I was so drunk that I felt dizzy when I figured out this layer. Yuan Ye and the boy suddenly had dozens of shadows, swaying in front of me.

"My good brother, are you okay?" Yuan Ye said nicely, but his body did not move.

This is great, I don't want him to touch me at all. For me, his whole body exudes a pickled smell, no difference from walking corpses.

I waved my hand, forced myself to stand up, and returned home with a slight pace.

When I was secretly returning to the room, I saw that the lights in my father's study were still on, and I couldn't help but sniffing the smell of alcohol on my body. Sure enough, the door of the study opened in response to the sound.

"Xiaoqiu, why did you drink?" My father asked me with a slightly frown of eyebrows, his tone full of helplessness.

My fear is most afraid of seeing my father frowning. When I was a child, I was bullied outside. He frowned and comforted me, with the heartache and anger that could not be hidden in his eyes.

"I'm so happy today, so I'll drink a few more drinks! Daddy, you have to go to bed early! Don't be too busy until too late! Xiaoqiu will feel distressed!" I smiled at him happily, reached out to smooth the Sichuan-shaped pattern between his eyebrows, and exclaimed, "This is my most handsome and powerful dad!"

"You are eighteen years old and not yet a regular person!" He said this, but his face smiled, "You go to the room to rest first, and Daddy will make you a bowl of sobering soup."

As he said, I went to the kitchen. My mind was a little swollen. I only leaned half of my body on the back railing and stared at his back.

Although my father is a literati, his shoulders are wide and his arms are strong, and he feels elegant when he walks. When I was a child, I often lay on his back and acted coquettishly. His back always gives me a sense of security. He is always tall and powerful, my father.

After drinking the sobering soup in a daze, I finally felt better. At least my head was no longer so heavy, and my messy thoughts began to flow in my mind again.

The spring night breeze was slightly cool. I put my spring shirt on and walked to the window. I wanted to close the window, but suddenly I ran into the moonlight. The cold and arrogant moon looked at me from afar.

White as frost, cold as snow, keeping people thousands of miles away, but it is so beautiful. Xie Yan is like this bright moon, I wonder when it will come into my arms?

I sighed and closed the window reluctantly.

Still unable to fall asleep.

I have been with eleven years, but this is the first time I have such a strange secret. A man likes men, and he is so shocked in Jiang Chao. I feel selfishly that I am a monster, but I also feel that there is no fault in this love.

I want Xie Yan to know what I want.

In the days that followed, I began to think of Xie Yan frequently. I pretended to pass by the Prince's Mansion every day, but I didn't know if he was deliberately hiding from me.

I waited for an hour in front of the prince's mansion that day, and was circulated by someone who was interested for several rounds. In the end, I was rejected by Xie Yan's recommendation for the pillow and seat.

I really have nothing to say, I just regret that I was not born strong enough. If I were as tall as my father, those people would probably say that I wanted to stick to Xie Yan and become his close friend. It would be much better than recommending a pillow mat.

I began to look forward to the arrival of various banquets, because I could see Xie Yan. I read many books for this. Since Xie Yan didn't want to see me or talk to me, I would write to him and secretly hand it over to him.

But I didn't have any ink in my belly. After spending several days in the study, I could only write down the bright moonlight in front of the bed, which was suspected to be frost on the ground.

And my handwriting is really hard to reach the elegant hall. It is twisted and twisted, like a strange caterpillar. I regret very much why I didn’t study hard at the beginning. I regretted that I was the portrayal of my current life when I was working.

In order to practice my calligraphy well, I spent all day in the study, and finally practiced my calligraphy more clearly on the eve of the banquet. I didn't want Xie Yan to get my letter but couldn't understand a word for a long time.

I also dressed up specifically and wore the spruce that my father gave me on my 18th birthday. The spruce was extremely thin and the floating embroidery of wisteria flowers covered with it. It was embroidered by my father who found several embroidery ladies to work for three months. It made me look longer and my hands and feet and my clothes look graceful.

More importantly, this wisteria flower was my mother's favorite flower during her lifetime. I went to see Xie Yan in this outfit and asked my mother to see Xie Yan in person.

This dinner was really lively. It was a full moon wine for the little prince. The emperor left the table early, leaving only some young noble children to drink and chat.

I observed Xie Yan for a long time. Today, he wore a crescent-white brocade robe, with a jade crown tied with hair. He sat in the moonlight and looked more and more out of the world. I was afraid that in the blink of an eye, he would become immortal.

After waiting for a long time, I finally waited until he left the seat and followed immediately. I grabbed the letter in my sleeve tightly, and I was so nervous that I started to sweat on my forehead. All my attention was on Xie Yan and I didn't pay attention to the movement behind me.

Xie Yan didn't leave quickly, but he was much taller than me, and it was very difficult for me to follow him. Finally, he stopped in front of a pavilion and slowly turned around, his gray eyes as quiet as the sea.

Behind him were countless flowers waving in the wind, and the fragrance of flowers broke into my nose with the spring breeze. My breathing became rapid. I stretched out my hand and lowered my head, trying to hand him the letter wet with the sweat in my palm, "Great, Prince, thank you for your life-saving grace."

"Hahahahaha, I'll just say that this little girl, Xiao Xiang, Your Highness, you don't believe it yet, now you'll be open to your eyes!"

"Come on, come on, come on, little girl is missing her spring!"

Yuan Ye's voice came from behind me, and the originally quiet pavilion was immediately filled with noisy footsteps. He suddenly rushed to me and took the letter away.

The blood in my body became cold, as if I fell into the ice cellar in the cold winter, and a dense chill came out from the cracks of my bones.

"Thank you, thank you for your life-saving grace."

"The geeks are singing in the river island, and the beautiful man is a gentleman, and can you have the honor to be able to raft on the lake with you?"

"Hahahahahaha, this little girl can also write poetry! Everyone listen!"

"Hahahahaha!"

"Hahaha!"

As soon as Yuan Ye finished speaking, the dog legs that followed him began to burst into laughter. I looked at the golden boots on Xie Yan's feet and shook unvoluntarily. Many pictures were spinning in my mind. The children's rampant laughter, accompanied by the sounds of "monsters", made my mind explode, and I couldn't tell what tonight.

"This young lady who is neither male nor female actually wants to be the crown princess!" Yuan Ye felt that it was not enough, so he walked towards me slowly, smiling sarcastically and coldly, "There is still something behind me, do you want me to continue reading?"

Not only did his words stimulate me, I screamed and rushed towards him, yelling, "Give it back to me! Give it back to me! You bastard!"

Yuan Ye was much taller than me. He raised the letter high, but I couldn't get it. I even accidentally fell to the ground. My face was rubbed by the gravel on the ground, and the wisteria flowers on my sleeves were covered with the mud on the ground. I stared at the stained pattern and burst into tears silently. Will my mother see me in such a mess?

"Yuan Ye, shut up."

Xie Yan's words were brief but with an indescribable meaning. The laughter and wanton bullying all came to an abrupt end at this moment.

"Crown Prince, do you also have any intention of him?" Yuan Ye seemed unbelievable and asked Xie Yan in a low voice.

Xie Yan left a cold sentence "You are too noisy" and turned around and left. I looked at his back as he was leaving and suddenly felt sad. Why am I always so embarrassed in front of him?

I didn't know how I left such a miserable scene that night, but Xie Yan's words really worked. Yuan Ye cursed fiercely for several times, and then left without looking back. I lost the strength to care about him.

The servant parked the sedan chair at the gate of the palace. Xiaoman's face was full of worry and wanted to reach out to help me, "Young master, are you okay?"

"I'm fine," I waved my hand as usual, "You guys go back first, I'll walk by myself. Don't tell my dad about it tonight."

Xiaoman knew that he could not resist me, so he could only turn around and leave.

The distance between the palace gate and my house was neither long nor short. It was late at night, and there were no pedestrians on the road. The bluestone road was wet with night dew. The spruce lights were like fluorescent ghost fires. The wind on the spring night was slightly cool, and the spruce on my body could hardly be blocked. I felt a bone-broken cold, and even my tongue began to tremble.

There was a stinging pain on my face, and a salty and wet droplets touched the side of my injured face. Only then did I realize that I was crying.

Those nightmares of childhood were caught in my mind unexpectedly, with childish insults, sharp and lonely crying, my pretended strength over the years was completely broken at this moment.

I'm really useless.

I couldn't cry and could hardly stand up. Fortunately, there were no pedestrians on the street, so my ugly appearance would not be seen by anyone. But suddenly there were rapid footsteps in the distance, and my father's figure appeared in front of me.

He seemed to be in a hurry, his regular clothes were a little messy, and his expression on his face was as distressed and anxious as he looked when he was young.

"Xiaoqiu, Dad is here." When he saw me, a loving smile appeared on his face and opened his arms to me.

I wiped away the tears on my face and threw them into his arms like I did when I was a child. His hand patted me behind me with a soothing feeling, "Dad is here, don't be afraid, don't cry."

I whispered and showed him the dirty spruce, "Dad, my clothes are dirty."

"It's okay, just wash it and it's clean." Dad didn't understand my obscure thoughts, so he kept comforting me. He saw the scratches on my face again, and a trace of sinister flashed in his eyes, and said coldly, "I will make him pay the price."

I don't want to make this big deal. After all, my father and General Zhenbei are now the emperor's right-hand man. Yuan Ye's father holds heavy troops and cannot be offended easily. I can only say, "Dad, I'm fine, they are just kidding me."

"Is this how the joke is? Dad is also joking with them." My dad has his own idea. He didn't seem to want to continue discussing this topic, and asked me with a smile, "Does Xiaoqiu want to be friends with His Royal Highness the Crown Prince?"

I couldn't tell my father the real thoughts in my heart. Those rebellious thoughts would definitely scare him, so I could only nod my head obediently.

"My Xiaoqiu wants to make friends with someone for the first time. She still works so hard, and Dad will help you."

My father did not associate my behavior with his admiration. He only thought I was lonely and wanted to find a friend. While he said that, he took out his handkerchief and gently wiped away the mud from my face. Then he took me up and walked slowly with me on the way home.

My father's palms were wide and warm, giving me infinite strength. I suddenly felt that the grievances I suffered were insignificant.

I went home for a few days to recuperate, and the abrasions on my face healed, but my father suddenly told me that he had asked me to take the post of the prince's servant and asked me to go to the prince's mansion to report tomorrow.
Chapter completed!