Lao Wang told me very seriously that he would definitely find a way for me, it depends on whether I would like to do it or not. I really couldn't tell that he had drunk his alcohol. If I hadn't drunk too much and thought about this matter seriously, I might have been lucky. I thought about it afterwards. I had never thought about my future seriously at that time. If I knew that it was so difficult to find a job after graduation, I should have listened to Lao Wang. Although it was not easy to be a schoolboy at the newspaper office, it was not as good as we imagined. Staying in a company for the rest of my life would not be as fun as you imagined.

Can you imagine how long you stay in a company and never get tired of it. If you don’t have a job, we won’t feel tired of it. If you do something in your life, that kind of life is not something we can imagine. I guess few people have tried that feeling. At that time, I was afraid of dedicating my whole life to a company. No matter how good the company is or how good the benefits are, how much we will get. We are unwilling to devote our lives to it. I always thought that my life had just begun and I had unlimited possibilities. I was very convinced that I could have a better future, so I rejected Lao Wang’s invitation.

People really should not overestimate ourselves. How capable we have is not what we say, but what others see. Since Lao Wang put forward such an idea, it means that he thinks this is the best for me, but I didn’t cherish such a good opportunity at that time. Now I really regret it. If I give me another company to enter the Fortune 500, I would say to Lao Wang, I am willing, I want to go too much. Unfortunately, life cannot be repeated. When we miss such an opportunity, I will never have the opportunity to enter an excellent company in this life. I can only make a choice between temporary workers and hourly workers. You don’t know that this must be painful.

I looked at their requirements for cultivating young reporters, and it felt like they were just having fun. Their admission requirements were: GPA 3.5 + TOEFL 110 + GRE 1100 (VERBAL is not less than 580). I can’t understand any of these English languages, but if it is a direct relative of the employee of the company, the conditions can be relaxed. In other words, if outsiders want to come in, the above conditions are required. If the child of the employee of the company wants to come in, even a poor student is OK. What I mean is not how powerful the company is, but that a poor student like me can also enter such a large enterprise. If you say that if you enter such a company, then my life will definitely have earth-shaking changes!

It’s just that this is just a dream, and it has not come true. Now everything is just redundant. I told Lao Wang: I have always taken you as an example. I don’t want to go out of my own way. I just want to continue moving forward along your path. I don’t have much talent in photography, and it’s very difficult for me to learn. Every step forward is very difficult, but I long to become a professional photographer like you, and I have been working towards you. However, you have also seen that no matter how hard I try, I still cannot truly understand the essence of photography, especially you have taught me like this, but I still succeeded in nothing. This makes me very distressed. Sometimes I feel that I am really stupid and why can’t I learn anything well.

Lao Wang told me: Actually, it’s not that you didn’t take photography to heart. You look down on such things from the bottom of your heart. You just think that you just use the picture to record the picture. And you don’t really record the world. Now your world is only black and white, and you don’t think there is nothing to record in this world. In fact, you think that this world is not perfect, and you don’t like this world. For a world you don’t like, you can’t really feel the existence of the world with your heart. But photography is to feel the world with your heart, feel the beautiful things in this world, and record beautiful things.

For me, there is nothing good, and it is useless to record it. After all, things have changed and become the past. But I don’t want to live in the past. I want to live in the future. I am afraid of recalling the past. Sometimes I think the past is just letting it pass. When we recall it, we can’t get anything. Sometimes I really don’t know why everyone misses the past. Sometimes we still think about our future and what we miss the past. For people like me who have not found a girlfriend, missing the past is too luxurious. I don’t have time to miss the past. I want to look forward to the future, and I want to find my girlfriend...

I am afraid to recall the past. When I recall the past, I think of my depression, sad mood, and the fact that I have no girlfriend. When I think of my age, I don’t have a girlfriend, I want to die. Sometimes I don’t understand why such a simple truth is, but now girls just can’t understand it. Maybe they have no feelings, no feelings for anyone, and they are even more afraid of facing things like feelings. Therefore, girls can not be anxious. If we are anxious, we will definitely work hard and we will definitely fight for it, but now girls will not do this. In other words, they still lack charm, which makes them feel dispensable to me, and they are all in tears.

This was the case in the past and the present. I was so anxious, but why could they be so calm? Didn’t they think about their future or they all have their own plans? It’s just that this plan is not my business. I can’t get happiness from memories. On the contrary, every memory will only make me more painful. You said that I and the mayor are the same as the mayor. In fact, I have a common language and we can communicate. If we didn’t have a different worldview, we would have no possibility of communication.

I just want to say to the girls: If you think this man makes you at a loss, why not relax and treat this man with a normal mind? In fact, you don’t have prejudice against me. You can let go of your arrogance. We should treat each other as ordinary people, a man or woman next door. In this way, we will not worry about so many things. If you don’t want to recall the past, then don’t recall it? The past has passed, and there is still a long time in the future. Many things are artificial. We cannot and cannot change the established facts, but the future is in our own hands. Why not live happily and happily?

The miraculous doctor always advised me: Think about it, there are many people in this world who are more unfortunate than you, and there are many orphans who have been abandoned since childhood who don’t even know who their parents are. Even a disharmonious family is out of reach in their minds. Therefore, you can be considered happy to them. Isn’t it just that you can’t find a girlfriend? It’s no big deal, and it won’t kill anyone.

I said that this matter is not big, I think it is going to be big, if I can't find it again, will I have to pause and brew my feelings? Then I will continue to say that an in-depth author does this, that is, brewing his own feelings in various ways. I am planning to do this now, and only in front of the miracle doctor, I think I can show my true self. If I show this side in front of other women, they will say that I am sissy. In fact, I am not sissy, I am just richer than others, and I want to express my feelings, but you can't understand it for the time being.

Of course, what I said is that we are not familiar with each other, so there is no need for you to understand me. Only when we are familiar with each other will you naturally understand my true side. This is why many women are willing to communicate with their best friends because they understand each other. Everyone can quickly reach a consensus and think about each other. Of course, many times, there is no need to hide their feelings and say some psychological words to their best friends that they have never said before. Because there is a kind of trust between you, and this trust makes you say everything. The key is that there will be no gap between these two people, which is why your relationship can continue.

I looked at the miracle doctor and continued, "You said you were lightweight. Anyway, you were not you who died, you were not you who was lonely, you were not you who couldn't find a girlfriend, and you were not you who died, you were not you who could die, so you could say this so lightly." If the person who was involved in these things was yours, I think you could say it so lightly.

The miracle doctor was speechless. If she hadn't known that I was talking nonsense, if someone else had heard this, she would have thought I was cursing her to die? As a doctor, the miracle doctor was best at understanding others (his own patients). When we are a doctor, the doctor must have a strong heart. When they treat people, they will inevitably encounter difficult patients like me, and some will even make trouble. As a doctor, if you let it go, the consequences will be very serious. Of course, it is the consequences of the patient, not the consequences of the doctor.
Chapter completed!