Postscript: Xiaoxiao (Part 1)

My name is Xiaoxiao, yes, it's Xiaoxiao, and I don't have a surname.

My mother said that my name has a lot of origin. It was a story that has been buried in my heart by my mother and fathers and has never been mentioned.

I don’t know much, I only know that I should have an older sister, and Xiaoxiao should be his older sister’s name.

I don’t remember what happened when I was a child. I heard that when I was very young, I was diagnosed with a heart disease by my father, which was a heart disease. Later, my mother and fathers took me to a very strange world, where my heart disease was cured.

Afterwards, we returned to Hong Kong.

At first I didn’t know how the name “Hong Kong” came from, but later I heard that it was my mother’s hometown.

But until I grew up, we never went back to our mother's hometown to see it.

My mother said that in my hometown, my grandfather lived and a woman who had been waiting by my grandfather for many years.

Mom said that she used to hate that woman because she and another woman took away everything from her mother and grandmother, but after her mother returned to her hometown, she forgave the woman.

But the mother and dad sent the woman's daughter to a psychiatric hospital.

In the mental hospital, all the people living in it are crazy people.

The mother said that the woman's daughter had made a mistake and became a lunatic was her own fault. As for that woman, although she was an accomplice, she had been guarding her grandfather and was forced by her daughter to make a mistake, so the mother forgave her.

My mother said that when my grandfather is old, someone needs to take care of him, and that woman is sincere to her grandfather.

I asked my mother what sincerity means, and my mother said, "Mom and Dad are sincere to me, and Brother Ji is sincere to me."

By the way, Brother Ji.

In fact, what I want to write about in this diary is Brother Ji.

My mother said I was a girl but a girl, but my fathers said they were hurting their hearts. I don’t know if I was wrong.

But the world of my mother and dad is so perfect that I always feel that I can’t get in. Even if I am their only daughter, I still can’t get in.

Their world is only them and each other.

Later, my mother said that when my daughter grows up, she always wants to get married. When she gets married, she will be someone else's wife, and it is normal to get married to her husband.

So my mother forgives me, and my dads forgive me. In fact, they have never been really angry with me. I think they really love me.

As for Brother Ji, when I had memories, Brother Ji was already by my side and was inseparable from each other.

When I was four years old, one day my mother asked Brother Ji if she wanted to marry Xiaoxiao when she grew up, but Brother Ji didn't say anything.

At that time, I didn’t know what “marry” meant. When I went to bed at night, I asked Brother Ji, will you marry Xiaoxiao when you grow up?

Brother Ji didn't speak for a long time. Later, I fell asleep in a daze and seemed to hear Brother Ji say, "Is Brother Ji good to be a brother forever?"

I don't know if I heard it wrong.

Later I asked my mother what it means to be a brother forever. My mother doesn’t speak, but only talks about feelings. Children should not think about it, they have to grow up before talking.

She said that it was at least sixteen years old that she really grew up.

I am growing up day by day, getting closer to sixteen years old.

Brother Ji and I are still together every day, and he is still with me every day. Everyone still regards Brother Ji and I as a couple, and they are all saying that Brother Ji will definitely marry Xiaoxiao in the future.

I still don’t understand, but I know that every time my father mentioned it, my mother doesn’t speak much.

Later, when I was ten years old, Brother Ji was really sent away.

This time it was true, completely, completely disappeared from my life.

It seems that Brother Ji has also left once, in a very distant era, but he came back soon.

But this time it was different. He left, and he left for many years.

I still grew up under the care of my mother and fathers, went to school, met new friends, learned new knowledge, and followed my father to learn medical skills.

My father said I have great potential in studying medicine and said I am a talented person.

Actually, at first I was not interested in medical skills, but I knew that Brother Ji had studied medicine with his father and also learned very well, but later he had to learn too much and was too busy at all. Therefore, he had less time to study medicine with his father and slowed down.

My father said that I learned faster than Brother Ji, and my mother and other fathers praised me for being a miracle doctor admired by all the people in the future.

They didn't know, I just wanted to learn more, and when Brother Ji came back in the future, I would teach him slowly.

When Brother Ji was away, I didn’t even have much time to entertain except studying.

It’s not that I don’t like playing, but that I don’t have Brother Ji’s company, and I feel boring to play anything. It’s better to spend my time studying.

I learned the ink and landscape paintings of Dad Chuyang’s brush and ink vividly. When I was twelve years old, I couldn’t tell whether the pictures of Dad Chuyang’s rivers, sun and moon were noted.

Of course, I don't know if my dad is coaxing me.

I also learned the piano skills with my father. He didn't teach me the soul-sucking sound. My father said that my internal skills were too shallow and I didn't have enough foundation to learn.

I only learn to play the piano and make music.

When I thought I had already learned very well, one day I accidentally heard my father and mother playing the piano on the rooftop and quartet, and I realized what it is like outside the world.

No one in this world can match his father's piano skills.

I don’t have high requirements. As long as I can learn a little bit of essence, I will play it for him when Brother Ji comes back in the future.

I also learned how to march and set up formations with Dad Xiao. Although it was just a matter of paper, I was still learning very carefully.

They said that such chaotic times may happen at any time. Brother Ji will inherit their great cause in the future and protect Hong Kong. He has to do too many things. Once a war breaks out, he will still lead troops to fight.

So I studied hard and read the military books in Dad Xiao’s study day and night, just to make a contribution to Brother Ji once the war breaks out in the future.

Because of this, I often go to my uncle and father to learn mechanical design and application with him.

Until now, I still can't change it and still call Dad Jiyang as my uncle.

I heard that my mother and uncle and father will be together, and I have some credit for it.

My uncle and dad know a lot of things, design weapons, and generate electricity.

My focus is on learning how to develop new weapons.

I am not a person who likes to fight and kill. If possible, I hope there will be no war in my life. But as Jiangshan’s father often said, it is always good to harm others.
Chapter completed!