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I don’t know what Jin Sichen thinks, but Wu Yusen sounds quite sympathetic to Lin Fan.

When parents push for marriage, they originally want their children to be happy. But many times, pushing for marriage becomes a formality, and it doesn't seem to matter whether they are happy or not.

According to Lin Fan's information and her own description, she was originally an independent, cheerful, and courageous woman. Although she is still suffering from illness, after contacting her in the past few days, she can feel that she has a very good personality.

Whether she signed up for fitness classes or tour groups, they were all designed to help her get over the pain as soon as possible and return to normal life as soon as possible.

As long as he waits a little longer, Lin Fan's pain will be slowly healed and he will enter a new life. By then, whether he has a boyfriend or gets married, it will all happen naturally.

It's a pity that the Lin family's parents couldn't wait any longer. They didn't care that Lin Fan was still in the healing period, and forcefully forced a normal person to become like this.

Many people don't know that language is the sharpest knife in the world.

How sharp it is depends on how important the person wielding the knife against you is in your heart.

To put it bluntly, the more someone cares, the more hurtful their words will be.

As the closest people to her, Lin Fan's parents didn't even realize that their words were like sharp knives that almost stabbed Lin Fan to death.

I don’t know if they have ever regretted what they have done now.

Jin Sichen listened to Lin Fan's words, writing something in his hand from time to time, and then asked: "I feel that you seem to be particularly concerned about what your parents think, is that true?"

Lin Fan thought for a moment and said, "I don't know what it means to be extra concerned. Why don't I tell you what happened when I was a child, and you can judge?"

Jin Sichen nodded.

When Lin Fan was a child, Lin's father had been working outside and rarely participated in his daughter's life. But fortunately, he made a lot of money, which allowed Lin Fan to drink milk when he was a child. Lin's mother could wear mink furs and gold chains and was always smiling.

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I don’t know whether it’s because the family has some money, or because Lin’s mother loves to compare. Lin Fan’s childhood has been spent in comparison with other children.

No matter how well Lin Fan studies and how obedient he is, he never seems to get praise from Lin's mother.

Her cousin who was the team captain was always more powerful than her, the children of Lin's mother's friends were always more obedient than her, and even her cousin who was not good at studying and naughty and dropped out of school did all kinds of good things in front of Lin Fan. Lin Fan slowly felt inferior in his longing.

In high school, the disappointed Lin Fan began to rebel. She gave up studying hard and wanted to attract Lin's mother's attention with her declining grades.

At this time, Father Lin's business encountered setbacks and began to suffer serious losses. Mother Lin argued with Father Lin all day long and did not care about Lin Fan at all. Let alone scolding him, she could almost be regarded as ignoring him.

Lin Fan's mentality collapsed, she gave up studying and started living as a scumbag. Until two months before the college entrance examination, the new history teacher came to Lin Fan for a long talk. The care in his words was like a warm current, which made her stiff heart.

It started beating slowly again.

Lin Fan began to study hard, trying to turn the tide. But it was too late. She could only give up mathematics, physics and chemistry, and only memorized liberal arts knowledge points.

After the college entrance examination, I actually got a relatively good score. I couldn't get into a key university, but I was much higher than the standard for ordinary undergraduates.

For Lin Fan, who had only studied for two months, this was already a very good result. If she hadn't given up studying at the beginning, maybe Tsinghua University and Peking University would have given it a try.

No one asked about his college aspirations. Lin Fan chose a college far away from home. After entering, he found out that it was a private institution that only had junior college degrees, and the degree was not recognized by the country.

At this point, Lin Fan could only study hard in college, take the post-secondary examination, and finally graduate with a bachelor's degree from another university.

After leaving home, Lin Fan saw the vast world, broke away from the shackles of his family, and never wanted to return to a depressing environment.

After graduation, she did not follow her family's arrangements to go home and work, and went to Gaohe City alone to make a living.

"You all know what happened next." Lin Fan suddenly realized that her life was not long, and she finished talking in just a short time.

"So you have low self-esteem in your heart and hope to be recognized by your parents. Although you work hard to get into college and find a good job, once your parents deny it, you will be very hurt." Jin Sichen concluded.

"This kind of damage keeps accumulating, which has dealt a fatal blow to you. It directly denies the meaning of your entire life. You don't know why you are alive, and you feel that you have nothing to love."

"You hope to get recognition from others, but it always backfires. Any recognition and encouragement will give you strength. So the history teacher in middle school just had a long talk with you, and you studied with all your strength. You are just a lackluster

He’s just a child who loves and has low self-esteem.”

Lin Fan listened calmly and agreed, "Really? I've discovered it too. I used to think that I was extremely capable, bold, daring, and omnipotent, but later I realized that these were all illusions."

"I want them to praise me when I get into college, I want them to praise me when I get a bachelor's degree, I want them to praise me when I find a good job, I want them to praise me when I make a lot of money... I still got 100 points

A child who wants to be praised by his mother. But in all these years, few people have sincerely praised me."

"You're fine." John Woo sighed a little and couldn't help but comfort him. When Lin Fan looked over, he was worried that she wouldn't believe it, so he emphasized, "Really."

Lin Fan looked at John Woo's smiling face with eight teeth exposed, and felt a little sour and warm in his heart. He tugged at the corner of his mouth and replied: "Thank you."

Jin Sichen had a general understanding and said to Lin Fan: "I found that you have a clear understanding of your condition, which is a good thing. It is right to live separately from your parents. If you cannot get recognition, at least avoid harm. Now you live alone

Do you control your emotions well?"

"I'm fine when I'm fine. I just can't do anything. I don't know when or when something happens, I start having convulsions."

"Sometimes, maybe I see the branches on the roadside being sawed, and I keep thinking about it and feel sad. I toss and turn, and I can't sleep all night long. I think about it every now and then, and it obviously has nothing to do with me." Lin Fan sighed.

"That's why I don't go out much now, just because I'm afraid of being bothered by these inexplicable things every day."

"It's difficult for you to deal with emotional problems at the moment. Not going out is indeed a solution, but it will also cause problems in the long run. I just hope that after a while, your ability to withstand psychological pressure will be strengthened and you will gradually be able to contact the outside world. This time cannot be too long. People

After all, they are social animals. If you are cut off from social contact for a long time, even normal people will have some problems. This will not be helpful to your condition."

"The best way is to put you in a safe environment, which can not only expose you to a certain external environment, but also eliminate the factors that make you uneasy. At the same time, it can also be accompanied by psychological treatment, a three-pronged approach. In this way, you can

Improve your condition in the shortest possible time.”

"It's just that this thing sounds simple, but it's not that easy in practice." Jin Sichen certainly knew that Lin Fan had stopped treatment due to financial reasons and could not do what he said.

Lin Fan had known for a long time that it was impossible to get good treatment in her current condition, and she had to resist on her own, no matter how hard she endured. He had already calmed down, so he didn't feel it was a pity.

Seeing that Jin Sichen seemed to be ready to move on to the next topic, John Woo hurriedly interrupted and asked: "What should I do if the side effects of her medicine haven't gone away yet?"

"What side effects haven't gone away?" Jin Sichen flipped through the documents. "The medical record shows that she has stopped taking the medicine for 2 years. What other symptoms are there?"

Looking at Lin Fan's swollen body, it was indeed caused by the side effects of the medication. It should have been less swollen after two years, but it was also possible that he ate too much in the later period and became obese, so Jin Sichen didn't care at first.

Lin Fan explained his symptoms again.

Headache.

My brain is unclear, my reactions are extremely slow, and I often forget things.

I no longer like the things I liked before. I am not happy even though I should be happy. I am not sad even when I feel sad.

My eyes hurt, I always feel tired and can't open my eyes.

I keep hearing sounds in my ears, but when I listen carefully, they don't seem to be there. I also have tinnitus.

I always feel nauseous and retching, but I can't vomit anything.

Sometimes it feels like my head is so heavy that it might fall off my neck.

Pain in the heart, stomach, and intestines.

My arms hurt, my hand joints, and my back shoulder blades hurt. My thighs, knees, and buttocks also hurt.

The pain is also varied, sometimes it's stinging, sometimes it's inflammatory pain, sometimes it's numb, sometimes it's like burning...

This sounds like something is really wrong from head to toe.

Jin Sichen frowned when he heard this, and he and Wu Yusen took the physical examination report and looked at it carefully.

"She said that outside hospitals couldn't find it, and I thought we could definitely find it here. The result was that everything was normal." John Woo said next to him.

"Mood disorders are manifestations of depression," Jin Sichen said. "If there is pain, I suspect it may be a somatization disorder. There may indeed be some side effects of the medicine in terms of eyes and ears, but she has too much."

"What is somatization disorder?" John Woo asked.

"Simply put, it is a mental disorder caused by mental anxiety. It is mainly manifested in various unexplained pains in the body and limbs, nausea, etc. that cannot be detected by medical means. It is often accompanied by obvious anxiety and depression."

"Isn't it depression?" John Woo asked.

"No, it's another mental illness." Jin Sichen was looking at Lin Fan's brain CT scan. "It's usually caused by genetic factors, physical or psychosocial factors. Her CT scan didn't show any obvious problems. I suspect it's because she's depressed.

Somatization disorder accompanying the disease. Some depressed patients do have symptoms of somatization disorder in the severe stage."

Okay, another mental illness. Lin Fan can no longer complain.

"When did you feel these symptoms?" Jin Sichen asked Lin Fan.

"I guess I stopped taking the medicine, I can't remember clearly." Lin Fan recalled.

"That's almost two years, which is consistent with the time of diagnosis. It should be somatization disorder." Jin Sichen concluded.

"I can't find anything wrong but I feel pain. Is it a hallucination?" John Woo asked.

"It's not a hallucination, it's subjective pain." Jin Sichen replied.

"Let me explain it to you this way. Physical lesions produce pain reflexes, which are transmitted to the brain by nerves, so that you can feel pain. Somatized pain is a physical lesion that has no real substance, but the nerves feel pain. Although it is subjective pain, it is also real.

It hurts."

"Then how can it be cured?" John Woo asked again.

"..." Even though Jin Sichen was very knowledgeable and eloquent, he couldn't help but pause for a moment, "I need to take antidepressant medicine."
Chapter completed!