To be honest, I need you now than ever before. You give me no choice. I am not as unique as you think, so I may not be able to understand other people's misunderstandings. However, I know that I act a little differently. I just admit defeat because I don't have the talent of others, I don't have any writing skills, and I don't have any talent for language, and my brain is not easy to use, and I can't think of interesting stories like you think. You don't understand, if I don't do this, I will feel that I will lose everything. I have my own dreams. Everything I think is telling me bit by bit that is not real, and what I have is also slowly losing. Yes, I have never felt so powerless, I can only wish everything will be fine.

Even at this end of the road, I feel that as an author, we always think of ways. I was afraid of facing my incompetence before, but today, I was upset. I couldn't think and didn't know how to write. Because I was afraid of losing, so what was important to me, whether it was faith, the author's stubbornness or the persistence I had before. I know, but if we still have a glimmer of hope for our future, we can't let our fear control us, and we must be better. Yes, we still believe that we all have this good side.

What I always want is that this feeling is freedom, freedom and freedom, and being a real self. Yes, my novel is not like this, and I will not describe a real life like this. I am just learning from others to be sensational. I just want to promote myself. After all, no one pays attention to me and does not understand me. I can only promote myself. Otherwise, what else do you think I can do! I have no immunity to the temptation this good novel has given me, but an author who gives up everything for writing must have a bottomless pit in his heart.

That's the word count, plot and collection. I'm a writer who is not smart, has no career and has no achievements. I need to use writing to fill my time. I need to fill all my blank time. I don't want to waste anything. Otherwise, I will be even less confident. If I don't do anything, then my life will really have no meaning at this age. Yes, what I need is a sense of identity, not a sense of accomplishment. More importantly, if I really give up this, I will really go crazy because I really can't find anything to play with.

Haha, do you think I feel quite feeling, are I writing very feeling? Anyway, that's what I think. See if I'm serious this time, please see! I don't know what to do. In the past few months, I have been trying to forget the slander of other authors, and try not to be hurt by my vicious words to them, and try to forgive people like them. I think people like them are worthy of our forgiveness and understanding. I have been making excuses for what people like them do. I think I should be more generous. Although I am not such a person, although I still hate them very much, everyone is more honest! Yes, I still hate them very much.

Our talent is called crazy. Yes, people like us still have this talent, that we never care about the consequences, we don’t have to consider other people’s feelings, we don’t have to care about other people’s doubts about us. We just focus on our own affairs and don’t listen to any opinions from others. We always think that we are the best, we are right, others are wrong, and others do not understand us, so we are generally crazy. Also, we are not understood by the world and cannot understand us. It is just crazy.

Our God instructed my brother to say that there are only two kinds of powers in this world: "swords and thoughts". What you understand is my thoughts, are they very powerful, or are they very powerful? In the long run, thoughts will always fight against the sword of victory, and this is the greatness of thought. What I want to defeat is my own thoughts. Only by constantly surpassing myself can I truly grow up and truly become a great thinker. Haha, think about it, I will have such a day, but this is basically impossible! I am stronger than anyone else. You know this, and I know it too.

Sometimes we have to learn that we cannot have any hope for anyone, and I cannot expect this network to have any effect. It is just a network, just an ordinary network. After walking on this road of writing for a long time, I gradually became a fearless person and gradually became tired. I have been really tired these days. I have to drive a day in the day, but I have not done anything, just spent this time on the bus. But it also made me see many things clearly. It is obviously a small thing, and I have to make a big deal, and it is very troublesome. Is it that our system is like this? It is so inhumane.

Actually, I don’t care whether I’m tired or not. I just think that we spend all our time on meaningless things. I don’t understand. I can’t do anything without saying anything. It’s really a pain. The people I command never consider it. This is our society. It seems that it doesn’t matter what others do. As long as I tell others to do it, it’s enough. So sometimes I feel very disappointed, and I have not gained anything in the past year. This is very disappointing. If you like it, say it, ask if you don’t understand, giggle when you are happy, drink a can of wine when you are unhappy, and drink half a can of at most, and you can fall asleep.

Sometimes I smile like a fool, sometimes I feel so sad that I want to cry, sometimes I am really tired, very tired, and sometimes I am really unhappy, as if I am brave and fearless. Now that I have reached this age, I feel like I can hold on to anything, and I don’t know what happiness is or what unhappiness is. Yes, as long as I am stronger, there is nothing great.

I took the car back and forth for two days and just took it as a fun thing. What else can I do? I can't be happy. I don't have a car, but others always think that you have a car, and think that everyone who stays in the city should have a car. Some people really have the same problem. When they see me driving, I don't even have a driver's license. You said I have a car and I have something to do. But, he said that you have a car, and I'm drunk, and I don't know what he thought. Really, sometimes you are too lazy to explain, you say I have a car, so I have it! You say I don't have one, so I don't have one! Anyway, we are not familiar with you. If you are very familiar with me, will you not even know whether I have a car? But I was speechless. He said you have it, and he said it more than once.

Sometimes I really can't understand other people's psychology. He insists on thinking that others have something. In fact, whether others have nothing to do with them has nothing to do with them, he can't get any benefits. I don't understand. You have to think that others have something, others are better than you, and what benefits do you have. If you think about it, you can't understand what he wants. He thinks that after you have it, it's just all kinds of envy, jealousy and hatred. What else can you do? Anyway, there is nothing to do, everyone is fine, he insists on thinking about something, but not to make himself unhappy. This achieves his own goal, just to make himself unhappy, and no one else can stop him.

Really, there are always such people around us. They complain and envy all day long. In fact, there is nothing wrong with him, and he lives a happy life. He just likes to create a kind of hypothesis. I don’t know whether he is to encourage himself or to piss himself off. Maybe there are all! Well, if you are inspirational, I wish you blessing you; but if you are unhappy because of this, I can’t say anything about you.

Well, what I want to say is that there are a lot of things happening recently, and sometimes writing is not necessarily coming. It’s the New Year, everyone should have a good New Year, everyone should be busy with their own affairs! I may not be able to write a lot. If you have time, write a little, write a little, and if you feel it, you can’t stick to it like usual. Everyone understands it. After all, we people in the Great Heavenly Kingdom are busy with the New Year than usual, you understand. Anyway, we need to drive for two days, and everyone has a good dream. After all, we are tired this year, and I hope we will get better and better next year. I hope we can get more and more gains next year!

Then come back, maybe it’s happiness, maybe it’s unhappy, but there are things that always have to be faced! Of course, you may also be discouraged, shed a little tears at night to help us sleep. How boring life is, there is not many happy things. There is nothing good about being arrogant and fearless. But there is nothing bad. No matter what, you still have to live well, right? There is nothing great about living when you are happy, and try your best to live when you are unhappy, and use your whole life to fight against nothingness and unhappiness. Not willing to be easily defeated is the last little dignity.
Chapter completed!