The panicked Zhang Guoquan sat up suddenly. He held Bai Ge's thin shoulders. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't lift Bai Ge over. She just sobbed muffledly and pressed her head to prevent Zhang Guoquan from seeing her.

Zhang Guoquan became anxious, turned over and came to Bai Ge, leaned over and asked Bai Ge: "What's wrong with you? Why are you crying? If you don't want it, we don't want it."

He just mentioned it casually. Now that Bai Ge was crying because of a child, he couldn't figure it out. At this moment, he didn't know what Bai Ge was thinking. Did he not want a child? If it was because of this, then it would be okay.

No, there is really no need to cry.

"Bai Ge, please don't cry. It's okay if we don't want it anymore." Zhang Guoquan pleaded. He didn't want to see Bai Ge cry. When he cried, his whole heart broke.

It was a hot summer night, and Zhang Guoquan broke into a sweat.

Bai Ge didn't say anything, but she hugged Zhang Guoquan's neck and choked with sobs: "Guoquan, please don't leave me, please, don't abandon me, I'm really scared..."

Zhang Guoquan's body tensed up, and he became even more confused. He touched Bai Ge's soft hair and said, "What nonsense are you talking about? How could I not want you? Who would want to abandon you?"

Did someone say something to Bai Ge? But even then, what did he say? Zhang Guoquan had never told anyone that he wanted to abandon Bai Ge, let alone thought about it in his heart.

Bai Ge buried her head on Zhang Guoquan's shoulder and shook her head, but she was too uncomfortable to say a word.

Zhang Guoquan knew that Bai Ge wanted to say something, but she was crying so hard that he could only stroke her hair with his hands and comfort her over and over again.

After a long time, it seemed as if time did not exist at night. I could only see the moon in the sky blinking and running to another place.

He thought Bai Ge was asleep and was not as excited as before. He wanted to lay Bai Ge down on the bed. If Bai Ge really wanted to hide something from him, it would not be too late to tell him during the day.

When she wanted to let go of Bai Ge, she suddenly exerted force and still hugged him tightly.

Zhang Guoquan breathed a sigh of relief and asked softly: "Bai Ge, let's not mention this matter anymore and just have a good sleep, okay?"

Bai Ge was still shaking her head. After a long while, she summoned up the courage to say to Zhang Guoquan: "Guoquan, my eldest sister and I went to the clinic for a checkup that day. The doctor in the clinic said I can't get pregnant."

After saying that, Bai Ge seemed to have lost all his strength, and his arms holding Zhang Guoquan became weak. If Zhang Guoquan pushed him away now, he could easily push her away with just a little bit of strength.

"So, Guoquan, I'm sorry, I may not be able to let you have a child. I should have told you earlier, but I am too scared, afraid that you will not want me, afraid that you will leave me, I dare not say, dare not...

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She was talking to herself, her body was drained of all her strength, she mustered up the courage to speak out, and she was also waiting for the doomsday judgment.

She knew that this day would come sooner or later, but she had been postponing this day. If it were slower, Zhang Guoquan would know it later, and she could enjoy more happy days.

She clearly knew what it meant for a woman to be unable to give birth to a child. A woman as beautiful and tall as a horse widow was rejected by her husband's family and kicked out because she could not give birth to a child. How about a woman like her with paralyzed legs and unable to give birth to a child?

It was a nightmare for her.

Guoquan's fourth brother died for saving others, and Huiru also left with Guozheng's only child. The fate of that child can be imagined. The child will definitely never see this world again.

Of course the child was innocent, but there was nothing anyone could do about it. Bai Ge also felt sorry for the child, but no matter how much she regretted it, the living people still had to live well. At that time, she suddenly thought that she had also become husband and wife with Guo Quan.

, but why is there no movement in my stomach?

With this question in mind, I asked my eldest sister. She had given birth to a baby before, but she couldn't figure out why there was no movement in her stomach. She could only take Bai Ge to the town clinic for a checkup.

The nightmare also came on that day. Bai Ge seemed to have lost his soul and never had a good night's sleep.

Now that Guoquan has taken the initiative to have a child, she clearly knows that such selfish behavior should end.

It doesn't matter, this period of time is the happiest and most valuable period of her life. During the days with Zhang Guoquan, she experienced the joy of living. This is perfect enough for her. She should not ask for anything more.

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So, she took a deep breath and said to Zhang Guoquan: "Guoquan, I'm sorry, I shouldn't be so selfish, and I shouldn't tie you up like this. This is unfair to you. You should leave here, you should leave me

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Before she could finish speaking, Zhang Guoquan suddenly hugged her tightly. He used so much force that she couldn't breathe.

"Bai Ge, this is the second time you have driven me away. I still remember the first time. It was when I first came to Yangjiazhuang. My father always called me around. You, you felt sorry for me and let me go. This time you

You want to drive me away again."

"Bai Ge, you know, how can I be willing to leave you? We have gone through so many ups and downs along the way, and finally settled down. We can see things getting better in the future, why should we?

Drive me away."

"Guoquan...I, I am really too selfish. You can't have children in this life because of me. I can't be so selfish."

"This is not selfish of you. I know you are sad because you don't have children. God is not always blind, but God allowed me to meet you. I already feel very lucky."

He said so softly that Bai Ge shed tears again. She knew that winning the national championship was her little luck.

The greatest luck is that Zhang Guoquan did not choose to abandon her because she could not have children.

She had had nightmares countless nights, and now she woke up from the nightmare. After waking up, everything was still the same as before.

Zhang Guoquan asked Bai Ge to lie down and not think about anything. He comforted her softly and stroked her hair with his rough palms.

Bai Ge seemed to be sleeping, and could not sleep deeply no matter how hard she slept. She kept holding Zhang Guoquan's arm tightly. She was still afraid of waking up, and Zhang Guoquan left her when she opened her eyes.

All night long, the insects in the vegetable field outside the window were chirping, and Zhang Guoquan could not sleep well. Of course he wanted to have a child, but since this was the situation, he had to pack his mind and start again. The days were still long, and there would always be regrets.

At least he still has the white dove.

When a ray of morning light fell from the eastern horizon, Zhang Guoquan had already gotten up early and started to fetch water for the white pigeons to wash their faces. When the white pigeons got up to cook, Zhang Guoquan went to the wheat pile and picked up a large handful of wheat straw and put it into the manure bag.

Take it to the kitchen.

I grabbed a small handful of wheat straw and lit it on fire. I put it into the stove and blew it a few times. The fire immediately became bigger. I put in another handful of wheat straw and put in a few pieces of wood.

There was not much firewood left for the fire, and there was no need to ask anything under the pot now. The pigeon was busy in front of the pot. Zhang Guoquan weighed an ax and came to the yard, picked up a thick piece of wood and put it under his feet, stepped on it, and exerted all his strength.

He swung the ax in his hand and struck.

The chopped wood was carried into a pile in front of the stove, and it could be used for a while.

Eating quietly and busying quietly, Zhang Guoquan hoped that in this quiet time, Bai Ge could forget the grudge in his heart.

He wanted to tell Bai Ge that it was nothing to have children, but he knew that Bai Ge didn't want to hear such words, and it would only increase the burden on her heart. She could only rely on her to slowly forget about this matter. All he could do was

Be by her side all the time.

The chickens had grown up a lot and were running wild all over the yard. Zhang Guoquan pulled the sheep to the shade of a tree under the river ditch and tied them up. There was enough grass around for the sheep to eat.

When nothing happened, he and Bai Ge would stay in the canteen together. There was a radio on the long table. Bai Ge sat behind the long table and started knitting a sweater. He didn't know where she learned it from, and she insisted on making trouble.

Zhang Guoquan went to Lao Liu to get some wool dumplings.

It's not easy to sell at all. The women in the village would rather eat melon seeds than sit there and learn to knit sweaters.

But Bai Ge didn't care whether it was easy to sell or not. She said it was getting cold and she wanted to knit a sweater for Zhang Guoquan. The gray threads were flying between her slender fingers.

There were children running here to buy snacks. As the weather got hotter, Zhang Guoquan specially bought bags of soda. A square, bulging bag of brown sweet water cost five cents a bag. Children especially liked it.

Sweet and delicious.

But this thing was too expensive, and some children wanted to drink it but couldn't afford it, so Zhang Guoquan added some saccharin. This thing is sweeter than soda when soaked in water. Ten pills cost a penny. Because of its low price, it suddenly became the most popular choice among children.
Chapter completed!