Chapter 76 The courage to be happy

Author: Egg Warrior

Chapter 76 The courage to be happy

"I am a left-behind child and live with my grandfather. My parents don't come back all year round. Other children often make excuses and say, "I have a mother and don't have a mother to raise."

"This led to me being introverted and inferior at that time, and I didn't dare to fight back when I was bullied."

Gu Panyan smiled self-deprecatingly, "Although my grandfather had already started to teach me to fight at that time, I had only force but no courage to fight with them."

"Every time I cheer myself up in my heart and say that if those people dare to say that I have a mother and don't have a mother to raise her, I will beat them hard. But when I was really bullied, I still don't have the courage to resist."

"You said, wasn't I useless at that time?" Gu Panyan suddenly asked him.

"It's normal for human nature." Wang Ge comforted, "Courage has never been something that can be obtained so easily."

"……you're right."

Gu Panyan chuckled, "At that time, I was too timid and afraid of too many things, afraid of dogs, afraid of black people, afraid of being bullied, afraid of declining grades, and afraid of grandpa's disappointment."

"What I fear the most is the evil spirits that may be lurking in the darkness. For this reason, I don't dare to turn off the lights every night when I sleep, otherwise I will be so scared that I can't sleep."

"In order to help me eliminate my fear, my grandfather carved out the evil ghosts with wood and asked me to split them with an axe."

Gu Panyan smiled silently, "When I first saw those wood carvings, I was so scared that I couldn't even hold the axe and almost hit my foot."

"But later I found out that they are actually not scary at all. As long as I use a little force, I can split them all."

Wang Ge brought the wood carvings over, raised his eyebrows and asked, "This is how these wood carvings come from?"

She said "um" and smiled sarcastically: "My original purpose of tattooing was not achieved at all. Although I did drive away some flies, it attracted more flies.

But after a sudden idea of ​​tattooing this thing on my body, it helped me a lot."

"You were most afraid of them before, so you were tattooed on your body..." Wang Ge thought for a while and guessed: "Is it because you want others to be afraid of you?"

"No."

Gu Panyan shook his head and said, "It's courage."

"Courage?" Wang Ge was puzzled.

"right."

She pointed to her tattoo: "All the evil ghosts on this were once carved out by my grandfather, and then split by me one by one."

"I want to make myself remember that feeling forever, remember the feeling when I first raised my axe, faced fear, resisted fear, and overcame fear."

She said, "This is courage."

"When my grandfather was still alive, I never had such a thing. Even if I was being clamored or spread rumors, I was still escaping cowardly. This is the root cause of how I would attract so many flies."

She smiled mockingly again, "After grandpa passed away and I was tortured to mad, I finally had this courage I had always dreamed of."

Wang Ge said nothing, but just hugged her gently.

"But that's not enough," Gu Panyan continued, "I began to realize that no matter what I want to do in this world, it takes courage to accept my grandfather's death, and it also takes courage to change my current situation."

She pointed to the evil ghost sculptures in Wang Singer, "So I tattooed them on my body."

"They can't make me fearless. What they can do is to still have the courage to raise an axe and resist when it makes me feel fear."

"When I go to resist, or even defeat the things that scare me, they can no longer scare me."

"Faced with the suffering of reality and the fear in the heart, accept what cannot be changed, and resist what should be changed."

"This is the meaning of courage, and the most precious thing I have gained in this experience."

She looked at Wang Ge, her lips curled up: "To be honest, I should be grateful for this experience, otherwise I should still be the timid, cowardly and inferior waste before."

Wang Ge hugged her gently, shook his head and said, "Suffering is never something worth praising. If possible, I hope you will never experience those."

"I've experienced it all, can I change it?"

Gu Panyan leaned lazily in his arms and lifted his chin with his fingers, "Besides, if I hadn't experienced those, would you still like me? Will you like that timid, cowardly and inferior?"

"Of course," Wang Ge said for granted, and then hummed, "This way I can turn over and be the master, and I don't have to be beaten. I can let you massage my back and shoulders every day, and I will let you warm my bed at night!"

"But I won't." Gu Panyan looked into his eyes, "I will think you, a scumbag, are disgusting, it's better to stay away from me."

Wang Ge: "…"

Gu Panyan looked at him, then looked up and kissed him on the lips.

"It takes courage to accept the departure of a loved one, it takes courage to accept the broken family, and it takes courage to accept the person I love is a scumbag, and it also takes courage, right?"

Wang Ge's body stiffened slightly.

"I can massage your back and shoulders, or warm your bed." Gu Panyan hugged him and whispered in his ear, "But, young master, you must hide your messy relationships well, don't be discovered by me."

"Accept what cannot be changed, resist what should be changed. Grandpa died and his parents had a bad relationship, so I had no choice. But if I discovered your messy relationship..." She blew gently in his ear, "Are you guessing I will accept it or resist?"

Wang Ge thought for two seconds, then said with anticipation: "If possible, I want to experience the back and shoulder pinching first."

Gu Panyan was silent for a moment, then punched him hard on the arm, "Go to die!"

Then she stood up, glared at him, and went back to her room.

"It hurts so much..."

Wang Ge rubbed the beaten place and smiled bitterly.

Although I was often beaten before, it never hurts so much.

He knew that such an answer might make Gu Panyan angry, but there was no way, how could he answer?

When he decides to be a scumbag, he is destined to face such a problem, no matter how he answers, he will be wrong.

It's really hard to be a scumbag.

Life is not easy, Wang Ge sighed.

There is no way, who made him greedy and wanted everything?

This is something he has to bear.

...

The next day, Wang Ge got up very rarely early, cooking and cleaning.

Gu Panyan was disdainful of his pleasing behavior, but he did not continue to be angry with him.

In the afternoon, Gu Panyan went out to buy things, and Wang Ge sat in front of the computer to check his grades.

He checked his own first, and it was 739, and it was a bit too small to 74, which was a bit regretful.

But winning the top scorer should be no problem.

The corners of his mouth rose slightly.

He turned around and checked Gu Panyan's scores, with 614 points, which was similar to the estimate, not low. There must be no problem in going to Changchuan University.

The moment I saw Gu Panyan’s results, the system’s voice sounded in my ears:

"Ding~"

[Congratulations to the host for completing the task: saving the bad girl.]

[Reward: Physical constitution +1, points +6140, special abilities "educated without distinction" are converted to permanent, and effective for everyone.]

[In view of the fact that during the task, the host successfully established a romantic relationship with Gu Panyan and received additional rewards.]

[Congratulations to the host for obtaining special abilities: the courage to be happy]

【Special ability: the courage to be happy】

[Introduction: You will have the courage to get happiness that ordinary people cannot match. In fear and suffering, you will have the courage to face it, dare to resist, and be invincible]

【Effect: When you choose to face fear and suffering, your full attributes +1, all skill levels +1, until you overcome this fear and suffering]

【Cooldown time: None】

PS: Courage is the most important spiritual core of the character Gu Panyan. After laying the foundation for a long time, I finally wrote it out.

Xixi has a towering pursuit of freedom, and Yanbao naturally needs to have the courage to be deeply rooted in the underground to compete with it.

Don't say that I'm biased, I give the same love both characters.

But compared to Xixi's freedom, Yan Bao's courage is more difficult to understand. After all, courage should be a topic that everyone has bad writing essays in junior high and high school. What's there to write?

I can understand, so I didn't write too much in-depth. After all, it was an online novel. It was also a stack of armor. I was afraid that some people would not understand it or had different opinions from me, so I came to criticize me.

I have drawn on a small part of Adler's "Psychology of Courage". If you are interested, you can learn about it.

Seeking reading!

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