Chapter 137(1/2)
, Is it true? I just thought of all his abnormal guesses before, so I just asked that, and I just wanted to test it. But when I saw him like this, I immediately understood it.
"You know." Qin Su's lips squirmed, using a positive tone.
"Yes... I understand." Situ Shen buried Junrong deeper, but the hand that pressed on her lower abdomen could not suppress her tremor.
I don’t know if it’s psychologically induced, even through the fabric, he can feel the scar, the traces that cannot be destroyed.
"I fainted twice during the emergency room, ectopic pregnancy, heavy bleeding in the abdominal cavity, surgery on the operating table, one side of the fallopian tube removed..." He was in a low and silence, and the words and sentences were worn in between the teeth for a long time before they came out.
The Adam's apple moved, and he closed the black eyes that were scattering, "Qin Su, I'm sorry."
Situ Shen knew how pale and powerless these three words were, but he still wanted to say them, and he could only say them and had to say them.
What a deep regret that was his!
His handsome face was buried on his knees, and Qin Su couldn't see his expression. With every word he said, her upper body, which was sitting upright, became stiffer and stiffer, and astringent surged from the depths of her heart, and her nose and eyes were sour and hot.
The water light filled the eyes instantly.
That child, that child...
She quickly passed by her eyes outside the car window. When tears were about to fall, she raised her hand and wiped it off with her fingertips, trying hard to calm herself down.
"Situ Shen." She called him softly and said softly, "Don't do this."
Seeing that he was not moving, Qin Su lowered his face and reached out to touch his hand that was pressing him against his lower abdomen and tried to move it away.
Situ Shen paused for a few seconds before slowly getting up from her body. In the handsome face that was lifted, there was only a shame.
"You don't have to do this, really, no one wants it." She breathed gently and said slowly as she looked at his black eyes.
"I don't know, I don't even know!" Situ Shen frowned, his hands tightly clenched into fists, and every emotion in his handsome face was emitting his annoyance, his regret, and his guilt.
"I didn't tell you, it's not your business." Qin Su bent his lips, without any reproach in his eyes.
"Qin Su, I'm sorry." Situ Shen's throat was hoarse and he unconsciously said this sentence again.
These three words are actually not like other ordinary words. Whenever we quarrel or do something wrong, we rarely speak them in a straight voice, just like "I love you". The moment we say it will get stuck in our throat, because it requires a lot of solemnity and sincerity.
But at this moment, all Situ Shen could say is this.
"I don't need your apology." Qin Su closed her eyes, and there were no tears that surged up, but her eyes still hurt. Her hands unconsciously pressed on her lower abdomen, "This child, it shouldn't have come."
When she opened her eyes, she couldn't help but feel twisted when she saw the pain embedded in his dark eyes.
Qin Su knew that he had misunderstood his words and quickly explained, "Situ Shen, I didn't say that on purpose, I didn't mean to blame you."
"Maybe it has no fate with us. Even if it doesn't have heavy bleeding and is finally diagnosed, it can't be left behind. I said it shouldn't come. That's what it means, you don't have to feel too guilty."
"Besides, it's really hard to be pregnant for ten months, and it's really scary when I was about to give birth. When I was having a boat, the doctor said that I had a natural birth. I had a pain in the delivery room for several hours. Later, I couldn't do it and I was sent to the operating room for a caesarean section. Although I was anesthetized at that time, I still felt it when my stomach was cut open. It was empty and scary. It felt so uncomfortable." It seemed that I really recalled the situation at that time, and the tips of her eyebrows were slightly frowned.
Situ Shen's Adam's apple kept scrolling up and down, unable to make a sound.
He didn't know anything about Sheng Zhouzhou when she heard her, as if he saw a woman who was doing prenatal checkup alone in the obstetrics and gynecology department. When she gave birth, he didn't even want to make a phone call to care.
Everyone reminded him that he had done something to her before, and that he owed her more than that.
Situ Shen's hands that were closed into a fist were numb and stiff, and the painful pain that hit his heart was as if several knives were cutting his skin at the same time.
Qin Su paused and looked at him sideways and continued, "And whether we stayed or not is something that needs to be considered carefully. Now it is an ectopic pregnancy. It has chosen not to survive in this world and made a choice for me. It is good. Situ Shen, this is really good."
There was no blame or complaint, her tone was gentle, and every word was carefully considered.
It was as if it was reasoning, and it was as if it was comforting him.
If it was sad or angry or blamed, Situ Shen would feel better, but she was so calm and dull. She was obviously the one who was hurt, but she had to tell him that it was okay.
"You told me that you had aborted, you don't know how much I was..." He pulled his thin lips, thinking that when he heard her say it was aborted that day, all the blue and gray in his black eyes were exposed.
"No matter whether the child is still there or not, it won't change anything." Qin Su shook his head, interrupted him softly, and concluded at the same time, "You can know this, but you don't have to have any emotions for it anymore, and you don't need to feel much guilt about me because of this. It's over, so don't keep it in your heart, and we won't mention it again in the future."
Situ Shen was a little excited, his low and mute voice was about torn apart, "Why not! If I knew it was... I wouldn't agree to the divorce!"
When he learned with joy that she was pregnant and ran to find her, he was like a person who had just entered the clouds. Before he could really get used to it, he was pulled down and fell heavily. Then he had no other thoughts, and he just felt that she was so determined, so he quickly completed the divorce procedures under such an emotion.
"But, I really want to divorce you." After hearing this, she just said that.
"No matter whether it is there or not?" Situ Shen was stunned, and then his black eyes were dim.
Without perfunctory, Qin Su thought about it very seriously and nodded, "...yes."
She has always thought a lot and imagined a lot. If the child is still there, would it be possible between them?
But no, even without that child, they will eventually get to this point. The passing of that child is only a point. She wants to end this marriage not just because of this. It has been accumulated over time. What is important is not what happened, but his attitude and his performance, which has polished her love little by little.
He taught her how to love, and also taught her how to not love and let go.
The word "yes" she spit out was light but firm.
It gently hit his face and penetrated into his skin and heart, as if he was in the twelfth lunar month, so cold.
How deeply did he hurt her?
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In midsummer, the sun is strong.
The silver-gray car was parked in the yard, and the doors of the driver's seat and the co-pilot's seat were opened at the same time, and Yi Jiangnan and Qin Su walked down.
I finally made a decision today and set up a kindergarten with a very good location. I just waited for renovation and reopened. Then I would hire some teachers and managers with strong abilities. But these were also thanks to Yi Jiangnan's help.
After entering the door, Qin Su took out the previously squeezed drink from the refrigerator, poured out two glasses, walked back to the living room and handed one of them over, "Drink a glass of juice."
"Thank you." Yi Jiangnan reached out to take it with a gentle smile.
Although it is north, it will still be hot in midsummer. The two of them ran for almost a day and were tired and hot. Now they sat on the sofa to rest. The air conditioner in the room was blowing, and then drinking cold juice, which quickly cooled down a lot.
"This kindergarten has a good geographical location. At that time, you will strengthen the environment and teaching staff. When you are waiting to recruit children, you can set the threshold higher." Yi Jiangnan looked at the information on the coffee table and pushed his eyes on his nose and said.
"Well, this is exactly what I think." Qin Su nodded with a smile when he heard this.
"It's pretty good." Yi Jiangnan also smiled.
"Thank you so much. I want to build this kindergarten. You have helped me a lot." Qin Su said sincerely.
In fact, she only had this idea at that time, but he found a lot of relevant information, providing a lot of information from beginning to end, and often accompanied her to read kindergarten one by one, and helped her think of everything she could think of and couldn't think of.
"I need to be so polite to me, I am very willing." Yi Jiangnan smiled softer, and there was a feeling that gradually appeared in his eyes.
Yi Jiangnan's name is good, and it may be because of the Southerners. Every time he smiles, he will always unconsciously remind people of the gentle and gentle young man, and he is just to describe him.
"Jiangnan." After a pause, Qin Su put down the half-drinked juice cup in his hand, looked at him with a few serious expressions, and spoke seriously, "I think we may need to talk."
"I know what you want to talk to me." Yi Jiangnan also sat up straight.
"I..." Qin Su was stunned, then frowned and organized the language, thinking about how to say it naturally.
"Qin Su, you need to say nothing, I understand what you want to say to me." Yi Jiangnan waved his hand, interrupted her and signaled that she didn't need to say it.
Like her, she put down the juice cup, her voice was warm and she was filled with her warmth. "Now, you probably know all my thoughts, and I don't want to hide them. If you can't accept me, I won't force you or make things difficult for you. I just hope you will give me a chance. If I make you too burdened, I will try my best to restrain myself. I have nothing else to ask for, only one thing, I hope you don't alienate me."
"Jiangnan, you are like this... I don't know what to say." After hearing this, Qin Su could only swallow all his words back into his stomach and sighed softly.
He imagined everything she wanted to say, and at the same time he blocked it back, and it was still that tone and attitude, which made her feel so sensible.
"Then don't say anything." Yi Jiangnan's smile was as gentle as the spring breeze.
Qin Su lowered his head, and indeed he could only remain silent.
"I have something to do in my company, so I have to go back quickly." After sitting for a while, Yi Jiangnan got up from the sofa.
"Ah, I still want to keep you for a meal." Seeing this, Qin Su hurriedly stood up.
"I originally wanted to do it," Yi Jiangnan smiled and explained, "There is an important signing contract. The other boss is more superstitious and chooses a special day."
"Today is the 16th day of the lunar calendar, and it is indeed a good day." Qin Su said with a smile after hearing this.
"You also pay attention to this aspect?" Yi Jiangnan couldn't help asking.
"No, it's just..." Qin Su couldn't help but hang down as he spoke, and light flowed out of his eyes.
"Just what?" Seeing that she didn't say the whole thing, Yi Jiangnan continued to ask.
It's just...it's his birthday.
Every year, she may not pay attention to her own, but she will pay attention to this day many days in advance, which seems to have become a habit. In the morning, when she accidentally flipped the calendar, she suddenly realized this.
Qin Su smiled and shook his head, "Nothing."
"I have to go back to the company to prepare in advance, so I will leave first." Yi Jiangnan didn't ask any more questions, and said as he took the briefcase he had brought.
"Okay." Qin Su nodded, and as soon as he moved his feet, he heard him say, "Don't send me away, it's too hot outside."
She had no choice but to respond with a smile to watch him leave.
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There is a private road outside the Qin house. In addition to street lights, trees are planted in the fences surrounded by them. When the warm wind blows, there will be a wood fragrance.
When the black Cayenne was slowly parked at the door of the house, Situ Shen, who was sitting in the driver's seat, saw the silver-gray gls3500 parked inside, and then saw Yi Jiangnan walking out of the house.
After the car was extinguished, Situ Shen walked down from the driver's seat and walked to the front of the car and leaned there.
When Yi Jiangnan drove the car out of the yard, he happened to run into him head-on. The speed of the car was slightly reduced, and the window was slowly lowered. The two of them slowly gelled between the distance between the two of them.
To be continued...