Chapter 34 Open Your Heart
Seeing Shangguan Yuejin's appearance, Ouyang Sheng, Yuan Yuxi and Shangguan Yin were all shocked. She curled up and shivered in the corner of the bed, sobbing.
Shangguan Yin felt so distressed. Why did his good daughter become like this? I really regret why she beat her yesterday?
"Jinjin." Shangguan Yin shouted softly, his voice trembling. He slowly leaned towards the bed.
"Don't come over!" Shangguan Yuejin immediately spoke out to stop him.
"I am my father!" Shangguan Yin was heartbroken.
"Dad?" Shangguan Yuejin not only smiled self-deprecatingly, "Haha, where did I come from? Do I have a dad?"
"Jinjin..." Shangguan Yin felt very depressed and sad when he saw Shangguan Yuejin's reaction.
"Jinjin, don't treat your father like this?" Yuan Yuxi felt aching when he looked at them like this.
"Auntie, I don't have a father!" Shangguan Yuejin kept denied that she was very opposed to Shangguan Yin.
Ouyang Sheng was also worried when he saw this situation. It seemed that it would take a long time and patience to completely restore their father-daughter relationship.
"Uncle Shangguan, Uncle Ouyang, Aunt Yuan, you guys go down and have a rest first and let me communicate with her."
Lin Li's words made them feel a little calmer. Shangguan Yin held Lin Li's hand: "Li Li, please trouble you, you must help uncle~"
"Don't worry! Uncle Shangguan." Lin Li nodded at Shangguan Yin. "Ou Yumin, take the uncles and aunts down."
"Okay, Li Li. Parents, Uncle Shangguan, let's go down first."
The door of the room was closed, and only Lin Li and Shangguan Yuejin were in the room.
"You go too, I don't want to see you!" Shangguan Yuejin issued an order to expel guests.
"I know!" Lin Li was also very calm. "You don't like me!"
"Then why are you still staying here?" Shangguan Yuejin was very puzzled and unhappy.
"To help you," Lin Li said.
"You don't need to help, you don't need it." Shangguan Yuejin refused directly. "I can do it myself."
"Can you do it?" Lin Li was shocked. Did she know that she was sick long ago? "You..."
"Yes, I'm suffering from ptsd." Shangguan Yuejin no longer concealed it. "When I was in elementary school, the school's psychological counseling doctor told me, and he also notified my father at that time, but he didn't care at all. He was still busy with his work, and he even took care of the woman he married later. They even gave birth to a son. Haha~ I never went to a psychologist again, and I didn't study anymore. Anyway, no one cared about it. I was troubled at school every day. At first, my father would come to school, but later, my servants came to the parent-teacher meeting. He would just yell at me, scold me, and say I was not good at it, so what's wrong with me? Why should I be good at it? What's the point? Is it sad to have such a father and such a family?"
"I understand your feelings very well." Lin Li replied.
"You don't understand, how could you understand? I was sent to a school at the age of 6. I have basically never stayed at home since I was a child." Shangguan Yuejin said as he spoke, his voice became more and more sad, "But I will not be sad about such things anymore, and I have been used to it for a long time. I am not sad at all, nor at all lonely! I don't need sympathy from others, including my father, that woman, and their son, I don't want to see them!"
"So~" Shangguan Yuejin took a deep breath and continued: "I don't need your sympathy either. Put away your mentality of being abusive, I don't need it!"
"You are right, you don't need sympathy! I don't need sympathy for you, because you need to be cared for, recognized, and needed!" Lin Li analyzed bit by bit: "I'm not a good person, I'm a psychological counselor. You don't need anyone's sympathy, but you need professional help."
"No, don't talk about those theories, my ears are calloused." Shangguan Yuejin's tone revealed a lot of impatientness. From childhood to adulthood, whether it is the so-called family, teachers, classmates, or psychologists, he said too many such words, which is useless and cannot solve the problem at all. "Don't waste time, okay?"
"Why are you so resistant? I know you hate me because you think I snatched someone you like, right?"
"Do you know and ask?" Shangguan Yuejin rolled his eyes helplessly. "Lin Li, do you know? You are the same as the people I know, self-righteous! I especially don't like your hypocritical appearance! I obviously like Brother Yu Min, but I'm still squeamish all day long!"
"I don't like him, we're just a contractual relationship." Lin Li said calmly.
“Contractual relationship?”
"Yes, I just helped him hide his family's urging. It's impossible between us." Lin Li replied to Shangguan Yuejin, and also replied to his heart.
"No matter what, I don't like you anyway, and I don't need your help." Shangguan Yuejin said nothing and believed Lin Li.
"I don't need you to like me, but I must help you! Otherwise, I can only recommend that you go back to the United States for treatment. Do you want to go back?"
"You!" Shangguan Yuejin glared at Lin Li fiercely, "You woman! Threat me?"
"No, just out of my professional advice, if you don't need my help, I can recommend someone else to help you. Whether to stay in Shanghai or return to the United States, you can choose for yourself."
Shangguan Yuejin was furious and her face was almost red. She pointed at Lin Li with her right hand: "Lin Li, you...you are so good!"
Lin Li smiled indifferently, "Thank you for your praise! I also want to correct it, I am not a theoretical school."
"Hmph, who believes it?" Shangguan Yuejin hugged her hands in front of her chest.
"Believe it or not, I just want to tell you that although you have experienced many unfortunate things, don't let yourself be an unfortunate person. Let bitterness and anger permeate your heart. This will only drag down your life, and this is a way to hurt others and yourself."
"It doesn't matter, I'm already like this. Why do you make others live a good life? Everyone dies together." Shangguan Yuejin's mentality was already extremely extreme.
"Where are those who love you? Will you die together?" Lin Li said in a word.
"I..." She was touched by her inner world, and Shangguan Yuejin was powerless to refute.
"You don't care so much as you seem, right?" Lin Li asked back. "If you really don't care, why bother hurting others? If you are really numb, shouldn't you stop showing your emotions? You have been seeking attention from others, so you have done a lot of extraordinary things. If you really want others to care and love you, you should get along with others in a healthy state, because those who have been hurt will hurt others."
“…”
Shangguan Yuejin didn't know how to respond, but she fell into deep thought. It was true. Lin Li said in one sentence that she really needed other people's attention.
"Maybe, you are right." After a long time, Shangguan Yuejin replied. She had already made a decision in her heart. Since there was nothing to be left to miss in the United States, she didn't need to go back. "I want to stay in Shanghai."
"Okay! Then are you ready to trust me completely?"
"I have no choice." Shangguan Yuejin answered honestly. She had never completely trusted anyone.
"It's not that you want to do it immediately now, make a decision, and trust me if you keep insisting on your choice, so that I can help you." Lin Li said.
"Okay, will it be useful?" Shangguan Yuejin was not sure if he could be treated.
"Try it." Lin Li said with a smile, "Don't be afraid, I have also experienced this process."
"Have you experienced it?" Shangguan Yuejin was a little confused.
"Didn't you just say I'm a theoretical school? Now let me clarify, I'm not. I chose psychology major because of severe depression, because I don't want to fall into such an extremely sad and uncontrollable mood, but don't worry, I'm cured."
"What you said is true?" Shangguan Yuejin couldn't believe it at all.
"Of course it's true, but few people know about me. Maybe our experience is similar. I really want to help you, so I told you."
“Similar experience?”
"Yes, I am also a person who was abandoned by my parents since I was a child. You are more lucky than me, at least you won't worry about money." Lin Li recalled the past, and a trace of bitterness surged into his heart. "So, believe me, okay? Since I can get healing, you can do it too!"
Perhaps seeing Lin Li's sincerity, Shangguan Yuejin nodded involuntarily. It turned out that Lin Li was also a person who had experienced misfortune. She looked so strong and much stronger than herself. "Okay, I believe in you."
"Click the hook!" Lin Li said playfully, "You must keep my affairs secret too!"
"Well, you can't hang it for a hundred years." Shangguan Yuejin also stretched out his little finger.
"If it becomes a puppy, stamp it with another seal."
Lin Li and Shangguan Yuejin reached an agreement, and Shangguan Yuejin felt better and had slowly relaxed.
"Jinjin, can I call you like this?" Lin Li asked.
"Of course, Sister Lin Li, I'm sorry, I've always been disrespectful to you." Shangguan Yuejin apologized seriously. She realized that she was indeed too willful.
"It's okay, forgive you." Lin Li smiled, "Since we have reached an agreement, I encourage you to have a good talk with your father, okay? Give him a chance and let him explain."
"Sister Lin Li, I, I have no choice." Shangguan Yuejin's expression was very entangled.
"Jinjin, listen to me, you don't want you to forgive your father immediately. Let's hear what he wants to say, that's all." Lin Li knew Shangguan Yuejin's feelings, and she patiently encouraged.
"Okay, I can only say try to listen. If I can't control my emotions, please separate me from him, okay?" Shangguan Yuejin made a decision. Since he wanted to treat, then face it and no longer escape.
"Okay, don't worry, I'm here too." Lin Li followed Shangguan Yuejin and promised. "I'll call Uncle Shangguan up."
"Yeah!" Shangguan Yuejin nodded.
Chapter completed!