Chapter 004: The person I missed, the love I missed, Han Shaoting clenched his knuckles, and after a while, he whispered: "I am her first man, no one knows this better than me. Besides, Song Lingzi knew Zhuo Tian far ahead, not behind, and I have no reason to accuse her past. Everyone has their own past."

Han Shaoting admitted that he was a big man, but he was not a scheming person. Since he was not a blank piece of paper before he married Song Lingzi, there was no reason to ask Song Lingzi to be a blank piece of paper. Of course, he was still happy about Song Lingzi's purity. Thinking of this, Han Shaoting suddenly felt bored. Why do people always ask about Song Lingzi? Can anyone interfere in their affairs?

This time, it would be fine if Han Shaoling did not catch the person who spreads the rumors behind the scenes. If he found out who slandered Song Lingzi like this, he would definitely not be able to spare that person. No matter who this person is, he would definitely not be able to take advantage of it.

"What about me? Am I unforgivable?" Jiang Yuanyuan looked at Han Shaoting with unwillingness in her eyes. "I made a mistake and wanted to change it. Why don't you give me a chance? Our relationship for more than 20 years is not as good as your marriage with her for one year?"

"What do you think?" Han Shaoting's face turned cold, and he regretted letting Jiang Yuanyuan get in the car. "What would you do if I had contact with other women after I got married to you?"

The little face as big as a palm suddenly lost its blood color. Jiang Yuanyuan moved her lips and realized that she could not say anything to refute. Just as Han Shaoting said, what would happen if she had seen that scene?

With her head down, Jiang Yuanyuan felt that her humility was not her humility in her identity, but her love, but that she lost a lot of things, including self-esteem. "Sorry! I apologize to you solemnly for what I have done."

Han Shaoting's lips were pursed tightly, and Jiang Yuanyuan's apology meant nothing to him. Some injuries were caused, no matter how the wound was repaired, it was like a bottle fell to the ground. Once there was a scar, it would not be restored to its original state with the strongest adhesive in the world. This is the case with the hearts of people. It is too late to comfort them after being hurt. "You don't need to apologize. You have the right to choose the life you want. It's my fault. I shouldn't decide the future between us alone."

Jiang Yuanyuan looked at Han Shaoting in shock. Her angular face, without a trace of tenderness, looked so strange and so alienated. "Do you... regret it?"

"Yes, I regret it. After all, it's not all your problem that happens. I once thought that I shouldn't make the request for marriage when you don't want to get married." Han Shaoting looked ahead, and the wipers kept brushing the rainwater on the glass in front, but couldn't remove the traces left by the rain. "At that time, I just wanted to save the relationship between us. I thought that after we got married to you, we would be able to stabilize and there would be no other changes. Now, it's all my wishful thinking."

"No, no, I thought about getting married at that time." Jiang Yuanyuan lowered her head and looked at the ring she wore on her slender fingers. The shiny diamonds made her eyes blur. This ring was worn by Han Shaoting himself and occupied a very important position in her heart. "It's just that I'm too timid. When I think of the problems I have to face when I get married, I can't accept it, or I have premarital phobia."

Han Shaoting's mouth bent, premarital phobia? Because of this so-called phobia, she climbed onto another man's bed and slept in another man's arms? "That man is pretty good to you. If you can, you have to think about it carefully."

Jiang Yuanyuan felt a sour in her heart. The problem between her and Ji Feng was not something Han Shaoting could understand. "He is not suitable for me."

When Han Shaoting heard this, his eyes flashed with coldness, and a hint of mockery appeared on the corner of his mouth: "I thought he was more suitable for you than me."

If not, how could she give up her fiancé and climb into the bed of a strange man? Her relationship for more than 20 years is not as good as the temporary joy between men and women? Han Shaoting thinks that she tries her best every time she comes back on vacation, but why can't she be as satisfied as a greedy glutton?

"You won't understand." Jiang Yuanyuan looked at the rain outside the window, and her thoughts flew. "The person I love has never been him. Besides, he is not a man who can entrust his life. In his world, different women have different benefits. I am just one of them."

Han Shaoting listened quietly and did not answer Jiang Yuanyuan's words. For him, it was no longer his turn to ask about the matter between Ji Feng and Jiang Yuanyuan. He gently turned the steering wheel with his hands, and Han Shaoting's car drove forward quickly.

After the two of them fell into strange silence, Han Shaoting's cell phone vibrated a few times. Han Shaoting stretched out one hand to pick up the phone, pressed the answer button, and then stuffed the headset into his ears. "Hello, who?"

"Guess?" A somewhat unfamiliar voice came from the other side of the phone, soft and sweet, with a unique taste.

"Wife, what are you doing?" Han Shaoting's eyes flashed with a smile, and he directly exposed Song Lingzi's little trick: "Is it fun to hide the phone number and dress up as someone else's voice?"

Song Lingzi stuck out his tongue and his shoulders drooped. "How do you know it's me? It's so boring."

Han Shaoting's lips bent, "Okay, stop playing, I'm driving now and can't be distracted."

"Husband, are you far away from home?" Song Lingzi looked at the soup being cooked in the pot, raised her eyebrows slightly, and asked in a delicate voice.

"What's wrong?" Han Shaoting felt that Song Lingzi had something to do by himself. "If you have something, tell me directly."

"I want to go shopping for vegetables, but it rains outside. I don't want to go out." Song Lingzi doesn't like going out on rainy days. As soon as she goes out, her body will be more or less wet. Song Lingzi, who is afraid of the cold, is even afraid of the summer rain. "Honey, is it convenient for you to go to the supermarket?"

Han Shaoting's car had already turned to the three-way intersection. If he turned to the right, it would be his way home. After hearing Song Lingzi's words, he quickly turned the steering wheel and chuckled, "What do you want to buy? I'll buy it."

In Jiang Yuanyuan's opinion, Han Shaoting's gentleness is so dazzling and so sad. Once upon a time, he, who had always been cold and hard, had such a tender side, which really made Jiang Yuanyuan unable to accept.

Song Lingzi, who was on the other side of the phone, hurriedly pulled out a piece of paper and began to recite the name of the dish I wrote earlier...

Han Shaoting followed her and hoped to remember the vegetables Song Lingzi wanted to buy: "A box of ribs, a pack of vegetables, and a box of chicken feet..."

After Song Lingzi finished reading the name of the dish, Han Shaoting asked in confusion: "Wife, why have you bought so many dishes?"

"Ripes and chicken feet can be kept in the freezer, and fresh vegetables can be used for salads." Song Lingzi blinked his watery eyes, looked at the calendar not far away, and smiled sly: "Besides, I don't know what to eat, so I buy more and go home to choose. I won't have anything to cook when I want to eat."

Han Shaoting shook his head and did not raise any objections to Song Lingzi's extravagance and waste. On the contrary, he was thinking about whether to buy more or not. It would be very heavy to carry things like pork ribs upstairs. "Then you wait at home and I'll buy them."

The two of them said a few more words before hanging up the phone.

"How can you two eat so many dishes?" Jiang Yuanyuan raised her eyebrows and asked with a hint of doubt: "Does she usually do this?"

"Maybe she is in a good mood and wants to cook more." Han Shaoting explained casually, then focused on the road conditions.

Jiang Yuanyuan looked at the small mirror in front of the passenger seat, and a trace of pain flashed across her face. If it were in the past, Han Shaoting would not have turned to the supermarket and would have sent herself home first before she would come out to buy vegetables. But now, she looked down at her wet skirt and touched her wet hair. Was he not worried about being sick at all? Did he not care about his body at all?

Han Shaoting noticed her little movements and thought she was afraid of the cold, so he whispered: "There is a clothing store nearby. When you go there to buy two clothes and change the clothes you have on your body."

"What about you?" Jiang Yuanyuan blurted out. After asking, her watery eyes stared at Han Shaoting, unwilling to miss the slightest change.

"I want to buy vegetables." Han Shaoting replied naturally, his fingers holding the steering wheel tightened and his knuckles were clearly distinguished. "My wife is waiting for me to go home to cook."

"Shaoting, I'll go with you, I don't want to go to the clothing store alone." Jiang Yuanyuan knew that if she went to the clothing store to change clothes, Han Shaoting would definitely leave her and go home. Now she just hopes to stay with him for a while.

Han Shaoting looked at her eyes, slowly drove the car to the parking lot, and threw out three words: "Whatever you want!"

Jiang Yuanyuan's heart fell to the bottom in an instant. If she had said this before, either Han Shaoting would accompany her to the clothing store to change clothes, or would scold her loudly and comfort her, and would never say the words "you" after the breakup, wouldn't men be so heartless and didn't even have any love?

Han Shaoting parked the car and was about to get off the car when he found that Jiang Yuanyuan, who was in the passenger seat, had also gotten off. He raised his eyebrows and asked softly, "Are you going to the supermarket too?"

"I feel bored and want to get out of the car and have a walk." Jiang Yuanyuan blinked her big eyes and looked at Han Shaoting pitifully, wanting to use this to touch Han Shaoting's already cold heart.

Han Shaoting originally wanted to scold him, but he turned his words in another direction. "It's up to you."

Jiang Yuanyuan bit her lower lip and followed Han Shaoting behind her.

Xinghui Supermarket is the largest supermarket in S City. It has very complete goods and can be found in everything you want. Han Shaoting pushed a shopping cart and walked into the supermarket.

Han Shaoting went to buy vegetables first, and threw bags of fresh vegetables into the shopping cart. When Jiang Yuanyuan saw that one of the bags was fur mushrooms, she grabbed the fur mushrooms in surprise and said, "Don't you like fur mushrooms?"

Han Shaoting glanced at him, "I don't like to eat, my wife likes to eat." In fact, the person who likes to eat mushrooms the most is Zhuang Ya, not Song Lingzi. Han Shaoting bought it for his mother-in-law to eat, and it was difficult to speak out, so he had to push it on Song Lingzi.

"But your wife doesn't seem to ask you to buy this." Jiang Yuanyuan reminded Han Shaoting out of kindness, and a trace of indelible light flashed deep in her eyes.

"I know." Han Shaoting continued to throw vegetables into the shopping cart and replied with confidence: "I don't eat it, she can cook it for her mother to eat."

Jiang Yuanyuan put the mushrooms in again, and a hint of jealousy flashed in her black eyes. Never a moment, she would be so jealous of Song Lingzi. "In the past, if I had eaten mushrooms in front of you, you would be unhappy."

Han Shaoting's hand froze with the things. Yes, he was absolutely not allowed to appear in front of him if he didn't like food before. Think about it, at that time he was very pro-dedicated and domineering. He threw the vegetables in his hand into the shopping cart. Han Shaoting explained without changing his face: "Dating and getting married are two different things."

Jiang Yuanyuan raised her eyes, and a deep puzzle flashed in her eyes. "What do you mean?" Will men and women get along with each other change because of the changes in their relationship?

"When you are in love, you want to perform the best in everything. When you are with each other, you will also ask the other to give yourself the best." Han Shaoting pushed the shopping cart forward, and his sharp eyes searched for the target. "When you get married, you won't think so. People want to be themselves, their completely true self. Two people are under the same roof, and they must tolerate each other."

"Isn't tolerance a very hard thing? If two people need to tolerate together, why should they be together? If this continues, it will not be a good thing for you and her." Jiang Yuanyuan's words burst out and she immediately regretted it. She shouldn't be so casual. Han Shaoting is no longer her boyfriend. In order to alleviate the embarrassment, she added: "I just think that when two people are together, they have to be happy."

Han Shaoting put his hand in his pocket, looked at the rows of steaks and pork chops in the freezer, and chose three boxes of steaks and two boxes of pork chops. With a faint smile, he changed Jiang Yuanyuan's words: "How can there be so many happy things? Two people are just living a simple life."

Ordinary? Jiang Yuanyuan couldn't believe that these four words would come from Han Shaoting's mouth. "Then, won't you get bored? If two people stay together, they just keep repeating things that are meaningless, will they not get bored at all?"

Bored? Tired? Han Shaoting frowned and picked up two boxes of ribs and threw them in, "What kind of life do you think will not be bored? What kind of life will not be bored? Open a party every day, or travel around the world? Or, hold a credit card and swipe the card everywhere?"

"I..." Jiang Yuanyuan swallowed the words to her mouth. Yes, no matter what kind of life she lives, she will get tired of it once she repeats herself. After a long time of stuttering, Jiang Yuanyuan said: "At least, every once in a while, you have to change something new. You can't just live your life again and again, right?"

Han Shaoting turned around and felt that Jiang Yuanyuan was very naive for the first time. "Do you know? When you were seventeen or eighteen years old, what you wanted to do was do according to your own wishes. Even if you did something wrong, others would not think that there was anything. At most, you were young, ignorant, or made mistakes. After you were twenty-five, people would start to take responsibility. At this time, you should think carefully about anything you do, because the people around you would not make excuses for you to make mistakes and refuse. I am in my thirties now. If I don’t take the responsibility of my family again, what kind of person do you think I will be in the future? What will my life be like? Stay with girls all day long? Or is it that you are drunk and eat and wait for death in a gentle countryside?"

After a pause, Han Shaoting picked up the instant coffee and milk tea bags on the shelf and put them in the shopping cart. "Or, in your eyes, those who love you must be like the earth around the sun, constantly turning around you. But, I tell you, this is simply impossible. Even a playboy has his own business to be busy with, let alone me, the eldest son and grandson of the Han family."

Han Shaoting picked up a bag of marshmallows and put it in the shopping cart. "For example, when buying vegetables, I don't help my wife buy vegetables every day, sometimes she buys them alone. When I go to work, she cleans the things at home. The clothes I wear are hot and the tea she drinks are brewed by her own hands. Maybe you will say that these servants can do them, but I tell you that the servants can do them because she is working and my wife can do them because she feels sorry for my hard work outside. Men don't have to be how capable and dazzling their wife is, but he must hope that his wife will take care of himself."

Jiang Yuanyuan's body trembled, "Do you dislike me because I can't do these things?"

Han Shaoting turned around and pushed the shopping cart forward. "I don't dislike you anything. You can't do it, and I don't ask you to do it. But I hope you understand that when two people are together, they don't have to look at each other at all times, and they ask each other to surprise themselves. Roses and chocolates are just embellishments of life. Most of the days are down-to-earth and spend their time in the firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea."

Jiang Yuanyuan stared at her toes with tears in her eyes: "I was too naive to think. I thought that when two people were together, they wanted to be happy, happy, without any worries. But after I was with you, I felt that I was so lonely. No one was with me when I was eating, and no one helped me carry things when I went shopping...

Han Shaoting was silent. He knew that Jiang Yuanyuan had been living in the ivory tower. She had a driver when she went out and a servant when she went home. Not to mention boiling water and cooking, even her clothes were not folded out by herself.

Her parents' excessive pampering made her unable to understand that the meaning of life is to repeat day after day. Two people support each other, not playing every family, nor a banquet, and there are different excitement every day.

Han Shaoting examined the relationship between himself and Jiang Yuanyuan for the first time. At this moment, he suddenly realized that even without the previous betrayal, they would definitely not be together for a long time. Jiang Yuanyuan likes liveliness and quietness. If he accommodates each other once or twice, he can still cooperate with each other. Over time, the two will definitely have conflicts.

What's more, he was a soldier and had only a handful of days at home for a year. If Mr. Han hadn't been afraid that he would be too popular, he would have become a target for some people, he would not have stood here and went shopping leisurely. A girl like Jiang Yuanyuan is really not suitable to marry a soldier. She should find a rich and powerful man and spoil her like a treasure. But he has the financial conditions but no personal time.

"Yuanyuan." Han Shaoting softly called out Jiang Yuanyuan's name, and a trace of helplessness flashed through his deep black eyes.

When Jiang Yuanyuan heard Han Shaoting call her name gently, a hint of ecstasy flashed in her eyes. "Shaoting, do you have something to say to me?"

"You are a good girl." Han Shaoting did not turn around to face Jiang Yuanyuan, but continued to move forward. "I am not suitable for you. Even if we are really married, I will not be a good husband. Maybe, you think now that I am a good man and a good husband, that is because you are not my wife. You will not know my shortcomings and will not touch my worst side. Maybe you will say that we have known each other for a long time, but I want to tell you that the length of time we know each other does not affect one's understanding of another. For example, my understanding of you also begins today."

In the past, Han Shaoting would have treated the problem between himself and Jiang Yuanyuan as an irrelevant thing, believing that after marriage, all problems will be solved and all troubles will disappear. In fact, the existence of marriage will only aggravate conflicts and will not resolve conflicts. For a couple in love, love is not a omnipotent secret recipe and can solve all troubles. On the contrary, the source of many troubles may come from love. Because the deeper the love, the more demands it is. If marriage is regarded as a safe haven, it would be a big mistake.

Jiang Yuanyuan looked at Han Shaoting's upright back and wide shoulders and realized that the man in front of her was so far away from her. She thought of the past, and the intimate past seemed to have happened yesterday, but it was no longer yesterday. He had his own wife and would have his own children in the future.

Jiang Yuanyuan felt heartbroken, but her temporary willfulness was a permanent mistake. Could this be the punishment, punishing her for being unfaithful to her feelings and betrayal to Han Shaoting?

"Shaoting, Yuanyuan, it's been a long time since we met." A man came towards him and greeted Han Shaoting and Jiang Yuanyuan.

"Sir Lu, when will you return to China?" Han Shaoting asked in surprise.

"I returned to China a few days ago, and I haven't congratulated you yet. I heard that you are married and have children?" Lu Shao didn't know the situation and asked with a smile. Xing said in a tight voice.

Han Shaoting and Jiang Yuanyuan's faces changed drastically, especially Jiang Yuanyuan's blood faded away, while Han Shaoting looked embarrassed and a little embarrassed.

Jiang Yuanyuan chose to bow her head and say nothing. Han Shaoting had to smile and explain: "What nonsense? If my wife hears it, I have to kneel down on the washboard when I go home tonight."

After hearing this, Lu Shao knew something was different and shouted: "I am abroad and I didn't have time to come back to attend the wedding."

Han Shaoting took the opportunity to add: "I will introduce my wife to you another day."

"Okay." Lu Shao agreed, his eyes uncovered surprise. Everyone thought Han Shaoting and Jiang Yuanyuan were destined to be tied together. Who knew that human calculations were not as good as God's calculations. Because of his previous mistakes, Lu Shao dared not say much, for fear of being too much wrong and offended the Han family. "I have something to do, so you can go shopping slowly."

Seeing that the vegetables had been bought almost the same, Han Shaoting smiled and invited Mr. Lu: "I'll invite you to drink at oldtime another day."

Lu Shao agreed readily and left in a hurry.

Jiang Yuanyuan looked at Lu Shao's back as he walked away, and a trace of bitterness appeared on the corner of her mouth. Even friends like Lu Shao believed that they were a couple, but they would end up parting ways. Who blamed them for all this?

Han Shaoting pushed the car and paid the bill in front of the cashier. After leaving the cashier, Han Shaoting said to Jiang Yuanyuan: "You must take good care of yourself in the future."
To be continued...