Seeing that they were somewhat similar, I treated that Nie Chu with utmost benevolence and justice. Although this guy provoked me many times and I said I would beat him every time, I never took action.

But I didn't expect that this person would go even further and want to chase me?

During those two years, I would receive some messy things every day, including but not limited to bracelets, earrings, necklaces, rings, and sachets.

At first I thought this man was just a dreamer, but then I found out one time that he went on a secret blind date behind my back.

Men eat from the bowl and look at the pot. This is indeed true.

I hit him in anger. It was the first time I hit him. When he entered the hospital, doubts suddenly arose in my mind, why did I hit him?

I asked myself that I didn't think that way about him. If he just went to get married, what did it have to do with me?

Is it because I feel betrayed?

still...

I was very confused and wanted to find someone to ask, but I didn’t know who to ask. My sister?

The sister I haven’t seen for several years now?

During that time, I kept thinking about this issue, wondering if I had developed a crush on that guy?

As soon as this idea came to my mind, I immediately denied it. How could this be possible?

Just human beings.

Yes, he is just a human being. Even if he is a man with all-encompassing knowledge, an astonishing talent, a hexagram that can communicate with the gods, and the ability to exhaust all the subtleties of Taoism, isn't he still bound to die?

Divination can predict the fate of a country for hundreds or even thousands of years, but it cannot predict one's own life span.

Life, old age, illness and death are all determined by God.

No one has ever been able to escape, not even him.

He... can't do it either.

It would be nice if he could escape.

I have thought about this countless times, and every time I think about it, I will stare at the sky, whether it is a clear sky during the day or a bright moon and stars at night.

It seemed that as long as my eyes flickered for a moment, I could see his face from the sky.

There are those who are rich and handsome when they are young, and there are those who are old and old.

But no matter which face he has, whether he is young or old, his eyes are always that kind of deep and distant, with an indifference that penetrates everything.

This is true even when you are about to die.

He doesn't seem to be afraid of death.

I remember asking him at that time, "Where in the world is there a magic medicine that can make people live forever?"

I have seen this kind of thing in books, and in my heart he knows everything, so I think this problem is not a problem. As long as he tells me a place, I will get it for him no matter where it is.

But he told me that there is no such thing in the world.

No?

I was stunned.

"Of course not. If there were, it would be in the Qin Dynasty now. In the past, the First Emperor and Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty both longed for the method of immortality, but they searched all over the world and found nothing. It can be seen that there is absolutely no elixir that can make people immortal in the world."

"Then maybe they didn't find it."

"If the emperor of a country and the strength of the entire country have not found one, then what is the difference between having one and not having one?"

When he said this, he suddenly laughed and told me: "Don't read the miscellaneous notes in the story books anymore, there are many untrue things in them."

I didn't answer, I just remembered that I seemed to be standing beside his bed, feeling a huge panic rising in my heart.

No?

I know that mortals will die, and he will die too, but I have never panicked before. I just thought that it would be good if I could find the elixir of immortality before he died, but now he said he didn't.

At that time, I thought that he must not know where the elixir was, and he didn't want to lose face, so he used these words to frustrate me.

Yes, that must be the case.

It can only be like this.

After that, I read those story books every day and searched for the so-called elixir of immortality according to the records above, but in the end I found nothing.

While searching, I also learned about his death.

I don't believe it, or I don't want to believe it. I think... there seems to be no point in looking for it anymore?

But I didn't give up, as if I was trying to get angry with him, or wanted to prove that his statement was wrong.

It could be decades or hundreds of years. I have searched every corner and still haven't found it.

He is right.

There really is no such thing.

He is always right and seems to have never made a mistake, but why can't he make a mistake in this matter?

But even if he made a mistake, it won't help if I find it now. The elixir of life can't bring people back to life, at least it's not recorded in the books.

What about the medicine that brings the dead back to life?

Probably not.

In the past many years, I have never heard of anyone coming back to life, and even if they did, they would have faked their own death.

Much, much later, I saw on an object called a television that the dead were resurrected simply because they were suspended from death. This is also the reason why corpses are kept in morgue for seven days, just to prevent the occurrence of suspended animation.

So is it useful to think about this now?

So how do I feel about the man named Nie?

He is just a mortal, different from me. I am a demon and I still have a long life. Why would I like him?

How can you like him?

But there is a voice in my heart saying, maybe I should give it a try and try what it feels like to like someone.

Maybe I've already tried it.

I didn't know much about him back then, I just felt comfortable when I was with that person, and now I think it was probably because I liked him.

After he was discharged from the hospital, I would always visit him, but I didn’t know what to say to him, so I would ask him some questions. I may or may not know the answer to this question.

But no matter what it was, he would answer it for me very seriously. I just listened quietly, and suddenly, it seemed as if I had returned to that time and saw him again.

At that time, I began to be confused again. Do I like him, or do I like him because he looks like him?

If it's the latter, wouldn't it be very unfair to him? It's also very unfair to him.

So every time he mentioned that I liked him, I would angrily dismiss it. It's obviously you who likes me!

Because I haven't figured out the answer to that question yet, so I can't admit it yet.

take it easy.

I'll figure it out one day.

But when he and I became a couple, I still didn't figure it out. I couldn't help but tell him, "I probably just regard you as a substitute."

After I said this, I felt a lot more relaxed for some reason.

"I know." That's what he said.

"Then...are you not angry?"

Frankly speaking, I was puzzled because there was no anger on his face. If it were me, I would definitely be very angry and want to beat him again.

"I'm angry, but what can I do if I'm angry? I can't beat you." He smiled and said: "And the chance of two people liking each other in this world is very small, so small that it can be ignored. It's hard for me too."

Decide if I like you, or if I simply feel that since I have to get married and live my life, I can live with whoever I want.

So we may not be pure when it comes to liking this thing, so who do I have the right to be angry about?"

"Is that so?"

I was a little dazed at the time, but my heart was very complicated, with various emotions intertwined, but there was only no anger in it. As he said, we may not be pure when it comes to liking this matter, so we have no right to be angry.

"take it easy."

Nie Xi said, "I hope one day we can all become pure, just like them."

I know who they are he is talking about, a very pure human being, and a cat who is not pure at all...a demon?

Is it a demon?

I am not sure.

Is it more likely to be a human, or maybe a cat person?

But the love between them is pure.

And we are not pure.

I suddenly envied them.
To be continued...