When I saw the phone number on my phone, I felt ecstatic. I was stunned for a moment. After a few seconds, I suddenly woke up and hurriedly answered the call. (.Pure text)

At this moment, I felt my hand on the phone trembling.

The phone was connected, but I couldn't hear her voice... No, there was his breathing on the phone. I heard and felt it.

At this moment, my heart suddenly surged, and an indescribable excitement filled my whole body in an instant. I restrained my excitement and asked her softly on the other end of the phone, "Zhu Dan, are you?"

Are you okay?"

After a brief silence on the phone, her faint voice came, "Not good..." Medical Path: Obstetrics and Gynecology 40

My voice suddenly choked up at this moment, "Xiao Dan..."

Her sigh was immediately heard on the other end of the phone, "Smile, I'm fine. Although I like that we can continue, I know this is unlikely. Right?"

I didn't know how to answer her, so I immediately asked her: "I heard that you have lost a lot of weight, right? Xiao Dan, you have to take care of your body."

She said softly: "I know. You don't have to worry about me. I'm fine. Mayor Feng, I have something else to do and I'm working overtime. If you don't have anything else to do, then so be it."

I was stunned for a moment, and immediately felt the indifference and disappointment in her words. My heart suddenly became desolate, "Okay. Xiaodan, I'm sorry for you. If you want to hate me, then hate me."

She didn't answer me and immediately hung up the phone. I knew that this was actually her answer - she was completely and completely disappointed in me.

At this moment, I really wanted to slap myself in the face! I really hated myself and why I took everything now so seriously.

But then I had to ask myself this question: If you were really asked to give up everything you have, would you be willing? Are you willing?

I couldn't help but shake my head. Now, I truly understand what it means to suffer in the world of mortals, and I also understand better that my heart is actually full of desire for power. I have to admit that I am just an ordinary person, and I dream like other ordinary people.

To get ahead. The key to the problem is that I have experienced too many women, so I don’t cherish Zhu Dan like I do now.

This is often the case. I understand the truth, but it is impossible for me to actually do it. Because my inner desire has bound myself, and this desire is pulling on me like an invisible rope.

Going in a certain direction, although I turned around several times, I had no choice but to give up some of the things I once owned. I reluctantly gave up.

In fact, I also understand very well that in the final analysis, life is a process of constant choices. Although many choices will make people very painful, we have to face this pain again and again and make our own choices again and again.

Life is inherently so helpless.

Thinking about this, I slowly started to think about it, and I went to bed and fell asleep. In fact, I know myself. After experiencing so much pain, my nerves have become much tougher than ordinary people, and they are almost numb.

, Otherwise, how could I extricate myself from the pain so quickly?

I returned to the provincial capital on Friday night. Lin Yi was right to criticize me last time, and my mother criticized me in the same way. Now I really should take some time off from my busy schedule to go home and spend time with my children and mother.

The feeling of returning home does make people feel warm and peaceful. After the children and mother went to bed, I went to the study room to find a book, and then went to bed and read it slowly. It is easy to calm down at home

, this is actually the power of family warmth.

After reading for a while, I felt tired, and then I was ready to lie down and sleep. But I don’t know why, I was already tired, but I couldn’t fall asleep. When I closed my eyes, I immediately felt inexplicable excitement.

So I opened my eyes and took the book I was reading from the side. But when I started reading, I suddenly found that my eyes were hazy, and sleepiness suddenly rolled over me.

However, when I threw the book aside again and closed my eyes to go to sleep, the excitement that appeared before suddenly came back inexplicably.

Repeated like this several times.

Later, I just lay on the bed like this. I thought to myself, since I couldn't fall asleep, I just lay like this and let my thoughts wander freely.

I have had insomnia before, and the situation was almost the same as now: tired, but an inexplicable excitement immediately appeared after closing my eyes. In such a situation, a person is most likely to suffer.

, and irritability. The best way is to turn off the lights, and then let your thoughts fly freely, turning the pain of insomnia into a kind of enjoyment of free thinking. Medical Path: Obstetrics and Gynecology 40

I don't have anything important planned for tomorrow, so so be it.

However, if you want to deliberately think about it, it will only make people irritated. The only way is to let yourself think about sleep first. In this case, for a person who is already in a state of insomnia, his thoughts will follow.

The excitement spreads very naturally.

At this moment, my thoughts began to diverge, and a sad mood soon began to appear in my soul. I thought of the lives I had experienced. Yes, I was very sad at this moment, because I suddenly discovered

Although I have experienced so much, I seem to have been wandering in a strange circle——

I started to awaken to love when I was in middle school, and started to fall in love with Zhao Menglei like crazy. It was this complex that made me never fall in love during the whole period of college and graduate school, because at that time, I

There was a kind of expectation in my heart, and I didn’t want to lose the beautiful expectation in my heart at will. Later, after I started working, I was able to reunite with Zhao Menglei and get married. This was originally a thing to be thankful for, but the ruthless reality

But it cruelly tore apart the beauty in my heart.

Then there is Chen Yuan. My acquaintance with her has some elements of fantasy in it. I will always remember the first time I saw her: in that Western restaurant, there was a white piano.

Next to him, a girl with long flowing hair and picturesque eyes was playing the piano intoxicatedly, playing a string of

A string of beautiful notes floated in the air from her slender and soft fingers and reached my ears. At that moment, my soul entered heaven along with those notes. Later, she also became me

My wife, but she still disappeared from my world, but she left me a son.

There have been many women in my life, but none of them belong to me in the end. After experiencing countless desires and emotional entanglements, I am still single today.

Is this my destiny?

A sad emotion immediately emerged in my heart, but this sad emotion did not last long, because my thoughts went to the women I had. At this moment, I suddenly discovered that I had actually been

I have had so many women... However, I find that I am no longer deeply impressed by many of them.

At this time, I couldn't help but start to think about this question: Was the life I once had interesting?

In fact, in the final analysis, most of the women I have been with have little emotion. To be precise, it was interests that brought us together, and then my desires began to be vented without restraint.

In this endless divergence of thoughts, I fell into sleep unconsciously.

In fact, we are often like this. If we deliberately fight against reality, it will be counterproductive. If we let nature take its course, it will be easier for us to succeed. Just like the process of fighting against insomnia.

When I woke up the next day, I found that I had had a dreamless night, and it was rare that I woke up late. The feeling after getting enough sleep will also make people feel happy, and all the sadness in my thoughts last night is no longer there.

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The next day I took my children to the park to play. This was something I had already planned yesterday. I felt it was very necessary. As a father, I really don’t fulfill much of my responsibilities on weekdays.

When I was going out, my mother whispered to me: "Call Xiao Yu and ask her to take the child to play with you. You are also the father of that child."

Only then did I understand the reason why my mother didn't agree to go to the park with us today. In fact, I know that the reason why my mother, including my father, was able to accept this matter when they were alive was ultimately due to family ties.

I nodded and took the child out the door. I was thinking in my heart that my mother was right. After all, the child is my flesh and blood. As the saying goes, "blood is thicker than water", no matter what, I should have more.

I should do less responsibility for that child. Although it was the result of a mistake, after all, the mistake had already happened, and the result was already in front of me.

When I drove the car outside the community, I stopped and called Yu Min.

She answered quickly, "Brother Feng..."

I immediately said to her: "I am free today and am going to take my child to the park to play. Can you take your child out? I would like to meet him."

She seemed to be hesitant on the other end of the phone, because she was silent for a long time after I finished speaking, "...Brother Feng, okay then."

I suddenly felt happy, and at the same time I felt a heartfelt gratitude to her, but I still thought of her difficulties, and then asked her: "Isn't he at home today?" Medical Path: Obstetrics and Gynecology 40

She answered me: "He went on a business trip recently. He is doing sales so he can make more money."

I said: "Oh. Then I'll pick you up."

But she said: "No, where are you going? I'll just come by car."

I didn't know why she refused me to pick her up, but I didn't want to force her too much, so I said, "Let's go to the children's playground. That's a place specifically for children to play."

She said: "Okay. I will bring the child over in a moment."

Then I drove the car slowly out. At this time, I was thinking that after meeting Yu Min later, I would ask her what kind of sales the man did. If possible, I should help them. Or, I would do it again.

Talk to Yu Min and give her and the child some money.

Now I still feel regret for that incident in the past, but Yu Min keeps refusing my compensation, which makes me feel even more regretful and uncomfortable.

I drove the car to the parking lot of the children's paradise and bought the tickets. Then I took my children outside the gate of the children's paradise and waited for Yu Min's arrival.

My son had been looking at the children in the children's playground. When he saw me standing outside the gate with him and not going in, he immediately asked me: "Dad, why don't we go in?"

I immediately explained to him: "Dad is waiting for an aunt, and she also has a child at home. It will be fun for you two children to be together later. Don't you think so?"

The child said: "Oh."

After a while, Yu Min still didn't come. The child had already looked inside several times, and he became very impatient at this time. "Dad, let's go in first. Okay?"

I said: "Wait a little longer, the aunt and the child will be here soon."

The child became a little impatient and immediately asked me: "How long do we have to wait?"

I smiled and said to him: "It's coming soon, it should be soon."

After a while, Yu Min hasn't arrived yet. I guess she encountered a traffic jam or something else. But I was not in a hurry, so I waited patiently for her. But at this time, the child became impatient and shouted loudly.

I shouted, "Dad! I want to go in!"

I hurriedly went to comfort him again, "Son, wait a little longer, we will be there soon. Be obedient. Be good."

But the child suddenly shouted at me, "Dad, you took me out to play, why do you have to wait for other people? We have been waiting for so long! I want to go in right away!"

I hurriedly went to hug him, but he broke away from me. I didn't expect this child to have such a bad temper, but I didn't blame the child. I heard a saying: Most children without mothers have bad tempers.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel a sense of guilt towards my child. At the same time, I couldn't help but smile bitterly: Think about those cadres in Shangjiang City, they are all well-behaved and cautious in front of me.

Only the little guy in front of me didn't take me seriously.

But think about it, in the eyes of parents, their children will always be children. Even if the parents are eighty years old and the children are forty or fifty years old, the children will still be children in the eyes of the parents. Similarly, in the eyes of children,
To be continued...