Chapter 44 I even went crazy thinking about it

Author: Nan Ruoruo

After saying that, Li Mianmian realized that there was still one missing premise for his question.

She let go of her hand, hesitated for a moment, then looked up at Gu Yanci: "Brother, do you like me?"

"..."

"If you don't like me..." She pursed her lips and pinched her fingers in embarrassment, "Then those words just now... just pretend I didn't say them."

After a moment of silence, Gu Yanci avoided her question and simply said: "Let me think about it again."

"Huh?" Li Mianmian didn't quite understand.

So the meaning contained in this sentence is that he likes himself, or does he dislike himself?

"..."

Li Mianmian always felt that if she just followed him, then he would get past the problem she just had.

But Gu Yanci said he wanted to think about it, which seemed to be an answer...

After struggling for a while, she nodded: "Okay."

On the way back, neither of them spoke.

In fact, Li Mianmian didn't feel too sad. After all, Gu Yanci's words were unclear and he didn't seem to mean to reject her completely, so her guess about the future results was still optimistic for the time being.

She just felt that Gu Yanci seemed to be very annoyed by her words, so she didn't dare to speak anymore, fearing that she would add fuel to the fire.

After arriving home, it was almost lunch time. Gu Yanci entered the kitchen without saying a word, brought out the food soon, and asked Li Mianmian to go to the restaurant to eat.

After several hours of careful consideration, he seemed to have made a decision, and now his expression relaxed a little.

"At least wait until I resolve Gu Yun's matter." He lowered his eyes and stared at the white rice in the bowl, "But I'm not sure how long it will take."

Li Mianmian: "I..."

"Listen to brother first." Gu Yanci interrupted her, "While I'm solving the problem, it would be better if you could empathize with each other. In short, you don't have to bear any burden, just treat me as

A spare tire..."

"Gu Yanci!" Li Mianmian suddenly threw away his chopsticks angrily, not letting him continue, "Shut up!"

"..." Gu Yanci had never seen her so angry before, and was stunned for a moment, "Mianmian..."

"You don't need to say anything." Li Mianmian didn't want to listen to him at all now, "I know, you don't like me at all."

"plum……"

"I won't bother you here anymore. I'll go back to school and move in." Li Mianmian pushed away the chair and stood up, "I'll move today, move now!"

Gu Yanci stood up in shock: "Why? Did my brother say something wrong? Why suddenly..."

"It's not you who are wrong, it's me who is wrong." Li Mianmian was very angry, "It's because I don't know what's good and what's good, and I push myself even further."

Gu Yanci's breath was stagnant: "Mumu..."

As Li Mianmian spoke, she rushed into the bedroom, opened her suitcase, and roughly stuffed clothes inside.

"Mumu..." Gu Yanci followed her and pinched her wrist hard, "Calm down..."

"Don't stop me!" Li Mianmian turned and yelled at him, tears welling up in her eyes, "I hate that you look at me with that guilty expression! I hate that you are so humble! I hate that you say that you are a spare tire!"

"……I……"

"Who do you think you are insulting!" Li Mianmian broke away from his hand, "You insult yourself! You insult me ​​too! If you like me, I will be with you even if you go through mountains of swords and seas of fire. But if you don't like it,

I, I don’t care about your charity either!”

Realizing that he was too impulsive, Li Mianmian took a few breaths and tried to calm down his tone: "When will you understand? I am not your responsibility, Gu Yanci, you are a free person, and you never have to

You have to endure hardships because of me."

"I don't need this kind of sacrifice from you," she cried with a sore throat, "I hate this kind of behavior of yours."

"..."

As if there was a loud hammer, Gu Yanci's heart was violently shaken, and his limbs froze in place.

Li Mianmian quickly packed up his things, dragged his suitcase and turned away without even looking at Gu Yanci again.

After she left, the room immediately fell into a dead silence.

There was an inescapable coldness everywhere, spreading from Gu Yanci's limbs to his heart, where it took root deeply.

Until the end of July, Li Mianmian had not seen him again, and did not even reply to messages on his mobile phone.

The capital had started to rain frequently recently, and he was worried that Li Mianmian didn't bring an umbrella. Every time it rained, he couldn't help but run to the studio, hold two umbrellas, and stand across the street to watch her quietly.

In fact, Li Mianmian never forgets to bring an umbrella.

She is already nineteen years old and no longer needs his care.

But he didn't know what his psychology was, and he still stubbornly, deceiving himself and others, used such unwarranted reasons to peek into her life.

Yan Shinan called to gossip about his and Li Mianmian's progress. Hearing his recent state, he called him a pervert.

Gu Yanci himself felt that this behavior was abnormal.

But he really couldn't think of any better way.

"Can't you just say that you like her?" Yan Shinan hated the fact that iron is not as good as steel. "You keep calling me a beast every day, but being a beast is so damn good!"

"I don't know if she likes her." Gu Yanci said calmly, "I met her too early, and I can no longer distinguish the emotions."

"What the hell is so unclear about this?" Yan Shinan was speechless, "Didn't I tell you the method last time? Can you tolerate her kissing someone else?"

After two seconds of silence, Gu Yanci said: "No."

Yan Shinan: "That's fine!"

"But this doesn't prove anything." Gu Yanci's tone was calm, "Maybe it's just that I'm too possessive."

"You're already possessive, don't you mean something?!" Yan Shinan said loudly, "Come and talk to me about our childhood sweethearts! Do you know what I mean? You two are meant for each other!"

Gu Yanci: "I am possessive of all personal belongings."

"Then Li Mianmian is your private property?"

"Yes." Gu Yanci said bluntly, "I do feel so self-righteous deep down in my heart, but this is not what I like."

Yan Shinan sighed: "...Okay, then change the angle."

After a pause, he asked: "Do you want to kiss her?"

"..."

"Do you want to?" Yan Shinan asked aggressively, "Do you want to?"

"..."

"You should figure this out today." Yan Shinan said, "As long as you figure this out, you will understand everything."

"..."

Gu Yanci hung up the phone directly.

The phone was thrown on the coffee table, and the screen stayed on for a long time before going off.

Gu Yanci stared at the table motionlessly, like a sculpture.

There was no light on in the living room, and as time passed, it was getting darker outside.

Without the little light from the phone screen, the room was completely plunged into darkness.

After an unknown amount of time, Gu Yanci finally squeezed out one word from his throat:

"think."

His voice was hoarse and almost distorted:

"Even thinking about it makes me crazy."

-

On the first day of August, the weather station issued an orange thunder and lightning warning.

Li Mianmian is no longer as afraid of thunder as she was when she was a child, but this level of thunder is still beyond her acceptance range. Just thinking about it makes her scalp numb.

So after receiving the news in the morning, she immediately asked for a leave of absence from her senior sister, so as not to cause trouble to her colleagues instead of failing to do her job well.

After that, she didn't even get out of bed. She kept covering herself in bed, wearing headphones, listening to music and watching movies to divert her attention.

Halfway through, she couldn't help but go to the toilet. She saw that the sky outside was as gloomy as late at night, so she hurriedly washed her hands, climbed into bed again and jumped back into bed.

The heavy rain was getting heavier and heavier, being carried by the strong wind, and the windows were banging loudly.

Lightning began to burst out one after another outside, and the thunder was faint, as if it was gathering momentum.

Li Mianmian turned up the volume on her phone to the maximum, which made her eardrums hurt, but she still couldn't block the most violent thunder.

The power in the dormitory has long been cut off, there is no air conditioning, and the quilt is so hot that my whole body itches.
To be continued...