Chapter 196 Mother, don't leave me

Her first reaction was that Yan Yunxiao was still unwilling to face the past again and did not want to accept the fact that Niangniang Yin passed away.

So she guided her again.

‘Although your mother is gone, she still hopes you live a good life. It’s not your fault.’

However, with the impact of incoherent memory, Yan Yunxiao no longer had the thinking she guided.

He could hear Su Jiuer's voice, but the voice just flashed by and could not hold on to his chaotic thoughts.

No, this is not how his mother died.

The painful memories and guilty heart tortured his clear thoughts wildly. He sat behind the door, his face gradually becoming ferocious. Then he turned his body sideways and hit the door with his head.

"Bang bang bang bang!"

He used brute force, and a little scarlet and purple were instantly knocked out from his forehead.

It hurts so much, and there is a mantis in his mind, cutting his nerves with his knife and gnawing on his mind.

It’s all his fault. If it weren’t for his uselessness, his mother would have just died in his palace!

The guilt almost swallowed him up.

Only now did Su Jiuer realize that Yan Yunxiao's thinking was no longer under her instructions and was completely out of control!

She stopped the impact of the beads in her hand, frowned and blurted out, "Yan Yunxiao!"

Su Jiuer felt anger rising in her heart, but she quickly suppressed it. Now she will solve the problem of Yan Yunxiao first.

She took two steps forward and prepared to forcefully hypnotic and interrupted awakening of Yan Yunxiao.

Just two steps ahead, Yan Yunxiao seemed to feel someone approaching. He waved Su Jiuer away with his backhand and angrily scolded, "Get out!"

This sound can be called the Wrath of Thunder!

Su Jiuer was confused when she roared. Even though she was prepared to dodge her, she still couldn't withstand Yan Yunxiao's body and was directly overturned.

The silver hairpin on his head fell, and the hair that was coiled up instantly spread out and spread behind him.

She fell to the ground, her forehead rubbed heavily on the ground, and a piece of skin was rubbed off in an instant, and blood flowed out along the forehead.

"Yeah." A muffled groan.

Su Jiuer lay on the ground for a long time before her dizzy consciousness gradually became clear.

Her internal organs trembled after shock, and her breathing was deep and shallow, and she forced herself to support her body. Then she saw Yan Yunxiao kneeling on her knees like a madman, bowing her head to the mud, and hitting the door frame with her forehead in a posture of atonement.

His nerves were probably getting tighter, so his whole body was trembling, his black hair sagging down his shoulders and neck, and his messy hair covered his face, and he couldn't see his expression clearly.

There was only his weird crying sound in the whole room.

Su Jiuer heard him say, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I blame me, I blame me."

Su Jiuer didn't know what it felt like when she confessed and blamed herself.

She couldn't feel the pain in the wound on her forehead.

Just as he got up from the ground, Yan Yunxiao murmured again.

"Mother, don't leave me behind"

This sound was extremely light, but Su Jiuer's heart trembled.

In his sight, Yan Yunxiao raised his head numbly, his dark eyes were not warm at all. He picked up the silver hairpin on the ground without any sense of warmth, and then held it in his hand for a while.

Su Jiuer suddenly felt a strong sense of crisis when she looked at her.

She suddenly took a step forward and rushed towards Yan Yunxiao. Her subconscious reaction made her speed twice as fast as usual.

Yan Yunxiao clenched the silver hairpin and raised his hand. His silent eyes suddenly showed ruthlessness, and a voice in his mind kept saying it.

Yan Yunxiao, you deserve to die!

Why is it your mother who dies, not you!

Why don’t you die?

This is the power of mental illness and emotional backlash.

It can annex a person's desire to survive.

Yan Yunxiao is preparing

suicide.

Su Jiuer rushed towards him directly, crashed into his arms, and pushed him against the door with inertia.

"puff"

The sound of silver hairpin piercing her clothes was in his ears. He was obviously wearing so many layers of clothes, but because Yan Yunxiao made up his mind to die, he used ten of his strength to pierce several layers of material at that moment, and pierced into his skin.

A muffled sound came from under the material, piercing into the skin.

The blood oozed out little by little, dyeing the material of the clothes. The dazzling red color on Su Jiuer's lilac clothes became even darker and very depressing.

Yan Yunxiao was knocked out for a moment and was still holding the hairpin numbly, looking confused.

Su Jiuer screamed in pain, her head buried on his shoulder, and her arm was numb on her right back.

She seemed so angry that she opened her mouth and bit her hard on his shoulder!

The pain spread little by little, but Yan Yunxiao was numb like a dummy and had no response.

The sound in my mind was so noisy. Apart from telling him to die, there seemed to be other sounds.

He listened carefully, trying to hear clearly what he was saying.

Then he heard a voice holding on and saying in her ear, "Yan Yunxiao, you should wake up."

"I'll hit you three times, you have to wake up."

"One sound, cheer up your spirit, two sounds, open your eyes, three sounds, and awaken your consciousness."

He just listened like this. Although he didn't know what it meant, his nerves had unconsciously obeyed the sound.

After Su Jiuer leaned against his ear and said, she stretched out her hands and gently slapped his ear three times.

This is a clapping awakening. Relatively speaking, this awakening method can stabilize his emotions.

"Bang"

"Bang"

"Bang"

After three strokes, Yan Yunxiao felt pain all over his body, so tired that his eyelids were as heavy as a thousand gold medals.

Slowly, a dead darkness became in my mind.

Su Jiuer also breathed a sigh of relief. After relaxing, she felt that the wound on her back hurt so much that she was sweating coldly and could not use any strength.

Yan Yunxiao sat in a mess at the door, leaning against the door, his eyes closed, and entered the deep sleep before waking up.

Su Jiuer lay in front of him. In addition to physical discomfort, there was also an indelible depression between her eyebrows.

This replica treatment of this scene has been considered a failure.

The crazy person who just now was not Yan Yunxiao's childish personality, but his own personality.

If Yan Yunxiao's naive personality is unwilling to accept the death of his mother, so he becomes afraid of the fire, then Yan Yunxiao's own personality is that he accepts the death of his mother, but he is always in self-blame.

His distorted thinking blamed himself for his mother's death, so he was unwilling to face the past.

Although the two personalities have different pathological psychology, the results are the same, and they both chose to escape.

Su Jiuer felt so tired, but it turns out that psychological treatment is a long process.

It makes sense that you cannot break through a romantic relationship, otherwise the doctor will be asked for it sooner or later, right?

Moreover, Yan Yunxiao concealed some things.

This made her extremely angry.
Chapter completed!