Chapter 62 Extra 9: You don’t want your life!

Author: Nan Ruoruo

"You don't want your life?" Li Mianmian shouted in a suppressed voice.

Gu Yan resigned and smiled: "You are my life."

Li Mianmian was caught off guard by his sudden love words. After a while, she said: "Didn't you still like me at that time..."

"No matter when, you are very important in my heart." Gu Yanci laughed, "But what I said just now was for you now."

"You are really..." Li Mianmian said with lingering fear, "It's still too dangerous, and it's raining heavily..."

"At that time, I was only thinking about the first time you heard thunder, hiding alone behind a cupboard and shaking. How could you think so much?" Gu Yanci said, "And I really didn't feel that it was very dangerous at the time, maybe because

My legs must be long."

Li Mianmian snorted: "You're showing off..."

"Anyway, I just rowed over at that time." Gu Yanci didn't want her to worry anymore, so he changed the subject, "Then, I saw that your window was closed, but not locked. It could be opened artificially from the outside, but

The wind and rain can’t blow it away.”

"Hmm... Thinking about it, our house was indeed quite dangerous at that time. If a thief came here, I would be scared to death in the middle of the night..." Li Mianmian suddenly thought of something, "No wonder my dad suddenly said one day that he wanted to guard against theft.

So the net is here to protect you?"

"It was me who reminded Li Shuan of the anti-theft net." Gu Yanci ticked her nose, "You have no conscience."

"What about that time, when you came in?" Li Mianmian couldn't wait to hear the follow-up, "I must have been asleep at the time, right? Otherwise, I would definitely have an impression."

"Yes, you fell asleep and were not woken up." Gu Yanci said with a smile, "So, as long as you close the windows, the sound insulation effect in your room is still good."

"Then," Li Mianmian was not in the mood to talk to him about soundproofing, "how long did you stay?"

"It didn't take long and you didn't wake up. It would be bad for me to stay here all the time." Gu Yanci said, "I came here a few times when it rained heavily, but I never came in. The main reason was to check whether the window was closed.

Okay, as long as you close the window, you won't wake up. Of course, your parents have never been woken up either."

Li Mianmian no longer cared about the little lies she told earlier. She couldn't help but start to imagine Gu Yanci climbing out of the window in the middle of the night in the heavy rain. She was moved and frightened: "You really don't want to do this again..."

…”

"Yeah." Gu Yanci said warmly, "At that time, my name was not justified, so I could only watch in secret. Now that I am a person with status, I will definitely not do those sneaky things."

Li Mianmian didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Who wants to tell you this...

She hugged him tightly: "I want to say that you must cherish yourself in the future, because you are no longer alone. If you are not here... No, even if you only scratch your skin, I will feel very distressed."

…”

As he said that, Li Mianmian thought of the tattoo on his collarbone, touched that place according to his memory, and sighed: "Even if it's just a tattoo, I feel uncomfortable when I think about how painful it was for you... I heard that tattoos are necessary

Places with more flesh will not hurt. Places with thinner flesh will hurt more. Your place must have been particularly painful at that time, right?"

"It's okay." Gu Yanci pulled her hand down, "I have thick skin and can't feel the pain."

"Really?" Li Mianmian raised his chin slightly and kissed the tattoo, "It shouldn't hurt anymore."

"Yeah." Gu Yanci chuckled, "It doesn't hurt anymore."

The two of them hugged each other and stayed quietly for a while, neither of them felt sleepy.

"Brother." Li Mianmian thought of something and suddenly said, "Actually, there is something I haven't told you."

"What?"

"That's right, people used to often ask me to deliver love letters to you." Li Mianmian said, "But I didn't agree to any of them."

"Yeah." Gu Yanci didn't take it seriously, "That's good, it helps me avoid a lot of trouble."

"But then someone secretly stuffed the love letter into my desk. I thought some boy had written it to me, so I opened it and read it. I didn't expect it was for you." Li Mianmian muttered, "But

I had already opened the letter. I was afraid that you would scold me if you knew I had peeked at it, so I returned the letter. This happened several times, and every time I returned the letter, I offended a lot of people.

Man, those girls and her friends all thought I was doing it on purpose. Some were talking about me behind my back, and some were talking to me directly in person... Oh, but it’s okay. They are basically from other classes anyway, and we can’t get in touch with them on a daily basis.

."

"Huh?" Gu Yanci's focus was obviously different from hers, "So apart from the one I knew about, you also received other love letters? Why didn't you tell me and you secretly opened them and read them?"

"You had no choice but to find out that time!" Li Mianmian said dissatisfied, "How embarrassing. I would check my schoolbag every time before going home, just for fear that you would find out that someone else was writing to me. I would rather be discovered by my parents,

I don’t want to be discovered by you either.”

"Am I that scary?"

"It's just that... I feel very embarrassed..." Li Mianmian stuck out her tongue and sighed, "Then I occasionally thought about it, and I felt quite sorry for those girls. Bringing it to myself, I couldn't write a love letter to the one I liked.

It must be uncomfortable to have it opened and looked at by unrelated people in human hands, right? I feel very guilty..."

"What's there to feel guilty about? They even scolded you. If you want my brother to know, I must scold you back." Gu Yanci touched her head, "Even if I see those letters, I won't be able to do anything."

Reply. What’s more, the girls who asked you to help deliver the love letters at that time were all little girls in the first year of high school, right? If you gave the letter to me, I would most likely forward the letter to their class teacher, so you have done a good thing."

"..." Li Mianmian pouted, "Are you too bad?"

"Huh? Am I wrong?" Gu Yanci raised his eyebrows, "If you don't study hard at a young age, what kind of love letter can you write?"

"You are really... we are obviously only two years apart, but you have created a generation gap that is the same as thirty years..."

Li Mianmian scratched the palm of his hand and murmured in a low voice, "Fortunately, I didn't impulsively write you a love letter... No, I should say, fortunately I didn't impulsively give you a love letter. In fact, I wrote it secretly

I have written several love letters to you, and I also wrote a lot of words for you in my diary. Every time I am in a bad mood, I treat your name as a tree hole. When I write my diary, I write your name in front of it, as if it is really true.

I’m communicating with you.”

"Is there still such a thing?" Gu Yanci was surprised, "Do you still have the diary? Let me see it?"

"No..." Li Mianmian said coyly, "It's too embarrassing..."

"I want to see it." Gu Yanci pinched her face, "Show it to my brother, okay?"

Li Mianmian was a little confused.

On the one hand, she felt that what she had written before was extremely shameful, but on the other hand, she wanted to show it to Gu Yanci.

Those secret love affairs that were once unspeakable, now that I think about them, they actually feel a little beautiful, and I want to show them to him as if they were showing off.

It was difficult to express her love at that time, but now, she feels that expressing her love is a kind of showing off.

She just wanted to show him, she wanted to say "Look, how much I love you", "I have loved you for many, many years, longer and deeper than you", she wanted him to know that he was worthy of being loved.

Love.

Gu Yanci said he had to read it, so he pulled Li Mianmian up in the middle of the night, turned on the bedside lamp, their heads resting on each other, opening the love letters that had not been given out one by one, and flipping through the pages of the unsent love letters one by one.

A well-known diary.

After reading it, Li Mianmian asked softly: "If I really gave these love letters to you at that time, what would you do? Would you stay away from me?"

"No." Gu Yanci said, "I will have a good talk with you."

"How to talk about it?" Li Mianmian laughed, but couldn't help but feel bitter, "Let me study hard and stop thinking about things?"

Gu Yanci looked at her: "Is this how I look to you?"

"Otherwise?" Li Mianmian pouted, "You are just an old antique."

Gu Yanci touched her head and said, "I will tell you, brother is waiting for you."

Li Mianmian was startled: "What?"

"Brother is waiting for you. You will go to the same university as your brother. When you get into college and become an adult, you can fall in love with your brother."

After a pause, Gu Yanci made himself laugh: "So now you have to study hard and don't think too much."

"...Look!" Li Mianmian rolled over him and hit him, "I really saw you right! This is the kind of person you are!"

Gu Yanci let her vent for a while, smiled and held her wrist, pulled her into his arms and hugged her, sighing: "What can I do, brother?"

Li Mianmian thought about it and really didn't know what to do.

Precisely because there was no other way, even if she didn't send the love letter, she knew how Gu Yanci would respond, so she didn't plan to send the love letters when she wrote them.

She wrote it for herself.

Perhaps because of the influence of Gu Yanci, many of Li Mianmian's ways of thinking are quite similar to his.

When she was writing letters and diaries, most of the time she did not express her love for Gu Yanci, but encouraged herself and said to herself: "I will definitely get the first place in the exam like my brother, so that I can

"I am qualified to stand next to him." "I will definitely pass the exam in the capital like my brother, otherwise I will never see him again. "He is so good, I must, must, become as good."

So Gu Yanci's answer is actually not important. Maybe if he makes a promise, Li Mianmian will be disappointed.

"Actually..." Gu Yanci suddenly said, "Brother has noticed it a long time ago."

"Ah?" Li Mianmian's eyes widened, "You discovered it and you still pretended not to notice it!"

"I was at a loss at that time. I didn't know what to do to be good to you." Gu Yanci said slowly, "I tried to avoid you deliberately, but then I found that I couldn't avoid you, so I thought, anyway

You didn't express your feelings, you just took it one step at a time and let it go."

"At that time, what I was most worried about was that you confessed your love to me." Gu Yanci said, "Because no matter how you refuse, it will definitely hurt you."
To be continued...