Chapter 231 Yan Yunxiao's heart-to-heart talk

He apologized.

However, what Su Jiuer really wants is not his apology.

But be honest.

So she pursed her lips silently and asked softly.

"What do you have to tell me?"

The room was quiet for a while, and what surrounded Su Jiuer's ears was Yan Yunxiao's deep breathing.

He maintained this movement, his eyes stretching out in the obscure room.

He said, "I lied to you twice."

"The fire three years ago is true. My mother's corpse was buried in the sea of ​​fire, which is true."

As he said, his voice suddenly became low and choked, and his throat was as heavy as lead.

Su Jiuer felt his abnormality and quickly reached out to cover his face, rubbed his brow gently, giving him peace.

Yan Yunxiao was still very excited, but he no longer had more energy to support him in restlessness.

He only felt a thrust in his brain, and his brain became dizzy after wave.

He continued.

"I watched those people with my own eyes, strangled my servants in the palace and killed them with silk ribbons, and then threw the body into the fire, pretending to be burned to death."

"Because I was seriously injured and had difficulty moving, my mother hid me behind the room of the servant."

"But I watched her, being dragged away by her throat and thrown into the fire."

Speaking of this, he let out a sad laugh.

The smile was full of sarcasm for himself.

After staying on the battlefield in the northern border for five years, after returning to the imperial capital, he couldn't even keep his mother's mother, and even watched her fall in front of him.

Afterwards, he couldn't even find her bones and couldn't even reveal the truth.

This is a pain that Yan Yunxiao can never let go of in his life.

At the age of the most vigorous and vicious age, he encountered such a vicious means and even counterattack was pale and powerless. He could only use forbearance as an excuse to relieve extreme emotions.

He repeatedly told himself that the end of forbearance is revenge.

He always wants those people to pay the price.

But what if he thinks of revenge?

It's gone if you die.

His mother will never come back.

He was trapped in such a struggle, repeating and repeating.

This is his ugly and cowardly side, and he never reveals it to anyone.

So he chose to hide from Su Jiuer before.

Maybe he was afraid of criticism from others, but more because he could not accept his own experience, and his failure to change his mother's destiny.

Su Jiuer's little hand touched the bridge of her nose, and then moved it to Yan Yunxiao's closed phoenix eyes.

On the corners of the eyes, there was a wet area.

He is blaming himself, in infinite annoyance and regret.

This is not difficult to explain. During the scene simulation treatment, Yan Yunxiao knelt down and kowtowed, kneeled down like crazy and atoneed for his sins, and cried even more strangely.

He must have been in extremely painful inner thoughts at that time, right?

In addition to physical pain, there is also psychological suffering.

Su Jiuer gently wiped his tears and said, "Those people are the Queen Mother's people."

She knew it as soon as she guessed.

The whole family of King Qi did not have a fuel-efficient lamp.

Yan Yunxiao let out a low voice, feeling depressed and depressed.

He just raised his head and closed his eyes, digesting the tears that were about to overflow little by little.

Su Jiuer comforted, "These things have nothing to do with you, they are losing their conscience and harming the will of heaven."

"Xiaoxiao, have you ever thought about what would happen to Empress Yin if she saw something happening to you under her nose?"

"Empress Yin loves you so much, I'm afraid she will be thousands of times sadder than you. In addition to the sadness in her heart, she will be sad in her life."

"If you are gone, how can I go on with Empress Yin alone in this tiger, leopard, jackal palace?"

Yan Yunxiao's thoughts were pulled away, and his mother's stunning face appeared in his mind.

She was so beautiful, but she didn't like to laugh.

Even if I smile occasionally, my lips are bitter.

If he was gone, I was afraid that her mother would be even lonely and no one to accompany her, and would sit by the window and sigh quietly every day.

He couldn't help but sigh.

"Jiuer, I miss her."

"I miss my mother."

The sound is low and shallow, echoing in the quiet corner.

Missing is the heaviest thing in this world.

Su Jiuer responded, "Okay, wait until you get better, take me to see her, okay?"

Yan Yunxiao was moved and hugged her tightly. In this state of longing, he became increasingly reluctant to let her go.

"good……"

Both of them were silent for a while, and Su Jiuer had already roughly known what Yan Yunxiao said, and had cheated twice, what did this second time mean?

It must be because he kept it from her and didn't take tonics.

So she took the initiative to ask.

"Then why don't you want to take medicine?"

Yan Yunxiao felt guilty and rubbed her back with her fingertips.

Su Jiuer's back trembled and she held his hand.

"Um?"

Yan Yunxiao delayed for a while before answering the question, "Do you leave when I'm done?"

Su Jiuer didn't say anything, she already had a subtle guess in her heart.

Yan Yunxiao asked again, "If you leave, will you still come back to see me?"

"Do you still... remember me?"

Su Jiuer said, "You have asked me three questions before you answered my question."

"Have you recovered? Since you have recovered a little, I'll get up now."

As he said that, he seemed a little displeased and wanted to break free from his arms.

Yan Yunxiao hugged her tightly and said in a panic, "Don't...don't leave..."

He said, "Jiuer..."

"I was very scared at that time. I was afraid that I would be fine, so you would leave without looking back."

"So I think it's better to be late, so you can spend a while with me..."

Although there were already some speculations, when Yan Yunxiao really put down his figure and said these words sincerely in front of Su Jiuer, she couldn't help but be stunned for a moment.

Seeing that she didn't speak and her expression was silent, Yan Yunxiao thought she had said the wrong thing.

He hurriedly said, "Jiu'er, I know what you want is freedom..."

"I will let you pursue freedom."

"I just hope you don't forget me."

"Okay?"

That question, okay? It dissipated instantly inside.

But in Su Jiuer's heart, it echoed continuously.

After a while, Su Jiuer did not respond.

Yan Yunxiao slowly let go of her waist, pulled out her hands and held Su Jiuer's face, looked straight into his peach blossom eyes, and then asked sincerely.
To be continued...