Chapter 6: Breakup Decay, I accidentally found a way out and asked for verification

Author: Biantang Wushi

Chapter 6: Breakup Decay, I accidentally found a way out and asked for verification

Seeing Zhu Xiaoman showing true feelings, at that moment, I was really moved and shaken. This is a girl I have been secretly in love with for four years! A month ago, I was still looking forward to being able to hold on to my hands and grow old with me. I also fantasized about carrying the sky for her with my own efforts, and immersing myself in happiness. But the phone call that day was like a heavy hammer hitting my vital point, making me awake, and I immediately understood that the gap between me and her was nothing more than a gap. If I insisted on being with her, it would undoubtedly hurt her!

I held back my tears and couldn't let my eyes flow out, gently lifted her face again, looked at her eyes affectionately, and said to her word by word, Xiaoman, you don't understand. I think you haven't figured it out yet. We are together, not just us, but our two families. Let's talk about our family situation. You are an only child, without burden or concerns, but as for me, my brothers and sisters, I am not living alone for myself.

I know all this, I don't mind! She opened her eyes wide and looked at me and said timidly.

You don't mind now, but what about the future? We are about to graduate. I knew your plan a long time ago. You want to take the postgraduate entrance examination. And with your grades, there is definitely no problem. You will definitely get what you want. In front of you, there is a bright road and a bright future paved by your parents for you. You just need to follow the steps. They do not allow it and will not agree to you deviate from this channel.

But this does not conflict with us. If I study for graduate school, I will come back! She was still full of expectations and tried to persuade me.

No, there is conflict. Now I know that all my plans are vague and mirages, although I have worked hard for it. Do you know that since the day I entered university, I have clearly known that in these four years, I could not have love, a glamorous life, or a birthday cake taste. This is also the reason why I have only pursued you now, because we are two parallel lines, and I am afraid that I will harm you.

No, no, unless you don’t love me anymore. As she said that, she started crying again.

No, I love you, really, my love for you has always been so passionate, I really don’t want to give up on you. Over the past few years, in order to win your favor and to be qualified to pursue you, I have worked very hard. I devoted myself to my studies and become a top student. I strive to be among the best in every exam because I know that this is the only capital I can match you with.

I know, I know it all.

Later, I joined the student union, became the second-in-command, and joined the organization. I was very happy because I felt that it would be natural to find a good job with my own efforts and abilities, but what was the result? The result was that people didn’t even give me an internship opportunity. They didn’t even look at my grades or whether I was a member of the organization. In their eyes, all efforts were in vain, and all honors were waste paper. I was still a poor boy who was not a single person, but I was not discouraged. I felt that I would eventually turn over. However, until yesterday’s phone call, my mother finally understood that I was not worthy of loving you!

Zhu Xiaoman cried even harder and said whimperingly, "This is not important. Isn't it enough for me to love you?" I will go back tomorrow and ask my dad to help you. Can you find a job?"

Xiaoman, are you stupid? Even if your father is willing, I will not accept it! Besides, will your father agree to his daughter marry someone who has to rely on his father-in-law to find a job?

Then I won’t take the postgraduate entrance examination. When we graduate, we will go far and not be with them. Isn’t it okay?

I said, don't be stupid, that's your mother, you are her only daughter.

Zhu Xiaoman raised his head and said firmly, "I don't care, I'll be with you."

I stroked her face and said, "That's impossible. I believe you can't do it, and I can't do it. You know, my sister and third brother are in the third year of high school and are about to take the college entrance examination. Even if I work, my focus will be on their way to school in the next few years."

We can offer our younger brothers and sisters together. Zhu Xiaoman hugged my shoulders tightly again and was unwilling to let go.

But this is not what I want. You are the fairy in my mind. You are the girl I fell in love with since I saw it. How can I bear to let you suffer with me? Besides, I am not a game in life. I am with you and I have the ultimate goal of going to marriage. But will it be happy if a marriage that doesn't even bless my parents? Xiaoman, maybe I am really wrong. I shouldn't have entered your life in the last few months of college. I shouldn't have let you bear this pain because of this. I should have put everything in my heart like I did three years ago.

From that day on, I cut off all contact with Zhu Xiaoman, did not listen to her phone number, ran to the last row of class, and did not read her notes. When I met her on the road, I immediately turned my head and hid.

Liu Yina asked Wang Changzheng to bring me a few times, saying that Xiaoman is crying every day now, asking her what's going on, she doesn't say a word, what's wrong with you?

I sighed and said to Liu Yina, please tell her that it is impossible between us, so let's just stop it.

No matter how Liu Yina asked, I was unwilling to say another word. She said with a grudge, "Third Brother, A Zheng and I have always admired you very much, but what you did in this matter is really wrong. I think you are just a fool. If you don't want such a good girl, who do you think you are?"

I smiled bitterly silently. Maybe I am really a fool, but I know very well in my heart that if I were with her, I was destined to bear great family pressure. I really hope that Xiaoman can be as simple as ever. Now, I break up so ruthlessly, just hope that she believes that I broke up with her not because I was insulted by her mother, but because I didn’t love her anymore. In that case, she might feel better. I did this because I deeply knew that her mother would not agree to her find a rural person. She and I were people on the two lines after all. Instead of having a big fight and having a family disagreement at that time, it would be better to break up early.

I would rather bear all the pain myself, but from then on I fell into the abyss of depression, pain, helplessness, and inferiority complex

For the rest of my life, I seemed to have been drained from my energy. Playing ball, attending classes, and staying in the dormitory to read books became my whole life. I was too lazy to take care of the opportunity of the Foreign Economic Commission, so I just spent more than 200 yuan in vain to meet someone.

One day at the end of the month, at around 4 o'clock in the afternoon, my roommates went out to wander. I was lying alone in the quilt, trembling reading English books, and preparing to take the professional level 8 exam after the spring. Suddenly, the door of the dormitory was knocked open with a "bang", which scared me. I was about to open my mouth and scold me, not afraid of knocking the door down, and I was going to reincarnate, so why are you anxious? When I looked up, it was Jiang Ming. He was standing at the door, bent, holding his knees with both hands, frowned, and looked painful, and gasping for breath.

I didn't bother to pay attention to him. After a while, he slowly walked to my bed and saw the tea jar on the bench on my head. Without saying a word, he picked up the lid, picked up the cup, and gave me all the "gudugudu" to drink. I just fell into this kid for a while, but he was so good that he would take advantage of it!

I glared at him and asked leisurely, "Is there a dog chasing you?" Do you think you are busy?"

Jiang Ming still didn't say anything. He took a few deep breaths and poured me a new jar of water at the window table. After putting it in place, he smiled and said, "Brother San, I'm not drinking your water for nothing, I'm here to report you good news!"

I gave him a blank look and said, "Announce the good news? What else can you do? Are you going to write another article? We are all seniors now, and your Chunya Literature Club should have let go. Now all the sophomore and juniors can take over. You can open your eyes and see which department in the student union is still in charge of the seniors now?

Jiang Ming sat on the edge of my bed, and squeezed me to get up and move inside. He reached out and pressed the book in my hand down and said, "Oh, third brother, it's not that thing, it's really a happy event. I just found out, so I came to tell you!"

I continued to look at the book in my hand and asked, "What's the matter? Tell me quickly. If I don't say it, how can I know it's a happy event or a bad event?"

Where did I come from, do you know?

Literary Society, don’t you just like to be with the little girls in your department? By the way, Xiao Zhu from Taicang, how are you two talking about? Is it settled?

Let’s not talk about that. I just came from the Student Affairs Office. Director Liu told me that there was a President Duan coming to Shenzhen and that he would go to the school to recruit a group of 1994 graduates to work in Shenzhen. I came here to inform you as soon as I heard this. Let’s go and ask clearly.

Ah? Someone from Shenzhen? Is it true or false?

Of course it is true, Director Liu told me personally!

Let's go, go quickly!

I jumped out of bed, put on my clothes and ran to the school student office with Jiang Ming. Director Liu was still there. When I asked, it was true. Mr. Duan, the head of a career agency in Shenzhen, was from LYG. This time I went back to my hometown for a business trip, and went to our school to do publicity, make some contributions to the people of my hometown, and introduced fresh graduates to work in Shenzhen. I only need to pay 380 yuan, so I can find a job. I can provide services free of charge within one year and no other fees will be charged.

Director Liu saw me coming and said, "Jiang Ming, you can draw a draft according to my wishes, and let Zhengtian write it out later and post it out immediately. Duan will hold a mobilization meeting in the auditorium tomorrow afternoon."
Chapter completed!