The leaves swirled in the wind.

The heat that had been suffocating in the room had long since subsided, leaving a little chill instead.

Lin Yunyan looked at Xu Miao and comforted her softly: "It's all a dream."

She didn't want Mrs. Xu to end up crazy again, and that was definitely not what Xu Jian wanted to see.

To this end, the two of them made a lot of preparations in advance and achieved many results.

Without Liu Jing and Liu Xun, it stands to reason that nothing could excite Mrs. Xu so much.

However, deep down in her heart, Lin Yunyan inevitably felt heavy and depressed.

Mrs. Xu's dream was very real, and there was even a dream that she was familiar with.

Xu Jian is sitting in a wheelchair.

She pushed that wheelchair for so many years.

When the two of them escaped from the capital, Mrs. Xu's condition was not very good. When Liu Ping's grandmother secretly handed them money, she also mentioned that she was "exhausted mentally and physically", "she's like crazy", "my aunt and her husband's family"

I’m afraid I won’t be able to hold on even if I run back and forth to my parents’ house.”

After that, I only received sporadic messages.

It's very rough, just saying "crazy".

Lin Yunyan didn't know whether there was someone behind this "crazy" person who stabbed Liu Jing with scissors like in Mrs. Xu's dream. If there was really such a thing, then...

Is that still a simple dream?

If this paragraph is not a dream, then what are the other scenes that Mrs. Xu dreamed about?

Lin Yunyan wasn't sure, but she couldn't get the result after chasing Mrs. Xu.

Not only could she not ask, but she had to comfort Mrs. Xu over and over again, telling her not to get into trouble.

Xu Miao raised her hand and gently wiped the corners of her eyes.

Turning her head, she looked at the closed door behind her, thinking about Xu Jian's pain while being treated.

Xu Shi's emotions were here. Princess Xu Shi's usual kindness and gentleness made her willing to talk. She said many things that she had never said to anyone before.

Not to A Jian, not to A Ping, not to Nanny, not to Xun'er, and even less to Liu Jing.

"I'm very conflicted sometimes," Xu Miao spoke very slowly, as if only speaking slowly in this way could suppress the turbulent ups and downs in her heart, "I've actually been confused all my life."

"I want to go back to my childhood, when my mother was still alive, and spend more time with her, and let her spend more time with me. I want her to teach me a lot of things, instead of growing up alone."

"I also thought that before I got married, I didn't save me and I didn't marry him. I would marry a father who is satisfied and likes me. He really loves me."

"But more often than not, I don't want to change anything."

"Before the master left Beijing, I once told him that I have no regrets. I have no regrets over the past twenty years. I did not lie to him, nor did I lie to myself."

"If I hadn't married him, how could I have Ah Jian, Xun'er and Ah Ping?"

"If I change my life, I will get something else, but I will lose three people. I don't want to."

"My father may be satisfied with me marrying a son-in-law he likes, or he may like my other children, but I know that what he wants most is A Jian. A Jian is his lifelong pride and no one can replace her."

Lin Yunyan did not interrupt Mrs. Xu's words, but responded softly, indicating that she was listening carefully.

She thought it might as well say it.

After all these heavy thoughts were spoken out, Mrs. Xu felt better.

"Furthermore," Mrs. Xu paused, curved her lips and smiled, her eyes already sparkling, "How can it be so easy to go back to the past?"

Lin Yunyan blinked her eyes.

She has experience with this topic, but it's hard for her to talk about it.

"No one guarantees that as long as you go back to the past, you can escape all pain, not even a Bodhisattva."

"The road of life is too difficult, full of forks in the road. I've rounded one corner, but what about the next one? Isn't it wrong?"

"I walked to a completely unfamiliar place and looked at the fork in the road I had never been before. Can I choose the right one? Maybe if I choose, I will choose another pain that I have never tasted."

"How many chances do I have to re-elect?"

"Even if I did, time and time again, would I really have the courage to try one road after another and endure the pain bit by bit?"

It goes back and forth, endlessly.

Xu Miao didn't have that kind of opportunity and performance, but she knew that she might not be able to bear it.

The struggle in the trough is past, and she can look back now because she has come through it.

If she walked through it again, she might really be as crazy as in the dream, right?

Lin Yunyan was stunned.

She was experiencing Mrs. Xu's emotions, but she had not thought about Mrs. Xu's perspective.

She has always been lucky, and so far, her choices are all right. She has overcome the previous hurdles step by step, and is getting closer to her desired goal step by step.

Is it because we haven’t reached the end yet and haven’t reflected the previous rights and wrongs?

Or is it because she is not alone?

She and Xu Jian are walking this road again.

But even so, he is still very lucky.

Fortunately, she has not experienced a "mistake" in more than a year. At least on the surface, obvious mistakes have never happened.

A fluke?

Lin Yunyan couldn't tell.

Her heart was agitated, with many emotions intertwined together.

She took a deep breath, it was difficult to describe it in words, but she knew that the deepest emotion was definitely not a fluke.

After Xu Miao said this, Lin Yunyan beside him stopped talking.

She turned to look at her and found that the princess pursed her lips and frowned.

"Are you scared?" Xu Miao hurriedly asked her, "You blame me for saying that there is something there and there is nothing. It's all just random thoughts, but you took it to heart."

Lin Yunyan laughed out loud when she heard this.

She usually comforted Mrs. Xu, but now it was the other way around, with Mrs. Xu coming to comfort her.

"I'm not scared," Lin Yunyan looked more relaxed, "even after hearing it roughly, I couldn't help but wonder if I could bear it if failure and pain happened over and over again.

Don't think it's just something you have and don't have. I actually really like hearing these.

People of every age have different ideas. I often listen to the Empress Dowager and my grandmother talking about things, and I often listen to my sisters talking about things. My aunts love me very much, but they can't help and won't come to this kind of inner talk.

Tell me.

My mother passed away early, so I don’t know how a mother looks after her children. If you want to tell me, it’s too late for me to be happy.”

Xu Miao held Lin Yunyan's hand tightly and choked up for a moment.

She could completely understand the feeling of "losing her mother", and therefore felt even more sorry for Lin Yunyan.

She still has memories of getting along with her mother when she was a child, but the princess was too young at the time and doesn't remember anything.

After all, other people's memories belong to other people, and they are not as good as one ten millionth of those held in a mother's arms.

Perhaps, it was precisely because of this true emotion that she couldn't let go of her children.

The emotions she conveyed to them were also the "reflections" she wanted to get from her late mother.

She enjoys all the ups and downs.

Perhaps the princess will also experience this from her own children in the future.

It's just that Mrs. Xu can't express her feelings now.

How can any elder start giving birth to a baby before his wife even enters the house?

What she holds is not the idea of ​​​​carrying on the family line, nor is she a boring and annoying person.

While he was talking, the door behind him opened with a creak.

Lin Yunyan turned around when she heard the sound and saw Xu Jian coming out of the room.

Xu Jian had already tidied up, and the injury to his right leg could not be seen under his robe. He just walked slower than usual when going down the steps. Shen Chen even stepped forward to help him.

When the two sides met, Xu Jian's eyes fell on Lin Yunyan and Xu Miao, and it was obvious at a glance that both of them were in a low mood.

This is inevitable, and it’s strange to be happy.

However, after a few more glances, Xu Jian saw something meaningful in Lin Yunyan's eyes. She didn't seem to be holding back her anger, but she was thinking deeply.

Not quite right.

When Lin Yunyan left the house earlier, she was not in this state. The two of them should have said something...

He even said it from the bottom of his heart.
To be continued...