Chapter 1

There is little snow in the south of the Yangtze River, and even if it does exist, it is as thin as goose down, does not weigh the branches lightly, and is gone even if it stops for a moment, while the green mountains are faintly visible. [`Novel`] The snow in the south of the Yangtze River is very easy to trigger inspiration, and it is also very easy to cause melancholy.

Suddenly I remembered Lu Xun's "It is the lonely snow, it is the dead rain, it is the soul of the rain." With all the trees withered and the rivers and lakes frozen, the northern country can enter a kind of pure world of chilling silence, while in the south of the Yangtze River, there is only snow.

It will lead to the pure state of heaven and earth.

But I still have to run to the hospital every day because there are Chen Yuan, our children, and the patients in the hospital bed.

Going home at noon, I looked at the people on the road from the car window. They were walking in a hurry but not in a hurry. Those with umbrellas held up the flower umbrellas in their hands and walked leisurely in the snow; those without umbrellas wrapped up their coats tightly and raised their collars, and stopped after walking for a while.

I stomped my feet and shook the snowflakes off my body. Suddenly I felt very pitiful because I didn’t know

I went to enjoy this rare snow scenery. I hid in the car and looked at the people of this world like the audience below the stage. I found that I used to be one of them, but now I am gradually moving away from them.

And left. I felt so lonely inside because I began to be afraid of the world.

When the car stopped, I saw the children in the community shouting excitedly: "It's snowing! It's snowing!" The children who were tired of staying in the building rushed down the corridor one by one and came to the open space, cheering and chasing each other.

Now, snow has become the fairy tale and amusement park of children’s dreams: An

The quiet children stretched out their little hands in the flying snowflakes to welcome the most crystal clear six-petal flower in the world; the curious children stretched out their fresh little tongues like stamens, wanting to taste the salt-like sugary snowflakes. However, the snowflakes

These naughty guys, they haven’t waited for the child yet

The children's tongues came close to each other, but they played hide and seek, and used the invisible method to blink at the children and then disappeared, leaving only warm and beautiful patterns printed on the children's cold red hands; the playful children looked like

Chasing snowflakes like a butterfly, or a sudden whim

Suddenly he stopped, like blowing soap bubbles in the past, and looked up to see the large snowflakes blowing into the air. What he exhaled was a stream of hot white water vapor. The snowflakes he touched melted in the blink of an eye and turned into a drop of tear.

On the child's long eyelashes.

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I was thinking: When will Chen Yuan and I’s children be like this? A kind of hope suddenly rose in my heart.

I suddenly sighed and raised my head to look at the sky. I found that the snow was floating in small pieces first and fell on the roof. The roof was so excited that it moistened the eyes looking into the distance; it fell on the blue ceiling of the security window.

Hospitable security windows

Then he let her settle down there; she landed on the flower umbrella of a passerby and let out a very subtle whisper. Slowly, the snow became heavier, like catkins, floating to the east and west; like reed flowers, as soft and moist as jade; like the swan pond.

a group of white

The swans dance gracefully and gracefully; like thousands of crazy jade butterflies, no one has the same pair of wings and flutters down to the earth. On the roofs of cars parked on the roadside, the snow begins to accumulate thicker and thicker. Gradually, it accumulates.

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The children collected them for a snowball fight. Some evergreen shrubs in the community also had a thick layer of snow on them, and the green petioles held up white flowers. The camellias were plump and strong, with red lips and white teeth, showing a bit of delicacy.

pretty.

I was immediately fascinated, obsessed with this world of snow. Suddenly I found that the snow was falling even harder, and I suddenly thought of the world outside this city. Perhaps, this snow has whitened the metasequoia and tallow tree, the grass and vegetables, and whitened the snow. The ditches and fields...

The snow in the south of the Yangtze River is beautiful, it is a kind of silent beauty when it falls to the ground, and the empty valley reflects the snow! The snow in the south of the Yangtze River is pure, like a woman from a small family, smiling and looking forward to life; the snow in the south of the Yangtze River is also a bit stunning, like The girl who just got out of the bath concealed three parts of the beautiful peaks and greenery, and revealed seven parts of the cold brilliance. The snow in the south of the Yangtze River came calmly and calmly, and was so reserved and restrained. There was no cold wind, no hail, no bluff, and it was so quiet. There is no trace of the smoke and dust of the world. She is very much like the Jiangnan people living in this land. She is gentle and gentle in her behavior. She is calm and calm when dealing with things. She does not cause trouble and is tolerant: You give her a ten-pound load. , she walks forward leisurely, even if you give her a hundred catties of burden, she can bear the humiliation and walk forward with her head bowed; the snow in the south of the Yangtze River is a bit so considerate, as if she is born with a nature that is good at caring and loving. For fear of crushing the grass underneath, the snow always modestly leaves some gaps where there are trees and grass, allowing the flowers and plants hidden under the body to poke their heads out to take a breath. When the sun comes, they quickly retreat and disappear. The rain also protects the flowers. With the moisture of the snow, the grass, trees and vegetables are not as easy to freeze to death as in the north, but become more green and tall.

The snow in the south of the Yangtze River is also a kind of spiritual thing that can make people calm down. Just stand somewhere and watch the gray snowflakes falling silently from the sky. Because there is a lot of snow in the south of the Yangtze River and there is no wind, so you can stand there. Live and not suffer from the cold wind. Stand quietly, surrounded by only silence. Only silence can make the soul settle. Maybe you will still have memories, the past of life, joy and sadness in the beginning. In that posture Gaze out in the snow and wait. Slowly, the only whiteness and silence in this world will separate the impetuousness and restlessness in a person's soul from the feasting, entertainment, sounds and horses in the world of mortals, and then you will hear the gentle breeze. In the willow and bird-song valley, I saw the fairyland of spring flowers and tenderness. It made my hard heart soften a little bit, and then I felt grateful and moved in my heart. At this moment, I had feelings, and when I woke up, I found that I no longer seemed to be the same. It's your original self.

Although the snow in the south of the Yangtze River is not as hearty and wild as the snow in the north, it is warm and full of spirituality. Standing in this snow, I am thinking: maybe only those who understand the snow in the south of the Yangtze River will understand what an empty valley is. The beauty of the echo, what is the wordless truth of great love, can you further understand the depth and breadth of life.

Unfortunately, I found that I still couldn't read it.

That night, Azhu woke up in the middle of the night, and Su Hua and I were pleasantly surprised.

"Mom, dad..." I heard Azhu calling softly. She was already a girl in her twenties, but her voice was like a child's. But I didn't think there was anything wrong with her. It was so ridiculous, but a kind of pain suddenly appeared in my heart.

"Azhu..." I called her softly, and then I saw her open her eyes. She was looking at us, as if she remembered everything that had happened, and tears began to flow from the corners of her eyes.

Su Hua came to see me, and I shook my head gently at her, signaling her not to say anything. Yes, it is useless to say anything in such a situation. I know that the pain in her heart needs time to be forgotten.

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Ah Zhu fell asleep deeply again, but I knew that she was subconsciously trying to escape.

Su Hua and I sat silently until dawn, when Ah Zhu woke up and said, "Feng Xiao, Su Hua, I'm hungry."

My tired body suddenly became energetic and I hurriedly said: "I'll get you some food right away. What do you want to eat?"

She did not answer me, but tears were still slowly flowing from the corners of her eyes. I sighed softly and said to Su Hua: "You stay with her, I will buy something to eat and come back."

Azhu was crying while eating, and Su Hua couldn't help but the tears flowed down. I was also very sad, but I still forced myself not to let my tears flow out.

Later I discovered that Ah Zhu had not eaten anything at all.

"Feng Xiao, Su Hua, please leave me alone and let me follow my mother. What's the point of living alone in this world?" Azhu said later, her tears falling on the porridge in the lunch box in front of her.

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"Azhu, don't be like this. Things have already happened. This is a matter between your parents. You are still young and need to live well. To be honest, your father did not do the right thing in this matter, but your mother was also too radical.

Now that they are gone, aren't Feng Xiao and I still here?" Su Hua said. Medical career: Obstetrics and Gynecology 1

I hurriedly said: "Azhu, your mother also hopes that you will live well. I read her diary, and she left a last message for you at the end, hoping you can live well."

"Pure text" and also left all the money at home to you. Azhu, you have joined the workforce and are no longer a little girl. You must learn to live independently in the future. Su Hua is right. Although your parents' affairs make

People feel miserable, but they all have their own faults. In fact, you know it in your heart, otherwise, why would you come to me for help? I am so ashamed that I didn’t have time to get things done quickly. But you also

You are responsible. In fact, your mother has discovered what happened to your father a long time ago, but you just didn't notice it. This shows that you didn't care enough about your parents before. In fact, in the final analysis, you always regarded yourself as a child.

The child is looking at it. Now that your parents are gone, you have to mature as soon as possible. I think your parents also very much hope that you will be happy in the future. Otherwise, why would your mother say that in her last words?

What are the words? Ah Zhu, in fact, it is very easy for a person to escape from difficulties. Just jump off the stairs with your eyes closed. The most difficult thing is to face the world with strength. Our parents brought us to this world.

It’s not easy, and it’s even more difficult to raise us to such a big age. Think about me, although I have made many mistakes, haven’t I faced less pain? I always tell myself in front of those pains

I said it myself: things

The situation has happened, but I have to continue to live, because I know the reason why I must live, that is for the nurturing grace of my parents, for the children, and even more for myself. Now that I have come to this world, then I will

You should take a good look at what is going on in this world, and at the same time shoulder your own responsibilities. In fact, suffering is also a wonderful life. Do you think so, A-Zhu?"

"I don't want to live anymore... Wuwu! Mom..." I thought Azhu would feel better after saying these words, but I didn't expect that she would burst into tears immediately.

"Azhu, I think what Feng Xiao said is quite right. As for you, it is indeed too immature. However, it is difficult for anyone to accept something like this in your family. In fact, as Feng Xiao and I,

How can I tell you that I don’t feel uncomfortable? Haven’t you, senior sister, and I encountered too many things?

?Looking back on how proud I was in the past. At that time, I was happily married and always wanted to make a difference in my career. Unexpectedly, I later got divorced and almost went to jail. Now I have to give up the major I have studied for many years and go to work for

A bunch of disabled children work as nannies. You think I'm miserable enough?

?But I haven’t come over like this? People have to live, and they have to continue to live wonderfully. Azhu, let me tell you a story. A Zen master at the Buddhist Academy unfolded a map of China during class.

Ask the students, what are the characteristics of the river in this picture? The students answered

, are not straight lines, but crooked curves. The Zen master asked again, why is it like this? Why does the river not go straight but has to take a detour? The students talked about it, some said, river

Taking detours lengthens the flow of the river and therefore allows the river to have a greater flow.

When summer floods come, the river will not be full of water. It is also said that due to the elongation of the river flow, the flow of each unit river section is relatively reduced, and the impact of the river water on the river bed is also weakened, which causes

When it comes to protecting the river bed, the Zen master said after hearing this, what you said are all

Yes, but in my opinion, the most fundamental reason why rivers do not go straight but take detours is that taking detours is a normal state in nature, while going straight is an abnormality, because rivers will encounter various obstacles in the process of moving forward.

There are all kinds of obstacles, some of which are insurmountable. So it can only take detours

Taking a detour, in fact, the same is true in life. When people encounter ups and downs, they should regard the twists and turns of life as a normal state. They should not be pessimistic and disappointed, do not sigh, do not stand still, and regard detours as the way forward.

another form of walking, another way, so that you can be like those who walk

Like a winding river, it reaches the distant sea of ​​life. Azhu, do you know who told me this story? Let me tell you, it was your mother who told me this story when I came from the Anti-Corruption Bureau.

When she came out... Alas! It's a pity that she didn't see clearly."

Su Hua's story just now shocked me. In fact, I understand many truths, but I can't explain them so clearly. Yes, taking detours is a normal state in nature, but on the contrary, taking straight paths

But it is an abnormal state. How well said! What surprised me even more was that Su Hua actually said that this story was told to her by her tutor.

"Did the instructor know when you came out that time?" I asked.

Su Hua nodded, "Yes. In fact, she also found a lot of people to help me. Maybe her friends told her that I was coming out that day, but she came to pick me up in person. That day, when I came from the Anti-Corruption Bureau

I saw her at first sight when I came out. You don’t know, I hugged her and cried bitterly. It was at that time that the instructor told me that story. To be honest, I held her in my arms and cried bitterly.

If it weren’t for the story she told me, I might have left this city long ago, and there was even the possibility of becoming a monk. Alas! In fact, in the final analysis, it is easy for a person to look at other people’s things;

She is so clear and clear, but when she looks at her own affairs, she is confused. Although the tutor is nagging, she is very fragile inside. Alas!"

"She nags because she pursues perfection." I said, "Azhu, did you hear that? Your mother is such a perfectionist but she has been tolerating your childishness and mistakes. Do you know why? Then

It’s because she thinks you are still young and still need to go through the trials of life.”

Having said this, I suddenly remembered the abusive diary entry of my mentor. At that time, I was still a little surprised: since the mentor was going to leave those last words for Azhu at the end, why didn't he tear up the article that was harmful to her image?

What about words? Now it seems that she deliberately let Ah Zhu see her shortcomings. Perhaps the instructor thought this way: because of her own imperfections, she ended up like that. In the final analysis, she expected Ah Zhu to

Become perfect.

Of course, my guess was probably wrong, but I felt that I should tell Ah Zhu. So, I then said to Ah Zhu: "A Zhu, I hope you will get rid of the pain as soon as possible and read your book carefully."

Mom’s diary, maybe you will gain a lot from it.”
To be continued...