That was no longer a feeling that could be called pain. Once upon a time, Cheese thought about what was the most painful thing in the world, and what could cause such pain. He also asked about this question when he was in Gray City.

There are many people in the tower, but most of them just regard it as casual conversation.

Zi, what they said was more about worry than pain. Among the many respondents, only two people’s answers impressed the cheese the most. One of them was the sleeper. She told the cheese at the time that she was unconscious.

The most terrifying thing; the second one is Alina. She said that the fire burning from within is the greatest pain.

The mage did not doubt the words of these two people, because what they said was their personal experience. As a spell caster who specializes in dreams, sleepers have been in sleep for a long time, and sleep is a means of recovery for most people.

Not for her. Therefore, she has more ideas about sleep

, she always said that although her biological age was almost a few years older than Cheese, she actually lived far less time than Cheese. That meant that when she was sleeping for a long time for the sleep magic, she could not

She is always dreaming, and the time when there is no dreaming seems to her like it does not exist.

Nothingness is indeed a terrible thing. Cheese himself feels this way, and as he grows older, this feeling becomes stronger and stronger. Sometimes he wakes up from bed and suddenly feels a sense of loss when looking at the things in front of him. That

He is confused about what he has done since birth, and he doesn't know whether his actions have real meaning. Although wizards always say that mortals will put their lives on the line.

Their lives are wasted on meaningless matters, but how can they deny that their lives have not been wasted? Which is more real, the truth that cannot be sought or the house that a farmer has spent decades buying? Will one day, when

When the wizard found the truth, he realized that he just spent more effort to buy a bigger house. So what should he do with the time he spent?

This is a problem that sleepers cannot escape, and cheese is trying to escape. As for how to escape, the mage chooses to deliberately fill his time with thinking so that he does not have to face this problem. In addition to the problems caused by this nothingness

Pain, Alina's answer may be closer to what the mage said

The answer to the question he really wanted to ask. And Cheese also believed that Alina, who treated him like a mother, must have passed on to him the worst experience in her long life as a vampire. Because in some casual chats, Alina

She told Cheese that she had wanted to understand herself many times.

As a vampire of Alina's level, it is difficult to deal with ordinary vampires. Even the scorching sun at noon can only burn her into a scorched corpse. When the sun deflects, her insides will glow with life again.

.It’s just that although An Lina wanted to kill herself many times, she didn’t have the hobby of suffering. She stopped trying many suicide methods after trying them once. The reason was

It was too painful, and the thing that brought her closest to death, and the thing that made her the most unwilling to try again, was drinking pure water. The so-called pure water did not refer to holy water in the conventional religious sense. Alina only told Cheese

However, it was the most powerful poison for all vampires and creatures born of magic. As for its specific properties and why she did not die even after drinking the most powerful poison, she did not elaborate.

What she told Cheese was the torture that she never wanted to experience again after drinking the purified water. It was the heat, burning and energy emanating from the inside. It not only made the body do all kinds of dramatic things

The distorted reaction to pain can also evoke a series of negative emotions such as anxiety, restlessness, anger, hysteria, etc. And those negative emotions will feed the burning feeling, and the cycle will continue, making it impossible to escape.

Now, the mage is suffering from both kinds of pain at the same time. His body and spirit are dragged into the burning hell under the empty impression of magic power, and his consciousness has to face the problem that he has been avoiding for a long time.

, what on earth is he doing? What is the meaning and meaning of his life?

Value? And if he dies here, what will he have left? Will this gray robe named Cheese have no future with his death? He doesn't want to think about it, but other than these damn questions, he has no

It's impossible to think about anything else. This is something the Lord of the Gray Tower has never mentioned.

Thoughts, like a hole, swallowed up the remaining will and reason of Cheese. All his knowledge, ambitions, and consciousness were attracted by the hole and became victims of the vortex. Gradually, he could not even consolidate his thoughts, and his mind

Regressing back to childhood, no, the cheese in childhood is already smart enough, he is regressing towards childhood, leaving only instinct, only the most primitive part of instinct.

"Teacher, I still stick to my plan. I know your concerns are right. Those things are too dangerous for individuals and the world. So I will separate the laboratory from the Gray Tower and even the world.

Isolate it so that no matter what happens, the situation in the laboratory will not be leaked. In this way, I only have to bear the responsibility for my own life.”…

"This should be adjusted like this. Well, let's record this part in Elvish script, just to note that the meaning of this word is different. Teacher? You shouldn't be here. No, I don't need to rest. What did you ask me to write?

They are just some notes, but they cannot be used by others. What I faced cannot be recorded in our language at all, so these notes are just information codes composed by my personal associations. Unless someone can experience exactly the same thing as me

life, otherwise he would not be able to understand the true meaning of these codes.”…

"Teacher, don't come here anymore. My research has reached a very dangerous place. I have a hunch that I will get results soon. For this reason, I must increase the frequency of experiments. What are you doing? You want to force me

Stop? No, it's impossible! I'm going to succeed! I'm going to understand them! Moreover, your spell is no longer effective on me. I have changed."

It seemed that something long-sealed had been opened in the horse spirit. When Cheese's self-awareness was almost completely lost, many vague but extremely real memory fragments emerged from the bottom of his consciousness. Moreover,

Along with these memories, other things emerged. Those things overflowed from the body and consciousness like black mud, relying on the magic power at this time to become empty and shriveled.

The body arrogantly occupied every part of it. From the inside to the outside, these things that were different from magic began to transform the cheese's body. As for the heat generated by the accumulation of magic, it was ruthlessly devoured by it. If this

From an outsider's perspective, you can see that a large number of chain patterns are beginning to appear on the cheese's skin, but these patterns look like they have been eaten by monsters that can eat iron and swallow gold.

"Something's not right." "I have a bad feeling." "I hate this feeling." The multi-headed monster, which was holding Atta up in the air and licking it with its tongue, stopped by the worms coming out of its belly.

Seeing their blasphemous behavior, those cloudy eyes looked neatly at a human who fell not far away. That human should have been dead long ago, he had been lying there for a while.

Coincidentally, the Earl of Montenegro's throat had been bitten off, and the little devils who were feeding him all stopped. They carefully curled up their bodies and moved closer to their master. The evil centaur cannibals also put down their thoughts just now.

The severed ears and sharply polished teeth rubbed up and down uneasily, and he suddenly felt a little chilly all over his body.

The prostrate man stood up. However, it was difficult to tell whether the thing that stood up was still a human being.
Chapter completed!