Xie Yan hugged me very tightly, which also caused me a lot of pain. His expression was gloomy and cold that I had never seen before, and his gray eyes were heavy, like a lifeless but turbulent black sea.

His iron-like arms trapped me in his arms, and his fingers held on to my arms tightly, as if he was using all his strength to hold the sand passing by in his hands, and as if he was desperately holding on to what belonged to him.

Precious treasures that began to disappear out of thin air.

I didn’t understand the reason why he suddenly became like this, but I could feel that he was very insecure at the moment and desperately needed my promise and comfort, so I tried my best to relax my limbs and let him hold me tightly, hiding meekly in his arms.

In his arms, Mr. Dong Guo was like a man who was bewitched by an evil wolf and knew no danger.

I was filled with doubts about Xie Yan's strange reaction, and I wanted to ask him why he said that, but I subconsciously felt that he wouldn't tell me.

Based on my understanding of Xie Yan, the way he treats me is similar to the way my father treats me. Although the attitudes are different, in the end they both reach the same goal through different paths.

Xie Yan often treats me like an ignorant child. He supervises me in reading, writing and playing chess. He doesn’t allow me to go out on the street to cause trouble. He also doesn’t allow me to talk to others. I often just say a few words to others.

You want to show off to me.

Speaking of which, I am more like a child he raised. Whenever I disobey, he will give me a cold look. Although he is not my father, he is more strict than my father in monitoring and restraining me.

No matter how difficult things were, he never told me, he just kept them in his heart. His handsome face was as cold as ice and frowning all day long. Even if I asked hard, I would not get a clear answer, it seemed.

He was afraid that I would ruin his affairs.

And I really don’t have any strong skills. Even if I know the ins and outs of the matter, I will probably only cause trouble for him. So at times like this, although I am angry, I have learned to be silent and sleepy.

Sometimes I hate myself for being too stupid, incompetent, and unable to help much. But then I think, maybe my father and Xie Yan don’t need my help, they just want me to be nice and not cause trouble.

alright.

So I patted Xie Yan's back obediently and said in a very gentle tone, as if comforting an extremely uneasy dog, "I will believe you. No matter what happens in the future, even if the sky falls, I will wait."

You come to me."

"Now that you have become my husband, I will naturally put you first. Whatever you say will be whatever it is, but with you acting like this now, I'm a little worried."

Although my words sounded so nice, I didn't think so in my heart. I was just saying nice words to persuade you to thank me.

I don’t know why, although my heart is full of passionate love for Xie Yan, there is no trace of trust in this heavy love. Since the last time he told me to listen to the story of his puppy, I subconsciously asked the question

It's evident.

I don't believe in Xie Yan, or in other words, I don't believe that I can make Xie Yan fall in love with me and choose me in the balance between power and me.

From this period of time together, I think I have a complete understanding of Xie Yan. He is cold-hearted, aloof, keen on the pursuit of power, and has an indifferent attitude towards other things.

It must have taken endless hardships, blood and tears for him to rise from a powerless son of a singer to the position of noble prince he is today. How can I make him give up everything he has worked so hard for over the years for me?

Even if one day in the future I will become his victim in exchange for supreme power, I am fully mentally prepared.

If that day really comes, I have no reason to hate him. After all, I took the initiative to like him willingly. It's not his fault that he doesn't like me. He loves power more.

I can't just ask him to repay me in equal measure just because I love him wholeheartedly.

Like and love are never a transaction.

If I want to use my infatuation to hold Xie Yan's likes and loves hostage, then the money will have to be compared and the differences will be so clear, this love will become insincere and philistine.

I don't want this.

After Xie Yan got my promise, he slowly relaxed his grip on me. Although he still held me tightly, at least it wasn't the suffocating intensity just now.

I breathed a sigh of relief and looked up at him, only to find that his eyes were filled with red bloodshot eyes due to excessive emotions, his face was a little pale, and he had an uneasy look on his face. He then said to me, "Now that we are married, it's your father's business."

Always put it after me, I think you care more about me."

He said it tactfully, but I understood the underlying meaning of his words, which was that he wanted me to choose him between my father and him.

But how could I do it? Not only could I not do it, I couldn't even lie to him or coax him at this time.

I looked at the hope that appeared on Xie Yan's calm gray eyes, and quickly looked away, not daring to look at him. I just shook my head firmly, "I can do everything else, but daddy is always the most important.

, after daddy, you are the one, and besides daddy, I like you the most."

I was worried that Xie Yan would be unhappy, so I quickly kissed the corner of his lips to please him and coaxed, "I like you the most. I would even give you my body and tell you all my secrets. You still don't believe it."

Am I sincere?"

I slyly avoided Xie Yan's question and gave him the answer tactfully. My choice has never changed. Between Xie Yan and my father, I choose my father.

Why can't I have Xie Yan and Daddy at the same time?

I feel from the bottom of my heart that there is no need to ask Xie Yan's question. I love both of them very much, and we will live together well in the future. When I think of this, I feel less guilty about Xie Yan, and I will be happy with the future.

The beautiful blueprint slowly unfolded before his eyes.

"Why do you always have to compare yourself with my dad? We will eventually be together in the future, and my dad will also be your dad in the future. Let's honor him together, okay? Why do you always have to ask these questions?"

My words gave the two of us a step up, making the fact that I did not choose Xie Yan seem less cruel, and the fact that Xie Yan was not chosen seemed less embarrassing.

Xie Yan's thin lips pursed into a straight line at this moment, as if he was carefully considering my answer. A trace of loneliness flashed through his cold eyes, and his eyes were as cold as the heavy snow in winter.

He pursed his lips and chose to give in. He held my cheek with his cool fingertips, and his deep eyes seemed to want to see into my heart, like bright lights illuminating my deliberate avoidance.

Xie Yan has never been someone who is easily fooled. My overtly complimentary and covertly derogatory answer hurt his face, but there was no sullen emotion on his face. Instead, he showed gentle tolerance, his long eyelashes were fluttering, and there seemed to be love in his eyes.

.The flow of ambiguous emotions.

I was too slow to understand Xie Yan's eyes, and I only heard him sigh, as if he had made a difficult decision, and spoke to me after a long time.

"Since you have chosen your father, then promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will trust me. Wait until I come to find you, do you understand?"

I couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed. Xie Yan saw through my clever cover-up in the blink of an eye. He just nodded in embarrassment, "I will believe you, I will like you, and I will wait for you."

"Feng Jiuyue," Xie Yan stared at me, as if he wanted to see how sincere I was in my eyes, and wanted to know how serious my words were.

I could only accept his inspection with the most serious and cautious attitude. His eyes were like the cold vertical pupils of a poisonous snake, looking me up and down, which made me shudder.

He grabbed the back of my neck like a pet and forced me to look him in the eyes. There was no impurity in his beautiful eyes, only overly serious stubbornness.

His slightly cold fingertips rubbed and caressed the side of my face, and his voice was cold and full of warning, "If you lied to me, I won't let you go."

I knew that this was his usual tactic of using both soft and hard tactics. Often when he said this, he was quite satisfied with my answer, and I was fooled.

I didn't take his strong and cunning attitude to heart, I just nodded pretending to be serious, snuggled into his arms again, and reminded me with a blushing face, "When are you going to have sex?"

After saying this, I blushed from my cheeks to the tips of my ears, secretly hating myself for being so proactive.

But the other person is Xie Yan. He is so good-looking and I like him so much. Isn’t it normal for me to want to get close to him?

Thinking of this, I felt confident again and took the initiative to wrap my arms around Xie Yan's neck. As I moved, my sleeves fell to my shoulders, exposing a large area of ​​skin on my hands.

Although I consider myself ugly, my skin is not inferior to Xie Yan's by nature, and is even a bit whiter than Xie Yan's. Xie Yan's whiteness is the kind of cold white that is better than frost and snow, and mine is

The white color makes her look more girly, like a little girl with pink spots from her fingertips to her knees.

Xie Yan's eyes followed my movements and fell on my arm. The moonlight came to my hand without knowing when. He looked at the moonlight in ecstasy, his eyes became deeper and deeper, and he stared at me like a wolf.

wrist.

When I saw the look in his eyes, I felt a little scared, and then I remembered the picture album I had read before. In it, whether it was between men or between men and women, the expressions on the bottom looked very painful. I suddenly felt a little scared. This was my first time. If this was my first time,

What should I do if I faint from pain? Wouldn't that be embarrassing?

Xie Yan seemed to sense my intention to retreat. He grabbed the hands I was trying to escape from and tied my hands behind my back.

Because my hands were restrained, I unconsciously raised my chest in this position. The current situation is that I am sitting on Xie Yan's lap, and my hands are tied behind him with one hand, as if I am holding myself back.

It's like bringing your body to the other person's mouth.

I felt ashamed and angry, but Xie Yan didn't let me hide. His next movement made me breathe unbalanced. Through the thin clothes, he accurately bit my spring clothes. He already had canine teeth, but now those sharp ones

The canine teeth hit the vital position. My eyes were red, and my voice was trembling as I begged, "Thank you, please open your mouth, relax, and let go of me."

Most of the clothes I wore when sleeping were light and thin, as thick as a man's. They were no different from gauze and the material was silk, which made it extremely unbearable. I wriggled my hands, twisting like a disobedient caterpillar.

It moves, but it’s more like resisting and welcoming.

Xie Yan didn't let me go. He seemed to enjoy my unconscious movements. The tip of his tongue was wet and sticky, slowly running over my white teeth, like a wolf enjoying delicious food. He restrained both of my penis with one hand.

The other hand leisurely controlled my waist, forcing me to shake it gently. I was so angry that I almost cried, with burning anger in my eyes.

But he continued to hold me leisurely, moving his hands back and forth, his eyebrows slightly raised, and his lips slightly curved.

He suddenly pulled my wrist back, raised my neck high, lowered my head, as if tasting some delicious delicacies, and said slowly, "Let go? Why are you throwing yourself at me if you let me go?"

hug?"

Obviously! Obviously! He almost broke my wrists and made me assume that posture, but the villain complained first.

My eyes were red with anger, and I stared at him fiercely, trying to convey my anger with my eyes.

But when Xie Yan looked at me like this, he became even more excited and bit me again and again. I had never experienced such a thing before, and tears fell down from my eyes.

Although Xie Yan has a weird personality, he doesn't like to see me cry. Every time I cry, he will make some concessions to me.

For example, he would force me to write on weekdays, and I would insist on going to eat snacks or go out to play with cats and dogs, but he would not allow it every time. At such times, I would cry. When he saw my tears, he would always cry.

He would kiss my eyelids very irritably, and then he would agree to my request.

I was just relying on him to be soft-hearted to me that I started to cry, but Xie Yan just gave me a serious look, and suddenly came close to my ear and said to me, "Save it for a while to cry."

Xie Yan was indeed very powerful, and he guessed exactly how I would react. I did cry a lot and kept begging for mercy, but Xie Yan was so hard-hearted that he disturbed me in every possible way.

Even after the collapse, he didn’t want to let me go.
To be continued...