Kaede saw Yu Qiuping's sad expression, he felt the softest corner of his heart suddenly collapse. She almost blurted out his name and told him that the red paper leaves he folded with his own hands were much more beautiful than the hairpin bought by these rich young men. But he couldn't say it out loud.
In the following days, every encounter was a torture for Yu Qiuping and Imakawa Kaede. Although the two hearts were so close, they could only be like strangers.
Every night, the girl would appear in her dreams, and she was still his sweet lover. The two could snuggle up to each other and talk love words, play snowball fights together, and watch red leaves together. So much so that when he woke up every morning, he was in so much pain that he wished he would never wake up.
This feeling can be remembered, but it was already lost at that time.
Chapter completed!