In the past few months since I came out, I have been walking around by myself all day long, meeting complete strangers in a completely unfamiliar environment, which makes my heart feel very peaceful. I like this feeling very much, and I can do anything.

Don't think about it, don't care about anything, there is only me in my world. After a few months, I feel that I have almost forgotten you, and I feel that you are not that important in my life, but just

At this time, tell me that you are divorced. Li Xiaoxiao looked at Fang Zhiqiang and said.

I was already desperate for you, but when you told me that you were divorced, the love and desire for you in my heart suddenly burned again. I couldn't help myself anymore, especially when I knew that you and Wang Yaxin

You must be very sad after the divorce. I really want to go back to you, take care of you and comfort you. I was almost ready to drive back to your house to find you, but in the end, I controlled myself.

Self. I know that your heart is not with me. I know that I should not be with you anymore. I should not give you any chance or give myself any thoughts. I don’t want to be hurt anymore. For me

To me, you are a dangerous man and I should not be close to you. I forced myself to cut off all contact with you. I changed my mobile phone number and location and started my trip again. I want to forget

you.

After coming out of the county town of Qumalai, I walked very slowly. I saw and had fun wherever I went. No matter which small town I passed, I would stay for a few days to see the life of the locals.

Look at the surrounding scenery. I will take pictures to take pictures of the scenery here.

People here, I will also set up a drawing board to draw, draw in the deserted ice and snow, draw aimlessly, to draw a featureless snow mountain or just a prayer flag with a few ribbons. One painting

It’s just a whole day, I think it’s very good, I’m very

Like. Or maybe, I will stay in a dilapidated guest house for a few days. I will write a diary and essay by myself in the guest house. I can write a few hundred words for a whole day, and after I finish writing, I will appear.

, I don’t even know what I wrote,

Then I tore it up again. I like this kind of life very much, this aimless life. I live in my own life. I don’t have to think about other people’s feelings or love or not. I just live my own life.

, I only have myself in my life. Li Xiaoxiao continued.

However, at this time, you called me again, you found me again, and you once again shattered all my persistence and efforts. You know, I will never forget you in my heart.

I can't say no to you, and I can't withstand any of your temptations. Your phone call once again made all my months of hard work go to waste. I said I don't want to

I asked you to find me. You said how hard and tired you were looking for me. Do you know that when I heard you say that you drove around Hoh Xil for four days and three nights to find me, you had no food, drink, or accommodation?

When I was in the car, I couldn't help crying. I'm so useless. Even if you treat me a little bit, I think it's a great gift. You asked me to tell you that I

Where, I can't say no to you, I can't be cruel to you, I can't be as heartless as you are to me. But I also know that I can't be with you, I can't be with you

.I found comfort for myself, I found a reason for myself, and then I made an agreement with you about this encounter in Lhasa. I hope that God will

Come and make a choice, decide whether I choose to be with you or completely forget you and leave you, because I can no longer make a choice myself, I can't choose, I can't say no to you, I can only rely on God to deal with it.

You said no, if God really lets us meet, then this is God's will, God will let us meet again, that's what I think in my heart.

However, you did not follow the rules of the game. You blocked me here. You didn't wait for me to enter Lhasa, and there was no agreement to meet. Moreover, you let me see you again. What I fear most is to meet you.

You, as soon as I fall in love with you, all my feelings will be poured into you, and my heart will only be

With you, I will be unable to extricate myself from you again, just like I am now. Qiangzi, tell me, what should I do? Tell me, are we together now that we have met, or have we not met? You

Tell me, what should I do? Li Xiaoxiao looked at Fang Zhiqiang and said, tears flowing out again as he spoke.

Every word Li Xiaoxiao said stung Fang Zhiqiang's heart. Fang Zhiqiang never thought that along the way, every conversation he had with Li Xiaoxiao and every word he said to Li Xiaoxiao would make Li Xiaoxiao feel like this.

Tangled in such pain

, He always thought that Li Xiaoxiao was willful, and that Li Xiaoxiao was too childish and making fun of others by playing such a child's game. Only now did he realize how helpless and painful Li Xiaoxiao was.

This girl, this gentle, kind and innocent girl, was supposed to be her own daughter-in-law at home. She was supposed to stay at home and be loved by thousands of people, but now she was tortured like this. And all this, whether Fang Zhiqiang accepted it or not

admit,

He has to bear the main responsibility. He said before that the person who is loved is always wrong. He is the person who is loved by Li Xiaoxiao. He must bear the responsibility for all the injuries that Li Xiaoxiao suffered because of love.

, even he himself thinks so.

However, he had no way to answer the questions asked by Li Xiaoxiao, and he could not answer them. He only had one idea now, which was to take Li Xiaoxiao back to Shanghai. The rest were trivial matters, and everything else was a matter of later events.

This is the most important thing.

Hey, hey, can you give me some face? It's midnight, and you're sitting here crying to me. The waiter thinks I did something to you. If the police are called, wouldn't he make a big fool of himself? Hurry up.

Wipe your tears. We can cry all we want when we get back to the hotel. I will never disturb you, okay? Fang Zhiqiang said with a smile, then took the tissue on the table and handed it to Li Xiaoxiao.

Do you think I'm a crybaby? Li Xiaoxiao was amused by Fang Zhiqiang's words, rolled her eyes at Fang Zhiqiang, then took the tissue handed over by Fang Zhiqiang and began to wipe her tears, but her mood was obviously much better than before.

You don’t want to eat? Fang Zhiqiang asked when he saw that Li Xiaoxiao hadn’t eaten anything.
Chapter completed!