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Author: Yuan Zier

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Zhou Tang didn't know what he was expecting, so he only glanced at him twice, then turned around and left in a direction away from him.

Chen Yan's eyes suddenly swayed, and the few hopes in his eyes were suddenly shattered. Along with his depressed and manic mind, it seemed that he was shattered to pieces by Zhou Tang's turning around at this moment!

He witnessed Zhou Tang's obsession with Xu Qingran, and also witnessed Zhou Tang's helpless look with tears streaming down his face for Xu Qingran.

He is jealous and crazy.

The amount of alcohol in his stomach tonight seemed to be unable to suppress the boiling and impulsiveness in his blood at that moment. He was so jealous that he wanted to go crazy, and he was so uncomfortable that he wanted to explode.

But in the end, he still managed to stabilize his mind despite Zhou Tang's embarrassed look.

He couldn't do that. Rather than crushing Xu Qingran, he didn't dare to make Zhou Tang hate him more. In fact, he wanted to guard her every step of the way, wanted to look at her, and wanted to crush the thin and tearful girl.

into her arms.

He wanted to hug her, rub her into his bones, and scold her to wake her up.

How could she cry for other men? He had been in so much pain recently and drank so much wine, and she didn't even care about him. How could she cry for other men?

Then how could Xu Qingran deserve to be like this!

But she was stubborn, she just didn't want to love him anymore, that is, she only focused on Xu Qingran, but how could Xu Qingran love her as much as he did, and how could he give up his grandparents' company for her!

But he can! He, Chen Yan, can!

He can give up everything for her now, as long as she can set her sights on him again, as long as she is willing to like him again.

Chen Yan's eyes were red with blood. At this moment, the wine in his stomach seemed to be churning wantonly, making him want to vomit.

But Zhou Tang kept moving forward without even looking back. He couldn't think about that much anymore, and immediately stumbled forward with his uncomfortable body, and finally grabbed Zhou Tang's arm with all his strength.

wrist.

Zhou Tang was completely stopped by Chen Yan, and his wrist was so painful that it felt like it was about to be broken.

Zhou Tang frowned immediately and immediately turned to look at him impatiently, "Chen Yan, let go!"

Chen Yan subconsciously relaxed a little, but did not let go of Zhou Tang's hand. His red eyes met Zhou Tang's indifferent eyes, and the calmness he tried to maintain on his pale face almost collapsed.

He said to Zhou Tang in a hoarse voice: "Can you stay with me?"

Zhou Tang didn't have time to reply.

He continued: "It'll be fine in a moment."

He didn't ask for anything more now. He just wanted Zhou Tang to accompany him. He just wanted to get some comfort from Zhou Tang when he was injured, just like he did in high school.

His mother's condition in the past two days has almost worn him down.

He is indeed not a normal person. He can withstand all kinds of blows outside. Even when he was almost killed by Chen Bing, he could keep his face calm. However, when Wang Sufang's condition worsened, he turned into a coward again.

I can't even force myself to calm down.

He was afraid of going to the hospital, afraid of receiving a call from the doctor, and afraid of hearing any desperate news. He was just a mother. Once she really left, no one in the world would love him anymore. He, Chen Yan, also

I will be completely alone in the world, with no one to accompany me.

He was terrified of this feeling, but there was nothing he could do about it.

He could not control the changes in his mother's condition. Apart from calling the doctor and clamoring to spend money, he could only hide in the bar all day long, in the dark, get drunk, and did not even dare to go to the hospital.

He thought that when he got drunk, he could forget all his worries and fears. He thought that if the stomach pain returned, he could use the severe pain to numb the nerves that had been so tight these days that they were about to break. Only in this way, he might really be able to

Escape from everything and take it easy, but it is in vain.

The more he drank, the more sober he became, and the more he drank, the more frightened he became. He was so frightened that his whole body was shaking and his heart felt empty. Then, he couldn't help it anymore and came to look for Zhou Tang crazily again.

He had been lonely and scared for so many days, but he still came to disturb her. He didn't want her to see his vulnerability and entanglement again and again. He just had no one to tell his pain and fear.

He was really, paranoid and uncontrollable, and once again regarded her as his only life-saving straw.

Zhou Tang's brows furrowed more and more, and for a moment, he rarely replied.

Her nose smelled the strong smell of alcohol coming from Chen Yan's body, and her eyes quietly settled on Chen Yan's red eyes. She saw that Chen Yan's eyes, which had always been cold and deep, were now filled with obvious emotions.

Vulnerability and helplessness.

The look in his eyes seemed to be the same as that of Chen Yan when he had an inexplicable emotional breakdown one day in high school. He was helpless, scared, and as fragile as a little beast about to die.

Zhou Tang subconsciously choked on the words of rejection. Thinking of Wang Sufang's illness, she was silent for a long time. She didn't know whether it was because of compassion or because she had some feelings and pity for Wang Sufang. She suppressed her emotions and spoke to Chen Yan in a low voice.

Said: "Have you been drinking?"

Chen Yan was stunned for a moment, then nodded helplessly and embarrassedly.

Zhou Tang asked again: "Is Aunt Fang feeling better today?"

"I didn't dare to answer the call from the hospital today, and I didn't dare to go to the hospital. I don't know if it's better." He said in a hoarse voice, depressed and decadent.

Zhou Tang took a deep breath, not surprised by what he said.

After all, Chen Yan seems to be cold and strong, but when faced with Wang Sufang's life and death, he is extremely fragile.

She was silent for a while and then said: "You should answer the hospital's phone call, in case there is any emergency and the hospital needs to contact you..."

At this point, Zhou Tang subconsciously stopped.

Chen Yan's eyes were tense, and he couldn't help but tremble a few times. Then he was silent in Zhou Tang's eyes for a long time, and then said in a low voice and intermittently: "Zhou Tang, it's not that I don't answer, it's that I don't dare to answer.

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As he spoke, his tone became increasingly bleak and helpless, "I don't have the courage to step into the hospital, nor do I have the courage... to accept any results, let alone see my mother."

Zhou Tang's eyes were full of complexity. For a moment, he stared at Chen Yan who was so depressed and fragile, and his mind wavered, "Some things can't be solved by running away."

"I know."

"So Chen Yan, you have to cheer up when you need to, and you still have to face what you need to face, and Aunt Fang has her own destiny, and she is so kind, so she will be fine." Zhou Tang said in a low voice, with a smile.

With a pious expectation.

Chen Yan said nothing, only lowered his head, his face turned pale, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Zhou Tang stared at him for a while, then said again: "Can you let go of me?"

Chen Yan's red eyes fell towards her again, still with a sense of loneliness and sadness.

Zhou Tang took a deep breath again, and for a moment, he was inexplicably reminded of Xu Qingran's reaction not long ago.

I once remembered that when Xu Qingran's grandparents had an accident, Xu Qingran was decadent and embarrassed, depressed and sad. His state was actually the same as Chen Yan's current state, but the only difference was that Xu Qingran chose to bear it alone, heal alone, and be alone.

He put himself in a space of suppressed grief and closed himself off so that not even she, Zhou Tang, could enter or touch her.

But Chen Yan was different. Chen Yan was not only escaping, he even wanted to share all his sorrows with her. He also insisted on pulling her into his desolate and helpless world as if he was grasping at straws.

She couldn't say that Xu Qingran didn't love her enough, which was why he finally rejected and let her go, and she couldn't say that Chen Yan was so fragile and useless, because Xu Qingran was always calm and thoughtful.

, also knows what he wants, but Chen Yan is always paranoid and lonely, rushing forward, always emotional, and always stuck in the feelings and dependence of high school, unable to extricate himself.

Compared to Xu Qingran, Chen Yan is indeed not as sober as Xu Qingran, but Chen Yan is indeed right. Chen Yan loves her more than Xu Qingran, even if it is a paranoid love.

"Zhou Tang, can you stay with me for a while, even if you just sit with me in the car."

Seeing that Zhou Tang remained sullen and silent, Chen Yan spoke in a low voice again.

His voice was still filled with fragility and pleading, and it was probably because he was drunk that he showed all her embarrassment to her so unscrupulously.

Only then did Zhou Tang come back to his senses, and planned to persuade him with nice words, hoping to cheer him up, "Chen Yan, what if I go and sit in the car with you? This way you can cheer up and feel better.

Do you want it? But you can never escape in this way, because Aunt Fang is still in the hospital for rescue, so at least during this period of time, you can't escape at all..."

But before he could finish these words, the cell phone in Chen Yan's pocket suddenly rang.

The ringtone of his mobile phone was particularly depressing and heavy. When it rang, it seemed to make the surrounding atmosphere solemn.

Zhou Tang subconsciously choked when the words came to his mouth.

However, Chen Yan just looked at her intently and held her hand intently without making any move.

It wasn't until the phone in his pocket rang for too long that the system hung up, and then a few seconds passed before the phone rang again as if it was unwilling to give up.

Zhou Tangcai reminded in a low voice, "Aren't you going to answer the phone?"
Chapter completed!