Chapter 444 Returning at night

Today is her second day working in the textile factory... To be precise, after midnight, it is already the third day.

Although today is Sunday, the textile factory does not stop working. After countless transformations over the decades, the textile machine with the steam engine as its core has become a complex and troublesome behemoth. It is easy to shut down but difficult to start.

Every startup costs a lot of money, and the factory owner obviously doesn't want to spend such "wasted money", so the lights of the textile factory stay on all night.

Marlena heard from a kind-hearted elder sister that the textile factory on Walker Street near the industrial area only shut down twice a year, not to let employees rest, but just to maintain the machines. It cost the factory owner a lot to purchase the machines.

A large amount of money, if these machines that are running at full capacity every day break down, the loss will be more uncomfortable for him than killing his X.

The huge workload caused her physical discomfort, but everyone in the factory was tired, and no one would take on the work for her out of kindness.

She must persevere, because someone will come to check and accept the work results every day. If the work results are not up to standard, she will probably be fired - especially for an older intern.

The youngest child beside Marina is only five years old, but I heard that the child came to work in the textile factory with his mother when he was three years old.

Marina couldn't imagine how a three-year-old child could reach the workbench.

When she saw the little child, she thought to herself, if a five-year-old child can work here for two years, I can definitely do it too.

It wasn't until the smell of incomplete combustion of coal emanating from the steam engine made her choke to tears, and it wasn't until she accidentally dropped a tool on her shoe and injured her foot that she realized how difficult this job was.

But she must persevere. At least she can get money from this job. Even if it is only 6 pence a day, it is enough to support her and Messiah's life——

Whenever she couldn't hold on, she would think about her daughter.

Although what happened to her daughter made her uneasy, she quickly accepted it and still loves her daughter deeply.

Sometimes she would have wild thoughts, thinking that she was crazy to accept a monster that grew to twelve years old in two days.

But the love in her heart would not lie. She loved her deeply and wanted to care for her and give her everything she had never given before - she overcame her psychological barriers so easily.

Her heart jumped for joy the moment she got off work. When she thought about returning home and seeing her daughter, she felt extremely happy. Such happiness was indescribable and she had never experienced it in the first thirty years of her life.

Passed.

She experienced the feeling of "happiness" for the first time, and this feeling made her linger more than anything else.

Surrounded by a sense of happiness, she has a mission - the mission of getting off work safely every day and returning home to see her daughter.

Marina knew in her heart that it was not her daughter who needed her, but her daughter who needed her.

The unrest in downtown has spread to Walker Street, so Marlena is very careful when walking on the street. She always chooses streets with brighter street lights so that she will not be held by thugs who suddenly jump out from behind with a knife to her neck.

Pulled into a dark alley.

She stepped on the new snow that had just fallen tonight, and the journey home became so long under the nervous anticipation...

It wasn't until she turned the last corner that she finally saw the gate of 33 Walker Street.

It is far away from downtown, very close to Birmingham Street where the middle class gathers, and not far from the street police station on Walker Street - all this means that it is very safe.

She returned to the apartment and found the Messiah sitting in the hall waiting for her. Such waiting made her feel a little guilty and have a stronger love in her heart.

But she didn't hug her daughter.

She is not used to such hugs.

Looking at his mother who was at a loss, Messiah seemed to know something. He picked up the cold sausage from the table next to him and handed it over.

Marina happily took the sausage. Even though she was hungry, she did not start eating immediately, but asked:

"How did you feel at school today?"

Messiah's eyes were downcast and he shook his head.

Marina knew that her daughter didn't like to talk, but she preferred to believe that she couldn't speak yet - after all, she was just a six-day-old child. For her age, wasn't it normal for her not to be able to speak?

Messiah took the paper from his side and the ballpoint pen that Chen Yan used to make marks, and wrote on the paper:

"Our practical mission has failed, and the hatred in the industrial zone has become irresolvable."

Malina comforted her in a low voice:

"It's not your fault, places like industrial areas..."

She used her poor vocabulary to choose her words:

"There are too many different kinds of people, and most of them are bad people and not worth saving."

Messiah’s eyes were confused and he wrote on the paper:

"But there are always good people."

Malina smiled:

"You are a kind little guy."

She sighed and continued in a soft tone:

"Kindness is a beautiful virtue, but few good virtues can allow you to survive in Yharnam City."

At this moment, she felt her mission again.

"You should be more selfish..."

After saying this phrase, Marina couldn't even speak the words.

Marina found that she could not teach her child to be a selfish person - if she taught the Messiah the same things her mother taught her, wouldn't the Messiah become a person like her?

The panic that had been deep in her heart two months ago reappeared in Marlena's heart.

She doesn’t know how to teach Messiah, or maybe Messiah doesn’t need her to teach him at all. Messiah can even cook, so he must also know those principles...

Marina's thoughts were confused, at a loss, and her emotions were intense but unable to be expressed. She stood there for a while, trembling all over.

Until Messiah placed the written paper in front of her.

"Don't worry, I understand."

When she saw this sentence, all the anxiety in Marina's heart disappeared.

She smiled and said in a trembling tone: "That's good..."

Messiah continued on the paper:

"Humanity is worth saving."

"Where did you know this sentence?"

"I heard it from Chen Yan's dream."

Marina's expression froze.

Damn the pervert landlord! He is really planning to be the Messiah!

Marina looked at her daughter, feeling like an earthquake had occurred in her heart.

She has seen the hypocrisy of many Asians. Most of them are businessmen with small assets like Chen Yan. Those timid people like to visit a beautiful and desperate Ayr woman like her. They

Each one showed pity for her, and each one exposed their true nature by talking empty words.

She had already found a new place to live. Although the rent was expensive and there was no floor heating, it could at least give the mother and daughter a private space without having to suffer the voyeuristic glances from the perverted landlord every day.

But now it's no longer possible. They can't move out. Yanan City has suddenly become chaotic in the past few days without any warning. The neighborhood where she found her previous residence is no longer safe.

She couldn't take the Messiah to live in a neighborhood like that.

They can only stay here for the time being.

Messiah was very puzzled when he saw his mother's angry expression and the tears flashing in her eyes.

Marina finished eating the cold sausage in silence and went back to the bedroom with her daughter to sleep. When she saw her daughter lying down beside her and closing her eyes, she also closed her eyes. The exhaustion caused by a large amount of exhaustion made her tired.

Soon I fell asleep.

Messiah opened his eyes and looked at his mother with no emotion in his eyes.

She never regarded the person in front of her as her mother, and she didn't even know the meaning of "mother" - she couldn't feel the so-called "family affection" and "warmth" from the woman in front of her.

The only one who can make her feel emotional is Chen Yan.

She didn't know why she was like this, she just felt it was natural.

As for why we need to take care of Malina...

This is what makes her even more strange. She feels that she needs to take care of Marlena, and this kind of care is not out of "emotion", but...

It is a kind of "compassion".

She pitied her.

Such emotions made her panic. Why would she pity someone older than herself?

But this kind of "compassion" seems to be innate, as if it is engraved in her bones.

In addition to Marina, the red-haired Al people she met while doing social research in the past two days, and even the mixed-race man tonight, also made her feel "compassion" in her heart.

This kind of "compassion" is very frustrating to her, almost infecting her original emotions, and it is different from normal pity. This compassion contains a strong pessimism——

This pessimism did not come from the suffering she saw happening to the Aiel people, but from herself.

It’s so baffling!

Messiah hates such emotions.

In fact, she hates any complex emotions, thoughts and feelings.

Therefore, having that single feeling when facing Chen Yan would make her particularly happy - she would only feel "safe" when facing Chen Yan.

A sense of security cannot be replaced by any feeling or emotion.

After making sure her mother was asleep, she put on her old shoes and prepared to leave the first floor and head outside Chen Yan's bedroom on the third floor - something she did every night.

After walking out of the bedroom door, she suddenly felt something was wrong and turned to look into the darkness of the corridor.

In the darkness where the moonlight was not visible, a large yellow-skinned mouse was quietly crawling towards the direction of the restaurant.

Messiah did not make a sound, but followed silently.
Chapter completed!