He was sad, too.

I stared at his back and thought of the child, my heart was bleeding. The sadness of losing the child was greater than everything, including my love for him. It was like, between the times, the times changed, everything changed.

He didn't turn around, and I didn't chase him.

After all, if he doesn't love me, he feels guilty.

At that moment, I suddenly stopped hating him.

He is nothing wrong with him, and he is not really playing with me, so why should I hate him?

Just like that, there is no love or hate, and no contact anymore, it’s fine.

I turned around and drank all the milk tea in the cup. The sweet milk tea did not dilute the bitterness in my heart. The tea factor in the milk tea worsened the astringency.

It's like the feeling of loving him once.

I am happy and bitter.

There is nothing to regret. I have loved, hated, and lost, but I have never really obtained it.

This is the pain and joy of secret love, which I once was willing to bear.

The biggest pain is that I feel sorry for the dead child, it is innocent.

I kept walking forward without looking back, and I don't know if he turned back.

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Of course I was sad to lose that child! And it was heartache! For me, it was a regret for life! Whenever I think of it, my mind was full of abortion, and she was living alone in the hospital.

I didn't look back, for fear of seeing her back leaving me, and for fear that I could not control myself and chased me.

And I, what qualifications do I have to save her?

Yes, not qualified.

This is the reality. A misunderstanding, you can lose someone and leave regrets after turning around. The child's departure can be said to be an accident. At the beginning, Jin Di appeared rashly, and I was surprised, but she shamelessly said that she had difficulties leaving me. I didn't think about anything at that time, and the only thing I wanted to do was to treat her with the same way, bring her to justice, regardless of any mercy.

Ignored Xiaobei, resulting in an accident.

She didn't say anything, nor did she chase after me, my heart was cut off.

We are like this, going against the rules.

Everything about her was played back in my mind like an old movie.

From the age of twelve to sixteen to eighteen, twenty-two, twenty-three, twenty-five…

I witnessed her growing from a child to a woman, and even the man who transformed her from a girl to a woman.

She always thought that I didn't know she liked me.

I'm not blind.

At the age of sixteen, she began to rebel and caused a lot of trouble. I was really afraid that she would learn bad things at that time, but I didn't realize that she liked me.

That time, I asked her about a male classmate in Zhang Bing’s classroom. After she denied what I said angrily and firmly, I actually believed her. What she is like, don’t I understand yet? I was just an accident that Zhang Bing, as a people’s teacher, actually provoked my relationship with Xiaobei.

Later, I took the initiative to break up with Zhang Bing. Zhang Bing was very angry and sad, calling me a pervert, and actually with a sixteen-year-old girl. I warned her not to slander her. She shouted at me and said that Xiaobei had written me in the composition and said that I was her most important person! She said that I cannot lose me.

I was stunned.

Later, I also realized that she liked me.

I often ask what kind of women do I like? Are I long and short, are I fat or thin?

I was speechless, afraid that I would give up on her in a blunt manner and would hurt her.

Moreover, she is still young, and she may have just had a deformed relationship with me because of dependence. Maybe she will be fine when she grows up.

After that, I didn't date a girlfriend anymore, even though I was not young anymore.

First, she was afraid that I would fall in love, so she would be sad, give up on herself in disappointment, and ruin herself.

Second, I am afraid that my girlfriend will not be able to accept her. It’s like a man with a procrastination daughter, afraid that she will be bullied by her stepmother.

The latter idea is quite funny. When did Fang Xiaobei become such an important role in my life?

I just met her because of work.

It was also because of work that I have been taking care of her. I have been taking care of her for several years in a flash. I have some feelings for her, and it has nothing to do with love, and it is more like the brother's feelings for his sister.

When she became an adult, her attitude towards me seemed to be much colder and no longer looked for me as often as before. I think she grew up and realized that her feelings for me were not love anymore, right?

At that time, I felt quite disappointed, as if I had lost something.

I rarely interfere with her anymore. When she becomes an adult, let her make a move by herself, as long as she doesn't make any big mistakes.

I was wrong, she still liked me.

And I seemed to have something I shouldn't have for her.

In terms of age, I can really be her uncle.

Once, she asked me, why haven’t I got married yet?

I said, I didn't meet the right one.

She smiled. I thought she would confess to me, but I was still thinking about it. How could I reject her after confessing?

But, she didn't.

She seemed a little inferior, so she was embarrassed to confess to me. And I, an old man in my thirties, was even more embarrassed to be with a girl who was only 20 years old.

If you have any inappropriate thoughts, then it is a blasphemy against her, and I would like to warn myself.

As time goes by, the deformed feeling becomes more and more obvious. Could it be that love is over time?

How is it possible that she will always be just a child in my heart!

When others ask me, I always say that Xiaobei is her sister.

I am rational, even if I am with her, my family will not agree. At a young age, I am the same as a flash marriage with Jindi.

This woman is quite generous and is a strong woman. She is not tired of being with her. I think she is a suitable partner for marriage.

I told her that when I was going to get married.

She said, I'm blind!

Seeing the love in her eyes, I advised her not to waste her feelings. She left and turned around gracefully. That day, I stood there, smoking half a pack of cigarettes before leaving.

I always feel that a piece of meat in my heart has been cut off.

After marriage, she was deliberately avoiding me, and I understood, and I was also avoiding her. Seeing her living a good life, I feel relieved. She is actually a very strong and independent girl, and she also respects and loves herself.

This makes me feel relieved.

There are many men chasing her, most of them are young rich second generations, and some are really excellent.

Although I feel uncomfortable, I still hope she can find a man who is truly good to her.

Jindi doesn't love me, and I don't love her either, but I try hard to maintain this marriage and I think I treat her well.

She wanted to invest, and I lent her money, but in the end...

This failed marriage has dealt a great blow to me. I am a man who cares about dignity. Jin Di ran away. I didn't chase him. I swallowed my anger and had to pretend that nothing happened in front of my friends.

I didn't expect that the person I went to find would be Xiaobei as soon as possible.

I felt sad and wanted to talk to her, but I couldn't speak. In the end, I parted in disagreement.

I know, she still loves me.

That*, half drunk, broke through that layer of defense and took her for myself.

She thought I was drunk, but she didn't know that if a man was drunk, he wouldn't have the ability. I knew clearly that it was her or that.

I didn't tell the real reason in my heart and couldn't speak.

This became my reason to get close to her and be with her.

Especially, she is pregnant.

It is natural for us to get married. I think she will understand the feelings for her over time.

But things went against my wishes.

At that time, I had the urge to kill Jindi, and finally endured it.

I resisted the urge to go to the hospital to see her, and dealt with Jin Di. When she showed up, I called the police and arrested them through the evidence I had in my hands.

After everything was settled, Xiaobei had already left

And I really have no shame to see her, even if I have had no choice but to do so.

I feel that I hurt her too deeply and do not deserve to love her or love her.

I regret marrying Jin Di, but I regret not facing my relationship with her, but the regret is ineffective.

I went to see her, there were other men around her, and she looked very happy.
To be continued...