The persistent high fever made my consciousness hazy and blurry. When I was in a daze, I always felt a pair of slightly cool hands gently wiping my body. Someone gently and patiently coaxed me to drink medicine and fall asleep. The person's voice was deep.

He was cold, but showed an unknowing pampering, which made me shed tears of shame.

"Thank you, thank you."

"sorry."

"I really didn't mean it."

I stretched out my hands and fluttered, but couldn't catch anything. My whole figure kept falling in a dream, until my body was smashed to pieces, and I opened my eyes in shock.

It was already late at night, and I didn’t know how long I had been asleep. I just felt like my brain was about to explode due to the long sleep. I gasped in pain, and opened my eyes again to look around carefully.

The lamp beside the bed was dim, the moonlight was melting, and the jackdaws chirping by the window were gone. Only the green trees outside the window swayed with the night wind, and the window screens swayed, revealing a few rays of faint moonlight, which happened to fall next to the window.

On the desk, the room is quiet and elegant.

"woke up?"

Xie Yan's voice sounded calmly in the room, and I turned my eyes to the desk like a frightened bird. He was still dressed in black tonight, with sharp gray eyes. The cold moonlight was shining, showing an excessive calmness.

With carelessness, Xie Yan's expression remained as usual,

When he asked me something, he didn’t want to give me a look. He just lowered his eyes and wrote on the rice paper. His long eyelashes were covered with moonlight, as if they were stained with hoarfrost, and his whole figure looked like an exquisite jade doll.

Xie Yan didn't seem as angry as last night.

All the sticky and greasy traces on my body were wiped clean, and even my body felt very refreshed, so it was not a dream. Someone really took care of me all night while I was sleeping, and even coaxed me with gentle words.

If I take medicine, will this person be Xie Yan?

Thinking of this, my heart beat uncontrollably faster, and I walked hesitantly to the desk. If the thank you was still the same as before, I would definitely let him hug me.

But now Xie Yan's treacherous thoughts were so unpredictable that I could only timidly stop in front of the desk, tangle my fingers unconsciously behind my back, and murmured in a low voice.

"Thank you, were you the one taking care of me last night?"

I held my breath as soon as I finished speaking. I was afraid that my hope would fail. I didn't even dare to look directly at Xie Yan's cold face. I only focused my eyes on my bare feet. The skin was too white and greasy.

The flesh stepped on the soft silk blanket, making it look less and less like a man, and the pink toes were so nervous that they curled up slightly.

The room was surprisingly quiet. I pricked up my ears to listen, and I could only hear the sound of Xie Yan turning the pages of paper, and his almost mocking words, "Are you worthy?"

My cheeks turned red at that moment, and the tip of my nose felt sour. Yes, I was too naive, and I even wanted to thank you for taking care of me all night. He hated me so much and avoided me.

How could he take care of me? He was almost patient without throwing me out of the window.

"I'm sorry, I misunderstood."

As I said this, I took a few steps back. I didn't know where to hide in a hurry. Why should I be so pretentious? I let Xie Yan see the joke in vain. If it wasn't, it wouldn't be, and neither would I.

Rare.

But why can't the tears be wiped away and shed, and you cry at every turn? What kind of man are you? I crawled back to the bed in three to five steps, and wrapped myself in the quilt tightly, as if I was shrinking my head.

The turtle finally hid in its shell, feeling a long-lost sense of security.

No more, no more hope for Xie Yan. Feng Jiuyue, you have to understand that you are his enemy now. How can he take care of you, how can he care about you. What he wants is only your body.

They regard you as a tool to warm the bed, and they will throw you away when they have enough fun, but you still foolishly join in and humiliate yourself. You are really a ridiculous fool.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

The sounds of idiots were circulating in my mind, and I didn't even notice the attendant pushing the door open and coming in.

The water basin was carefully placed on the low stool next to the bed. The attendant did not notice that I had woken up, and thought I was still asleep. He lowered his voice and thanked me and said, "Your Highness, the warm water has been brought. You can come over."

I wiped myself for the young master."

"All the jackdaws within a ten-mile radius have been cleared by soldiers."

"The military doctor also said that the soup is almost ready. Could you please feed it to the young master later?" The attendant had no idea what secret he had revealed. He only retreated warily under Xie Yan's cold gaze, his eyes filled with a sense of betrayal.

Angry innocence.

I sat up from the bed and hurriedly came to Xie Yan. Then I saw that Xie Yan's face was not good under the candlelight. He looked too pale. His eyes were blue and black, as if he had stayed up for several long nights.

.

So Xie Yan is really taking care of me these days, but he is unwilling to admit it in front of me.

I was happy in my heart, but I didn't dare to show it, and stared straight at Xie Yan.

His lie was exposed on the spot, and his handsome face was already a bit surprised. When I looked at him like this, his eyes were filled with frost, and he gritted his teeth and said, "Feng Jiuyue, you are very proud."

"No." I shook my head desperately and ran from the desk to him. He was still sitting in a wheelchair, his long legs hanging on the ground, his hands on the armrests, showing a sickly white color.

I leaned over slightly to see his handsome eyebrows more clearly. Under his urgent and cold gaze, I gently pressed my lips against his and said sincerely, "Thank you, thank you."

"What happened in the past was all my fault. I will make it up to you in the future. As long as you still need me, I will always be by your side and will not leave you. I will do my best to take care of you."

These words have been hidden in my heart for a long time. From the moment I saw my father, I wanted to say it to Xie Yan. Now that I say it, I feel great, like a big stone has been lifted from my heart.

I know that Xie Yan hates me now and hates me very much, but I will try my best, just like I did when I pursued him before, I tried my best and left no regrets.

After hearing these heartfelt words from my heart, Xie Yan did not show any emotion at all. Instead, he leaned back slightly and pressed his back against the backrest of the wheelchair, trying to avoid my intimate contact.

He took out the handkerchief in his sleeve and wiped his lips heavily, fearing that I wouldn't feel his disgust. He only wiped his pale lips red and swollen, and looked at me with his phoenix eyes, as if he was examining my sincerity.

.

It was obvious that he could only look up to me now, but he still showed the arrogance and nobility of a superior. He slightly raised his thin lips and said sarcastically with a smile.

"It's really boring to play the same game twice in September."

"Compared to playing games," he finished wiping, holding his chin lazily, his burning eyes falling on my collar and waist, and said in a frivolous tone, "I prefer to have sex with you |

bed."

"Do you think I really take care of you because I'm worried about you? I haven't had enough fun. It would be boring if you died like this."

Xie Yan was not like this in the past. He rarely talked to me in such an affectionate, affectionate and frivolous manner. Although his face was cold, he always tolerated my bad temper. He couldn't stand my few words of coquettishness. He would not deliberately be so malicious.

He stabbed my heart with his words. But the Xie Yan in front of me was no longer the same as before. He had completely turned into a different person, and he had done all kinds of evil things to me under his beautiful and cold skin.

I was so frightened by his words that I took a few steps back. My back almost touched the window sill. The gleaming moonlight was completely blocked by me. Xie Yan's figure was shrouded in shadow. In the dark night, his charming gray pupils were flowing turbulently.

desire.

He suddenly smiled at me, the corners of his lips curled up slightly, showing a bit of coolness. His plain black robe made his skin pale, and the blue blood vessels on the back of his hands were slightly arched, like an evil ghost tasting flesh and blood.

He tilted his head, as if he was thinking seriously, and suddenly he suddenly realized, "You said you want to make up for me, how do you make up for it? Give me a lick?"

I don't like this kind of Xie Yan. He is very different from the Xie Yan in my memory. I think he is a devil who covers Xie Yan's handsome appearance and runs rampant. All his directions are to squeeze out the last bit of blood and tears from me.

I shook my head almost immediately, and then when my eyes touched his calf, I couldn't help but nodded, and asked hesitantly, "Where do you want me to kiss you?"

"here."

My face turned pale, I bit my lower lip tightly, my fingers were tightly clasped into the flesh of my palms, my throat was choked, and I couldn't make any sound.

"Don't you want to?" Xie Yan's voice was full of schadenfreude, and he also pretended to sigh deliberately. His calm gray eyes were stained with strong malice, and his thin lips were slightly opened, spitting out the devil's whisper.

"Didn't you say you wanted to make it up to me? Is this difficult?"

"That's really a pity." He said this, lowered his thick eyelashes, covering the cold and gloomy emotions in his eyes, and mocked himself, "Oh, a cripple like me can only torture you.

, after all, which normal woman would satisfy my disabled and powerless request?"

"You said that, didn't you?"

After he finished speaking, he raised his eyes and glanced at me. I could see the cunning and deliberate disguise in his eyes. I knew that Xie Yan did it on purpose. Everything he said was lying to me, even the words he mentioned

The demands are all to humiliate, humiliate and bully me, but I still don't want to make him sad or sad.

I was the one who caused Xie Yan to be like this, and all the trouble must be borne by me. I slowly approached Xie Yan, and whispered with humiliation, "Don't be sad, I, I will help you."

The moonlight was no longer blocked by me, and enveloped Xie Yan in the hazy moonlight. His long eyelashes cast a faint shadow under his eyes, like two rows of curled fans. His eyes were lowered, and his gray pupils stared at me.

With a kind of condescending contempt, his slender fingers ran through my black hair, forcing me to raise my neck, "Feng Jiuyue, are you feeling uncomfortable now?"

"Let Xie Xing come and save you."

"Didn't you say that you liked him very much? That's why you partnered with him. It's great. So where is your lover now?"

"My good sister-in-law, does my brother know that you have been fucked by me many times?"

"Well, why don't you say anything?"

His cool fingers fell on my cheek, rubbing it carefully. He touched the red mole under my right eye, and said coldly as if he suddenly realized something, "I forgot that you can't speak now."

I don’t know how long it took, until I thought time had completely stopped at this moment, before Xie Yan pushed me away hard. I kept choking and coughing, almost coughing my heart and lungs out of my body, and collapsed to the ground, my arms and legs

Looking blankly at the finely carved beams, tears already filled his eyes.

The sound of rolling wheels sounded, and Xie Yan came to me with a cold face. He leaned down, patted my face, and said without emotion, "Feng Jiuyue, are you sad now?"

"It's hard to be forced to be with me because of guilt?"

"Still sad that you can't be with Xie Xing?"

He accused me one by one and slandered me with unfounded accusations. I didn't like Xie Xing. I liked him from the beginning to the end.

I do this for him not because of guilt or pity, but because I like it. I like Xie Yan. I don’t want him to be sad or frown. Why doesn’t Xie Yan understand? It’s because I didn’t do it well enough and didn’t speak clearly enough.
To be continued...