Chapter 1668: Two farewells, and everyone is happy

Yi Xin went to the crew this time to say goodbye to the director and other staff.

She still decided to leave. The young master would not give up. Before, he told himself viciously that if he didn't do what he said, he would start from her friends, such as Xu Wenwen.

He said, my father is the director of the college, and I can find any reason to let the college punish her. Even if she was fired directly, her family had nothing to say!

Once the file is recorded and fired, it means that her future is over to a certain extent. Yi Xin naturally cannot watch him ruin Wenwen, so she can only compromise.

Maybe just like the young master said, she is very good at controlling because her heart is too soft and she cares about too many people. She never wants to let them be hurt because of herself. As long as he knows this, he can hold her firmly in the palm of his hand. But even so, she never wants to live as a person who only cares about herself one day. She has her principles.

At present, she has signed a contract with the company for this drama. If the filming is stopped in the middle, it will be considered a breach of contract. As her obedient reward, Rong Huang also took a step back and reached an agreement with her to finish the filming of the drama in the shortest time and not take on the next heroine drama.

She did not intend to tell Wenwen about these things. Wenwen was still obsessed with the young master. She didn't want her to know that the person who was flawless in her eyes could easily treat her as a bargaining chip; she didn't want her to know what she had done to protect her.

However, it was Wenwen who wanted to protect her that she had a big fight with her a few days ago.

After finally relieving from the recent academic pressure, Wenwen came to ask her for the contact information of President Xiling.

——Since Liu Mo leaked this information to her with "ulterior motives", Xu Wenwen has been worried. But some time ago, she was busy all the time, and was caught by her class teacher for a make-up lesson, and she made a support board for her idol Yan Nanqing's concert, so she put it aside for the time being. Now that she has time, she naturally needs to contact President Xiling.

President Xiling specifically reminded himself not to leak his contact information. Yi Xin explained to Xu Wenwen angrily, telling her that she really couldn't give her a person without authorization and that she needed to seek the consent of President Xiling first. But Xu Wenwen was angry and thought that she was deliberately making excuses and refused to give it to her, and that she was "treating her as an outsider."

Xu Wenwen opened her mouth and said anything bad when she got angry. Even "I only realized today that you were guarding me like a thief", "Don't you just want to eat alone?", "You have a young master but you are not satisfied, and you are on both boats" said it, which hurts Yi Xin's heart.

Since the last clinic storm, the two have parted again in disagreement.

During this quarrel, Yi Xin’s biggest feeling was not sadness or anger, but loneliness.

She cares a lot, but how many people really care about her? There are so many troubles recently, she wants to find someone to talk to, but who can she rely on?

Although she got closer to Brother Xiao, she didn't want to always complain to him, which made him feel very troubled when he thought of herself; President Xiling, Senior Sister Liu Mo, Sister Liang and others are all very busy, and she was embarrassed to let them listen to the troubles of these little girls; Shi Yu, Sister Longer, and Sister Yan Yan were far away in another plane and could not accompany her;

Chenxi is a new classmate, she knows nothing about her past; Dai Hang, because of family reasons, has already lived a hard life, and she doesn't want to add more hard work to him; Hao Wenbo, their relationship seems to be not so good yet; Xie Shaochen... Why do you think of him again? He has ignored him anymore...

So far, she has only a few shots left. The director agreed to finish her scene in one go today. Because she is not an important role, she does not have that high requirements for many performance details, and basically has one pass. Next, she will take advantage of the break and say goodbye to people who are closer to the crew.

In fact, she was a little hesitant whether to say goodbye to Xie Shaochen. After she left, she basically had no relationship with him in life. Out of politeness, it seems that it would be better to say it. But she didn't know what he thinks about herself now, and maybe she was just trying to find him...?

She found that she subconsciously extended the farewell time to others, and she wanted to do some more psychological construction, which would be considered as giving them the two of them a chance.

When she had already dragged her down until she couldn't drag her down any longer and had to be ready to leave, Xie Shaochen actually took the initiative to walk in front of her.

"angel..." He looked not as cold as last time in the county government, but not as when they had a casual conversation. He was a little timid, as if he was afraid of being rejected by himself, and he spoke with caution, "Can we go around?"

"I have a few words to say to you," he paused a little, adding sincerely, "It might be the last time."

"...Of course, if you don't want to, I will never force you." Seeing that she didn't respond, he smiled bitterly and added a self-deprecating sentence.

Seeing him like this, Yi Xin softened again, and she agreed softly: "Then... OK."

Xie Shaochen obviously felt relieved for a moment, and his smile exuded a bit of sunshine at this moment, and he nodded vigorously.

Yi Xin remembered that he had shown such a relieved expression because of his attitude many times. A person would be satisfied with his slight kindness. This suddenly made her feel a little sorry for him.

Soon, the two of them strolled together on the street outside the college.

After so long, Yi Xin's mentality has been adjusted a lot now, and he is not so embarrassed when facing him again. Although he is still a little scared, it shouldn't be a problem on the street where people come and go.

After the two walked out of the road in silence, Xie Shaochen took the initiative to speak.

"I know, in your eyes, I am a dead person. Maybe you don't even want to see me again. But I mainly... I hope you don't have any pressure. Things will become like this. I'm responsible for it. I deserve it. It's all my problem. You're very good, you're really good."

"How to say it, I hope you won't dare to make friends again because of this matter. It's unnecessary. You can still... live the life you want. I also believe that the people you meet in the future will definitely be better than me."

Yi Xin looked at him in a daze, even though she wanted to tell him that it was not the case, she had her fault, and she wanted him not to say that he was so useless. But in a hurry, she didn't know what to say. She felt that she was confused and needed time to sort out.

Because she hadn't answered, Xie Shaochen probably thought she had agreed to these words, and his smile gradually became bitter: "If you don't know what to say to me, then listen to me."

"Look, I'm really a useless person, right? I'll mess up anything in my hands. I messed up my job and my relationships. Now, I messed up even you."

On the day he left the village, he promised his family that he would gain a foothold in the big city. But now he has only filled the bottom group and become the group of people who are needed by this city and can be replaced at any time.

When we were young, we always thought we could control the world. When we grew up, we tried our best, but we just wanted to avoid being controlled by the world.

"This city is very snobbish. It doesn't care about the feelings of the people living here. It only cares whether they have achieved success. Only the voices of successful people have the chance to be heard, and ordinary people's lives are even worse than grass."

Looking at such a bustling street, bustling and prosperous weather. But here, how many people stayed up all night for a meager salary and ended up tired at work; how many people were desperate and committed suicide in despair due to various life pressures... But these darkness, these helplessness, these sorrows and tears will soon be flooded by the hustle and bustle of the city again.

When the sun rises, vehicles are still running on the streets, and people are still rushing in the grid, as if everyone is full of hope for life. But those who sleep in the past are left forever in yesterday.

"And it will make you desperate, make you feel that you are only worthy of being in your current position, because you can't catch up with the upper class. It will wipe out your enthusiasm day by day and make you really willing to be a laborer."

“I sometimes feel like it’s like a high-speed wheel that will only bring limited people to the destination and throw away all those who can’t keep up with the pace.”

"I don't know when it will be my turn. In short, when I realize that no matter how hard I try, my mentality is getting worse and worse. I can't just be like this and be like this. I want to leave something behind, and I can prove that I have existed in this city."

"Yes, I don't want others to live well. I don't like why some people can live so well, so I'll just go and make things difficult for them. At least I have changed something slightly, that's what I think."

"After meeting you, I really tried to live like you, but I soon discovered that I couldn't do it. If forgiveness can make you happy, hatred and revenge can make me happy. Maybe people are destined to have two kinds of birth, one is good, the other is evil, and I am the bad one."

After listening to it for so long, Yi Xin finally found the opportunity to interrupt.

"Although I don't know very well, I understand whether you want to express it, but I think I can probably understand what you said."

"I often feel this way. The world is big, but I am very small and can't find the meaning of my existence. In the past, I always felt that there is not more me in the group, and there is not less me. I am like a redundant person. Especially when there are group activities, this feeling is even more obvious."

"For example, for some activities, everyone set up classrooms together. I don't know what I can do, so I can only stay alone. There are also sports meetings, and other students will work hard to cheer for the class, but my reaction is very plain. The sense of collective honor seems to be insulated from me."

"But... Later, one time, the tutor asked me to take a few classmates to form a team and go to the arithmetic competition outside the college. At that time, because I had the best grades, the tutor asked me to be the team leader."

"It's strange. If I were an ordinary team member, I would probably just learn my own team tasks by myself. Anyway, others would do it. But because I became a team leader and had a sense of responsibility, I would seriously help everyone formulate a review plan. If others fall a little behind, I will help him. I want to lead this team wholeheartedly."

"Later, we really got the first place. That was the first time I felt that I was needed, and that I was no longer an insignificant person in the group."

"I said this because I realized that for everyone, the role that suits them is different. Some people may like to be part of the team. There are many things that you don't need to worry too much, just be honest in completing the tasks assigned by the team. But some people cannot integrate into other people's teams, and they want to have a team led by themselves. Maybe... I am the type of person. I want to start a business now, and this is the reason."

"What I want to tell you is... don't look down on yourself too much. Everyone will definitely have their own position in society. What we are doing now is to find this position through constant attempts."

Yi Xin didn't know if she had expressed her meaning clearly. After saying so much in one breath, she was a little embarrassed. Xie Shaochen looked at her, but for a while, he couldn't help laughing.

"You are still like this. You obviously have a lot of things, but as long as you see others unhappy, you will still enlighten them."

A look of ease appeared between his eyebrows, but soon, sadness was added again.

"I'm happy to know you, but knowing me may be a disaster for you."

"Not either," Yi Xin quickly explained, "There are still a lot of happiness..."

She wanted to find something happy, but the more she was deliberate, the less she could find a clue. Seeing her distressed look, Xie Shaochen couldn't help laughing again.

"Before today, there was something I had been thinking about whether to tell you. Although it might be meaningless to say it now, I'd better say it. I... I'm sorry, I let you go through all this."

"Actually... you don't have to apologize to me." Yi Xin stopped talking. In fact, if he could apologize to Senior Sister Song Panlei, she would be happier. But she also knew that he would definitely not like to listen to this, and Senior Sister would not want to see him again, so she finally endured it and didn't say it.

When she was secretly worried, Xie Shaochen suddenly pulled her. Yi Xin came to her senses again and happened to see a motorcycle racing by in front of her. If she had just walked over in a daze, she might have been hit right now. She was startled and hurriedly thanked him: "Thank you."

Next, she also plucked up the courage to apologize for what her family said to him in the clinic last time.

After all, I chose to be friends with him at the beginning, and it was really not necessary to say that he was bothering me.

Seeing that she was still so simple and kind, Xie Shaochen couldn't help but feel guilty for his thoughts of revenge. He said a little stiffly: "Your family also wants to protect you, but I don't take it to heart."

At this moment, he was suddenly extremely glad that Mo Qianlong persuaded him. If she had done something terrible, she would not have spoken to him so kindly now.

"Well, how do you say it..." Yi Xin hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to say it to him. She tried her best to express it tactfully, "Malicious words are very hurtful. I don't want others to hurt you, nor do I want you to hurt others. I hope everyone around me can do it well."

Xie Shaochen was silent. Maybe he couldn't give her such a promise in the end.

No matter how long the street is, it will eventually come to an end. As soon as he parted, he finally took the initiative to provoke a cruel topic.

"Then...it's almost the same. Anyway, we have contact information. If you still want to chat with me in the future, then you can come to me and I will definitely reply to you. If you don't look for me, then I won't take the initiative to look for you, so as not to make you embarrassed."

Yi Xin got stuck: "Ah... I actually haven't been chatting with people. I've been studying most of the time and have been studying by myself recently... So don't think too much, you can still find me!"

Xie Shaochen lowered his head and said nothing. His smile was bitter at the moment, but there was also a hint of relief in the bitterness.

She was really kind and was still giving both sides a step until this time, but the meaning in her words was already very obvious, and she would no longer take the initiative to look for herself.

Then, in order to avoid making things difficult for her, I should not disturb her anymore.

But it's good that after today's exchange, his knot was untied. Now he voluntarily gave up on her, instead of forcing others to give up on her. And she said she could still contact her, although it was just a polite word, but this made him feel that he had not completely lost her.

"My parents, I will find an opportunity to tell them that we have broken up and told them not to contact you anymore." He offered to resolve these subsequent troubles for her.

Yi Xin bit her lip lightly, and a hint of reluctance flashed in her eyes: "Uncles and aunts are all very good people... I don't want them to worry too much. If you just chat with them occasionally, you can still do it. Otherwise, we will break up after you really find your own happiness?"

"I know that there is no hope for my life and the one I like the most. I really hope...you will be happy." Finally, she stared at him and said seriously her wishes.

Xie Shaochen couldn't help asking, "Since you like it so much, why don't you try hard to win it?"

Yi Xin shook his head gently: "I can see that Brother Xiao is very happy now, he is very happy with Sister Liang. I don't want to destroy them. Isn't it just that I love someone just to hope that he can get the best happiness?"

Looking at the satisfaction on her face, the satisfaction she possessed because of Rong Xiao's happiness, Xie Shaochen sighed and no longer interfered with her choice.

"...You are indeed an angel. An angel who always cares about others." At the end, he just sighed like this.

Now, they have reached a crossroads.

"Then... I'll go here." Yi Xin pointed lightly in the right direction.

Xie Shaochen nodded and glanced to the left: "I'll go over there."

In this way, they embarked on a path of contradictoryness and never looked back.

Xie Shaochen was still staying there, watching Yi Xin's back gradually fading away until he merged into the brilliance of the sunset and was blurred into a small silhouette. Sure enough, she was the one who was destined to walk into the light.

After watching her walk away, Xie Shaochen took the opposite direction. Their shadows were pulled long and soon they merged with many shadows on the street. It seemed to indicate that they would have their own lives, they would know new friends, and find new homes. And there would be no intersection for the rest of their lives.

It was not until this time that Xie Shaochen gently exhaled a breath of turbid air pressing between his heart.

She used to be the only light in her life, her last conscience, and now, her last conscience is gone.

She will become a better person, and herself will become someone who will never be worthy of her anymore.

Some people dispersed as they walked.
Chapter completed!