I was in a very bad mood today, and I sat in front of the computer again, feeling very confused. I don’t know where to start with thousands of words? I don’t know where to start with nonsense? What am I thinking? I don’t know, I feel uncomfortable, empty and lost.

I am silently enduring it, do you have to do this? I think I am also a otakus, so why did I do so poorly? I seem to be strong on the outside, but who can understand my inner fragility? I can only bear the pain myself. Who can understand? I really want someone to comfort me, but... I'd better think about it, just comfort myself.

I don’t know if the writing path is too difficult, too difficult, really too difficult, or my own luck is too bad. I have been walking alone all the time, without readers or fans, and even a brother left me. Thinking about it, writing is really boring.

Life is like a dry well, with no fun, and writing is like standing on a dry well. No one knows what you think. I don’t know where the enthusiasm in my heart is spread? When will the person who is destined to appear? Who can resonate with me? No, probably not one, I really have worked hard, but I still walk alone. Maybe I am lonely? I have no choice but to wait and go with the flow.

Sometimes I think, when I want to read aloud a piece of article God instructed my brother, will I cry, will I resonate with God instructed my brother, do I want to be instructed with my God instructed my brother, and do I want to recite poems upstairs, corridors, streets, and rivers in our house. How great it would be if someone listened by me!

Yes, but who can be there in the world? I can always expect him to have a resonant understanding with me? Not only God instructs my brother to understand me, but I will only be happy when I read God instructs my brother’s books, even if it is a person who can be roughly the same as what I appreciate? Who else? But that person must be my brother. God instructs my brother, and he is the only one who is alone!

Such intellectual harmony is extremely rare and difficult to meet in life. Such a person is only in a corner of our world. We may never meet such a talented person in our life. We may not be able to understand what he wrote. We only blame us for not having any culture, so we cannot understand it.

We long for this harmony throughout our lives, and we want to find such a person. Now we have found that such a person may not be able to resonate with God's instructions to brother now, nor in the future, but we can still read this fool's book silently. Do you think so? I know that someone thinks so;

Right, this desire drives us to a desolate place like a demon. In this world without people, we write silently and write our own stories alone, without the sympathy of others or the forced understanding of others. I think we may slowly understand each other one day; the most common ending is to put us in mud and swamps, and finally make us otakus become more and more lonely.

After all, we know that this imagination is just an illusion. Everyone’s destiny is like this: you must live alone in your world and work hard to live in the present moment. As long as we are still alive, we can create the happiness we want.

Although we have many people around us along the way, there are so many left in the end. Too few can really find long-term. How many people can care about friends as much as I do and how many of them can have.

Most of us choose blind dates, which is impossible. We cannot expect any romantic encounters on the street. It’s not that we can’t meet them, even if we meet them, they will not abandon people like me. In front of the blind date girl, I was shy and hesitant. I don’t want to be lonely, don’t want to be lonely, don’t want to force myself to live.

I once told me that the partner I was on a blind date was not the person I wanted, so I gave up, but I couldn’t give up, so I didn’t believe it. If I didn’t do it once, it wouldn’t work again, but it wouldn’t work again... Until the behavior stopped, this was my persistence. Then I bravely embarked on the road of blind date, and then I met the blind date girl. It was my courage that made us meet, it was my persistence that made us meet, it was me or me!

I wanted to find someone I like to live with. For this reason, I told my parents about my blind date. Before telling me, I was also wandering and thinking for a long time. I don’t know what the consequences are? Do they think I am too pitiful, or do they think I am too courageous, or do they think I really have no choice?

There is no way, I can only say it. I just think this is not a shame. I am such a big person, so I don’t feel embarrassed when I go on a blind date. Do you think there are a few senior otakus like us who don’t need to take the blind date? We must. The final result is to bravely walk the blind date, bravely and boldly, blind dates.

There is a good song, right?

Brother, I walked forward boldly

Sister, please come over boldly

Come here and don't turn around

The road to blind dates

Nine,999,999

Sister, come over boldly

Punched over and couldn't turn back

The road to blind dates

Nine,999,999

Sister, don't run away after you come here

Don't think you can't run

From now on, you can build that red embroidery building

Red hydrangeas are thrown

Hit my head

You want to run, you can't run

Even if you are drinking wine

Red sorghum wine

Sister, you are drunk boldly

Don't think you can't get up

Finally, after my mother's questioning, I had no choice but to say that, parents, I went on a blind date, I was embarrassed by you, the child was unfilial, and in the end, they either embarked on the blind date. My parents understood very well, and didn't say anything about me, nor did they despise me, but they were very sad. I said that I was too pitiful, too pitiful, how could no one love me? It would happen if I was so handsome like me, it would happen like this. It was incredible.

I am also more worried about my future... They also told me that blind dates are not scary. After a terrible blind date, they still cannot have a partner. Such people are the most tragic people. Of course, you are not such people. My parents believe that I can find them. I think so. I think I can do it, and it is impossible for them to find one.

But there is no way. If you can't find a blind date, then there is probably no one else. Then I can only accept my fate. Everything has to accept my fate. What else can I do? I am very grateful to my parents for loving me so much, loving me so much, and encouraging me so much.

They didn't force me to go on a blind date, I wanted to go on a blind date myself. I think I am a big old man, so I can't just stay alone all the time. This is not a big deal. As a middle-aged man, for a normal middle-aged man, a talented and beautiful middle-aged man like me, a middle-aged man who brags and doesn't make drafts, and a perfect good man like me, it used to be a big deal, but now it has become a big deal. What should I do? What should I do!

My parents are very reasonable parents. They are good parents in the heavenly dynasty and discuss everything with me. They don’t force me to do what I don’t want to do, they never force me to find a girlfriend, and they won’t force me to meet someone I don’t like. I don’t know how to repay my parents’ love for me and how to make up for their sadness. The child was wrong. If I had known that it would be so uncomfortable, I would have found a girl to marry, right? No one can do anything. Good luck is making fun of people. It’s too late to regret it now. Now I’m old, I have no career, no job, no house, and no car. I don’t have anything. Some of them only have rent, electricity, internet, and 2 yuan for this month. I can’t afford it.

The road to blind dates is really not easy, and it is even more difficult to choose a blind date with true love. Do you think we blind dates are all left over by society, leftover men and women, all kinds of weird things come from. I think I am a weird person. I didn’t expect that there are people who are even more weird things than me. There are so many people here. There are really weird things in the forest, and we can see all kinds of birds.

Some blind daters say, "It's too naive to find true love." Is it naive to be sincere? Is it mature to deceive yourself and others' thoughts? It's better to choose your own path and walk by yourself... It's also very uncomfortable to pretend. It's better to be free and easy, walk the path you want to walk, and live the life you want to live. Even if I'm alone, I'm very happy. I'm also a happy bachelor, and I'm also a single queen. Then I stopped talking because I can't speak anymore. You are nothing!

I hope I can meet that friend who thinks the same as me, that is, a friend who can understand my books. This is also a common language. It turns out that there are too few people who can share the same language with me. Even on this vast Internet, I haven't found one, let alone in our small city where birds don't shit, which is even more difficult.

In order not to make yourself lonely, don’t have too many concerns, find someone you like and live a dull life, that’s all. I don’t want to be rich and beautiful anymore. As long as you don’t look too ugly, just live like this. People need to understand slowly, and feelings need to be cultivated slowly, and time needs to be built up.

Giving others a chance is also a chance for yourself. We will get better and better. We will definitely find the dream lover in our minds, but that is before the age of thirty. Don’t pretend after the age of thirty, okay?
Chapter completed!