33. Chapter 33 Love is a deadly poison
He stretched out his hand to grab her hand on his waist and held it in his, with soft eyebrows and said, "There are internal and external troubles."
The words "internal and external troubles" made Cao Yan understand the reason for his worries. She comforted him and said, "I have written a book for my father and asked him to calm down the border as soon as possible and move back to the court to help you ascend to the throne." Cao Yan wanted to help him.
Ascend to the throne of God, so use all available power to help him.
Cao Yan went all out to help Nangong Ao, and Nangong Ao remembered it in his heart. At the same time, he was glad that he had made the right move in this marriage.
Nangong Ao frowned slightly after hearing this, "I'm afraid if I can't wait any longer, my father will only be able to last another ten and a half months!"
When she heard that there was not much time before the emperor left for the west, Cao Yan was also anxious. She raised her face and asked nervously, "What should I do?"
"No big deal. With Ye Changyu and Shen Liang in the court, nothing big will happen, just!" He looked at her and hesitated to speak.
Seeing the unspeakable look on her face, she immediately asked, "What's so difficult for you?" She really couldn't guess and waited anxiously for him to answer the question.
"Imperial decree." He spat out two words lightly, but his expression was extremely heavy.
Hearing him say the word "imperial edict", Cao Yan's expression became heavy, and she felt uneasy in her heart. She could control anything, but it was very difficult to control this imperial edict.
The emperor's death is approaching, and the day when Nangong Ao ascends to the throne is just around the corner. However, if the emperor changes his edict before his death, it will be half the result with twice the effort.
"Has there been any change?" Looking at Nangong Ao's worried look, she asked as if there were some changes in the matter of the throne.
"The emperor has not ascended the throne for a day, and his heart has been worried for a day. Who can predict whether there will be changes the next day." Nangong Ao said without confidence.
"When I made you the crown prince, the throne was passed on to you, so you don't have to worry." Cao Yan comforted her.
After hearing this, Nangong Ao closed his eyes and remained silent. He tightened his hand and hugged Cao Yan into his arms. He buried his face in Cao Yan's neck, smelling the scent of roses on her body.
"Yan'er, I'm tired." He said in a hoarse and tired voice.
After hearing this, Cao Yan felt a surge of pity in her heart. She leaned into his arms and hugged him tightly, "Go to sleep!"
She hugged him and watched him fall asleep tiredly, her eyes were sore with pain.
Cao Yan didn't know what she liked about Nangong Ao, but she liked him so wholeheartedly.
Love is so hard to explain. If it could be explained clearly, it might not be love at all.
She loves him, loves this domineering and arrogant man, loves her so much that she is willing to do everything for him to relieve his worries.
Ever since Nangong Ao stayed at Cao Yan's place and Cao Yan knew that what he was most worried about was the imperial edict, she had been thinking of ways to relieve Nangong Ao's worries.
She ordered her eunuchs to fetch Nangong Ye, and she made Longjing tea herself and waited.
When Nangong Ye heard that the Crown Princess ordered someone to tell him, he thought Cao Yan was not feeling well, so he hurriedly followed her into the palace.
When he saw Cao Yan, wearing a red robe with a golden phoenix, sitting at the table making tea, he let out a sigh of relief.
"Yan'er!" He called softly.
Cao Yan looked at him and smiled, "Sit" and stretched out her hand to signal him to sit down.
She poured two bowls of tea and brought one to him, "Try it, this is this year's new tea."
Nangong Ye looked at the woman in front of him who was looking at him with a smile on her face. The woman he had loved deeply for a long, long time, looked at him with deep and gentle eyes. He felt warmth in his heart that he had never felt before, like a ray of golden light in the cold winter.
The sun shone into his heart.
He stretched out his hand to lift the lid of the bowl, and a scent of fragrance hit his nostrils. He looked at the green buds floating in the tea bowl. He took a sip and extended his thumb to praise, "Good tea!"
"Green in color, fragrant, sweet in taste, and beautiful in shape, this is Longjing in the Ming and Qing Dynasties." Cao Yanying opened and closed her lips and said.
After hearing this, Nangong Ye said, "There are very few Longjings in the Ming and Qing Dynasties!"
"Well, this year I only paid eight coins in total. The emperor kept two coins, the queen kept some. If you like my two coins, I will put them in a box for you to take away later." Cao Yan said with a smile.
Nangong Ye looked at Cao Yan, who was particularly enthusiastic about him today. He looked at her in disbelief, "Yan'er?"
"Third cousin." She called softly, raised her head and looked at him with a sweet smile.
Nangong Ye felt confused and looked at her confused, "Are you feeling better?"
She looked at the tea bowl in front of her with lowered eyebrows. The green leaves were floating in the water like flowers, slowly floating like duckweed in the deep sea, drifting around helplessly, just like her mood at this time.
She wanted to find someone to rely on but was nowhere to be found. In the end, she had to ask for help from the person she least wanted to ask for.
"Third cousin." She called softly.
After a while, she called him third cousin twice, calling him very solemnly, but after calling him, she seemed to hesitate and found it difficult to speak.
Nangong Ye stared at the woman in front of him for a moment, with a worried look in his eyes. She tried so hard to please him, and something good would definitely happen to her.
Cao Yan raised her head and looked at Nangong Ye with dark eyes. A deep pain flashed across her eyes. She opened her mouth and said, "Third cousin, I know you have a kind heart."
Listening to her words of flattery, Nangong Ye's heart sank. He couldn't imagine what kind of serious matter could make her put down her body like this.
Nangong Ye looked at her and smiled, but his eyes were filled with seriousness, "Am I so good in Yan'er's eyes?" he asked jokingly.
She smiled. She didn't understand his accusation. What he wanted to say was that knowing that he was so good, why did she refuse him to marry Nangong Ao in the first place? Even if he was good in every possible way, she still didn't like him, so
She rejected him.
"Third cousin, you have always been a perfect person in my eyes. You are handsome, kind-hearted, and affectionate." She counted his good qualities in detail.
Nangong Ye watched Cao Yan speak his words carefully. He felt happy and sad at the same time. He was happy that she thought of him so well in her heart, but sad that she still didn't like him despite being so good.
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If the person he loves doesn't like him, then what's the use of all his good things? Looking at Cao Yan, he said with a painful expression, "Yan'er, I'm so good, why don't you choose me?"
He endured it for a long time and finally asked this sensitive and embarrassing topic. He just wanted to know the reason why she gave up on him.
Cao Yan smiled after hearing this, looked at him with bright eyes, and said with a smile, "You are not him, you are not the person I like." She knew that what she said would hurt him, but what she said was just the truth.
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Nangong Ye frowned after hearing this, "Comparing me with him, what's the difference?" he asked.
Cao Yan shook her head, "You're not bad at anything, you're even better than Ao, but it's Ao I like." She told the truth, what she was thinking about was that you were good at everything, but she just didn't like you.
Silent, he looked at her without saying a word, not wanting to ask any more questions.
"You are kind-hearted and affectionate. He has a bad temper, is arbitrary, and is arrogant and domineering. But I just like him, his domineeringness, his flamboyant and arrogant look, and everything about him. I like him hopelessly.
It’s the point, Ye, what can I do?
This heart likes him so much that it beats for him every day." Cao Yan said.
Nangong Ye heard her heart bleed and almost couldn't breathe. She liked Ao so much that she couldn't help it. Even her beating heart existed for him.
"Ye, my biggest wish is to help Aoden ascend to the throne of God." She called his name affectionately.
The hand holding the teacup loosened its grip, and its long knuckles and clear veins burst out as he clenched it into a fist, and his anger boiled like boiling water in a pot.
"Ye, help Ao, help him ascend to the throne of God." She said her request with tears in her eyes. She knew that she was going too far, but she had no choice but to do so.
Her father was far away at the border and couldn't help. Apart from Nangong Ye, she really couldn't think of anyone else she could turn to.
Her words seemed to pull him into the abyss, into the abyss that he didn't want to face or touch.
She actually asked him to help Ao ascend to the throne. Although he and Ao were brothers, they were now enemies, enemies fighting for the throne, and emotional enemies. She asked him to help her own enemies. Did she consider it?
Have you thought about his mood and feelings? Have you ever thought about him and whether his heart will hurt?
With pain in his heart, he smiled bitterly and said, "Yan'er, I can't agree to your request." This was his first time to reject her indifferently, so he mustered up the courage and strengthened his soft heart towards her.
The heart that wanted to melt away ruthlessly rejected her request.
"Ye, if even you reject me, then who else can help me?" She looked at him and asked with a little despair.
The bitter taste spread in her mouth. She knew he couldn't refuse him, but she still wanted to say such a cruel request.
Silence, his cold heart just now, could not be cruel to her again. He could not refuse or agree, he could only deal with it in silence.
"Ye, will you help me?" There were intoxicating ripples in the black eyes that were as gentle as a pool of spring water, making his heart sink, sink, sink into her tenderness.
Then there will be no recovery.
"Yan'er!" The seven-foot man, a good man who bleeds and does not shed tears, choked with sobs and his voice was hoarse. The crystal liquid swirling in his eyes jumped out. He endured the shameful and fatal poison and said
, "If I were the one who ascended the throne of God, would you fall in love with me?"
The throne was so important to her, so he wanted to know if she would fall in love with him if he ascended the throne.
If she just likes people who ascend to the throne of God, then he can do it too.
After hearing this, she frowned and shook her head, "No." She said these two words decisively without any consideration or hesitation.
Her heart fell to the bottom. Even if he ascended to the throne of God, she would not like him.
"Ye, what I like is Ao, not the person who ascends the throne of God. You are not him. No matter you are the prince or the emperor, I don't like you. I regard you as a relative." Cao Yan also had a flash in his eyes.
Painful, she knew the pain in Nangong Ye's heart.
Treating him as a relative has defined the relationship between him and her, and drawn a boundary, and it is an insurmountable boundary.
"Yan'er, don't you think it's too cruel to treat me like this?" He looked at her and asked, with deep pain in his eyes.
"Ye, if I'm so direct, I might hurt you, but it's better than if I lied to you.
If you don't like it, you just don't like it, no matter how elegant you are, you don't like it." Tears were about to burst out, and she covered her eyes with a plain handkerchief, letting the tears soak into the plain handkerchief and smear on the plain handkerchief.
Chapter completed!