Where should I start? I think I have lost something. Others always say that I am always weird and weird. My brain is just not smart, but I still feel that my brain is still very flexible. Yes, I am very scared, but I am not afraid of you, nor is this online gangster. I am afraid of myself. Do you have anyone to help me? OK! If not, even though I don’t think there is no possibility, I think I can still try it. Anyway, I won’t suffer any loss. I don’t have any loss.

If it doesn't work, no matter whether it's possible or not, I will choose to stay. What I mean is that no matter what the result is, I will only have one choice, that is, I will not give up. It's no big deal to lose if I lose. Now it seems that no one can help me anymore. I can only rely on myself, rely on myself, and I can't do anything. In the end, I will stay and become one of you, become an author with no soft use, become a lonely warrior, and become a poor writer who can't be more pitiful.

What I will still do at this time is that I will walk with you, and I will code words on this vast network with you, with the scorching sun and dust on my head. I will continue to code this slowly until forever, but the number of words will decrease less and less until one day, I will only code four words in one day, that is, the four words "God's Instruction". I think only these four words can express my inner fanaticism and excitement! Well, now I am only myself, I am only myself, I have no companions, I am only me. So I think I want to do something, I want to do anything to myself, I am willing to do anything as long as it can help me, and I have done it too. Although there is no soft use, I feel that I have tried my best and I have done it too, and this is the most important thing.

Just like God instructed my brother to say to me: "Yes, many things in this world are very difficult for us, and we don't know whether we can succeed in the end. Remember that doing is always more important than saying. Only when you do it really, you will understand what kind of difficulties you will encounter, what kind of troubles you will encounter, and what obstacles you will encounter. If you just say what you can say, no matter how much you can brag, you will just say it, and you have not done it. You will not know how difficult this thing is, nor will you know the final result. Only those who really work hard to understand."

Well, you will know what this matter will look like in my heart when you look so hard. Is this the heaviest? Is this what I call the heaviest? Can't I put it a little heavier? We must try our best to remember what we used to be, who has obeyed and who has feared, and who can't let us retreat. Have we forgotten? Well, I have forgotten, but now I have to try my best to recall my former self because I think

Only by returning to the hard-working self before can I truly achieve what I want. Of course, this is just one of my ideas. It doesn’t matter whether it can come true or not. What’s important is that I am alone, there are no groups and no friends here, and I am the only one fighting alone. This is my reality. I can’t have my own team like others, I can’t have a good brother like others, and I can’t have a good leader like others. Now I am the leader, I am the eldest brother, and I am the team.

Yes, I am not really like what you said, "I have my keyboard, I have my soul, I have my steamed buns," is it enough, right? This will make me hold on, and this is the last thing I can hold on. I think I have my own way. All this method requires is time. It is just that this time is our most precious thing, and it is also something that authors like me value the most. I regard it as treasure. In contrast, that is, I also see my own work as treasure. Although you don't read it like this, you are against it, and you probably regard it as garbage. This is our different place and we cannot be friends, because we have different ideas about things and different ways of looking at problems. Naturally, we get different results.

I'm not saying you're bad, I'm just saying there's a difference! I've long expected the results now, which I expected from the beginning, and I thought of it from the beginning. Yes, I know this will be a long process and a lonely journey of struggle. It will be a month, a few months, a year, or even several years. I'm not kidding you, nor am I joking with you, I'm serious. Just like when I came here, some people asked me, "I'm here to play."

I told them: I never thought I was here to play, yes, I never thought I was here to play. Because if I came here to play, I wouldn't choose this to play, I would choose a more fun game to play. So you were wrong, I was here to play, I can tell you very responsibly. I came here very seriously, and I really wanted to do my own thing well. I think my efforts can be seen, yes, although I don't have any advantages, I have this person.

A momentum is that once I decide to do anything, I will try my best to do it well. Yes, I have no talent or luck, but I have my own spirit. Yes, if someone spends an hour doing this, I will spend two hours or even six hours until I can do it well. This is the only thing I can do, that is, I will work harder than others to do it. I will not admit defeat, no matter how bad I was at the beginning, no matter how confident I was.

Yes, I am a person without confidence, otherwise I wouldn't have chosen such a start, but I'm afraid that if my start is better, I will become lazy, proud, and lose my motivation. So I chose a very, very, very bad start, which means I have to go on with this strength. Yes, I am very talented, which is undeniable, but I am also particularly lazy. I know that I didn't like writing at the beginning, but I was afraid that I would come here with a playful attitude, so I gave myself a reason why others looked down on me. Give others a reason why I didn't like me, and I just wanted to use the reason why others didn't care about me and make myself determined to do this. Only by following this unyielding spirit, I want to go on.

Yes, I have seen many, many, many talented young people come here. They succeed too early. In fact, it is really not a good thing to succeed too early. It will make you forget how to struggle, how to improve yourself, and how to improve yourself continuously adapt to the development of this society. Yes, some people have achieved remarkable results from the beginning, and slowly forget the meaning of doing things, and forget why they came. I just forget my original intention. I am not saying that you are lost, but that you feel too good, and you will regard what you do very insignificantly. You feel that there is no big problem in survival here with your own abilities, so you will increasingly ignore the importance of this matter, instead of keeping it first like your God instructs your brother.

Once you have this indifferent idea, you will become lazy and be able to live by. Think about your ability, you will have your own place whenever you come. You cannot think like your God instructed your brother. Maybe, your God instructed your brother to have a place ten years ago, but this was only ten years ago, and now ten years have passed. Everything has changed, people have changed, the environment has changed, the pattern has changed, and the group has changed. In this way, you come here again, you

You will find that you are out of place, and you will find that there is no place for you here. Maybe many people would read your books when they saw your name. Now it is different. Now people are no longer the people they used to be. No matter how strong you have the ability, the strong literary talent, or the strong conception, others may not like you, let alone you have nothing, because you have played for a long time, you have become stupid, have no inspiration, have no fighting spirit, and have no previous motivation.

That is what our God instructed my brother: It is the same to meet the right person at the right time. We should do the right thing at the right age. That is to say, at the right age, you should write seriously, and have a good conversation when you should fall in love. When you should strive for your own career, you should strive for your own career. Never wait until you have passed this best age before you think about this. If this is something we will regret. Yes, most of us are ordinary people, we are not great gods, and we cannot live for many years. Our best time is short, and only a very small period of time, so don’t rely on your talents and abilities to do anything that will make you regret.

For example, you see your God instructs your brother as a good example. If you wait until my age, you see how much talent you can have, there will be no more left. Then, do you think you can still reach your God instructs your brother as an age, can you work harder than your God instructs your brother?
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