I once thought that between me and Xie Yan, he was the only one who was crazy. Now it seems that I am not much better. If I never take the past to heart, why am I so worried about Xie Yan’s past actions?

Pregnant?

Maybe it was because I liked him too much before. After I let go of him, I thought about the past and felt a thorn in my back, like a lump in my throat. I even lost control of my emotions and did such ridiculous and shameless things.

I still remember that when they used to humiliate me on Yuan Ye, they always called me "little whore, little bitch, little bitch," and I wanted to cut their tongues into pieces.

But what did I do in front of Xie Yan today?

I frivolously took off all my clothes, and even boldly grabbed his slender neck. What's the difference between these actions and those young men in men's shops who recommend themselves to pillow mats? Maybe these brothel prostitutes are more reserved and shy than me.

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Ha, Feng Jiuyue, even if you live a new life, you still haven't made any progress at all. No wonder those people looked down on you before and called you a useless idiot.

The depression in my heart is hard to get rid of, and I even feel a severe pain in my chest. How does Xie Yan look at me now? Is he laughing at me for letting me go, or is he laughing at me for my own humiliation? I have no way of knowing.

Although I have been with Xie Yan for a long time and even done the most intimate things, I don't understand him at all. He used to be like a misty cloud in my heart, and I could only see the outside.

The immortal aura floats around, and I can recognize a vague shadow, but I can't find out the real trace or pry into his true heart.

Why didn't he speak at this time? Was he secretly laughing at me in his heart?

I looked at him with full of dissatisfaction, only to find that he didn't look at me the whole time. He only tilted his head to look at the peach blossom tree outside the window.

Liu Xiahui still wants to remain calm in her arms.

But after I looked carefully, I discovered that his long eyelashes were trembling slightly, like a butterfly flapping its wings. His cold white face was calm, his thin lips were slightly pursed, and the tips of his ears were stained with red.

, the eye-catching red flowers spread all the way to the neck, like cold jade dyed with pink, or like a drop of pastel falling into the clean water, causing ripples.

He didn't dare to look at me, or even touch me. The veins on his hands hanging by his side were bulging, as if he was trying his best to contain his emotions. It turned out that Xie Yan was not unmoved. He was being patient and suppressing those emotions with his reason.

Thoughts about me.

So it turns out that my body is so attractive to Xie Yan? But thinking about it, he used to pretend to be a gentleman and had nothing to ask for. On the night of the bridal chamber, he not only tortured me to death, but also insisted on

He forced me to say some shameful words to coax him, and then he was willing to let me rest for a while.

At this time, my body was tightly pressed against his, my breath fell gently on his neck, and my two slender arms wrapped around him like vines. I would not let him go unless he spoke to me.

meaning.

"Xiao Qiu." Xie Yan hesitated for a long time and finally spoke to me. As expected, he didn't look at me from beginning to end and still regarded me as Xiao Qiu. His voice was a little hoarse, as if he was suppressing unspeakable thoughts.

, the hand hanging by my side loosened and tightened, and then I finally plucked up the courage to put it gently on my head, stroking the broken hair on my forehead, speaking softly and slowly, and the look on my face was unconsciously filled with love.

Zhu said, "Be good."

Yes, this is Xie Yan's usual trick.

In the past, every time he pissed me off, he would always touch my head and tell me to be good, but I have always been very good. Because of that hopeless love, I was almost obedient to him, trying to please him in every possible way.

.But in the end all I got was heart-wrenching betrayal. What did I do wrong?

"You'll catch a cold if you do this." He said this, then he wrapped his arms around my waist with a heavy breath, and brought his body closer to me, as if he wanted to transfer the warmth of his body to me.

Now the state of the two of us is that I stand on tiptoes hard and wrap my hands around Xie Yan's neck. His cold hands wrap around my waist loosely. Such an intimate distance makes all changes inseparable.

Escape everywhere.

No wonder he refused to touch me just now, and even kept hiding from me, unwilling to have any physical contact with me. It turned out that he had a nasty change in his body. He clearly didn't even look at me, but he could still be so, so shameless!

I was angry and angry, and started to press forward step by step. Behind Xie Yan was the imperial concubine's couch covered with soft blankets. I kept approaching, and he could only keep retreating until he sat on the imperial concubine's couch. His eyes were still relaxed.

In my opinion, there is no violation of the rules.

I knelt on one knee on the imperial concubine's couch and sat in his slightly cool embrace without restraint, but he still didn't dare to look at me.

It's obviously like that, why are you pretending to be a big-tailed wolf!

I slowly propped my body up, frivolously lifted his strong chin with one hand, and forced him to look directly into my eyes, and even more so, to look at my body. With a sarcastic smile on my lips, I slowly said,

"Your Highness, if you don't look at me, how can you tell the difference between me and Xiaoqiu?"

I paused, then smiled sweetly at him, the hatred in my eyes could hardly be concealed, "Don't you like Xiaoqiu? If he knew that you couldn't tell me from him, would he be sad underground?

ah?"

"Oh, no." I shook my head and thought of another possibility, "Maybe His Royal Highness just wants to use Yunqing as Xiaoqiu's substitute, right?" When I said these words, I was observing Xie Yan carefully.

look.

Originally there was a faint smile on his handsome face, but when I teased him a little, his ears and neck turned red, and his clear gray eyes hid a pure and innocent smile. I think so, he and I had a close relationship.

When the wind blows, I only hate that the good times are short. He will inevitably be unable to hold on to what I am doing.

But as soon as I said the next words, all the color on his face faded, and he turned into a pale puppet in an instant. The hand behind me also curled up slightly, showing trembling.

I was in the corner with him. There was no sunlight here, and no candles were lit in the room. His pale gray eyes were stained with death, and even the corners of his straight lips were slightly drooped. Almost the next moment,

Want to cry.

But all this was far from enough. He was not miserable enough, and I was far from happy.

I grabbed his cold white hand, put it gently on my chest, and snuggled into his arms lazily, just like the countless nights we spent together.

"Your Highness, can you feel my heartbeat? I am a living person with a heartbeat. I can cry, laugh and make trouble."

"Your Xiaoqiu is a dead person. He has no heartbeat, cannot laugh, cry, or make trouble. Now he has become a skeleton."

"How long will you continue to deceive yourself?"

Words can sometimes become a sharp weapon, pricking people's hearts with holes. Just like that day when I heard what Xie Yan did to my father, every sentence and every word made my heart break.

lung.

As soon as I finished speaking, Xie Yan became visibly angry. His breathing was heavy and rapid, and he looked at me with a wolf-like look in his eyes, revealing a surging murderous intent. He seemed to be about to pounce on me and tear me to pieces in the next moment.

smash.

His face was as cold as frost, and there was deep and heavy pain hidden in his gray eyes, like a desperate beast making its last cry. Only then did I realize that his recent gentleness and warmth were just a gorgeous disguise.

The current behavior is very similar to

The perfect shell was shattered, revealing the bloody and violent interior.

He pushed me hard to the ground.

I didn't expect that he would suddenly be so arrogant and fall to the ground without any precautions. Because of the falling posture, I had no time to cover up the scenery, and everything was clearly visible. When I realized it, I could only try my best to cover it up.

The body is curled up.

I knew that Xie Yannan's dream had awakened at the moment he pushed me away. I felt so happy that I even bravely raised my head to look at him, eager to appreciate the wonderful expression on his face.

Xie Yan was standing in front of me. He stood up straight, with a tall and straight posture, as strong as an unyielding pine on the mountain. After I fell down, he looked at me with a good look, and his eyes were completely gone.

Gentle and pure.

He looked at me condescendingly, his cold eyes were like the patrol of a snake, and like the bird's eye view of a falcon, without any warmth, as if I was just a pile of dead meat in his eyes.

It was clear that he was not like this just now. He would make awkward demands on me, would shy away from my approach, and would try every unexpected way to get close to me.

But now, it's more like he suddenly woke up from a broken dream, the look on his face is so cruel that it's almost inhumane.

Almost as soon as I fell, he kept looking at me silently, looking at me all over.

It's ridiculous to say that when he thought I was Feng Yueyue, when I took off my clothes, he clearly didn't see anything. Just relying on the imagination in his mind, his ears turned red and there were changes that shouldn't be there.

But now he is standing in front of me, looking at all the flesh and skin around me carefully, but he has no emotion at all, and his breathing is not even messy. He is calm as if he is watching a stranger's joke.

He was clearly right in front of me, but he was as far away as the horizon. A withered memory separated the two of us. He and I are now more like people from two different worlds.

I know that Xie Yan has woken up and that the man who cried silently on the moonlit night will not appear again. In those shared painful memories, I am the only one left now. I don’t feel sad at all. Yes, I just feel that it is a pity.

It's a pity that I continue to play tricks on him.

My thoughts are like a ball of yarn that has been kneaded. No matter how I break it down, it is still a mess.

And Xie Yan just stood in front of me, watching me in a daze, his shadow firmly covering me in the dim light.

He took steps and slowly approached me, but I was naked and could only curl up and keep retreating. I thought he was going to do something to me, but he didn't. His toes turned in a different direction in the room and came out.

Go to the door.

Haha, knowing that I am no longer a virgin, you just throw me here naked. I thought viciously and gloomily, and reached out to pick up the robe I took off.

Just then, the door creaked open, and my heartbeat almost stopped. I turned around hastily, only to find Xie Yan standing at the door with a black cloak in his hand.

He closed the door calmly and said nothing. He just wrapped me tightly in his cloak, then held me loosely through the cloak and walked to the bed. I looked at the bed and felt my heart pounding.

Xie Yan, what is he going to do? Doesn’t he know that I am not Feng Yue Yue? Then why does he carry me to bed again? What is he going to do to me?

As I thought about it, my body began to tremble unconsciously.

Xie Yan silently put me on the bed and put all the clothes I had taken off beside the bed.

There was no expression on his face, and his tone was light, showing a strange yet familiar politeness and distance. He said to me, "I'm sorry, I got the wrong person."

After going round and round, he and I were back where we were.

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