Once a woman falls in love, it is like a pilgrimage, with a blind sacrificial spirit, sacrificing life and death, loving heaven and earth, but forgetting to love herself.

Inscription

After listening to Zhang Jiaying's words, Xin Xiaoyue lowered her eyes and said nothing. Her inner thoughts were like the curtains blown by the wind at the floor-to-ceiling windows.

It's not like she never thought of doing this before.

But the results of doing this are nothing more than two:

One was that Wang Xuan responded that they were a match made in heaven, and from then on, every moment was a beautiful moment; the other was that Wang Xuan had no intention of her, and because the window paper was broken, it would be awkward to get along with each other again.

From then on, she could no longer get close to him, and gradually, she might become a light-year away from him.

Xin Xiaoyue couldn't imagine how sweet the beautiful scenery was on a good day, but when she thought about not being able to stay by his side and not being able to even greet him naturally and casually, she felt that breathing was painful.

She has always been brave, but in this matter, she was really timid.

She is like many young girls who are in love for the first time. She only wants to be good to him, make herself beautiful, and then wait quietly for one day, maybe the flowers will bloom.

"If there is no flower blooming day, at least I can stay with him." She once wrote this sentence in her diary.

Once a woman falls in love, it is like a pilgrimage, with a blind sacrificial spirit, sacrificing life and forgetting only herself.

"Why don't you understand?" Zhang Jiaying sighed, and then said, "Forget it, the boss is right, emotionally, you are an ostrich."

"You're still talking about me in private." Xin Xiaoyue seized the opportunity to change the subject.

Zhang Jiaying smiled and said: "The boss also said that when the male idol comes back next time, let you tell us. We will help you."

"Don't." Xin Xiaoyue shook her head quickly.

"We are not helping you express your feelings, we are just helping you try out your boyfriend."

"No." Xin Xiaoyue refused simply.

"Next time the male idol comes back, remember to tell us." Zhang Jiaying ignored Xin Xiaoyue's objections, picked up the hair dryer and went into the room. Before closing the door, she turned to her and said, "You must seize the time to catch up on your sleep."

, I’m so sleepy.”

Zhang Jiaying yawned and closed the door. Xin Xiaoyue was still sitting in the living room without moving. The wind came in through the floor-to-ceiling windows, blowing the curtains up and down, bringing with it the chill of spring.

After sitting for a while and making sure that Zhang Jiaying had fallen asleep, Xin Xiaoyue found a long blue windbreaker and put it on, took some small items for self-defense, and went out quietly.

It's past midnight, and even in the brightly lit Jincheng, the bustle of the day is gone.

When Xin Xiaoyue walked out of the community, she saw Jiangbian Road outside. Xin Xiaoyue could usually see the beautiful scenery of Jinjiang River in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. And across the road from the entrance of the community, there was the riverside.

The lights on the riverside are bright, illuminating the tall flowers, trees and trees, as well as the surging Jinjiang River. As a place where high-end residential areas gather, it is still quite far away from the commercial center, so there are not many people walking along this section of the river. So,

The light illuminated the emptiness beside the river.

Xin Xiaoyue gathered her windbreaker, crossed the road, and walked to the river. The March wind in spring, with its chilly chill, made the trees rise and fall, making a rustling sound.

The moon in the sky is still there, but it has become faint and blurry.

On the other side of the river, there was a faint singing voice, but before I could hear what it was, it disappeared in the river wind.

This is the most romantic area in Jincheng. On one side of the river are residential parks and historic sites along the Jincheng River; on the other side are bars and cafes. It truly never sleeps and is the fashion of Jincheng.

Xin Xiaoyue stood by the river for a while, looking at the shops with lights out around them, and thought that if she wanted to find a pharmacy that was still open, she would have to go to the other side.

So, she walked forward for a while, crossed an ancient bridge, and went to the other side.

After walking for a while, I saw a drugstore with lights on. The sign in the window said that most of the drugs sold were imported.

Xin Xiaoyue walked in, and there was only one older lady in her thirties on duty. She was bored and scrolling through Weibo.

When she saw Xin Xiaoyue walking in, she immediately put her phone aside and asked enthusiastically: "What do you need?"

"Emergency..." Xin Xiaoyue is not a shy person, but she is a girl, so she still feels a little uncomfortable when talking about the name of this medicine.

"Emergency contraceptive pills?" The eldest sister looked unfazed.

Xin Xiaoyue saw that the eldest sister didn't have any contempt in her expression, nor did she have a sinister look on her face, so she relaxed slightly and nodded.

"Which brand do you want?" the eldest sister asked again.

Xin Xiaoyue naturally knows that there are various brands of everything. However, how can a girl who has never experienced human affairs study these things?

She was a little embarrassed when asked by her eldest sister, so she answered truthfully: "I don't know what brand it is."

"Oh. Do you want something more expensive or cheaper?" the eldest sister said, skillfully taking out four or five kinds from the medicine shelf behind her and placing them one by one on the counter.

"The best effect." Xin Xiaoyue replied.

At this time, she had no intention of criticizing the patients' simple and crude salesmanship. She only wanted to avoid causing any further trouble and minimize the loss this time.

"Then this kind is not expensive." The eldest sister said, picked out one of them and handed it over. At the same time, she said earnestly, "You are very good-looking, which is a natural advantage. You need tens of millions of dollars."

Be alert and don’t act recklessly and waste your advantages.”

"Thank you, eldest sister." Xin Xiaoyue said her thanks obediently.

The eldest sister scanned the prices of medicines and said, "Good-looking girls like you will always meet all kinds of bad-hearted people and do bad things. In short, women must take care of themselves. This kind of medicine,

You can get it by taking it once or twice. The side effects are too great and very harmful to women. It may cause endocrine disorders, irregular menstruation, spots and acne, etc.”

The eldest sister was very sincere and truly caring. Faced with the kindness of strangers, Xin Xiaoyue could only express her gratitude.

However, the next moment, the eldest sister took a bottle of medicine directly from the shelf and said, "Take this with it to reduce side effects. Do you want to bring a bottle?"

"How much?" Xin Xiaoyue knew that the eldest sister was selling, but she asked along the way.

"146." The eldest sister said sincerely.

Xin Xiaoyue doesn't have much money. The living allowance provided by Xin Zhai can't survive for ten days without food. She doesn't want to touch the money left by Wang Xuan. Usually, she earns as a tutor, translating foreign manuscripts and so on.

Save all your money for emergencies.

Now, Xiaoyang is in the hospital again, and it is the time when not a penny can be wasted, so Xin Xiaoyue shook her head and said to the elder sister: "Thank you, I just buy this."

The eldest sister didn't get angry because she didn't buy the recommended medicine. Instead, she wrapped the medicine and handed it to her, and said kindly: "I can see at a glance that you are very clean and beautiful. Anyway, you can't let anyone dominate in the future."

Fu, this kind of medicine can no longer be taken."

Xin Xiaoyue seemed to see her mother. In the past, her mother always warned her like this.

With a sore nose, she tried her best to smile and nod to her eldest sister, then hurriedly said "goodbye" and quickly turned around and left the pharmacy.

Late at night, there are many bars on the river bank, and drunk fashionable men and women come and go, walking drunkenly in the cold spring wind of March.

Either passionate or ethereal music, and bright lights illuminate this river area like daylight.

Xin Xiaoyue left the drugstore, found a convenience store, bought a bottle of mineral water, walked to the river, found a stone stool to sit down, and swallowed the whole pill at once.

Although I swallowed it all at once, I still felt the bitterness of the pill.

On the bank of the brightly lit river, the torrential water flows endlessly, and the cold wind blows over, blowing Xin Xiaoyue's hair.

She felt not only the bitterness of the pills, but also the full malice brought by fate.

So, on this deserted riverside, facing the surging river, she dared to think of the hidden pain that she usually didn't dare to think of:

The pain of his mother’s death, the hard life of digging herbs and catching snakes for a living in Yunjiagou, and always being on guard against harassment and harm from gangsters in the village;

After arriving in Jincheng and finding her father, Xin Xiaoyue thought everything had improved. But she didn't expect that her so-called relatives turned out to be that kind of thing.

His uncle also left, Xiaoyang had another car accident, and he encountered such a dirty thing...

What Xin Xiaoyue didn't dare to think about was suddenly remembered at this moment. She was sitting by the deserted river, covering her face with her hands, and started to cry. Tears rolled out from between her fingers...
Chapter completed!