Today, I was in a mess when I was at work. Time suddenly appears, and of course it will disappear suddenly. I couldn't keep up with the child's thinking, but was frightened by the idea that time would suddenly disappear. Perhaps only the time when I was quiet and I was the real time. I disappeared in such a time, forgot to ask why, and only remembered to hang my ideal on the wall first, and turned around and did something, and never thought of taking it off again.

I am so envious of you every day when I watch you post and talk. You are beautiful, use smartphones, are rich, have many friends, and discuss things that seem to be very powerful all day long. You can just take whatever you want. I have a few months of living expenses, I have studied less, and I am from the countryside, and I have never seen much world, so I can only watch you post silently and like it from time to time, so I can pretend to be familiar with you. I am really tired, and I won’t say anything anymore. Others urge me to return my phone to him and I’m going to feed the pigs...

Alas, if you miss the sunrise, you can wait, if you miss the beautiful scenery, you can come again, if you miss the meteor, you can wait, if you miss the love, you will not come back! Cherish the people around you, especially those you love and those who love you. I am very good, don’t make noise, don’t show off, don’t be wronged, don’t laugh at, don’t need others to know. If I go back to the past, I would rather choose not to know you, not to regret it, but to face the ending without you. At this time, I just thought that I would only say on behalf of the people of the whole country? It’s cold and frozen.

I am not a smart person, nor a scholar, so people like me are destined to not understand profound philosophy. Yes, people like me cannot understand the meaning of life, because I have worked so hard, but no one likes me. You said I can understand anything, of course I can’t understand anything, and I can’t figure out anything. It’s really difficult to understand, but I insist that the end of life is by no means the realization of the vague and huge dream.

I would rather be enthusiastic about participating and enjoying other people's journey quietly in my window. I would rather go out and walk my own journey. I must be in this winter. I really can't do it anymore. I can only stay at home and I can't do anything anymore. The child who is not interested in everything around me, only poetry and far away has gone away. Only people like me still have such dreams. There are almost no people like me in our era. Who do you think there are any other people besides me?

It’s just that you don’t understand me very much, which makes me really sad. Sometimes I think if more people can understand me, I must have written about another situation. This is fate. Sometimes we follow our own hearts like this. In the end, we have to go with the flow. We don’t want to do this, but we have no choice but to mix it like this. This is the helplessness of each of us! No one can escape his own destiny, and no one can disobey his own destiny.

I cherish the current self that can follow changes, create happiness, and appreciate peace. After all, I can still be a real self. We have always known that it is very difficult to do something real, but sometimes our stubbornness is that we cannot make us obey others. We are so real, so people like us are destined to be ourselves, and we cannot be others. It is such a precious talent to be able to discover the beauty in plainness, fight against the fatigue and helplessness of life, and experience the perseverance tested by stability and peace.

I remembered when I was a child. The more I miss home, the more I remembered what happened when I was a child. I remember that it was when I was studying. One day, I suddenly received a call from my mother. I was drunk too. You were all out and busy, and I was still thinking about whether I was studying well. I was also drunk. Do you don’t believe it or not believe that you are doing it yourself? You know that I can’t study, but you still ask me if I have studied well. Isn’t this a big deal? I think calling your children to study well. Do you think that there are a few parents who will study well when your children are not at home? I don’t know what you think. Have you ever heard of being away from the military orders? I can still study well, so I’m wondering.

My mother still asked me patiently, it was a kind of greeting: What are you doing, are you not doing homework? Are you playing with mud all day?

I smiled, of course I was a little impatient: Hehe, will I do my homework if I don’t play with mud?

My mother called me impatiently. She originally wanted to ask me to do my homework, but in the end she could only say to me helplessly, "Okay, then be happy, just play whatever you want!" But remember to study, you have to study more or less, you must go to college. Don't be like your parents, who have not been able to study well and have no future. Our family is counting on you. You must read, remember to read!

Then, I became impatient and hurriedly interrupted my parents, saying, "Okay, okay, I know, I can read, don't stare at me, I know, I will go to study in a while. I really felt that my parents were very annoyed at that time. I would really not be able to stand it when I asked you what you learned in one day. At that time, I didn't understand the importance of learning. We rural people didn't know the importance of learning, and felt that learning was useless, and they just lived with such thoughts. Thinking about it, they all went out to work in the end. Even if they read more books, what's the use? I have to give it to you.

What else can I do when someone works, so naturally there is no way to do it. Now? My mother still calls me from time to time, and just these two sentences, and asked me patiently, and it was still a kind of greeting: What are you doing, aren’t you reading? Are you playing computer games all day? My mother dreams that I am going to take the civil service exam, so she always hopes that I will study and then take the civil service exam, which is also a blessing in character. But I am not good at it and I really can’t get the exam. I am not a good student, but I still hope that I will take the civil service exam. Isn’t this too much? I am also drunk.

I smiled, of course I was a little impatient: Hehe, can I really read books without playing computers? If I can still take the exam for the official ape, if I have this ability, it would be really good, but my brain is not suitable for the official ape. This official ape can only take the exam for the extraordinary ape. I am afraid that I can't be this ape, and I am also afraid that I will make mistakes after the exam, because you see, nine out of the ten people who have passed the exam are all for the mistakes. I am not such a person, and I can't do such things.

If I really can't control myself, I'm jealous when I see others making mistakes. What I'm afraid of is that others are asking me to make mistakes with me. What I'm afraid of is that others have not made mistakes yet, so I'll make mistakes first. How can that be! I thought about it and I'll still live a peaceful life like this. This worried life is really hard to live. Besides, I'm not timid. If I take someone else's stitches and threads, I will blush. My father taught me that our ancestors had been the Red Army. You know that our ancestors told us: You must never take someone else's stitches and threads.

Well, yes, people nowadays will not take every stitch of the masses. They all take money and do things with money. I am also drunk. As long as they don’t take every stitch of others, they are good comrades. I think people who take money are also good comrades? At least I think they think so, otherwise they can’t do this.

Fortunately, we are so powerful that we are so powerful that we will pull corrupt officials off as soon as we take action. This is really no one. This is unprecedented. There is no one! I just want to ask who else you have, who is not afraid of death, and who dares to get money. I told my mother that it is very tight now. When the business ape is at risk, it is even more risky than selling drugs. I am afraid of death, so I will not join in the fun. You have also seen it. Now this corrupt official is checking and one is accurate. You said how much risk is! Anyway, I am afraid of it, and I don’t have the courage to do it.

If something really happens, isn’t this embarrassing our family? This good thing doesn’t go out, this bad thing is spreading thousands of miles away. I’m still young and I’m not married yet, so I have to treat myself well. It’s difficult for men to do this in this life: find a beautiful woman, I’m too worried, find a bad one, I’m not willing to give up, I’m not willing to go to career, I’m saying you have no sense of responsibility and patronize your family, and I’m saying you’re not capable, so be more dedicated, and people say you’re immature and be more scheming. People say you’re beast, you’re rich and say you’re bad, and people say you’re a bad person, and you’re not rich and call you a coward, and you’re working on your own. When your rich girlfriend is old, let’s make a woman do it. It’s better to escort yourself and practice the Sunflower Book. If you don’t go to socialize, you’re afraid of being ruined by your boss, go to socialize, and you’re afraid of being ruined by your wife. Alas!
Chapter completed!