Chapter 203 Improper dog licking 3

Wushuang didn't really want to go to the orphanage, but in her current situation, a ten-year-old girl had nowhere to go if she didn't go to the orphanage.

So after much deliberation, Wushuang decided to go to the welfare institution first, find a way to skip a grade, and go to high school early. If the grades are good enough, it would be best to pass the exam for free tuition and live in high school.

It is best to go to college as quickly as possible. Wushuang is still sure that he can go to college early.

Although her memory of all mission worlds has been blocked, her ability to remember photographs due to her enhanced soul is still there. Photographic memory is definitely a killer weapon for learning.

But the most urgent thing was that she had to find a way to make some money. Wushuang remembered that after the original owner went to the orphanage, she couldn't even eat enough.

It's not that the orphanage doesn't give the children enough to eat, but it's that they're too poor and most of the children they raise are disabled children and there's no one to adopt them.

Therefore, the food and drink in the welfare home are the minimum requirements, as long as you don't starve to death, but the director is still scratching his hair in worry every day, he is really short of money.

It is hard to imagine that in modern times, when there is no shortage of food and clothing, there are still children wearing patched old clothes and eating rough whole grains and the cheapest vegetables. In winter, the poor are even reluctant to eat cabbage and can only eat pickles.

No matter how hard the life of the original owner was, he could still eat steamed buns, rice, and the simplest stir-fried vegetables. But he was not used to eating in the orphanage, so he could only starve from the beginning.

Later, when I became afraid of hunger, I could eat no matter how unpalatable it was. Hungry was too painful.

Maybe it was because she was hungry, and the original owner was very obsessed with eating. After she was recognized by her father, Zhao Chengze, she was often ridiculed and despised for eating too much.

Wushuang has no other skills now, but fortunately she learned painting in her first life, so she can use this to make money.

Now Wushuang is alone, and the only person who knew her well, She Ling, has committed suicide. No matter what skills Wushuang has, no one can doubt that she is not the original owner.

Wushuang thought very well, so she went to some places specially designed for people to have fun, and painted people's portraits. A simple one cost 20 yuan, and the more complicated ones were more expensive.

When I go out to play, I am generally willing to spend money. As long as I draw well, it should be easier to make money.

Wushuang began to look around for money at home to paint portraits and buy painting supplies. Even if she didn't buy the best ones, she would still need hundreds of dollars to buy them all.

Wushuang rummaged through the small basement, and adding up the scattered money, he could only find less than five hundred yuan.

Wushuang wanted to smile bitterly when she saw it. She only had such a small amount of money to buy the things she needed, and she would starve if the store was not open for two days.

Although she felt that she had less money, Wushuang was not too depressed. Her character is that she would worry before encountering something, but she would not despair.

When you really encounter something, you just want to think about how to solve it. In short, if you have a big heart, if you let things happen to others that can drive people to death, let it happen to her.

As soon as Wushuang thought this, a very sad feeling suddenly arose in her heart.

‘What can you do with so little money? It’s so hard to live, it’s better to just die!’

This feeling came so fiercely that it swept through Wushuang's thoughts, forcing her calm mood down into despair and powerlessness.

Wushuang's mood couldn't stop sinking. At first, he just felt that the basement was cramped, but now he felt so depressed, as if he was in a cell that never saw the light of day.

The children outside were so noisy that she felt irritable and wanted to kill and commit suicide. Her strong self-destructive mood made Wushuang want to shout.

Although she was emotionally broken and depressed, Wushuang's reason was still there. She gritted her teeth and resisted the sudden emotion to prevent herself from really breaking down.

Wushuang knew that this emotion was not his own, but that of the original owner, Zhao Wushuang.

Murong Ling reminded herself that the soul of the original owner remaining in her sea of ​​consciousness would affect her emotions.

But Wushuang didn't expect the original owner's emotional influence to be so powerful. This emotion seemed to be generated by himself, making Wushuang almost unable to hold back.

Wushuang covered her head and suppressed the self-destructive emotions rising in her heart. She couldn't, couldn't, she couldn't fail the mission at the beginning!

The two thoughts clashed wildly in her mind, giving Wushuang a splitting headache. Double images appeared in front of her eyes. It was so painful!

There was a fruit knife on the small table beside the bed. Wushuang's mind was screaming for her to pick up the fruit knife and relieve her pain. This world was not worth cherishing.

Wushuang's fingers spasmed and twitched, opening and tightening several times, trying hard to look away from the fruit knife.

Wushuang fell to the ground in pain, and said suppressedly: "Do you really want to leave this world in pain? No, you don't!

If you really want to die, you won't have to go through such painful life again and again, and let missionaries help you counterattack.

Since you still want to change your destiny and take a different path, control your emotions and don't keep thinking about death!

If you continue to influence me with such self-destructive emotions, my mission will fail, and you will have to wait for the next missioner to help you.

Your missions have failed too many times, and the missionaries are unwilling to accept your missions. You can feel it yourself, and it is getting harder and harder for you to wait for the missionaries.

If I fail, have you ever thought about how long you have to wait for the next tasker? If you don’t want me to fail, control your emotions!"

The other party lives in her own sea of ​​consciousness. If she doesn't control her emotions, she will always be affected, and the mission will almost certainly fail.

It was exhausting to resist the original owner's depression, and he was not allowed to use plug-ins. It was a miracle that this mission was successful. No wonder it failed so many times.

However, the failure of the previous tasker gave Wushuang a chance to complete the task. The previous tasker would definitely not be able to get the cooperation of the original owner.

If you fail too many times, even those with some connections may not be willing to accept the mission from the original owner.

Murong Ling had a hard time finding herself, a newcomer who had not completed a few missions before. This shows how difficult it is for the original owner to match the mission holder.

The original owner asked people to counterattack again and again, which shows that she is persistent in changing her destiny.

Wushuang bets that the original owner is not willing to wait for the next tasker without knowing the deadline, and hopes that Wushuang can help her succeed against fate and is willing to cooperate with her.

Wushuang's bet was right. After her words fell, the strong self-destructive emotion in her mind began to slowly lessen.

Wushuang's severe headache finally subsided, and the violent self-destructive emotions in his heart slowly disappeared.

Although there was still some sadness in the end, it was unavoidable.

Wushuang guessed that the original owner must be suffering from severe depression like She Ling. It was impossible for the original owner not to affect him at all.

In fact, it is not difficult to understand that the original owner did not have a happy ending in his two lives, and failed again and again against his fate. The reason why he did not become abnormal was because the original owner was mentally tough enough.

The last remaining bit of sadness would at most make her feel a little depressed, but it would not affect Wushuang's continued actions.
Chapter completed!