by Shangguan Ziyu.

I opened my eyes drowsily, my head was still dizzy. Just now, I seemed to have been plotted again. When I thought of this, I sat up suddenly, only to find that I was lying on my bed, with a table not far away.

There was a person sitting at the front, dressed in elegant white clothes, holding a book in his hand, with an extraordinary temperament. I rubbed my eyes and realized that it was Xia Chengkang, why was it him again?

"Are you awake?" Xia Chengkang seemed relieved when he saw that I woke up, but my nerves became tense.

"It turns out it's you." Every time I was in trouble, he always appeared suddenly. At this moment, I suddenly had an idea. Maybe all this conspiracy was his fault.

"Ah?" He looked at me inexplicably, and after being stunned for a moment, he burst into laughter: "You don't think it's me, do you?"

"It's very possible."

"Then why do I still leave you here? I took you away a long time ago. If you don't believe it, you can go next door and see. The people who protected you are still there, but then again, they really protected you.

"?" Hearing what he said, I felt guilty.

"what is going on?"

"Anyway, I saved you again. It's that simple. How do you want to thank me?"

"Well..." After thinking for a long time, I couldn't think of how to thank him. He is the prince now and needs nothing. What can I give him? "By the way, next time it's your birthday, I'll light candles for you.

How about I send you a happy birthday song by the way?"

"Happy birthday song?"

"Anyway, it just sounds good." Anyway, the intention is the most important thing. I don't think this kid will dislike it. I just don't know where I will be on his birthday next time. Basically, this is a blank check.

"Okay, it's settled."

"By the way, last time you said you would help me find out the whereabouts of those bad guys, did you find out?"

Xia Chengkang's eyes suddenly flickered, his eyebrows furrowed slightly, and then he relaxed and said: "I'm still checking, there will be news. In short, I won't let anything happen to you." He suddenly became very gentle, which made me a little bit nervous.

Not adaptable, no matter how handsome he is now, in my eyes, he will always be a child.

"What's the matter with you these days? Why don't you even see your mother?"

"What the emperor asked me to investigate was about the kidnappers."

"So he asked you to investigate." I didn't expect that Xia Chengyin asked him to do this. In fact, it was not an urgent matter. Why didn't Xia Chengyin let him see the Queen Mother?

"I will check it even if the emperor doesn't tell me, but..." He glanced at me uneasily, then closed his mouth as if he remembered something, and the rest of his sentence was gone.

"Just what?" I eagerly wanted to know the reason.

"Nothing, there is something I think it is necessary to let you know." He was very smart and immediately changed the topic to another topic that aroused my curiosity.

"What?"

"Your Majesty, he is ready to marry Wen Wanying, and he will tell the world soon." Xia Chengkang may have lowered his voice because he was afraid of irritating me, but those words still had a devastating impact on me.

So fast, I had only been separated from him for only two days, and he actually... So what is the old vow of eternal love? He kept saying that he only loves me and only marries me, and he waited for five years. What is the situation now?

I also know that his oath is too demanding for an emperor, but I can't help you.

He should at least give me an explanation. I don’t belong to this world, and I will leave one day. I also hope that he can live a good life in this world, but how can he still love me so much at this time?

He, when he missed him so much, made such a decision without telling me?

I finally understood what it felt like for the sky above my head to collapse in an instant. I reluctantly wanted to laugh, but I no longer had the strength to move my mouth. I just said numbly: "Is it true?"

"The news came from the Emperor. There should be no falsehood. Are you okay?"

"No...it's okay."

"Nowadays, the disaster in central China is becoming more and more serious, the public sentiment is unstable, and the ministers of the imperial court are constantly putting pressure, and the emperor has no choice but to do so. I think you should know the reason for this."

I nodded, yes, for the sake of the world, how could I not know.

"The Emperor is on his way to the palace. He is not far from here. If you want to see him, I can take you there." Xia Chengkang looked at me worriedly. I shook my head blankly. Now that I see him, what should I say?

What?

"Leave me alone for a while."

"I am rushing to see the emperor now, do you really not want to come with me?"

"No need." In fact, my heart is full of contradictions. On the one hand, I really want to see Chengyin, and there are some things that I want to ask personally. But on the other hand, I am so afraid of seeing him, because when I see him, maybe

I am a complete loser, and I never allow failure. Even if we break up, I should be the one to speak. I don't want to lose, and I can't lose. This is my dignity.

After Xia Chengkang left, I kept sitting at the table, my head was empty, there was nothing, and my heart was inexplicably irritable.

Suddenly, a bag of mung bean cakes was placed in front of me. When I looked up, it was Xing Munan. This guy always disappeared when I had something to do. I didn’t know why I wanted him to come. At this time, I was just looking for a place.

He is the best person to vent to.

"What are you doing? Do you know that someone just tried to do harm to me, and where did you go?"

"Buy mung bean cake." He answered matter-of-factly, and I was very angry.

"If I eat mung bean cake for one day, I won't die. If those bad guys capture me, my life will be in danger at any time." I glared at him fiercely. At this time, Yu Zhao and Ming Ye came in a hurry, as if they had just woken up.

"Ziyu, are you... okay...?" Seeing that Xing Munan and I were in the wrong posture, Yu Zhao's voice also weakened: "It's good that you're okay." He and Ming Ye exchanged words.

With a wink, he left quickly.

I continued to stare at Xing Munan. His face was as pale as paper, lifeless, and without any expression.

"Are you angry?" he asked.

"Yeah, I'm angry. Why are you not there every time I'm in danger? Why do I have to listen to you every time even though I'm the master? Why do you never tell me the information you know? Why..." I

Before I finished venting, Xing Munan suddenly pulled me up and walked out the door. "What do you want to do?" His expression was serious, not like a joke.

"Those people are really despicable. They actually use colorless and odorless Huan Wu San. Next time I encounter them, I will tickle them to death with itching powder." Yu Zhaozheng was standing in the corridor and kept talking. He had no idea at all.

When he saw us coming out, Ming Ye pulled him, and he showed a surprised expression and said, "Wow, you guys are going to elope?" As soon as he finished speaking, Ming Ye hit him hard on the head.

"What's wrong?" Ming Ye looked a little uneasy.

I wanted to break away from Xing Munan, but he held me tightly. "What on earth are you going to do?"

"Go to see the emperor." Xing Munan said these words clearly with no expression on his face, which surprised me greatly.

"What?" Ming Ye and Yu Zhao were shocked. Even I didn't understand what Xing Munan's intention was.

I finally used all my strength to shake him off: "I don't want to see him."

Xing Munan frowned slightly and held his left arm with his right hand.

Ming Ye asked: "Are you injured?"

"No." Xing Munan immediately turned to me and said, "You obviously want to see the emperor. If you have anything to say, just ask him in person. Do you think the answer will come to you here?" He looked straight at me,

The dark eyes pierced my heart. He had seen through me and I had nowhere to hide. "It's still too late now. When the emperor returns to Yancheng and you go to Weixi Kingdom, it won't be that easy to see him. You'd better

Think clearly."

"I..." I hesitated. Yes, at this moment, I really want to see Xia Chengyin and ask him what all this is about. However, I am the one who wants to leave, and I am the one who wants to give up. Why should I continue?

Why can't I let go of everything after so much trouble? I'm very annoyed with myself. Where has the decisive Shangguan Ziyu gone? Why have I become so timid and cowardly now?

Xing Munan didn't say much, and pulled me straight out, followed by Yu Zhao and Ming Ye.

This time, I did not ride in a carriage, but sat on Xing Munan's horse. His horse was dark and handsome, and had the same unruly character as him. He ran around me all the way. There was still a drizzle of rain falling on the ground.

His face felt a little cold, just like the warmth in his heart.

"When you want to do something, just do it, otherwise, you will regret it for the rest of your life." Xing Munan's voice came from behind, and his words were like those of an experienced person, but there was a sense of helplessness.

"So you did everything you wanted to do?"

"I did the best I could." If it were not an illusion, he was full of pain when he said this.

It was already late at night when we arrived at our destination. Xing Munan took a special token and entered the mansion where Xia Chengyin lived.

Through the lights in the courtyard, I suddenly discovered that Xing Munan's left arm was bleeding faintly. "What's wrong with you?" I asked in surprise, looking up at him, his face was extremely pale.

"It's okay." The rain became heavier again, and the sound of rain almost covered up his voice.

"Are you really okay?" I felt a little sorry.

He didn't say anything, he just led me towards Xia Chengyin's room.

Xia Chengyin was full of joy for my arrival, but I didn't know how to face him. He walked up to me and gently wiped the rain from my forehead. "Are you okay today? I know how worried I am about you.

?”

"You already know what happened today?" His well-informed level far exceeded my imagination.

"I have received the flying pigeon letter from my sixth brother. I hope you are fine." His tenderness for a moment confused me. But the next second, he immediately stopped this trace of tenderness and turned to Xing Munan.

Said: "Where were you when Ziyu was in trouble today? Have you forgotten what I told you?"

"I know that I am guilty, please forgive me." Xing Munan bowed his head and knelt. I couldn't see his expression, but his helplessness deeply stimulated me.

"I asked him to go out and buy things for me, so don't blame him."

"Stay back first." Xia Chengyin did not punish Xing Munan in any way. I don't think he is a person who does not distinguish between rewards and punishments.

When Xing Munan left, he took a deep look at me. I thought about his injury and my random temper with him today, and I felt a little sorry.

Xia Chengyin's eyes kept falling on Xing Munan, and the slight frown made me uneasy. He was always so difficult to understand, and his thoughts were no longer as simple as before.

"I really didn't expect you to come." Xia Chengyin gave me a warm hug, but the chill on his body still did not dissipate. He ordered someone to make a medicinal soup to prevent colds, which reminded me of Xing Munan's injury.

"By the way, let's do something for Xing Munan, he seems to be injured." I meant well, but Xia Chengyin ignored it, which made me feel strange. "And Yu Zhao and Ming Ye, they must have been soaked by the rain.

"

"They will take care of themselves, you don't have to worry. By the way, have you figured it out and decided to follow me back to Yancheng?"

"I... want to ask you something."

"What's the matter?"

"Have you...really decided to marry Wen Wanying?" I finally asked. The process of waiting for the answer was so difficult.

"Who did you listen to?" He looked very angry: "I didn't issue an imperial edict, who is talking nonsense?"

"It doesn't matter who said it. It doesn't matter whether there is an imperial edict or not. I just want to know your thoughts and your decision."

"How many times have I said that my wife is only you, Shangguan Ziyu, why don't you always believe me?" When he said this, the stone in my heart fell to the ground. At least I could feel his love for me.

My feelings haven't changed, and of course, I still haven't surpassed him in the world. But this is the best answer I've gotten, and it's worth the trouble.

I laughed, from the bottom of my heart, because I suddenly felt a sense of relief, and I even laughed at my so-called dignity before.

If I am willing to let go at this moment, everything between us will be beautiful. When he loves me the most, when I love him the most, isn't it a good thing to end at the most beautiful point?

"Actually, Wen Wanying is quite good. She is well-educated and has an extraordinary appearance. She was born to be a queen. If it were me, even if I became the queen, I would be opposed by everyone in the world." I finally understood this path, what should I do?

Why are you leaving?

"What are you talking about?" Xia Chengyin looked at me puzzled.

"I know how important this world is to you. I just don't want you to be in trouble. I used to be very willful and only thought about myself. I never considered you or anyone else. But this country needs a

Good Emperor, I will only drag you down. I hope that when you make any decisions in the future, you will not think of me again or hesitate because of me. Being a burden to you will only make me sad. Do you understand? If you really

If you care about me, just promise me to be a wise monarch and not let the people down, so that I won't be disappointed."

I don’t say this because I’m noble, I just think it’s the right thing to do. Leave, stay, leave... I’m tired of making such decisions over and over again, and it’s time for me to end it. I know that in the future,

Even if I stay, my character will not be at peace. It will only bring him more trouble, and our relationship will only slowly change in various things that I cannot bear. After all,

We have different outlooks on life and values, and it is unrealistic to last long. Instead of getting tired of each other and living that kind of life in the future, it is better to let go as soon as possible. If there is a chance, I can see him a few more times before going home. At that time, we will miss each other's good times and we will definitely

It is a happy thing, and it is also our best choice.

"Why, I feel like you are leaving me?"

"Am I not here?" His hand held mine tightly, and the warmth came from his palm, and I told myself not to miss him anymore.

"Ziyu, you should know that without you by my side, none of this means anything."

"Then let me ask you, are you willing to leave your country behind, go to a completely different place with me, and start over?" He looked at me in confusion, and I smiled and stroked his face: "I know you

No, because Chiguo needs you." For a moment, I wished he would nod and say yes, but... forget it, I shouldn't have any unrealistic fantasies anymore. "If you really love me,

I will always be by your side and live in your heart." I pressed against his chest and listened to his heartbeat.

"You still don't want to go back to Yancheng with me?"

"To be honest, I really want to go see Shang Fang, but the most important thing now is to find Yi Yang."

"I can send someone to bring her."

"You're here again."

"I don't want you to be too tired."

"I'm not as tired as you. Okay, anyway, we agreed, you let me go find Yi Yang." I started to act coquettishly. Maybe, the time with him is really limited, so I just want to be happy.

.

"You are always so stubborn, but you seem to be different today."

"What's different?"

"I'm more sensible." He touched my head. That night, we talked a lot together, because he was going to leave early the next morning, and he almost didn't want to close his eyes and go to sleep.

"Chengyin, promise me, whether I am by your side or not, you will live a good and happy life, manage this country with your heart, do what you think is right, and think of me when you have time. Don't blame me.

, I hope we can have the best memories for each other. One day, I will definitely tell you everything." At this moment, Cheng Yin was already in a daze, he just made a slight "hmm" and looked at him like

Sleeping like a baby, I couldn't help laughing.

"i_love_you." I kissed his forehead gently.

Touching the small lock in my neck, I understood that the only one who can open it in this life is Xia Chengyin, and that position in my heart will always be reserved for him. Maybe when I return home in the future, I will fall in love, or even get married and have children.
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