I held the glass bottle in my arms tightly. Under the slightly yellow light, it looked even more transparent. I pursed my lips tightly, and my heart was itchy.

I sat by the bed, my hands almost trembling, took out my cell phone and dialed Wei Jingran's number.

"Hey, I really can't stand it..." I had no confidence in my voice, and there was some TikTok.

The voice on the other end of the phone paused and said, "You are addicted." He told me without any emotion. I was stunned. While I was still a little rational, I fully understood the concept of drug addiction.

Such a life will be ruined.

I glanced at the glass bottle in my arms, swallowed with difficulty and continued, "It's the last time, the last time... not next time, I'll smoke it again." I feel that I'm very mean at this moment, the kind of person I have always looked down upon the most.

I thought Wei Jingran would agree at once, and he said, "No, if this continues, you will ruin your own."

After hearing his words, I couldn't help laughing: "Brother, you took me to smoke this thing. Is it too fake for me to ruin what you said now? I can give you money, as long as you give me the things." I couldn't believe this was what I said.

"That's because you were in so much pain at that time and wanted to distract you." He said calmly.

I sneered in my heart with a high-sounding lie. "The only pain I have now is that I can't see that thing." I said coldly to my phone.

After a long time, Wei Jingran said: "Okay...but this is the last time."

I was ecstatic: "Okay!"

I just hung up the phone and someone pushed the door open.

"Who are you talking to?" Wen Jichen looked cold and stood not far away and asked.

I pretended to be nothing and placed the glass bottle in the most conspicuous position in the bedroom, and said lightly: "A friend."

"Which friend?"

"You don't know." I replied with my head down.

Wen Jichen's fair face turned slightly red from anger. He quickly walked up to me and grabbed my shoulder tightly. His face was cold and gloomy: "Have you touched something you shouldn't touch?"

I was stunned, my heart beat fast, and I shook my head guiltily.

"What should I not touch?" I asked with confidence and pretended nothing happened.

Wen Jichen frowned tightly and almost bit the two words: "Don't pretend to be stupid, you know I'm talking about methamphetamine." His beautiful face looked scared at this moment.

I stared at him in a daze, my body trembled slightly, but I still shook my head with a stubborn mouth: "I don't know anything..."

Wen Jichen let go of my shoulders, reached out to take a mirror on my desk, placed the mirror in front of me, and said angrily: "Look at what you are like by yourself!"

I raised my head tremblingly.

As soon as I touched the familiar face in the mirror, I was frightened. I haven't looked in the mirror for a long time, and I didn't know that I had become such a ghost...

The originally clear eyes were dull, with thick dark circles and bags. The eyes were even haggard and a little haggard because of drug use. Their face was pale and their lips were a little purple, just like a bloodless corpse.

My appearance is surprisingly similar to Wei Jingran at this moment.

"What else do you want to hide from me? Do you think I'm blind and can't tell what you've been doing recently!" Wen Jichen threw the mirror on the bed and pinched my chin. The sound was so cold that I felt the cold approaching.

I was scared.

I thought no one would know what I did. I just wanted to find a way that would make me less sad and make me forget Chu Peiran...

I never thought it would turn things like this.

What if Wen Jichen tells his mother what to do...

Thinking of this, I looked at Wen Jichen with fear on my face. "I...what should I do..." There was an uncontrollable hollow in my eyes, and I just looked at Wen Jichen in front of me.

"Who is it? Who asked you to touch these things!" Wen Jichen asked gritted his teeth.

The hand that pinched my chin and tried a little harder. I grinned in pain, trying to shake his hand away.

No... I can't say it was Wei Jingran, otherwise I wouldn't even have the last chance. Until now, I'm still hopelessly thinking about that thing.

Is this a ruined person?

Can I still look back?

I bit my lip tightly and grabbed Wen Jichen's sleeve: "Brother... I know I'm wrong. Don't tell my mother, I beg you..." I looked at him with a crying voice.

Wen Jichen looked at me like this and his body was trembling. He didn't say anything, but just looked down at me.

I had no choice but to tell him everything: "I...I broke up with Chu Peiran. I felt so sad that I wanted to find some ways to forget him... Smoking and drinking were useless, so I tried that... I really knew I was wrong. Brother, I beg you, you can save me."

I don’t want to continue like this anymore. The feeling of not being able to get it is too uncomfortable. I would rather be self-harm than suffer physical torture than be destroyed by drugs.

I hope someone can pull me out of this cage.

Every time I get a drug addict, I feel like there are millions of bugs biting me.

Wen Jichen said nothing, threw me on the bed with all his might, turned around and snatched the door away.

I looked at his angry figure with tears in my eyes and cried silently. I took the mirror on the bed and looked at it in front of it. This almost withered face was terrible.

I'm sorry for myself.

But my heart began to itch again, and I began to miss the feeling of freedom and beauty as good as a god.

...

Wei Jingran disappeared, and in the month after that, I called him frantically, searching all the people who might have contacted him, but I couldn't find him.

I endure the itchyness of drug addiction every day, and sometimes even roll on the ground.

Wen Jichen would lock the door of my room every night and prevent me from going out, especially after my stepfather and mother were on a business trip. He was more strict with me. I looked in the mirror every day and became thinner.

When I arrived at school, I didn’t talk much and almost didn’t talk to Wang Yanxi. She would talk to me a lot every time, but I didn’t care about it, and my mind was full of methamphetamine and Chu Peiran.

"Xi, what's wrong with you recently? Your face is so bad?" She frowned and asked me with concern.

I didn't listen carefully to what she said, just held her chin alone and stared blankly. After a long time, I asked, "Do you know what the best feeling is?"

"What?" She looked at me in confusion.

I glanced at her, and my empty eyes were imprinted in her pupils. "You won't understand." After that, I lay down on the desk and went to sleep.
Chapter completed!