Today is two o'clock in the morning on May 20, 2013. I was lying on the bed toss and turns and couldn't sleep. There were two reasons. One was that I was so upset; the other was that I was both sick and had a very serious cold. Haha!

I don’t know if it was the child who was infected with me or I accidentally transmitted it to my child. In short, it was a very uncomfortable night. I was lonely and a little helpless! Accompanied by the one-year-old and eight-month-old child, I felt heartbreaking cough...

Get up and write a short autobiography. Let readers and authors who read my book understand the hardships of being an author, of course you can just smile!

I have never been a good child since I was a child. Not to mention naughty, that is light. What’s more serious is that I actually joined the underworld when I was seventeen or eighteen years old.

After spending seven or eight years in the sword light, I looked back and saw nothing. The only thing I left was my parents’ disappointment and my head full of white hair!

I grew up reading various martial arts novels since I was a child. I remember very clearly that the first novel I read was "The Legend of the Condor Heroes". After reading it, I practiced the Six-Meridian Divine Sword for three months against the wall. I wonder if it has anything to do with these martial arts novels when I was in the underworld later?

From then on, I realized that a good novel may very likely change a person's life trajectory. But I entered a dead end. The role model I learned was not a hero, but a second male protagonist who did evil! The first protagonist must be a good person, and I am that bad person!

I don’t know if God is taking good care of me, but fortunately, I have grown up and become sensible. Finally, I know that I stopped and turned around. This made my parents very happy, and even my head of white hair seemed to be a few black.

In the following school, I found a job. Apart from work, I turned my only hobby into reality, that is, writing a book.

In 2006, I finally officially released my first book at Qidian Chinese. Perhaps because I read a lot of books. At that time, Qidian's books were not as many as it is now. My slag books were miraculously signed and put on sale, and the situation was pretty good in the following months.

In 2007, I got married as I wished. How old is my wife? How can I say that, I take good care of me in life. I can work with peace of mind during the day and write quietly at night. Life at that time was very sweet and warm!

In 2008, because of my wife's persistence, I finally ended Qidian's creation. The helpless eunuch in the book was lost. I won't say much about the specific title and pseudonym. Now I read it very embarrassing!

But as a husband, I really ignored my wife's feelings. This situation continued until 2010. At that time, we had a gap and were already discussing the divorce.

At the end of 2010, a sudden little life disrupted my wife’s divorce plan. Even if it was a divorce, we insisted on letting this little life come to this world. In my opinion, no one has the right to deprive the child of his life. I really can’t do it before he was born.

Listening to the strong heartbeat of the child in his wife's belly, that feeling was really good! For a moment, I seemed to understand that this is the meaning of life. I have never felt responsibility before. I feel that there is a heavy responsibility on my shoulders.

My wife is in poor health, and the child is saved after half a year of pregnancy. That half year was a happy and busy year. Because my parents were not around, all the burden was on me. But I felt extremely happy. Everything was because of the children. At that time, I did not ignore my wife's feelings! I took care of them wholeheartedly.

Later, because I was unable to take care of both sides, I sent my wife to my hometown to take care of her elderly parents. I continued to work hard and saved enough money for my children. That period was really hard.

Because I was thousands of miles apart, my wife and I haven't met for four months.

In the blink of an eye, it was August 8, 2011. A loud cry broke the tranquility of the family. The child was finally born. At the moment of looking at the child, at the moment when the child looked at me with his eyes, I burst into tears.

I can’t tell the feeling in my heart. When I was in the underworld, I once expected that I would not have children, but now I have a son.

Thanks to my wife for all this, she gave everything for her children. Because of work, I accompanied my wife and children for a week and hurried back to the unit. This separation lasted for half a year.

The past six months have changed the trajectory of my life, and my wife and I finally broke down and could not be saved! The month after the child was broken, we got a divorce certificate.

Because of guilt for my wife, it was very difficult for a woman to take care of her children after divorce, so I asked me to raise the child! She had no objection. I did not ask my wife to pay the child support. I decided to raise the child alone.

But I definitely couldn't do my original job anymore. I could only quit my job and go back to my hometown to take care of my children. My parents' life in my hometown can help me a lot.

But after all, I am old, especially my mother. The fat boy who can't hold me at all, has sprained his ankle recently, which is even more troublesome.

As a father, I don’t know if I’m qualified, but I think I’m working hard. I want to create a future for my children.

At the end of 2012, I typed the keyboard again and started my creative journey. But it was not at the starting point. I changed my vest at that time. Unfortunately, even signing a contract was very difficult. I don’t know if I was behind and it was not suitable for the current online literature.

Another reason may be that I read less and had insufficient background! Later, I finally chose a small website. Haha! I started my dream journey helplessly, not only for me, but also for my children!

I worked very hard in those few months, and in three months, I actually completed a million-word work. Perhaps because of the rapid update, my grades were surprisingly good, and even better than my original grades.

But everything has its drawbacks, and the pseudonym of the small website can never be recognized by the online literature industry. For the sake of the poor child, I finally decided to return to the starting point again in May 2013, this month, to continue my dream!

If there were no children, I don’t think I would have gone this way! Anyway, I would have no turning back arrows when I was drawn. Everything depends on God’s will!

The idea is ridiculous? In my opinion, it is just getting a business license in Qidian Chinese. Without this license, you will never be anything. This is probably the so-called failure and no human rights.

The starting point may be the starting point for me to carry my dreams. It may also be the burial of my grave. Everything is unknown, and I am willing to bet on everything for my son.

Because in the long run, only the starting point can fulfill my dream. Although the chance is slim, at least he still has the chance to win the lottery.

I think my parents should have thought about me in this way, otherwise I would never have withdrawn from the Tao and turned around.

When I was writing this sentence, I looked at my son on the bed. He is one year and nine months old this year. At this time, I had an obsession in my heart: Child, Dad must write a sky for you!

You no longer have a mother, but you still have a father. Your father will definitely persevere!!

The above is the writing process of ballet. Maybe some people are sneering! Maybe they are also saying that they are playing emotional cards. I think there is indeed such considerations! After all, a person's power is still very small! You can't hold on when you need help.

In short, people have different opinions. The only thing they can say is that this story definitely restores the real me. There is no exaggeration or lies in it. This is me: drunk ballet.

It's late at night, and there are more than 10,000 words waiting for me tomorrow. I still have to take my child to the hospital. I can only write this one! I want to hang a photo of my child, but I don't know if I can hang it up, so I'll try it!

Today is Wednesday, May 21, 2013.

Yesterday, I went to the hospital for examination due to difficulty breathing and was diagnosed with severe asthma. I was so tired, but I still tried hard to complete the third update. I felt so tired at night, so I fell asleep on the bed.

I got up earlier than Zhou Pai, slept later than the lady, ate worse than the pig, ate more than the donkey, worked more than the donkey, spent more time outside than at home, had darker eyes than pandas, had messier hair than chicken coops, had better attitude than grandson, had greater responsibilities than Xiao Hu, looked better than anyone else, and earned less than migrant workers!

The surface is beautiful, but the heart is confused;

The face is not old, but the heart is already vicissitudes;
Chapter completed!