In my mind, there are some sour memories of the intersecting old and new, surging violently.

Gu Youli's body tensed up involuntarily.

Yu Feibai raised his body and looked at Gu Youli with a deep look: "What's wrong with you?"

His face was still calm, but his heart seemed to be crushed by a heavy hammer, which made him so suffocated that he was almost breathless.

Gu Youli pretended to be nothing, raised her hand and gently stroked her hair, her eyes flashed, "I... I'm a little thirsty, I want to drink some water!"

As she said that, she lifted the quilt, got out of bed from the other side and walked out of the bedroom.

He glanced at her water cup on the bedside table and noticed that something was wrong with Yu Feibai, and immediately stood up and followed him.

He did not step out of the bedroom, but just stood at the door and looked at Gu Youli in the living room.

The lights were warm and orange, and Gu Youli's face was so white.

Instead of going to drink water immediately, she picked up the bag she placed on the sofa, opened it with trembling hands, then started rummaging in a hurry, and finally took out a bottle of medicine!

Yu Feibai was stunned.

He wanted to step forward to stop Gu Youli and refused to let her eat it.

But then he stopped again and turned back to the bedroom, as if nothing had happened.

On that night, he couldn't sleep all night, looking at her silently with his eyes open. Although she closed her eyes, as if she was sleeping, Yu Feibai knew that she should be awake.

Because she has no nightmare!!

The morning sun rises eastward, and the morning color gradually closes.

The weather is very good today, the snow has stopped, and the sky has a warm sun.

Yu Feibai went to buy groceries, and Gu Youli was lying on the rocking chair on the balcony basking in the sun, and then fell asleep while the sun was dry.

When Yu Feibai was carrying the vegetables home, he saw Gu Youli sleeping peacefully in the sunlight.

He took out a thin quilt from the bedroom and prepared to cover Gu Youli.

He lowered his eyes, but was so scared that he almost lost his soul.

"Lili~" Yu Feibai called Gu Youli in a low voice.

The sun shone on her pale little face, making her look almost transparent, as if she would disappear at any time.

"Gu Youli, what are you doing!!" Yu Feibai was a little uncontrollable, his voice was cold and angry.

He suddenly reached out and grabbed Gu Youli's wrist, and then pulled her into his arms.

Hold it tightly, motionless.

At the same time, with a "clang" sound, a fruit knife fell to the ground.

Yu Feibai lost his usual calmness, his voice trembled, and threatened with panic: "How can you do such a thing? How can you do it! Gu Youli?"

He tied Gu Youli tightly, as if he had used the strength to embrace the whole world.

As soon as she thought of the scene just now, she held the fruit knife in one hand and then placed the sharp blade on the arm of the other hand, he felt that he had fallen into boundless darkness.

Gu Youli was suddenly awakened and didn't know what had happened.

I only know that I was strangled and my breathing was not smooth.

"What's wrong with you?" Gu Youli blinked and asked in confusion.

When he lowered his eyes and saw the fruit knife on the ground, he instantly realized that Yu Feibai had misunderstood.

I wanted to explain immediately, but the warm and sourness surged into my heart first. He was trembling and scared. She could sense it!

"I just peeled an apple and ate it. I felt comfortable in the sun, so I didn't want to get up. I just slept with a fruit knife!" Gu Youli's misty eyes were stained with the smile of a lover.

She stretched out her hand and wrapped it around his waist, turned her head slightly to press it against his face: "I can't bear to leave you, I won't be able to think about it!"

Yu Feibai's eyes gradually deepened, and his voice was uncertain: "Really?"

Gu Youli smiled and raised his hand, making a swearing move: "I swear I will never commit suicide, because I can't bear to leave Yu Feibai, I don't want to die, I don't want to..."

Yes, she doesn't want to die.

She lives in a day where she may know her death limit, cherishing every day, how could she want to die!

Just now, she was really too comfortable to get up because she was too lazy to get up.

It is probably because when I was sleeping, I accidentally found a support point, which made Yu Feibai misunderstand.

Sure enough, it is very dangerous to sleep with a knife, and you will hurt yourself if you are not careful.

Remember!

Yu Feibai looked unpredictable and looked at her silently for a while, then said: "Then you must remember what you promised me, you must not have the idea of ​​suicide. You must stabilize your mood, overcome your anxiety, and... you are not allowed to take medicine again!"

Upon hearing this, Gu Youli was shocked.

Then, she laughed, said perfunctorily, and then quickly changed the topic: "You bought the vegetables, then I'll go to the kitchen..."

After saying that, she gently pushed Yu Feibai away and turned around.

Just after taking two steps, Yu Feibai's voice came from behind: "Yuli, I know you are taking medicine secretly on my back. I saw it, but I didn't throw your medicine out like last time, because I want you to throw it away by yourself!"

Gu Youli bit her lip and did not turn around.

Yu Feibai continued: "I don't want you to kill people, I don't want your hands to be stained with blood, but I didn't protect you. I made you suffer, and made you unable to sleep well every night, and have nightmares when you sleep, so you have to take medicine again.

If I could, I would rather not bear everything, because you have dominated everything about me. If you are happy, I will be happy, and if you are sad, I will be sad. Now I have a deep sense of powerlessness. You are like the quicksand holding in the palm of your hand. One day, it will disappear in the palm of your hand!!"

Gu Youli's eyes were filled with tears, his heart was surging, sour and painful.

She slowly turned around and looked at Yu Feibai, tears kept falling. "Faibai...Yu Feibai..."

Yu Feibai smiled faintly, looked at her eyes as deep as the sea, and continued, "I don't know what happened to you before. You don't want to say that I won't ask you. I just want to tell you that the past has passed. I will face you in the future. I will hold your hand tightly. When you encounter a trap and a dark pit, I will hold your hand and jump over. When you are lost and confused, I will hold your hand and find the right direction. When you are about to fall into a cliff, I will hold your hand and pull you back. In short, nothing will happen. I will be by your side and bear it with you!"

Gu Youli looked at Yu Feibai with tears in his eyes: "Yu Feibai, why? You want..."

Yu Feibai interrupted her: "Why are you very clear!"

Gu Youli raised his hand and covered his mouth, tears rolled from the corners of his eyes: "I know, I...I...I want to tell you something, I'm going to tell you what happened before, but I can't tell you! I really want you to know, I want to tell you too, but I don't know where to start...I'm a..."

A person who has lived for two lives!

After a passage, Gu Youli felt exhausted.
Chapter completed!