Do you know what parents are? Well, my parents are like this. You always sigh in private, but why do you never complain? I want to say that it is actually because you love us. Your passion has the same infectiousness as fire, and a fallen leaf will also be driven to burn by you. So, even if I am a fallen leaf. Thinking of you, I am very warm even if the weather is cold.

I, old man, I like to watch you riding a bicycle and leaving in a hurry. I am a little silly, a little naughty, a little vitality, and a little heavy. This makes the "Back View" I learned when I was a child. Maybe the backs of parents in my heart are different, but we don't think so, but our hearts will always remember your backs. Because the backs of each parent are so great, so strong, and so touching us. I think life should be like this. Don't complain, do it yourself, or do it while complaining. Thinking of you, I feel really warm in my heart.

I have been the most real self, but in the end, no one understands my own reality. This really makes me depressed. I feel like I am alone and I feel that I cannot be understood by others. It is really heartbreaking. What I suffer the most is not the hard work, but the unrecognized efforts of my own efforts... I am drunk and boiled noodles, the painful brain, and the endless words to be coded. KAO! All, who else...

Sometimes, I feel inexplicably bad, I don’t want to talk to anyone, I just want to be alone in a quiet daydream, thinking about my quietness, quietness! Where are you, your brother has worked so hard to find you; sometimes, I suddenly feel irritated, I feel uncomfortable when I see anything, and I try my best to find an exit, and where is my exit; sometimes, I feel out of place with the world, and the things I have always insisted on overnight are beyond recognition; sometimes, others suddenly say to you, I think you have changed, and then I start to feel mixed feelings...

When I was a child, my father went to the town to do business and often brought back one or two old books. My ancestors had some cultural heritage, so I had the knowledge I learned today. My knowledge was not bragging. Although I had no soft spots, I felt that it was still pretty good. Anyway, you don’t mind.

However, when my ancestors criticized the landlords, many books were destroyed. Otherwise, my family would have many ancient books. Not to mention that they could learn a lot, at least they could sell for a few good prices. Some of them were originally originally, which is what you understand. The collection value is necessary. Haha, if you can stay, you might get rich now. Unfortunately, by the time I was born, there were only a few left.

Later, in the next ten years, since I was born, the conditions at home were getting worse. I really didn’t know how a rural child could use so much money. I always thought that I would not have to use money in the countryside. But it wasn’t like that, I was still spending money. The expense of studying alone was not enough. Then, what you know was selling all kinds of old things, antiques, and calligraphy and paintings. This is also my life shouldn’t have. We didn’t know the value of these things at that time, and now it’s too late to regret it.

My father burned all the books that were not many of them. Later, the situation gradually improved, and my father, who had good books, found some dilapidated books. However, he had no soft use and was no longer used, so he lost the value of collecting them. Now he could only throw them in the dilapidated house as a souvenir.

My father was a serious educated person, but later the ingredients problem. Well, it was not a problem of ingredients, but a problem of family income. At that time, the countryside was not recommended to study. Everyone was counting on their own land, thinking that they could live a lifetime, and they didn’t dare to think about anything else. Even if they had the talent to study, it would be useless if their family didn’t support you and worked hard. At that time, there were many brothers and sisters, and no one would care about who they could care about, so they couldn’t take care of them, so they couldn’t study anymore.

It is understandable that he has no way to continue his studies. Unlike us now, our brothers and sisters are not as many as they were back then. It’s just that we are lazy and don’t study hard. We blame others all day long, but we are unwilling to study hard. To put it bluntly, we are afraid of hardships. You say that your children are afraid of hardships and cannot learn, but you say what can you do? You don’t let your children develop on their own. What else can you do? That’s quite difficult!

What I remember deeply is that since I was a child, he would tell me some amazing stories, traditional stories, stories passed down from generation to generation, and children of every one of our great dynasty are familiar stories. What else is it? It is Beiming, Hei Shui, Yao and Shun, Jingwei fills the sea, Gun and Yu control the flood. I think my father is very good, better than all the other elders I know. Under his telling, I have an extra world.

I know that if we rural people want to understand this world, they do not study, but read books. Learning is useless. If you have time, you have to read more books, otherwise you will definitely regret it if you grow up. If you say that if you don’t know anything, don’t know anything, and have never heard of anything, then how ignorant you will appear in front of your friends!

As a person who loves knowledge but is blocked halfway, my father puts many expectations on me. I also made up my mind secretly and read very hard, but I don’t study because I just can’t learn well. You say that I can blame me. Anyway, I don’t think it’s not my fault. The fault is not that the teacher is not taught well. You say that you are also a teacher. You read according to the book, and I will do it! I can read it myself, and then I can listen to you read it. Isn’t I wrong? What we want is your experience and experience in your learning, and how can you quickly increase your knowledge skills? Otherwise, why do you teachers do, why don’t you do it?

My father also often studied and liked to study the history of Jin and Chu Yun the most. If he changed his destiny, maybe I would not have been admitted to university without my father's encouragement. I would have been out of work long ago. As long as I don't study, go out to make a living, and don't waste my time on this study, I might have achieved great achievements. I think at least I'm better than now.

At least now, I can be a manager or a small foreman, and I don’t have to be directed every day. I look at other people’s faces. This is what I want most, not to look at other people’s faces, but to be myself. In fact, if I weren’t really busy, if I wasn’t too knowledgeable to look down on his little knowledge, if we weren’t able to communicate with our parents. Sometimes I really want to get rid of the imprints of society on my generations, we will discuss some intellectual matters with each other, which will fulfill his unfulfilled wish when he was young.

Sometimes I think about whether my relationship with my parents is love, but I think so! In fact, most of our love does not have too many exciting and earth-shaking things in the novel, but most of them are like flowing water. There are not too many vows here under the moon, but some are relatively silent and tacit understanding... This should be a feeling of "holding your hand and growing old with you"!

I often walk in the lonely crowd, among the strange crowd, in the lost and confused, but I am always peaceful and calm - because I know that in the dark, there are my hands that belong to me. One day she will hold my hand tightly and accompany me through all the cloudy and sunny days until my whole life. This is the love I want, that is, I want to have more touching in my ordinary life.

Just like I don’t like writing, I don’t think I am really a writing talent anymore. After all, I have seen my own strength clearly now. At first, I still felt that my strength was extraordinary, and I felt that I had a different writing talent. But later I found that my talents were relative. What I said was relative is that only I knew this talent, but you didn’t know it. So there is no softness for having talents, and it is not recognized.

I didn’t use the most diligent model in my senior year because I didn’t find the reason for my struggle for him. The result was that I didn’t do well in the exam so I studied in my favorite major. On the other students, most of them were majors that I didn’t know anything before and even hated. So why did this make them special? I could only live mechanically in the future.

In the pond of the bright moon, in the towering peaks, in the world of our Mama Village, in the novels of our God-instructed brother, we humans are constantly trying to challenge higher, stronger and more beautiful realms. As a result, we created art and created destruction. Our persistence in our own value even exceeds our awe of life. We have to ask ourselves whether it is worth it, and we have to ask ourselves whether it is meaningful.
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