Chapter Nineteen: I Don't Want to Live Up to You Anymore(1/2)
The car was parked downstairs in the hotel. Liu Yan walked out, looked at the car parked outside, and walked over.
After getting in the car, there was smoke inside. It was obvious that Zhou Lei had been smoking for a while while waiting.
I was a little surprised when I received a call from Zhou Lei. I had another bad night's sleep last night. During the night, too many fragments flashed through my mind. I didn't fall asleep until Zhou Lei's call came in the early morning.
, she finally opened her eyes in a daze.
This is the number I got after returning to China, and it was only reserved for two people...
"Ahem."
After getting into the car, Liu Yan couldn't help but choke because of the smell of cigarette. Zhou Lei put out the cigarette in his hand and opened it a little.
"What do you want to eat?"
"You make the decision..."
Liu Yan answered the question naturally, and some memories came back. Liu Yan added: "I really miss the home-cooked food in China. Do you have any recommendations?" [
The distance between them was obviously trying to put some distance between the two people...
"Um."
Zhou Lei didn't say much, and the car drove forward until it stopped at a small-looking restaurant.
We walked in one after another. It was just past lunch time and there were still a lot of people here, which shows that the taste here must be very good.
The two of them walked to the small box and sat down, and the boss immediately brought the menu.
"Let's see what you like to eat?"
Zhou Lei handed the menu to Liu Yan...
Liu Yan took it and looked through it. Because she thought about too much last night, it should be said that in the past few years, she has thought back countless times. The three years the two of them have been together, every bit of it has been recalled by her over and over again.
This time I can overcome the unseen longing.
"Is the stone pot fish okay?"
"Um."
Zhou Lei didn't have any objections, so Liu Yan ordered something heavier based on the taste of the two of them before. Shitou's taste has always been very strong, and he likes spicy and salty food. So, he only ordered a portion of shrimps, which was lighter.
The food was served very quickly. The two of them didn't wait for more than ten minutes. The food was already served one after another. Liu Yan actually didn't have a strong taste, but when he was with Zhou Lei, the taste became a bit stronger. Eating these dishes,
It's like time has returned to the beginning, when the two of them were happiest.
I know it's impossible, but I greedily try to remember this moment as a memory in the future...
"A Lei, why don't you eat it? Isn't it your favorite food?"
Liu Yan was immersed in memories. When she came back to her senses, she realized that Zhou Lei, who was sitting opposite, only took a few bites of shrimps and barely moved his chopsticks...[
"I haven't eaten spicy food for a long time."
With one word, the table fell silent. Liu Yan, who had been eating happily, now found it difficult to swallow.
long time……
It has indeed been a long, long time. The last time we had dinner together was six years ago...
He is no longer his Ah Lei, the Ah Lei who holds him in the palm of his hand and understands all his preferences.
People say that the most fearful thing is time, and how much can be changed in six years...
“How many more lighter dishes should we add?”
"No, Xiaoxiao prepared a lunch box for lunch and ate some."
Zhou Lei still has a calm expression...
"oh."
Liu Yan didn't know what to answer. When he called her, she said by the way that she was hungry and wanted to eat together. She also forgot the time. She didn't even ask if he had already eaten. In the past, he always said that he was hungry.
She is the lord, no matter what he does, he always puts her first in everything.
She forgot again that Ah Lei was no longer her Ah Lei, but a smiling stone.
Lowering his head and eating in silence, Zhou Lei glanced at Liu Yan's lowered eyebrows, and a dark color flashed in his eyes. But he looked away, as if he hadn't seen him...
until……
"Ahem..."
Liu Yan immersed herself in eating, but after all, these were the ones that catered to Zhou Lei's previous taste, and she hadn't eaten them for a long time. For a moment, she roared with spicy gas, which made her choke. She coughed more and more, covering her lips, Liu Yan coughed.
More and more uncomfortable...
"I'm going to the bathroom."
With a hesitant voice, Liu Yan lowered her head and quickly walked to the bathroom.
Until he saw the door closed, Zhou Lei touched his pocket and was about to light a cigarette. However, as soon as he touched his pocket, he thought that he couldn't smoke here, so he silently moved his hand away.
Finally, when he saw that she was uncomfortable, he couldn't help but turn a blind eye...
only……
When Liu Yan came back, her eyes were a little red. Zhou Lei's expression was already very calm. He watched Liu Yan sit down and stopped moving his chopsticks.
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The dishes were taken out, and two cups of tea were ordered. The two of them sat there, Liu Yan lowered her head and sipped the tea, with complex expressions in her lowered eyelids...
"Yan'er."
Zhou Lei looked at the lingering aroma of tea and suddenly spoke.
"Um."
The hand holding the tea cup was already shaking a little. In fact, she had already understood it when he said those words with meaning as early as when he was eating, seemingly naturally but deliberately.
He called himself today not to reminisce about old times...
"A Lei, I didn't want to destroy you. I'm sorry about what happened yesterday. I just wanted to see where you live. You didn't mention Xiaoxiao living with you, so I didn't expect to meet Xiaoxiao.
Laugh. At that time, I was just obsessed with pressing the password. Who knew..."
Zhou Lei heard Liu Yan mention the password...
"I just forgot to change it."
After Zhou Lei's words came out, Liu Yan's face suddenly changed...
The hope in his eyes was quietly extinguished, just like the most dazzling fireworks. When they were brilliant, they eventually declined and disappeared.
Even though I knew it was possible for two people to be together, I didn't know what answer I wanted to get by mentioning it like this.
Liu Yan's heart was filled with unbearable bitterness. Was it a mistake for her to come back...
"Yan'er."
There were some words that he had to say again in the end. He decided to take responsibility for the choice he made. From the moment he spoke with Xiaoxiao, his first reaction was shock when he said it, but deep down in his heart he understood.
That's what he wanted to say...
Human beings are not grass and trees, who can have feelings...
It’s a lie not to be moved...
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"Xiaoxiao and I will see you off tomorrow?"
When they walked out together, Zhou Lei listened to Liu Yan's words, and when he returned to France in a few days, he took the initiative to speak.
"No, Ah Lei, just say goodbye here. Seeing that she takes good care of you makes me relieved."
Liu Yan smiled softly. She just rushed back as soon as she could. She just wanted to see if he was doing well. Now, she saw that he was accompanied by a beautiful woman and she took care of him with a smile.
He was so good, she felt relieved...
He turned around and left Zhou Lei with the most beautiful smile.
She refused Zhou Lei to send her as a gift, saying she wanted to go shopping alone. But when she got into the taxi, she saw Zhou Lei standing there, fading away...
"Yan'er, I have let you down before, and I can't let Xiaoxiao down again."
Finally burst into tears...
Sitting in the back seat, I couldn't help crying...
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"You remember to eat on time."
Zhou Lei was going on a business trip for a week, and Shangguan Xuan helped Zhou Lei pack his luggage while giving instructions. Every time he went on a business trip, she was very worried. She was worried that he would not be able to take good care of herself without him.
"You remind me."
Zhou Lei hugged the busy Shangguan Xuan from behind, turned around, lowered his head and kissed her on the lips.
"What if I forgot!"
To be continued...