Last year's day was undoubtedly the most unforgettable for Chu Haoxuan, because at that time Ye Lei whispered birthday wishes to her and received an unforgettable gift. But this day this year, until the New Year's bell,

I didn't hear the most nostalgic sound despite the knocking sound.

He couldn't tell exactly when he recovered his memory. I just felt that it came back naturally, so bits and pieces of the past appeared in Chu Haoxuan's mind one by one like a revolving lantern.

Obviously this day last year was extremely lively, but this year it was deserted. Without Ye Lei, everything would have lost all meaning to Chu Haoxuan.

Maybe some people think that one person's influence is really that great? In the past, Chu Haoxuan might have only dismissed it, but now he feels that it is a kind of torture. Losing that person seems to last like years, even every minute, every day.

Every second is a torture.

The same room that once made him feel so cozy has now become cold and cold. It's not that he has never lived alone, but he never imagined that one day a person's world would be so unbearable.

Since his memory has become clearer little by little, Chu Haoxuan has become clearer and clearer about what he wants and what he should do. Now he can't see Ye Lei, even though it is full of torment, he can't help but endure it

He had the urge to see the other person immediately. Even if he could know any news about the person far away just by opening his mouth, he still suppressed his inner desire and did not do so. It was enough to know that the other person was still in this world.

, nothing made him more gratified than this news, and at the same time, this was also the main reason why he was able to suppress his inner desire to see the other party.

As long as a person is alive, there is still a chance for everything.

And he still has a lot to do now. Only in this way can he and her be together without any scruples. Only in this way, maybe he can get her forgiveness. Of course, even if the possibility is only one in a thousand or ten thousand

First, Chu Haoxuan is willing to do anything. At this moment, and for the rest of his life, except Ye Lei, he can't find anything worthy of his nostalgia and goal, so there is nothing he can't do or can't do

What about the sacrifice?

He endured every minute of the cry from the depths of his soul, every second of wanting to see the other person. Sometimes even Chu Haoxuan had to admire himself. When had he ever been so patient and suppressed himself? Just

Just because of that person, I just want to get a chance to be together again. Even if the success of this opportunity is not great, so what? At least it's not without any hope, right?

After recovering his memory, Chu Haoxuan would always think of the past and the beginning of the two of them. They were so happy at that time, but he was blinded by hatred, even though he didn't know Ye Lei's true identity.

At that time, and when he was surrounded by the other person's all love, he couldn't feel it. In fact, for the two of them at the beginning, Chu Haoxuan only felt that it was a good thing to have Ye Lei by his side for the rest of his life, that's all.

That's all, it can't be said that it really has to be her.

When did you realize that it really had to be her?

Before that, on that rainy night, Ye Lei's expression full of despair and pain always impacted Chu Haoxuan's soul.

That day was the most unforgettable in Chu Haoxuan's life. It could also be said to be a nightmare, a cruel and bloody nightmare. He had deliberately ignored this memory until he recovered his memory, and he deliberately downplayed it.

The nightmare replayed clearly in his mind again and again, becoming clearer each time and hurting his heart more and more each time.

That day was the first time he knew that Ye Lei was Ye Qin's daughter. He couldn't describe how he felt. He only knew that his mind was dominated by overwhelming anger. The first time he learned the news, he rushed home for the first time.

One thing is not a question, but an accusation. Yes, it is an accusation, and it is still one-sided. Especially when Ye Lei did not refute, he knew that it was acquiescence, but if he could be more rational at that time

If you do, you will know that it was Ye Lei's reaction out of guilt, so the other party would look in disbelief when she said those cruel words and did those cruel things.

Why wasn't it discovered then?

Every time he thought about this problem, Chu Haoxuan would feel extremely annoyed and self-blame. Thinking that if he had only been a little more rational, all this might not have happened, and he would have wanted to kill himself.

What was Ye Lei's mood at that time when she was passively enduring her own mental and physical torture? Maybe she couldn't find anything else except despair and pain? Every time she thinks of this, Chu

Hao Xuan will feel sour in his heart.

The next few months were probably a nightmare that Ye Lei would never forget, right? Sometimes Chu Haoxuan felt that after the two met again, it would be best for Ye Lei to continue to lose her memory.

Yes, even if she forgot about herself at that time, at least she wouldn't think of that nightmare again, right?

After endless torture and humiliation, what Ye Lei waited for was not redemption, but loss. After they lost their first child, they lost their second child again. Chu Haoxuan felt that the child was just a byproduct.

It is optional, but Ye Lei is different. From the time when Ye Lei was pregnant with her first child, Chu Haoxuan knew that Ye Lei liked children very much, and he could even find that Ye Lei's eyes were full of love many times.

He stroked his belly. At that time, Chu Haoxuan would not admit that he would feel very uncomfortable with the unborn child who had attracted all Ye Lei's attention and pampering. He always felt that something that belonged to him was being taken away.

It's okay, even if it's just for a moment.

Also, in the later period, Chu Haoxuan was not really unaware of what Qin Ruoxi did to Ye Lei. Even if he hated her at that time, he would not ignore the things in Ye Lei that did not belong to him.

The scars left. Looking back now, what kind of mood did you tolerate Qin Ruoxi's harm to Ye Lei? It was just because the other party was that person's daughter, so I wanted to take revenge on her.

Does it include harm caused to her by others?

In the lightless and empty room, the figure standing in front of the window is still tall and straight. The only thing that is clear is the two shining traces in the darkness. Although the visibility is not very high, it still stands out in the darkness.

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‘Lei’er——’

'Will you forgive me?'

'I don't ask for your forgiveness, I just ask you not to push me away again, okay?'

'I will only love you from now on. It doesn't matter if you don't love me. I just hope you can let me stay by your side.'

When the heartache can no longer stop, it is numbness. After being numb for a long time, you may forget it. However, for Chu Haoxuan, some things will never be forgotten by him. Even if they are forgotten, they will be deeply imprinted on him.
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