The crazy hatred in Xie Yan's eyes scared me so much that I took a step back, and my whole body was stiff and I dared not move. My intuition told me that Xie Yan's hatred at this time not only came from the Queen's deliberate humiliation, but also from my unwarranted peeping.

Just like, just like, on the day I confessed my love to Xie Yan, Yuan Ye loudly ridiculed the love poem I wrote in front of everyone, and the hatred, fear, inferiority, shame and anger arose in my heart.

Or maybe it's like, you are used to doing despicable things behind your back, and you are used to being ridiculed and ridiculed by everyone, but you have never let the people you cherish see this.

You hope that in that person's eyes, you will always be as cold as the bright moon in the sky, as noble as the gods of the nine heavens, inviolable and inviolable, worthy of the eternal watch of believers.

But the false pretense was broken unexpectedly, your glorious statue collapsed, and the believers left after being stunned, leaving only the empty temple and you abandoned.

At this moment, Xie Yan and I could only see each other across the sea of ​​people.

I saw the raging hatred and fleeting regret in his eyes, but soon, the emotion in his eyes was replaced by indifference. He stood up, just like when we first met, cold, distant, and dust-free, his eyes

Nothing.

I no longer exist.

I suddenly understood Xie Yan's mood swings in the past few days. He must have expected that the queen would humiliate her in every possible way at the birthday banquet, so he never thought of bringing me here. However, by some strange combination of circumstances, I came anyway.

I shouldn't have come.

I sighed and looked over to Xie Yan. He had already stood up and followed the Queen into the palace. His thin back was a little slender in the night wind, and the hem of his clothes undulated with the breeze, like a lonely crane.

He didn't look back at me again.

I suddenly felt distressed and had a terrible suspicion. If I didn't do something to redeem myself, Xie Yan might not see me again, and all the entanglements between us would end here.

When I thought about this, I felt as if my heart was being grasped and squeezed tightly by a pair of invisible hands. It hurt so much that I couldn't breathe.

I can't lose my thanks, never.

I found a palace servant to help me bring the calligraphy to my father, and left him a message, and then I ordered the sedan chair to go to the Prince's Mansion.

I sat and waited in the pavilion at the entrance. This was the only way for Xie Yan to enter. And now at night, there were almost no people wandering around, so I could talk to him.

But I waited for a long time, but Xie Yan didn't come back, which was very unusual. Xie Yan didn't like drinking, nor did he like these noisy banquets, so even if there were any banquets before, he would not come back so late.

But I always had great patience with Xie Yan, and I was even prepared to sit there all night, watching the bright moon in the sky sink to the treetops, before Xie Yan would come back.

His steps were steady, but a little sloppy than usual. I called him quickly and smiled flatteringly at him, "Thank you! Thank you! I'm here!"

He heard my voice and turned to look at me. His eyes were cold and his face was frosty. He slowly walked into the pavilion, and then I smelled the strong smell of alcohol on his body.

Xie Yan must have drank a lot of wine tonight to have such a strong smell of alcohol. Usually when I attend banquets with him, he hardly drinks at all, but today, he drank so arrogantly.

"How much have you drunk? I'll make you a bowl of hangover soup."

I secretly observed Xie Yan's expression, and saw that his face was as cold as jade, but his thin lips were gleaming with water, and his breath was full of the arrogance of strong alcohol. I don't like drinking, and I can't stand the smell of alcohol. I can't help it.

Frowning and sighing.

When Xie Yan saw my reaction, he suddenly went crazy.

He suddenly pushed me against the wooden pillar of the pavilion, and grabbed the flesh of my cheek with his cold palms. He leaned down and got very close to me, so close that his lips were about to touch mine.

I could even smell the pleasant cold fragrance on his body covered by the strong smell of alcohol. I couldn't bear it, so I turned my head away, but he was furious.

"You look at me like a dog today. Are you satisfied?"

"I thank you for living a life that is worse than that of a dog. How about that? Are you afraid?"

"Feng Jiuyue, you are a liar."

I have never seen Xie Yan with such a terrifying expression. His gray eyes reflected the cold moon, like the cold frost and snow in winter, which almost froze me to death. His hands were also very cold, and they clamped down on mine tightly. Cheek flesh, so hard that my tears fell unconsciously.

He seemed to be waiting for my answer. He was always very close, and his breath fell on my face and ears, as terrifying as the entanglement of a poisonous snake.

I'm a little scared, the thank you in my heart shouldn't be like this.

He is an upright gentleman. He has saved me from fire and water several times. He is calm and self-possessed. Even when he saved me that day, he was not at all confused.

But why, he seems so strange to me now.

"Feng Jiuyue," Xie Yan's voice came faintly, like a devil's whisper, and his kisses kept falling on my ear, making me tremble all over, "Do you still like me?"

Do I still like it?

At this time, I just felt very panicked and scared. I could only rely on my instinct to curl up to the other side, trying to avoid Xie Yan's kiss on my face, but he suddenly laughed in a low voice, his voice was cold and cold, and his eyes were deep. Like a raging wave, I was frightened, "Feng Jiuyue, you liar."

After saying this, he picked me up in a hug like a child. His hands grabbed my waist with such force that my waist must have been bruised. He lifted me up effortlessly and placed me on the table in the center of the pavilion.

The table was made of fine cold jade. It was still a summer night, but I was lying on the jade table, but I felt a bone-crushing chill.

I desperately curled up my body, and Xie Yan didn't stop me. He stood up straight and looked at me with his eyes lowered. His nose was sharp and his gray eyes were cold. He looked at me with eyes that were like ice quenching the deep sea, with an obscure expression. fire.

He stretched out his fingertips and slowly traced them along my eyebrows and the small moles under my eyes, all the way to the tip of my nose, lips, and neck. Everywhere he touched, it made me tremble.

I don't know what he is going to do, but I am very afraid that he will continue to explore. If this continues, my deformed body will be exposed, which is absolutely not allowed.

I tightened my clothes in panic, propped myself up slightly, and tried to communicate with Xie Yan. Because of fear, I stuttered a little, "Xie, Xie Yan, you, what happened to you today?"

Xie Yan didn't answer me. He seemed to be immersed in his own world and only cared about his own emotions. He lowered his body and was very close to me. He kissed me carefully from the small mole under my eyes, all the way down. In the neck.

He seemed to be venting his anger and bit my neck painfully. I reached out to push him, but he subdued me with only one hand.

"If you break your promise in September, you will have to pay the price."

Xie Yan's voice sounded coldly, like the final cry of a death knell. He raised my hands above my head and began to untie my belt.

"No, thank you, don't do this, I'm scared."

I tried to break free from the shackles of the belt, but found that I couldn't break free. Now I am like fish on the chopping board, letting Xie Yan slaughter me. I hate my body even more. If I can be as strong as Xie Yan, I can't.

Don't be so controlled by others.

"Crying?"

Perhaps hearing my uncontrollable crying, Xie Yan stopped what he was doing, stopped untying my belt, and touched the end of my eyes.

His slender fingertips were stained with my tears, and he put them into his mouth to taste them carefully, and then said coldly, "The tears of a little liar cannot be trusted."

He untied my belt and tied my hands with them. I cried so much that I couldn't breathe. I was panting fiercely. I kept twisting my wrists. The breath in my chest seemed to be sucked out instantly, and my heart ached.

Like it's going to explode.

I wanted to call out Xie Yan's name but couldn't. Tears kept flowing. In my hazy consciousness, I suddenly understood the "scam" Xie Yan said.

In Xie Yan's eyes, I just invaded his life forcefully with superficial love, but after seeing all the misery he had, I wanted to withdraw in fear.

But I didn't want to quit at all.

Almost from the moment I began to gasp for breath, Xie Yan stopped all his frivolous actions. He lifted his head from my shoulders, hugged me decisively, and walked quickly into the bedroom.

Crossing the water with my mouth stabilized my breathing.

When my breathing gradually calmed down, he took his hands off my back, untied the belt on my hands, and placed me on the couch. His movements were smooth and flowing, clearly with careful comfort and care.

But he told me, "Get lost."

I was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to react, but Xie Yan took a step ahead of me and turned away from my eyes.

He was obviously the owner of the dormitory, and he was the one who told me to get out, but he was the one who left in the end. When I came back to my senses, I could only see his somewhat embarrassed back, and then I thought of his back at the banquet, lonely,

Being alone is like being abandoned by the whole world.

I thought of what happened to him when he was a child, and suddenly I figured out, Xie Yan was indeed abandoned by the world, but now that I'm here, why do I have to make him so sad!

I really am nothing!

I almost ran over, stretched out my arms and hugged his thin waist, and buried my face on his back. My voice was trembling but firm, "Thank you, don't misunderstand me. I'm serious.

I really, really like you."

I don’t know why I shed tears very easily when I meet Xie Yan. Just like now, while I was crying, I explained to him, “I don’t think you are a dog, I just feel terribly distressed. If I could have known you earlier,

That’s good, I will be good to you, very good, invincible good to you.”

"I really like you. No matter what you have done in the past, I like it. I didn't lie to you, and I didn't break my promise. I will always like you. Don't drive me away."

"I won't leave, don't be afraid."

"I will keep pestering you until you fall in love with me. I will be your crown princess and then your queen. We will always be together."

"If you really want to do what you just did, I'm willing too."

From the moment I hugged Xie Yan, I clearly felt that his back stiffened for a moment. He did not turn around, but I knew that he was listening carefully. When I poured out my heart, Xie Yan still did not look back. I just

You can shamelessly turn to him and see his expression.

He still looked at me condescendingly and arrogantly. Because of his foreign ancestry, his eye sockets were very deep and his gray pupils were very deep. When he looked down at me, he looked a little inhumane and had a sense of contempt. I didn't dare to argue with him.

, could only cast his gaze elsewhere, but was shocked to find that Xie Yan's ears were actually red.

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