inferiority complex(1/2)
"Yun Hao, will you say a word after you come back? Today Xiao Yuan is here to welcome you." Shen Yuqing finally shifted the topic to Leng Yunhao. But Leng Yunhao just looked up at Shen Yuqing, and then said nothing. He knew that Shen Yuqing wanted him to say something to Mei Xiaoyuan, but at this time, he didn't want to say anything.
Mei Xiaoyuan looked at him with a hot look. She must have wanted him to say something, even if it was just a thank you. But he didn't even want to look at her, let alone other words. In the end, she could only be disappointed and looked at the man in disappointment and excluded herself from sight.
"I've finished eating, and I have to go back to the company to handle things. You guys can go back early after eating. I'll call Jason later and ask him to take you back." Leng Yunhao didn't say anything else. This sentence was something that neither woman wanted to hear, but he said it. He was almost unable to stay in this place. He was unwilling to continue listening to the two women nagging these topics.
"Yunhao, you have something to eat, let's go together after the meal." Shen Yuqing wanted to say something, but Leng Yunhao had already stood up. He wiped his mouth and his brows were tightly frowning. He just turned around and left quickly, and then walked out of the private room with big strides.
Mei Xiaoyuan watched the man's figure disappear in front of her, and that sad expression began to cover her eyes. After all, he looked down on her, otherwise, why wouldn't she even say goodbye?
Leng Yunhao kept walking out. When he reached the door, he felt that the air was much more relaxed. The feeling of depression made him almost die. He wanted to see Su Luoyan so longed to see that fear of losing arises in his heart again. He could lose the whole world, but he could not lose that woman.
It seems that every day is so short, and I feel like I don’t have time to do anything. It’s already night. Leng Yunhao stood on the familiar street, and the night breeze blew on his forehead. Such a familiar feeling made him feel very warm. In this city, there is a woman waiting for him, and this is happiness.
When I looked at the lights in the past, I often felt inexplicably lonely because he could not find the one he belonged to in the lights, but the one in his heart seemed to have been extinguished. When the light was lit up again, he felt that his life began to become extraordinary from now on.
He did not call Su Luoyan, but drove straight toward him. This feeling made him feel very wonderful. It seemed as if he had returned to his youth, seeking the footsteps of love without hesitation. He liked Su Luoyan, and no one could replace the woman's position in his mind.
Now, he is more eager to be with Su Luoyan than ever. He wants to marry her and live with her. When he opens his eyes in the morning, the first person he sees is that woman. They will have the crystallization of love, and then hold hands together and grow old slowly.
This feeling has always been what he hoped for, and it also made him feel from the bottom of his heart that it was a beautiful thing. No one in this world has ever made him feel that life and life are so wonderful. Many things are changing, but love has never been there. He doesn't know if God is helping him, erasing Su Luoyan's memories of the past, and let him arrange some new memories for this woman again.
There was no pain or sorrow in that memory, only the warmth created by his broad mind. She liked this feeling. He could feel the beating from her, and could hear the strong love she had never said, which was the voice of the two of them. She could hear it without saying it.
For Su Luoyan, longing was flooding in her heart like a tide. For some reason, from the moment she learned that Leng Yunhao was going on a business trip, she felt a little nervous. It seemed that a voice kept telling her that the man was not on a business trip, but must have been looking for another woman.
She knew that she shouldn't have these strange thoughts. It was not that she could not feel the love from Leng Yunhao, but that kind of uneasiness was always surging in her heart. She could only choose some ways to keep herself busy. Only in this way can she temporarily stay in her longing.
She has no pressure to study or work pressure. She doesn't know how she can exclude these thoughts. She can only find the romance she wants in idol dramas like Lin Xi. Those beautiful plots interpret virtual stories, but it seems that these things can happen to her.
I still miss that man very much. When I received his call, I felt that I was full of energy all day long, but when I hung up the call, I felt that the whole world had entered the night mode again. What was going on? She couldn't understand her heart and wanted to say it out, but she was afraid of laughing at her.
Fortunately, there is Lin Xi next to her. Otherwise, Su Luoyan wouldn't know what else she would do. Should she take the initiative to call Leng Yunhao? Take the initiative to ask him if he had found another woman outside? Alas, when did she become like this? Didn't she say she shouldn't care too much about that person?
When it was time for the fixed time of daily call, Su Luoyan curled up on the sofa. She kept looking at her phone, but the phone still didn't come. The uneasiness began to surge in her heart again. Leng Yunhao, where are you? Why haven't you called yet? What happened?
When the doorbell rang, Lin Xi ran away and drove it. She had just ordered takeaway, and Su Luoyan and she stayed at home all day and could only rely on takeaway to support herself. However, when she opened the door barefoot, she saw Leng Yunhao standing at the door. She opened her mouth in surprise and then retreated aside.
Leng Yunhao saw the petite woman curled up on the sofa with her pillow in her arms, constantly rummaging on her phone, obviously looking absent-minded and anxious. What was this cute woman doing? He knew that he would call Su Luoyan at this time every day and told her to go to bed early and have a good meal.
But he never told her that he would come back so soon, so Su Luoyan didn't know that such a big surprise would appear beside him. Lin Xi was very tactful and didn't say a word. In order to give Su Luoyan a surprise, Leng Yunhao quietly walked behind Su Luoyan, then reached out to cover her eyes.
"Oh, I hate it, Lin Xi, what do you want to do? Can you let go of your hand quickly? Otherwise, I'm going to be angry?" Su Luoyan began to yell. She thought it was Lin Xi who was joking with her, so she was very angry. Lin Xi was crossing her waist at the door, looking angry.
This woman is indeed someone who can abandon her friends for the sake of men. She treats Su Luoyan very well on weekdays, but she has seen this woman's indifference these days. She just doesn't want to hurt the woman's pain. So she orders takeout on time every day, hoping that this woman can take good care of herself.
She did so many things for this woman, but this woman was yelling at herself now. If it weren't for Leng Yunhao's place, Lin Xi swears that she wouldn't let Su Luoyan eat her mouth when the takeaway came later. This hateful woman is so hateful.
But when his palm was loosened, Su Luoyan saw the big face he had been missing. The man appeared beside him. He looked at him with a smile, his eyes like honey that could not be melted. He loved himself, otherwise he would not be so affectionate.
"When did you come back? Why didn't you tell me?" Her eyes were full of surprise, but more of it was surprise. She always thought that Leng Yunhao would stay in the United States for a few days. After all, when she asked him before, he said the same thing, but now, this man appeared in front of her. How happy she was in her heart. The urge to jump up and tell the people she missed all over the world to come back was so strong.
"I just arrived and ran over to see you. I want to give you a surprise. It seems that someone doesn't want to see me very much, so I'll leave first." Leng Yunhao didn't have the ability to smile, let go of his hand holding Su Luoyan, pretending to be leaving, but Su Luoyan really took him.
"I don't mean that. When I asked you yesterday, you told me that there were still a few days left, and I thought it was still a few days left." She lowered her head shyly, as if she was her little daughter. This look of Su Luoyan made Leng Yunhao want to kiss her. But Lin Xi was here, so he was holding it back. He just reached out and hugged Su Luoyan in his arms.
"Have you eaten well these days? It seems that I have lost weight a little, Luo Yan, you promised me to take good care of myself." Leng Yunhao looked at Su Luo Yan carefully, and always felt that this woman was a little thinner than before. How much he hoped she would be fatter.
"Hey, don't say this. I'll order takeaway for her every day when you leave. Don't you think I've lost weight? Just remember your Luoyan, hate. You must know that you are both ungrateful, so I will give her instant noodles and make her thinner into a bone spirit." Lin Xi said dissatisfiedly.
At this time, Su Luoyan and Leng Yunhao couldn't help laughing. They knew Lin Xi's temper, and this girl would be very good to anyone. When Leng Yunhao was away, the person who took care of Su Luoyan must be Lin Xi. In this world, except him, only this woman would treat her particularly well.
"Lin Xi, how about I treat you to a big meal? Let's go out now and order whatever you want." Leng Yunhao hugged Su Luoyan's shoulder and said to Lin Xi with a smile. He didn't know how to express his gratitude to this girl. He knew that she was just awesome after all, but her mind was really good.
"No, you want to go to eat by yourself. I ordered takeaway. Today I chose the dishes I like to eat." Lin Xi flatly refused. She knew that Su Luoyan had a lot to say to Leng Yunhao, and she didn't want to be such a light bulb. She should leave time for them together.
"Refund the takeaway, I'll drive you out for food. Let's go, Luo Yan is hungry, and I'm not full at night." Leng Yunhao said without saying anything, but Lin Xi didn't continue to hold on, let alone being able to kill Leng Yunhao for a meal, which is not something that can happen often. So she immediately got up and changed her clothes.
The three of them drove away, and Lin Xi was still in love with spicy shrimps, so she found a Sichuan restaurant. Su Luoyan didn't eat much, but Lin Xi had a very good appetite. Leng Yunhao had eaten a little before, but now he relaxed, but he felt that his appetite was good. Such a simple and relaxed feeling made him feel very happy.
He suddenly wanted to keep this moment and wanted to freeze this moment. It was his happiness and Su Luoyan. He hoped that every day in the future would be as comfortable as it is now. He was just worried that if Su Luoyan knew what was going on, what would happen?
He never thought that in addition to facing rumors, he also had to face his mother. He always felt that Shen Yuqing would respect his choice. After all, he was her son, and what she hoped most was that he could be happy. Now that he met Su Luoyan, he felt that this woman could make him feel happy.
He wanted to take Su Luoyan to meet Shen Yuqing and to make her become the hostess of the Leng family as soon as possible. Although all this came a little slower, it was not too late at all. He loved Su Luoyan deeply. He knew that it was not as easy as he imagined to be with her, but as a man, he had to work hard like this.
He kept picking up food for Su Luoyan, always hoping that she could eat more. Seeing the hills piled up in her bowl, the feeling of happiness began to spread. The two of them had a tranquil warmth in their hearts. This is the feeling of happiness coming. He liked this feeling and was willing to protect such feelings with his sincerity.
Luo Yan, I love you very much. I will give you all you want. If one day I tell you whether you want to marry me, I hope you can give me a positive answer. This may be God’s arrangement that allows us to go through hardships but still be together. I cherish the fate of being together and am willing to take responsibility for all your happiness to the end.
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When we finished the meal, the three of us felt a little overwhelmed. Maybe it was because we were in a good mood, or maybe it was because we hadn't eaten such delicious food for a long time. The three of us leaned on the sofa and looked tired.
Lin Xi was still holding her phone to continue playing games. Su Luoyan stared at Leng Yunhao quietly, as if this man's appearance had always been in a state of not being able to see enough. She didn't know when she fell in love with this man. It seemed that the moment she opened her eyes, the man was projected into her heart.
That feeling is really wonderful, as if you knew this person in his previous life. She just feels funny now. Why did she firmly call this man brother? Is this a manifestation of watching too many Korean dramas? Many pictures of her being with Leng Yunhao appeared in her mind. Things in the past are not important, right? As long as this man loves her, as long as their hearts are together, this is the most precious thing in the world.
"What are you looking at? Is there something on my face?" Leng Yunhao reached out and touched his face, then leaned his face close to Su Luoyan. He saw himself in her pupils. Such clear pupils, such clear self. It was a strong flame of love that blended the two people together.
"Luoyan, is it okay to go home with me for dinner on the weekend? I'll take you to see my mother." Leng Yunhao suddenly held Su Luoyan's hand, he said this, then looked at Su Luoyan with a steady look, waiting for Su Luoyan to give him a positive answer. He knew it was a bit too early to ask her to see Shen Yuqing, because now, he can't give Su Luoyan anything.
But he was frightened inside. If Shen Yuqing could not recognize Su Luoyan, then no matter how much effort he tried, it would be in vain. He sensitively noticed Shen Yuqing's favor for Mei Xiaoyuan, which was the vision of a mother-in-law. He needed to express his position. In this world, if he wanted to marry, no woman except Su Luoyan could catch his eye.
"Ah? What? I won't go." Su Luoyan was very surprised. She didn't expect Leng Yunhao to say such a sentence. A long time ago, she was blaming him for not taking her to attend the annual meeting and why she didn't let her meet his mother. But just now, he actually said he wanted to take her home. With such a sudden incident, she resisted under her condition.
If she doesn't go, she doesn't want to see that mother-in-law, she doesn't want to be in a very embarrassing situation. She has nothing now, and she's so ordinary. Will that mother-in-law like her? She is just in love with Leng Yunhao now, why must she meet that woman? If that woman doesn't like her, what should she do?
She was very scared, afraid to face everything. If that woman opposed her being with Leng Yunhao, would this man have to give up on herself? The women who are married to rich families should have superior backgrounds, beauties like Mei Xiaoyuan. But she has nothing. She is just a sparrow, but people will think that she wants to become a phoenix.
She said so quickly that I wouldn't go, Leng Yunhao was stunned for a moment. He really hoped to hear Su Luoyan say ok. He should take her to face his family. But this woman is unwilling. Why is this? Because she hasn't recognized herself in her heart? He already loves her very much.
"Luoyan, can you go together? I want you to meet my mother." Leng Yunhao said again. This is his real idea. He hopes that Su Luoyan will not reject him again. In his heart, Su Luoyan will always be the best character, and the rest are not important.
Su Luoyan didn't say anything. At least she lowered her head and went to see Leng Yunhao's mother. She was not prepared at all. What kind of personality is that woman? Will she be harsh on herself like the poisonous mother-in-law in idol dramas, and then say some ugly things? She has to admit that she has seen more idol dramas recently, so she has become prejudiced against the role of mother-in-law.
"I don't want to go, she will definitely not like me." Su Luoyan said in a low voice. She tried her best to suppress her voice and didn't want Leng Yunhao to hear it clearly. But such a small voice still fell into his ears. It turned out that she was just worried that she would not be liked. Even if someone in this world doesn't like her, it doesn't matter at all. He can betray the whole world and don't have anyone's approval. He will be with this woman.
No matter what Shen Yuqing's attitude is, he will not choose to give up. He wants Su Luoyan to see his mother, which is what he should do. Moreover, he will definitely try to make Shen Yuqing like Su Luoyan. She is so kind and beautiful woman, and deserves something that belongs to her.
"You are stupid, letting you go to see your mother-in-law. This is your recognition of you. You just ate too much and blocked your mind, right? Luo Yan, what do you want me to say to you?" Lin Xi had just heard the conversation between Leng Yunhao and Su Luoyan, and when he heard him say he wanted to take her to see his future mother-in-law, Lin Xi was already a little uneasy. But she didn't expect that Su Luoyan would actually resolutely reject Leng Yunhao's request.
Isn’t this the idea of a fool? Lin Xi was a little unable to understand Su Luoyan’s idea at this time. Every woman longed to be able to integrate into the man’s world as soon as possible. Moreover, Leng Yunhao is now a rich man. He still loves Su Luoyan, which is Su Luoyan’s blessing, and she should hold on to it.
She held her cell phone and glared at Su Luoyan. Has this woman's brain really been broken? Didn't Shen Yuqing have seen her before? Of course, she wouldn't hate Su Luoyan. Even if Su Luoyan has a special status now, she should be recognized. Because Leng Yunhao is her son, her choice should be respected as a mother.
She believed that a kind woman like Su Luoyan would definitely be favored by her future mother-in-law. What's more, Leng Yunhao now regards Su Luoyan as a treasure. When a man makes such a move, a woman should feel happy. Sooner or later, he will find a way to marry you.
But she just didn't understand why Su Luoyan said such words at this time, and she was simply in her mind. Isn't this intention to make the man lose face? She wanted to hold it down, but in the end she couldn't. Su Luoyan, since you love this man, since this man wants to take you to see the parents, don't you really understand what this means?
"What? What I mean is that I don't have a few decent clothes yet, and I haven't decided what gifts to bring." Su Luoyan pouted and immediately began to exonerate herself. She looked nervous. If she saw Shen Yuqing, how should she face that woman? Didn't you say it? The daughter-in-law and mother-in-law are two women who are incompatible with water and fire. In order to compete for the most important man in their lives, they cannot tolerate each other's existence.
She didn't want to occupy Leng Yunhao, and she never had such an idea. Even after being with him, she felt that this man could not belong entirely to her. She respected Leng Yunhao's mother very much and was grateful to the woman for cultivating such an excellent man. She just suddenly didn't know how to face that woman.
Is this a psychological empathy in my bones? Or is it because I have watched a lot of TV series recently, so I have already had a psychological shadow? Su Luoyan didn't know how to explain her behavior just now, she was just a little scared. She was afraid that the woman would not like her at all, and she was afraid that the woman would bring Leng Yunhao happiness.
I'm afraid she was also nervous inside. That woman gave Leng Yunhao so much happiness, and can she continue this happiness? Can she take full care of Leng Yunhao? She felt that she did not have enough courage to show her feelings to that woman.
"You don't have to worry about these, I will arrange them. Luo Yan, if you believe me, my mother will definitely like you. You are the woman I love deeply, and I will not let anyone hurt you." Leng Yunhao held Su Luoyan's little hand and said affectionately. This is his promise to Su Luoyan, and also a promise to himself.
She should believe him, what else can he do? He has given so much for himself and never longed for rewards. She should be content. However, she was a little panicked in her heart. Everything came so fast, and she seemed not ready. She was vaguely worried in her heart. If that woman didn't like her, then how should she face her future life?
The next thing was just as Leng Yunhao said. A big man arranged everything about Su Luoyan. He had sent a special designer to build the clothes she wanted to buy. Even the hairstylists came to Lin Xi's apartment to dress up Su Luoyan. The situation made Lin Xi feel excited.
"Luoyan, you really have you. You are so beautiful today. When Yunhao's mother sees you later, she will definitely think that she is a fairy who has descended to earth." Lin Xi kept circling around Su Luoyan. Su Luoyan was originally very delicate, but after a little modification, she felt even more beautiful and transcendent.
Su Luoyan was just very nervous, feeling that her heart started to ring like a small drum, and she was about to see Shen Yuqing. Her mind was still blank. Will that woman really like her? Why is she not confident at all? Women must not just look at her appearance, right?
However, when Leng Yunhao appeared here, she found a sense of peace of mind. As long as the man was by her side, gave her encouragement and comfort, she should feel relieved. She only had to walk by her feelings and follow him into the palace of happiness, then everything was enough.
"Luoyan, you are so beautiful. My mother and I have made an appointment. We will go there together later." Leng Yunhao sat down next to Su Luoyan, with a happy expression on his face. Although everything has not been confirmed, he is already very firm and only wants to be with this woman in this life.
She was so beautiful that he couldn't help but want to get close. He really wanted to give her a wedding now so that they could be together forever. He could only keep the little expectation in his heart for the time being. In any case, no one could stop them from being together.
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The woman in the mirror has been dressed up in a new way, completely different. Everyone praised her beauty, but only Su Luoyan still felt inferior in her heart. She couldn't find that kind of self-confidence. Without a prominent family background and no capital to take advantage of, she didn't know how good she could be with Leng Yunhao.
Every mother hopes that her son can have a very good wife, but she is so small that she feels ashamed when standing there with Leng Yunhao. She doesn't know what she can do to increase her value. That kind of inferiority hidden deep in her heart cannot be hidden by embellishment.
"Luoyan, don't worry, everything is fine. With me by your side, you just need to be yourself." Before leaving, Leng Yunhao held Su Luoyan's hand and said. He didn't want to put such great pressure on Su Luoyan, he just met Shen Yuqing. He believed that his mother would respect his choice.
"Luoyan, you are so beautiful, you will definitely be very likable. Don't have any ideological pressure. Look, Yunhao cares much about you, I'm waiting to drink your wedding wine." Lin Xi said with a smile. She was fiddling with those things on the side, encouraging Su Luoyan's happiness.
Leng Yunhao ordered the place to eat. She kept sitting beside him. He held her hand and conveyed his warmth. Such a beautiful feeling could actually be felt. However, she just felt a little uneasy in her heart. In the end, the nervousness in her palm was all sweat.
Pushing open the door, she saw Shen Yuqing at a glance. A familiar feeling surged up, and the woman seemed to have seen it somewhere. However, she searched her memory and she had never had any intersection. This was the first time she had officially met Leng Yunhao's mother.
"Mom, this is Luo Yan, what I told you before." Leng Yunhao took Su Luo Yan's hand and stood in front of Shen Yuqing. This was something he had been looking forward to. He wanted to bring a girl to his mother and told her that he had met the beloved woman. Today, he finally got what he wanted.
Shen Yuqing just looked at Su Luoyan carefully. She was thinner than before. Shen Yuqing knew that Su Luoyan had a car accident and knew that she had temporarily lost some of her memory. So, she didn't say anything, but looked at Su Luoyan with a little more complicated look.
Su Luoyan is really beautiful today, and standing next to Leng Yunhao is a perfect match. However, this woman is still someone else's wife and has given birth to children for others. Even an enlightened mother cannot accept such things. She cannot let the Leng family blind any dust.
"Hello, Auntie." Su Luoyan said in a low voice. The first time I saw Shen Yuqing, the familiar feeling did not make her feel at all relaxed. For some reason, she felt sensitively that Shen Yuqing was not so satisfied with her. So, she was always a little nervous.
"It's good to come, sit down, the food will be cold in a while. Yunhao, you're hungry, you should eat more today." Shen Yuqing did not have much common words with Su Luoyan, she just immediately shifted the topic to Leng Yunhao. She couldn't blame Su Luoyan, this woman was not wrong.
But all this was caused by Leng Yunhao. He was as fascinated by this woman and could not get out of this quagmire. Seeing his son, looking at Su Luoyan was like eating honey. She felt a little uncomfortable. He could find any woman worthy, but why did he find this woman who had already gotten married and had children?
Love should not be selfish, she stubbornly thought it. However, she just couldn't understand. Su Luoyan had already gotten married and had children, and was still openly with Leng Yunhao. But in this current occasion, she just kept silent and said nothing. This is her son and her family matter.
"Luoyan, eat more of this, this tastes great." Leng Yunhao kept picking up food for Su Luoyan, afraid that she would be nervous when she had experienced such an occasion for the first time. At this time, he kept standing beside her and giving her meticulous care. He was afraid that she would feel uncomfortable because of her nervousness.
Shen Yuqing rarely speaks, and occasionally says a few words, which is mostly a conversation with Leng Yunhao. Su Luoyan can't interfere, but she can feel the disappointment from Shen Yuqing. She is just a woman of Leng Yunhao, so as long as she doesn't admit it, Su Luoyan will not be related to the Leng family.
To be continued...