Chapter 1418 The End of the Soul

“My family told me that people are usually in (A).

"So, I frequently asked my neighbors, (B), and the people around me were alienated from our family."

"No matter how they look at me, I don't care! I really want to see... (C) That unparalleled beauty makes me so excited that I feel trembling when I think about it! Finally... Finally, I don't want to wait anymore. One day I'm in the toddler department, (D)!

At that moment, I felt that my consciousness had entered another level! I couldn't see the people around me, nor could I hear what they were saying, and my attention was all attracted by the beautiful colors! However, this was too little, not enough, I needed more... (E)...

When I woke up, I heard that classmate was crying loudly, and the others were also huddling in the corner, (F)! Isn’t it?

Because of this, I was expelled from the college. When my neighbors saw me, they would point fingers. In addition to the original disgust, they also had the same fear as their classmates that day. Compared to those (G).

Happiness and sadness can be disguised, but (H).

My parents also knew that I just wanted to see the colors too much and had no malice, so I didn't blame me too much. I just took me to move and transfer to a new place and start over.

They also told me that it is bad to be injured, (I)?

After that, I entered a junior art academy and gradually fell in love with photography. Because I really want to know...will the world I see is different in the camera? Unfortunately, the result still disappointed me. Even in the photos, I can only see the dead black and white.

Although I am born without seeing colors, my perception of tones, texture and dynamics is more obvious. It can be said that I live in a stronger reality. This also makes me always have the best understanding ability in class when I was studying photography.

I am talented... The photos I took were praised by my mentor for their outstanding composition! There were also several photography competitions organized by the city, and I won the first place! I am obviously a genius, but I am obviously better than everyone! But I can't see any color! In the eyes of normal people, the colors are as ordinary as sunshine and air!

Fate is like playing a cruel joke with me...it opened a window for me and made me fall in love with photography, (J)!!”

Listening to his crazy talk, Bei Mingzang also sighed silently.

Indeed, if an ordinary person cannot see colors, at most it will be inconvenient for life. But for an outstanding artist like him, the incomplete vision is almost fatal to him!

"Later, I got a girlfriend." Bai Linwan paused. When a person like him talked about that girl, a gentle smile appeared in his eyes. It seemed that it was a rare beautiful memory in his life.

"Her name is Xiaoya, and she is a student of the art department. The first time I saw her was when she walked away from the direction of the auditorium, wearing a pure white shirt, holding a painting board and painting tools in her hand, her long hair was blown up by the breeze, and she floated beside her... It was as beautiful as an angel. I always remember her smile that day.

At that time, I won many awards on behalf of the photography department, and I was very popular with my mentors and looked pretty good, so I have always been a celebrity in the college, and many girls are chasing me. But I can see that what they like is my appearance or status, and I think that being with me will be very glorious... They are all impure! I can see the vanity in their eyes!

Only Xiaoya is different... She is pure. She doesn't have so many messy thoughts, she just studies art wholeheartedly. Sometimes we will teach together and ask questions from our tutors... I will guide her on composition, and she will help me find beautiful scenery and take photos with me... She appreciates my talent, not what I can bring her. Only she is the girl who can make me moved...!

In this way, I confessed to her. Although Xiaoya shyly dodged for a while, I knew that she liked me too, so we hugged each other soon... In this way, we started dating.

The days with her are very happy. We will sit by the lake together to film the scene, fly kites in the park, ride bicycles, and do everything normal couples will do... With her by my side, I feel that this black and white world is no longer so boring.

Xiaoya loves life very much, and she often tells me the world she sees. In her description, the world is so beautiful and colorful... On the surface, I just smiled and agreed with her. After so long, I can skillfully disguise myself as being like a normal person, so that everyone, including Xiaoya, cannot see my incompleteness. But in my heart, I feel so chaotic! I am beginning to want to see more and more! I also want to see the same world as Xiaoya!...

When I returned home during that holiday, I expressed my wish to see it to my parents, which was my only wish... But they said that the current medical level is indeed not cured, and they have no choice. They just hope that I don’t feel inferior and can continue to live happily like I was when I was a child.

How can I be happy... Damn it! How can I be happy if I live in a world that is different from everyone! That was my first time (K)!...

After venting, I regretted it again. (L)... After that day, in order to compensate me, my parents bought me a lot of red pigments. They knew that red was the only color I could see and knew that I like red. They felt that if I could see red anytime and anywhere, it might be a comfort to me.

I used those paints to paint every inch of the room, from the walls to the tables and chairs, into bright red. It was obviously the same bright red, but I always felt that there was something missing, not the shock when I saw it for the first time. I felt very disappointed.

Later, I finally realized that it was because (M)...

So, I started to try to collect (N) from various ways!

My parents saw that I held that kind of book every day. Although their words flashed...their eyes were a little wrong when they looked at me, but after all, these photos were the only ones that could bring me happiness now, so they accused them.

After seeing those photos for too many times, I always feel something suppressed in my heart, (O)!

However, when I invited Xiaoya to visit my experiment... the look she looked at me actually appeared (P)...

Why is this happening? Didn’t she appreciate my talent? Didn’t she not be vain, if she likes me, she likes everything about me? Then why would she just run away in fear when I show my true side?

She also said, (Q)!

When I saw it, (R)...I really love her! I hope she can accompany me and witness my glory...!

One night, my parents asked me why Xiaoya hadn't come to my house for a long time, and I replied, (S)...

While talking, I lowered my head (T).

When I heard Xiaoya’s response, I excitedly told my parents, ‘(U)!’

The parents seemed to be stunned. After a long silence, (V).

(W)…They pulled me and said they wanted to take me there (X)?”

"You..." Bei Mingzang also felt his throat rolling, "(Y)..." He couldn't even say anything in the following words.

“(Z)?”

"You...you people are the same as my parents, you are all a group of ordinary people!"

"When I come to my senses, (N-word)..."

"Xiao Ya has always loved beauty, (n-word)..."

"I have found a lot of beautiful people. Some of them have very good skin care, some have some parts of their facial features, and some have beautiful fingers. Unfortunately, they still have defects of one kind or another, and none of them are absolutely perfect... But it doesn't matter, (omit N characters)?"

"(Omit n words), transforming yourself little by little, enriching yourself... With my artistic vision, this is definitely not a problem."

After hearing what he said, I don’t know if he was (omitted), but this is how he came... Bei Mingzang wanted to vomit.

"In order to carry forward my art, I stepped into the fashion circle and soon met another girl named Tong Qianqian." Bai Linwan still remained calm when she revealed all the darkness she had hidden. In his heart, he might have always regarded all this as pride, not shame.

"At that time, she was not very famous and was determined to pursue her dreams. On the day she first met her, I just got a good job to help an advertising director take hard photos. What I needed to cooperate with was mainly a popular first-line actress with a very big temper. It is said that she often plays a big name on the set and has driven away several photographers, which is famous for being difficult to get along with. This time, the director really had no choice, so he considered letting me, a newcomer, come and try it.

Is that actress a big temper? I think it's okay. When she talks to me, she will lower her airs and accommodate me. Maybe it's my perfect face... that makes her unable to get angry even if she wants to.

She is the heroine of the advertisement, and there is a girl who plays a supporting role on the scene, and there are not many shots in total. But she just stood there honestly, wearing a clean white dress, neither competing nor robbing, not arrogant or impatient, listened carefully to the director's explanation, nodding from time to time, with a glory of seriousness and persistence in her eyes, like a breeze passing by. Seeing her... I actually felt the first time I saw Xiaoya."
Chapter completed!