Being born into an officialdom, one should be able to move forward without revealing his true form, and should be as steady as a mountain in the face of anything at all times. It is said that this is the ultimate expression of being an official.

On the contrary, I often watch the leaders on TV, and they never seem to smile. Even if they want to laugh, they have to laugh.

It depends on the situation. Their clothes, expressions, and every gesture have been carefully designed. Maybe people like me will find them tired like that, but it’s not the case - you won’t feel tired if you get used to it, not to mention

Behind that tiredness is what every man longs for: power.

I can't do that. In the past few days, since Xia Lan and I went to Kuchan Temple together, a kind of sadness suddenly aroused in my heart. While I lamented my misfortune, I also felt a little sorry for myself.

The matter of having a baby... all of this made my mind already in a mess, so the things in my nature showed up again: being unruly, impulsive like myself when I was young, etc.

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I realized my problem and immediately became vigilant. Because I knew that such a flaw would very likely cause fatal harm to me. After all, I was already a member of the officialdom, and my rank was not low in our Jiangnan Province.

Being cautious in your words and deeds is applicable and necessary to yourself at all times.

Secretary Luo is right. Even if I want to go abroad now, it is impossible. It only took half a month to get the passport. At that time, the National Enrollment Work Conference was held. And we are the organizer of this conference.

, as the head of the unit, it was inappropriate for me to leave at this time. But I immediately thought: This is good, at least I can let Secretary Luo know my urgency to find the child.

But I am very sorry about this, because I know very well that if I go to that foreign town every night, then the possibility of me seeing my child will be reduced by one point. If Shi Yanni only takes her child,

If she plays there, then the possibility is almost zero. Unless she is now settling there with her children.

But is that possible?

The more I think about it, the more slim it becomes. Just imagine, if someone sees me somewhere, how likely is it that I belong to that place and settle there? It’s almost impossible, right?

So, what difference does it make if I go now or in half a month? It even seems to make no difference whether I go or not. No, this is my only chance now, I have to go and see, maybe I can

It's hard to say what clues can be found from that place.

Austria, that small town called Hallstatt...how could Shi Yanni appear in such a place? North America is so far away from that place, why would she go there?

When I thought about it, I suddenly felt strange in my heart. I no longer wanted to stay here to rest, so I hurriedly ran to the office.

I quickly turned on the computer and started searching for information about this small town called Hallstatt.

When I saw the introduction and pictures of this town on my computer, I suddenly became excited! It turns out that this town is rated by many people as the most beautiful town in the world!

What does this mean? This means that there is a high possibility that Shi Yanni will take her children to settle there!

Now, she has divorced Lin Yi and is wandering abroad alone with her children. She is a woman, and even the strongest woman will feel world-weary because of this, so she needs to find a place with beautiful scenery, quiet and pleasant place to live.

, and then live together with the children. Such a situation is entirely possible.

Hallstatt is known as the most beautiful town in the world. There are only about 2,000 people in the whole town. The town is centered on the church steeple, and the houses on the lakeside are close to each other. Although the town is small, it is

There are two churches: the Protestant church built almost in the lake, and the Baroque Catholic church built in the mountain opposite it. The religious decorative paintings in the two churches are all by well-known Danubian painters in the German-speaking area.

A masterpiece. Standing next to the church and looking down, the quiet green lake reflects the green mountains on both sides. The mountains on the other side only have towering old trees, but this side of the town is full of life. Every hllsttt citizen is a

Artists, the doors of every house are open, because inside is the exhibition hall where they display and sell their homemade handicrafts. Exquisite hand-knitted wire decorations, ethnic dolls, small and exquisite stoneware jewelry, simple household products,

The wood carvings make people stop and forget to leave.

The only access in the town is the mottled path left in ancient times, with traces of history remaining along the way...

A place like this seems to be really suitable for Shi Yanni to live in for a long time now, because it is like a paradise and has a nostalgic atmosphere.

And it is said that this place was the summer resort of the Austrian royal family in the past. The famous Emperor Franz Joseph and Princess Sissi often traveled here. And some princesses who could not get pregnant also came here to take salt water baths to increase pregnancy.

Opportunity.

Such a place will definitely be considered by Shi Yanni as the most suitable place for her status. She is sterile, maybe she is trying to find an opportunity in this place to change Lin Yi's mind?

Thinking of this, I immediately smiled bitterly: She is so old and has already gone through menopause, how could she still have such an opportunity? I immediately felt that the analysis I just made was too unbelievable.

But the more I think about it, the more likely I feel that she will settle there. Of course, this may just be a hope of mine.[

However, this is always a perfect opportunity for me? As long as there is a one in ten thousand chance for me to find a child, I am willing to try. Therefore, the expectation in my heart is getting stronger and stronger at this moment, and

I couldn't help but look forward to the next meeting as soon as possible.

I didn't go to Tong Yao to apply for a passport for me. I've been ashamed to see her after what happened last time, and I'm still afraid to see her now.

To this day, I don’t know why I had so much courage that day to violate her in that place and under such circumstances. Maybe it’s because I have always been reluctant to let go of her in my heart.

In fact, I still know it myself, that is, in my heart, the only person I really like now is her. Maybe in my heart now, she is the only woman who can be my wife. Yes, that's true,

Because I have assumed to myself more than once: If one day I can really get married to her, I will be willing to change everything for her.

Unfortunately, the person in her heart is not me.

Therefore, I feel even more sad now, because I really feel the cruelty of the world. I really hope to pursue true love, but my true love is so far away from me, and it is still so unattainable.

And there are some things that I don't want, such as decadence and sentimentality, but they come to me time and time again, making it impossible for me to avoid them, and I can only make myself decadent again and again.

I know that maybe there is an abyss not far ahead of me, but now I simply can't control myself from continuing to run towards it.

There is only sighing and helplessness.

I called the new office director of my unit, Meng Zhiren, and asked her to help me get a passport for Austria as soon as possible.

Although this is a private matter, for a top leader like me, it is impossible to distinguish between official matters and private matters. And I also wanted to take the opportunity to examine her work ability.

She didn't talk much, but she had a good attitude. After I told her, she agreed repeatedly, and then asked me for relevant documents. Finally, she said to me: "Director Feng, you must go to the public security agency to sign in person at the last moment.

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Of course I know this program.

After she left, I found that there was still more than an hour before I got off work. "Pure text first release" Now I regret arranging the dinner tonight. In fact, in the final analysis, it was the result of my impulse at the time.

I locked the door of the office, then lay down on the sofa to rest. The sex with Ruan Jie at noon consumed too much of my energy, and now I feel even more exhausted.

i dreamed

In my dream, a boy about seven or eight years old appeared. He was so dark and thin that he did not look like a yellow race. He was standing on the roof of a temple, surrounded by strong figures.

The mighty foreign soldiers, with cold faces under their cold helmets, stood on guard around the roof of the temple, as if to prevent anyone from intruding.

The child's face was very dark and thin, but I seemed to be able to find some shadows of Chen Yuan on his face. The child was wearing a white robe, and with a pious face, he was performing some kind of religious ceremony on the top of the temple.

A small ivory tower was placed on the ground, and some tributes were placed in front of the small ivory tower, and then he knelt down and kowtowed.

Then, he took out a page that looked like a scripture. After he put the page that looked like a scripture on the ground, he pricked his finger with a thin needle, and then I saw in my dream

The blood on his fingers fell drop by drop on the scripture-like thing.

And at that moment, I found that the soldiers around him disappeared out of thin air. But I suddenly appeared in front of him.

However, he seemed unable to see me, because I clearly felt that he regarded me as air. He stood up, raised his head, and stretched out his tiny arms toward the sky. He was questioning God: "

It’s been several years, so many times, why can’t I ascend?!”

I was suddenly stunned and couldn't help but ask him: "You, what are you doing?"

He saw me, because he was looking sideways at me, "Who are you? What are you doing here?" [

I wasn't sure whether he was my son or not, so I said, "My name is Feng Xiao. Have you heard of my name?"

He looked at me with strange eyes, "Why are you called Feng Xiao? I am Feng Xiao!"

In the dream, I suddenly understood at this moment: He turned out to be myself when I was a child! The me today and the me when I was a child are actually in the same time and space at the same time!

At this moment, an extremely strange feeling suddenly came to my heart. I immediately walked towards him, then squatted down and looked at her carefully: Is this me when I was a child? How could I be like that at that time?

Is such that?

And at this moment, the soldiers who suddenly disappeared in front suddenly appeared not far in front of us, and they were shooting at us! I could clearly see the impact of the bullets fired from their muzzles.

A trajectory like a meteor flying by.

I was shocked and woke up from my dream.

That child...how could he be myself when I was a child? He is clearly my son! In my dream, he was so eager for me to save him. And I told myself in the dream:

He is your flesh and blood, and you and your child are one!

At this moment, I felt so uncomfortable in my heart, because I understood my deep subconscious worries: Can I save my child?

Save? Why did I think of this word? Why wasn’t it “with” or another word?

I slept for almost an hour. There was already a knock on the door, and the voice of the old director calling me. I guess the gunfire that came from my dream just now was the knock on the door that came to me in my dream.

the result of.

I immediately went to open the office door.

The old director came in, "Why did you lock the door? Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

I nodded, "Yeah. I feel a little uncomfortable. Maybe it's because I've been too tired recently. Also, I drank too much some time ago."

The old director looked at me with concern, "Then you should drink less tonight. I noticed that you didn't look well during lunch. My driver has something urgent at home today, so I'll take your car and go to dinner with you."

I smiled at him, "Then let's go. But I have to drink tonight anyway, because I'm happy and it's necessary."

He said: "That's true."

In fact, I was a little worried just now. After all, I did something like that with Ruan Jie at noon today. And just now the old director suddenly knocked on the door of my office, which made me feel a little frightened.

But judging from the situation at this time, my worries seem to be somewhat unnecessary. I know that if there is any trouble in that matter, the old director will definitely come to remind me or criticize me. Because of the relationship between us now
To be continued...